[Comprehensive] Obsessive-compulsive disorder

Thought he was dead, he opened his eyes again. Although his vision was blurred, he really felt alive.

At that time, she thought that she had gained a new life, and she didn't have to think about dying in pain like she did in her previous life.However, after a period of time, when she could see things and hear words clearly, she knew that she could not escape her fate.

This is not a "family", but an "orphanage".That inexplicable thing opened the illustrated book of "Japanese" after she heard a sufficient number of words, which greatly shortened the time for her to master the language, but also tore the truth before her eyes prematurely.

Writing "orphanage" and reading "hell" is not a charity, but a den of legality.

I don't know if it was because of the experience in her previous life, except that she was surprised at the beginning, and then immediately devoted herself to self-help actions.It's just that the mood of "self-help" was quickly transferred to others.

The children in the orphanage, who didn't have names at the beginning, were called instead by numbers, and she was number 3.

"Number 3 is really cute, well-behaved, and easy to take care of."

"The clothes are rarely soiled, which saves the effort of cleaning."

The words at the beginning were just like this, and there seemed to be no problem, but soon, "that kind of words" appeared.

"It's obvious that it's in such a small place, but it can grow so well."

"You will be very beautiful when you grow up, right? Take better care of No. 3."

"That's right, it will definitely be scrambled for by those big shots."

She hid behind the door, unable to stop her body trembling, but after hearing the next sentence, she calmed down strangely.

"Compared to No. 3, the quality of other children in the same batch is too poor!"

The quality of other children is too poor?That is, is she the best?

So... as long as she was targeted, would the other children be safer?

She started to be active, well-behaved, obedient, sensible, smart, cute...any word used to describe a "good boy" was attached to her by those people without hesitation.They even broke the rules and got her exposed to the big shots early on.

——She wrote down the faces of all the people she saw, engraved them firmly in her mind, never daring to forget them.

The children in the orphanage are turned into dirt by her excellence, and only the basic share can be enjoyed, and they will not be taken care of.They looked at her with envious eyes, but without the slightest negative emotion, they just tried hard to get closer to her and become an excellent person.

At that time, she was surrounded by guilt every day, and her excellence became a role model. The closer they were to her, the more likely they would be treated as goods. She could only widen the gap again and again, so they would be even more disdainful by those people One look - a vicious circle.

As the only person who knew the truth and tried to resist, if she hadn't been reborn, it would be really unbearable.

Because of this, when she destroyed her appearance according to the plan, and showed a certain state of insanity due to falling from the building, she felt sincerely disappointed and disgusted by the adults in the orphanage. peace of mind and joy.

On the one hand, it was because of the successful implementation of the plan, and on the other hand, it was because she was "broken".

There are many flaws in a perfect work, no matter how small, as long as I think of the perfection before, I will be completely disappointed, and I will no longer be able to arouse the slightest interest. The excessive sense of gap makes the adults unacceptable, and they give up on her. .

Yeah, she's "broken" and becomes ugly, withdrawn, and useless - and that's fine, so the other kids don't look up to her as a role model anymore.It was wonderful that she was ugly—the notion was deeply embedded in her mind at that moment.And because of the previous guilt, it turned into an excessive inferiority complex that she didn't even notice.

She successfully escaped from the orphanage, then wandered to Shinjuku, and finally stopped after seeing the ungovernance of the custom street.

The day Ah Shun caught her was the second day she came to Fengsu Street and the fifth day she escaped from the orphanage.For the first three days, she relied on drinking fountains in public places and sampled food in supermarkets, or went to the back door of convenience stores to pick up some off-shelf food that was about to expire.She didn't dare to stay in public places for too long, a child who was alone would inevitably arouse suspicion, so she couldn't open all the illustrated books.

There are no large shopping malls in Custom Street that can provide food samples, and there are no drinking fountains on the bustling streets. As for convenience stores, they can't keep open in places full of izakayas, bars, Thai baths, and clubs. Naturally, she can't find food.

As for picking up trash?This kind of place has strict territory division, she is an outsider, and she is still a child, so she can't grab it.

Her original plan was to go to Uncle Li's shop, use some tricks to get him to take him in temporarily, and then help him do some work and just stay. Although the tricks are not very good, it is still a way out.Unexpectedly, she was going to "touch porcelain" in Uncle Li's shop, when Ah Shun stopped her.Her first reaction was that someone saw through her thoughts and wanted to teach her a lesson, so she ran away with guilt, especially when Ah Shun was still chasing her closely, she felt even more guilty.But she was a child after all, and she was hungry, so she was caught after running for two streets.

It wasn't until she was dragged into the late-night cafeteria that she was convinced that Ah Shun wanted to help her, and she fainted after feeling relaxed.

When she woke up, her mouth was sweet and her stomach was very warm. She opened her eyes and looked at the group of people around her. They all had concerns and worries on their faces. For some reason, they cried when their noses were sour. out.

The boss with a vertical scar on his eye sighed and went into the back kitchen.Aaron picked her up and put her on the chair, and Xiao Shoushou took out a handkerchief to wipe her tears: "Hey, don't cry, you're all crying like a little cat!"

As soon as Mayumi entered the store, she was startled when she heard her crying, and after seeing clearly that it was a child, she waved her hand again: "It's not sad to eat when you're sad! The boss will make her something to eat, and I'll pay the bill! The boss came out from the back kitchen, put a bowl of red bean and rice cake soup in front of her, and joked: "That's just right, I'm worried that she has no money to pay the bill."

The sweet hot steam smoked her eyes, and she wanted to cry again, but Mayumi stuffed the spoon into her hand and urged: "Eat quickly, it's hot, the boss's craftsmanship is amazing." This bowl of red bean and rice cake soup aroused greediness, and she turned her head and said to the boss, "Give me a bowl too." She wanted to laugh immediately, and her nose gasped, and a very ugly snot bubble appeared.

Ah Shun laughed out loud, and patted the table unbearably: "Oh, why is this kid so funny!"

She was a little embarrassed and shrank her neck. Xiao Shou Shousang hurriedly moved the handkerchief to her nose, helped her wipe off the snot, and said, "How can you laugh at a little girl? She is even embarrassed!" As he spoke, he pushed the Tamagoyaki in front of him, "Come on, share my Tamagoyaki with you, don't worry about Ah Shun's words, you are very cute! I haven't seen such a cute little girl like you for a long time!"

When Xiao Shou Shousang moved like this, Aaron who was sitting next to him also pushed his red sausage over: "Eat some meat."

Red bean and rice cake soup, tamagoyaki, red sausage, and the oden that Mayumi later called, and the pudding that Ah Shun called as an apology, she remembered these tastes clearly.And the warmth in that store, she will never forget it in her life.

Later, she learned how to make up with Ah Shun, slowly saved money, and finally collected all the illustrations of Japanese currency, so she had to leave Fengsu Street to find a way to get rid of the orphanage.She went to ask the boss, bought the ingredients herself, borrowed the venue, and invited everyone she knew during that time to have a meal together in the late-night cafeteria.It is said to be rice, but it is actually dumplings with various fillings, the boiled kind, not Japanese fried dumplings.

A group of people were crying because they wanted to say goodbye to a little girl. It was very sincere and funny.

At that time, she already called herself "Kazama Granose", but she refused to admit that her dumpling soup was terribly salty because of the tears mixed in it.

Kazama opened her eyes, the alarm clock at the bedside showed that it was already nine o'clock in the morning, and the room was still very dark, so she was able to have a good dream.It seems that the curtains changed last time are very good at blocking light, she thought so, lifted the quilt and got out of bed.

There was still a little soreness between the legs, and the bones in the whole body were too lazy to die, but fortunately, it was much more refreshing after taking a bath.When she was brushing her teeth, she was still wondering why a person who usually seemed so gentle would be so tough on that kind of thing.

After washing up, Kazama walked down the stairs while wiping his hair.There was a warm aroma in the air, she sniffed, sure it was the familiar smell of pasta, and her mood improved.Putting his hands behind his back, Kazama walked happily into the kitchen, and then hugged the man standing in front of the pot, hitting his forehead on his back, separated by a layer of cashmere sweater, it didn't hurt at all.

The man's breath got into her nose, it was still so reassuring, Kazama's expression couldn't help but calm down.This beige cashmere sweater was also chosen by her, and it really matched his brown hair very softly.

"Honey, good morning~" Kazama greeted the man happily, "Did you eat dumplings this morning?"

"You said you wanted to eat last night." The man turned off the fire and took out a colander from the cupboard, "But I'm really not good at watching the heat, although I didn't cook a pot of dumpling-filled noodle soup like last time, but did you Ripeness is not guaranteed.”

"Obviously I can fight well with dead flames, why can't I control the fire?" Kazama puffed up his cheeks, then slightly loosened the hands around the man, turned his head to one side, and watched the man turn each other Fished out the chubby dumplings and sniffed the taste again: "Well, it should be fine, anyway, if it's not cooked, I'll take care of it all for you, and I'll make another bowl."

"Okay." The man agreed with a good temper, picked up the plate and said with a smile: "If you don't let go of your hand, I can't leave."

"Because you missed one thing and didn't do it." Kazama said confidently, the man thought about it and laughed again.He held the plate with one hand, and held Kazama's side face with the other hand, bowed his head and kissed it, as soft as a snowflake falling on his lips: "Good morning."

Satisfied, Kazama let go of his hand, and went to get the bowls and chopsticks and the small saucer with vinegar by himself, and followed the man towards the dining table.It's a brand new day, and it really is the rest day with him, which makes her relax the most.