"Unbearable to Copy" by Wuxin Mage

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Yue Qiluo opened her eyes, she was lying on a moving train.

She didn't want to wake up, thinking that she could still see Zhang Xianzong with her eyes closed.However, even with his eyes closed, his consciousness was irreversibly awakened.

The voices in her ears became more and more real. Apart from the rumble of the train, she also vaguely heard the cool and crisp sound of cups colliding.A smell of coffee penetrated her nostrils. Someone came over and sat beside her, touched her forehead, and said softly, "Did you have a nightmare?"

Yue Qiluo turned her head to avoid his hand.She knew it was Tang Shanhai without opening her eyes.

Tang Shanhai wiped her sweat with a handkerchief, she turned her head to the other side, and heard him laughing: "I'm obviously awake, I'm still pretending to be asleep."

Yue Qiluo opened her eyes sullenly, praying for the first time that she would not wake up from sleep.

When I woke up, it was already 1941.The past has been left behind, and the fate of her life has been wiped out in her dreams.She obviously just slept for a long time, but at this moment she was too tired to open her eyes.

Tang Shanhai didn't notice her abnormality, went to the window and opened it, a gust of spring breeze blew in, he said: "Get up, we're almost there."

Yue Qiluo straightened up: "Where are we?"

"Tianjin," he turned to pick up his coffee and looked at her, "Qiluo, are you sleepy? You left Beiping last night and arrived at Tianjin Station today."

"But we're not in Shanghai...?"

Tang Shanhai smiled: "I have already resigned, and the military command has also reported my disappearance. I am free, and I can go anywhere."

Yue Qiluo was stunned for a long time before recalling the details of that year.The wind blowing into the box carried the smell of green grass. It was the spring of 1941, the first spring after Tang Shanhai's death.But in the dream, everything was overthrown again, Yue Qiluo rolled over and got out of bed, her right leg was in good condition, she was still wearing the magnetic blue thin silk cheongsam, the satin on the shoulder was smooth and intact, without any gun marks.

She flicked her bangs soberly in the spring breeze, and said slowly: "I didn't expect you would really leave Shanghai with me."

Tang Shanhai took a sip of coffee and nodded calmly: "En."

"What about your home country?" Yue Qiluo stared at him, "You don't want your beliefs and pursuits?"

"No more," Tang Shanhai smiled, "I have fulfilled my last duty. From now on, I will only live for myself."

Yue Qiluo couldn't help feeling sour in his heart, if Tang Shanhai had figured it out sooner, how could he have ended up like this!Immediately after she thought of Xu Bicheng, her heart felt like a fishbone, and she asked shyly, "Then your lover, don't you want it too?"

"Qi Luo, what are you talking about?" Tang Shanhai looked at her in surprise, "Aren't you right in front of me?"

It was only then that Yue Qiluo saw that he was wearing a ring on his left middle finger, which was different from his wedding ring with Xu Bicheng, but a simple silver ring.She stretched out her hand, only to see that she was also wearing a silver ring on her middle finger.It is a sign of engagement.

Yue Qiluo trembled suddenly, she had never really figured out what Tang Shanhai was thinking.In the past, she only knew that Tang Shanhai loved Xu Bicheng deeply, even if she secretly communicated with others, he was willing to go through fire and water for her.For Xu Bicheng's sake, Tang Shanhai got serious with her, got angry, and even shot and wounded her.Over the years, the bone-piercing pain every rainy day reminded her of all the past.At midnight, she dreamed that she even hated him.But in the end, it turned out...it was just a misunderstanding.

Seeing her in a daze, Tang Shanhai came over and touched her forehead again: "You seemed to have a nightmare last night, talking in your sleep all the time, and sweating all over your body." He wiped the cold sweat off her face with a handkerchief, "Drink some coffee?"

"No." Yue Qiluo hadn't drunk it yet, and there was already a bitter taste in her mouth, and she frowned in disgust.She doesn't like coffee much.

Yue Qiluo lowered her head and touched her ring again, a shy smile appeared on her face, but the corners of her mouth curled down, which meant she was about to cry.She really felt that she had had enough, Yun Qi spread all the good things in front of her, and crushed them alive again.

She didn't think about it anymore, as soon as this thought came out, it became a prairie fire, returning to the original point day by day, she couldn't go on.The train is still rumbling, if you jump off by yourself, this illusion will be completely torn apart.Even if she really died, it didn't matter, the years of 2000 were wasted, and she had no idea how to go about the future.However, she turned her head and glanced at Tang Shanhai, and the sadness that filled her heart suddenly disappeared.

She knew that if she died, Zhang Xianzong would be very sad.

Yue Qiluo sniffed and twirled the engagement ring on her hand.After wearing it for a long time, a thin red mark appeared on the finger.Tang Shanhai died in such a hurry that she didn't even have a few words with him.She can't die because no one will remember these things anymore.The debts of life after life are engraved in her soul, and she has to go out alive and tell him all these things one by one.

She glanced at Tang Shanhai, and suddenly grabbed his left hand.He saw a shallow mark on his ring finger, which was left by the wedding ring he wore for a long time, and suddenly he drank the nameless vinegar and scratched it hard with his nails.Tang Shanhai was caught off guard, yelled in pain, withdrew his hand and smiled wryly, "Qi Luo, what's wrong?"

"It's said that the ring finger connects with the heart, but I want to see if you still have someone on your mind." Yue Qiluo was still puzzled, and stared at him ferociously.Tang Shanhai's two shots were too painful, she couldn't forget it.

"I won't worry about others." Tang Shanhai smiled helplessly, he never knew before that Yue Qiluo would have the side of a little girl.

"Okay, that's it." Seeing that Yue Qiluo still looked resentful, she took off the silver ring on her middle finger and put it on her ring finger, which happened to cover the ring mark, "Ring finger connected to heart, how about this?"

Yue Qiluo was upset, and pouted her lips and said: "You and her wedding ring is fire oil diamond, and mine is a broken silver ring. Don't be ashamed to treat one more than another."

Tang Shanhai laughed, Yue Qiluo really looked like a jealous little girl at this moment, a look he had never seen before.He rubbed her forehead hair and said, "When we arrive in Tianjin, I'll buy you a diamond ring."

When the sun rose to seven or eight o'clock, the train arrived at the station.They traveled lightly, with only one suitcase in total.Yue Qiluo is familiar with Tianjin.However, 30 years have passed, and now it has changed. Only Qishilin is still standing in the German Concession.Tang Shanhai kept his word and took her to the department store as soon as he got off the train.

It was still wartime, and there were not many people in the department store, and even if there were, they were all leisurely ladies.The boss who bought jewelry was dozing off on the counter with nothing to do. When he heard that someone wanted to buy a diamond ring, he immediately lifted his spirits and brought out the backlog to offer the treasure.Yue Qiluo glanced at it from a distance, only feeling dazzled, so she went to the side to look at the clothes.

Times have changed and so have the styles of clothes.The last time Zhang Xianzong took her to buy clothes was in the early years of the Republic of China. The clothes in the tailor shop still had a fresh look. The sleeves of the cheongsam could reach to the elbow, and her chin hurt because of the high collar.She walked around the store, liking each item and disliking each item.Zhang Xianzong followed behind, and asked the adjutant to wrap up every piece of clothing she had seen, and carefully offered it to her.

She was nestled in a rabbit fur muff at that time, with a cold face and a cold heart, thinking that Zhang Xianzong was really a fool.

Yue Qiluo thought in a daze, and took down a cheongsam from the shelf, it was colorful silk, red and white.She compared it to the mirror, just enough to reveal two lotus root-like arms, and the material was also good, making her complexion fair.Tang Shanhai came over to pick out a ring box for her, seeing her holding up a cheongsam for comparison, he smiled and said, "Try it if you like it."

Yue Qiluo turned her head and saw various diamond rings in the box in his hand, each of which shone like kerosene.She suddenly remembered something, and whispered: "Diamonds are so expensive, can you afford them?"

Tang Shanhai just smiled: "Affordable."

Yue Qiluo had sharp eyes, and suddenly found that a gold chain was missing from the lapel of his suit, and stretched out his hand to take a look, but he did not see his gold pocket watch.His watch is a Western product, worth a lot of money.Yue Qiluo knew it in her heart, and sighed: "I don't want it anymore, it's just a ring, why should it be real?"

"It doesn't matter, I can afford it." Tang Shanhai shook his head, "I don't like that watch for a long time."

However, Yue Qiluo didn't want to say anything, and sighed very maturely: "Live your life, save a little." Just like a little adult playing house.

Tang Shanhai had no choice but to give up and close the box.Seeing that Yue Qiluo was still holding the cheongsam and would not let go, she smiled and said, "Try this dress."

When Yue Qiluo came out of the fitting room, she saw the long-lost Aunt Jiu in the mirror.Ever since she went to Shanghai, she has never worn such a color of clothes, and she is always in cool-colored school uniforms.In fact, she is still suitable for such a bright red, like her cloak.The cheongsam is very close-fitting and outlines her petite figure.Yue Qiluo looked left and right in the mirror, and liked it very much.

Tang Shanhai walked behind her and stood still, the mirror was too short to reflect his face.He took out two small things from his close pocket and carefully put them on her earlobes. They were a pair of diamond earrings.Yue Qiluo was stunned, shook her head, the long pendant swept over her shoulder, she said softly: "You still keep it?"

Tang Shanhai nodded, stretched out his hand to touch the pendant, and it swayed in various colors: "It matches you very well."

"I thought you gave it to Xu Bicheng." Before Yue Qiluo finished speaking, she raised her eyebrows, "If she had worn it before, I won't wear it."

Tang Shanhai smiled: "Bicheng is not worthy of a diamond pendant."

Yue Qiluo smiled rarely, and after laughing, she felt that she was a mean little bastard who only picked other people's jokes.However, he thought that no matter how vicious he was, Zhang Xianzong would indulge her.The smile on his face deepened again, it was a wanton smile.She took off an earring, wrapped it around the silver ring on Tang Shanhai's left hand, and hooked the ring.She patted him very satisfied, raised her head and said, "Now you also have a diamond ring."

Tang Shanhai raised his hand, and saw that his ring finger was wrapped around a ring of bright diamonds, which even hurt his hand a little.He smiled and said, "It's pretty."

Yue Qiluo bought new clothes and walked out of the department store happily.The German Concession is a place of Western style. The streets are full of small western-style buildings and cars. It is no different from Shanghai, and there is no shadow of the old days.She stopped and pouted, and said to Tang Shanhai, "Tang Shanhai, I don't like Tianjin anymore, I'm going to Wen County."

Wenxian County is a small place that Tangshanhai has never heard of, but fortunately there is a train.When I arrived at the train station, I happened to buy the last bus to Wen County that day.Although Yue Qiluo was happy for a long time because of the new clothes and ring, but when she got on the train, her face darkened again.Wen County is an unknown place. In the past few decades, she has traveled all over the world, including snow mountains and deserts, but she has never returned to Wen County.It is true that I dreamed of returning to my hometown yesterday, but now Wen County has lost Zhang Xianzong and has become a huge tomb.

The train drove until night, Tang Shanhai couldn't help but dozed off, opened his eyes, Yue Qiluo was staring out of the window, the eyes reflected the thin lights.He thought she was still thinking about the diamond ring, so he went over to stroke her hair and asked in a low voice, "What's wrong?"

He is not good at words, he always only asks what's the matter, and only comforts others with "don't worry" and "it's okay". Fortunately, Yue Qiluo never cares about his stupid mouth, and occasionally scolds him for being an ice hole, with a smile on his face of.He is a lackluster person, to meet Yue Qiluo, he always believes that he is lucky in his life.

The train slowly stopped at Wenxian Railway Station, Yue Qiluo turned his head and looked at another person through him: "I want to go home."

The "home" Yue Qiluo mentioned was actually an old abandoned house.Wen County has been turned upside down in the past few years, she doesn't know the way anymore, and pulls several passers-by to ask for directions along the way.It's just that when those passers-by heard the word Gu Zhai, a look of panic appeared on their faces.Tang Shanhai followed behind and asked the passers-by clearly, only to find out that Gu's house is a famous ghost house in the local area.It is said that many people died in Gu's house decades ago, and then the warlord Zhang Xianzong brought Jiu Yitai to live in it, and the situation became even worse.It is said that the ninth concubine is a monster who specializes in eating human flesh. She killed all eight of Commander Zhang's concubines and sucked their brains away.Later, Commander Zhang and Aunt Jiu were defeated and fled, and they heard that they both died in Zhutou Mountain, and since then Gu's house has become a murderous place.A night watchman who was on watch said that women's laughter often came from Gu's house in the middle of the night, and people said that the ghosts of Commander Zhang and Mrs. Nine were meeting in Gu's house.

Hearing Zhang Xianzong's name, Tang Shanhai understood a little bit, knowing that most of the female ghost Nine Aunts was probably Yue Qiluo, so he followed her with a smile.Half of the street near Gu's house is empty, which shows that this place is so dangerous that even homeless people dare not live there.Yue Qiluo was naturally not afraid, she hurriedly wanted to look back at the house, but she didn't know what she was looking for.Tang Shanhai felt a little strange, because he had never heard her talk about Wen County, if she said that she was homesick, Tang Shanhai would definitely not believe it.

Although there is an iron lock on the gate of Gu's house, it has rusted from the inside to the outside, and it can be opened with a kick.The dust in the courtyard rushed towards the face, carrying a dead air that couldn't go away.Tang Shanhai fanned away the dust in front of him, but when he raised his eyes, he saw Yue Qiluo had already run in.

Since the second year of the Republic of China, the gates here have been locked, so the interior furnishings are the same as they were back then.Yue Qiluo ran to the main room, remembering that he was here to worship yesterday.With the sound of gongs and drums, she was wearing a heavy wedding dress, sitting on the Eight Immortals Chair and drinking tea inadvertently and brazenly.She went from room to room, feeling more and more empty.But overnight, this place became a dilapidated abandoned house.

She had to come back to see what she said, because she knew that after a few days, she would never have another chance.The place where she and Zhang Xianzong concluded their lifelong relationship has long been destroyed in the ruins.This farewell is eternal life.

She ran to the backyard, stretched her arms and twirled around, smiling tremblingly, "Tang Shanhai, look, we got married here yesterday, do you remember?"

The coldness of the spring night suddenly came down heavily, making her feel chilly all over her body.She remembered that her yesterday was 30 years ago.

Gu's house was empty, her echoes echoed back and forth in the four courtyards.Tang Shanhai stepped across the threshold with a puzzled look on his face.He doesn't remember anything.

The smile on Yue Qiluo's face also cooled down, the dream is fake, and the dream within the dream is even more fake.Only the best fool in the world would believe in a dream, but such a dream is too real.From the coldness penetrating from the bones to the hair, the aroma of rhododendrons, the temperature of Zhang Xianzong's palm, everything is real.

Yue Qiluo's mind was in a mess, and it was a blessing to be able to immerse herself in a dream.She can buy this house and become her ninth concubine again.When the war ceases in a few years, we will start some businesses.What she didn't do with Zhang Xianzong, couldn't she do it with Tang Shanhai?But suddenly, she tripped over something, a red handkerchief.

She picked it up and spread it out little by little. The veil was embroidered with flowers and a full moon, with Dingfeng Ruyi beads hanging from the four corners.This is not an ordinary veil, it is a bride's hijab.

Yue Qiluo trembled in the chilly spring breeze.This is the hijab that slipped from her hand when she fell off Zhang Xianzong last night.

When she just picked up the handkerchief, her legs went limp and she almost knelt down, but she stopped abruptly.Yue Qiluo couldn't kneel.She knew in her heart that the hijab hadn't changed after 30 years of throwing it away. This was a cruel joke played by Yun Qi.She just had the idea of ​​lingering in the dream, and Yun Qi threw down the joke aloofly, demonstrating his supreme power: he weaves the illusion, everything here is his malicious joke, and her weak hope Not worth it at all.She is a fish on the chopping board, every sorrow and joy are under his control, he cannot be the master.

Yue Qiluo seemed to have been slapped twice suddenly, and suddenly woke up, holding the hijab tightly in her arms.Zhang Xianzong died, and so did Tang Shanhai.She remembered that Gu Zhi in the ghost town was her last souvenir in this world.

Yue Qiluo lowered her head and suddenly laughed lowly.The laughter intensified, almost insane.She can't die yet, she is going to save Gu Zhi.She has never wanted to save a person like this before, but she only has Gu Zhi left.There are tens of thousands of people in the world, but she has nothing.

Only Gu Zhi.

An absurd dream, everything exudes a light, rotten, hissing air current, the god in the dark drives away the ghosts who have failed but reveled, and the powerless feeling of pity is like a thick tide, roaring To devour her.

She held the hijab tightly, and there was a hard object pressing against her chest in her arms. She reached out and pinched it, taking it out little by little.

"Tang Shanhai."

Tang Shanhai raised his head and saw Yue Qiluo standing in the middle of the courtyard, a small lonely figure.She shivered in the cold wind and smiled.He turned his head away with a smile, his eyes were bright.

"When you marry me, let's have a wedding here, okay?" She sniffed and looked up at the sky, "This time, I also want to wear a white western-style wedding dress, which is thousands of times prettier than Xu Bicheng's! The tail of the wedding dress has to be dragged all the way to the street, and the flowers in my hand are hanging down to the ground...Tang Shanhai, promise me, okay?"

"Okay, I promise you."

He took a step towards her in confusion, trying to see the expression on her face.The moonlight shrouded her head, illuminating the smile on her face.There were two lines of tears hanging on her face.

Yue Qiluo let go of her hand, and the Dingfeng Pearl on the hijab hit the ground, shattered crisply, and she was holding a handful of urns in her hand.

Where did she come from?An ominous premonition welled up in Tang Shanhai's heart, he knew that Yue Qiluo was going to do something stupid.

"Tie hair as husband and wife," she whispered, her voice choked up, "Love... There is no doubt about the two."

Life should be longing, death should come back.

She aimed the gun at the temple at first, but she was worried that her face would be scratched.She moved her stiff arm and slowly lowered the muzzle of the gun.

She thought that if this shot was fired, the self outside the dream might also die.But maybe if she died, Yun Qi would let Gu Zhi go.One life for another, she exchanged her own life for Gu Zhi, it was not a loss at all.

She remembered that in this yard, the buttons on Zhang Xianzong's cuffs were stuck to the soles of her feet, which was a little cold.He raised his head to look at her, and suddenly smiled, with tears in the corners of his eyes.

He said, "Because I love you."

Yue Qiluo repeated it in a low voice, her voice became weak and became a draft.A torrent of joy and sorrow suddenly overwhelmed her, she pulled the trigger and smiled softly.

"Zhang Xianzong," Yue Qiluo looked over through the cold night, a tear rolled down the corner of his mouth, "I'll see you tomorrow."

It wasn't until she pointed the gun at her heart that Tang Shanhai was finally convinced of what she was going to do.But it was too late, Yue Qiluo slowly burst into a relieved smile at him.In an instant, it was like a moth to a flame.

It seemed as though her life had been exhausted.

"Qiluo!"

boom--

Startled the house full of jackdaws.

The author has something to say: Alas, the writing in this chapter is too bad...I regret to say that I have been in a serious bottleneck recently, and I have to hold back for more than ten hours before I can hold back a disabled child.

The sad and happy turning point is too abrupt, and this chapter will definitely have to be changed at the end... In order to fulfill the promise of the daily update, I still posted it cheekily.

The last part is so bad that I want to kill myself.

I try my best to end this article as soon as possible so that this article does not end unfinished... It really collapses now, and the style of writing has plummeted. I am ashamed of the readers.

Of course Lao Yue won't die...it's just a dream.

Already incoherent, pack up and go to sleep.Thanks to the little cuties who have been chasing it all the way, and did not dislike the poor quality and procrastination of the plot during the bottleneck period... Thank you!