Reality and Games of Ancient Swords

Ever since she lost her composure during the conversation with Xie Yi in the pavilion that night, Ji Yan, as the person involved, remained the same as before, but Changqin was a little strange, every time Ji Yan went to look for it, it would avoid her, even while eating. Yu Qi helped get it.Since Xie Yi had that conversation, he really wanted to talk to Ji Yan again, but after that time, Ji Yan always hid in the pavilion alone, staring at the Phoenix Tongqin in a daze.

Fingers lightly picked the strings, and the strings made a clanking sound, but it was no longer as cheerful as that day, and there was a little more dullness.

"Since you're here, why do you hide?" She pressed her fingers on the strings, and the dull sound of the piano had settled down, leaving behind a muffled sound.

Yu Qi lifted the curtain, walked in slowly, and said, "He has been hiding from you for several days."

Ji Yan propped his right elbow on the case table, leaned his cheek lightly on the back of his hand, and said lightly: "I know."

Yu Qi came and sat down opposite her, and said, "What was that day?"

That day, that night, after Ji Yan finished asking that question, he stopped talking.Once she doesn't want to say anything, even if she is forced, she will not say a word.If you don't say it, you don't say it. If you want to leave, you just want to leave.He planned to leave with Changqin in his arms, but unexpectedly it lost his temper, turned around and ran away.

For several days, it did not appear again.

"There was once a man who was born in a bitter cold place. Due to the harsh climate, most of his family suffered from serious diseases, and they died in their prime. Since his birth, he has witnessed such a scene day and night... Everyone is so pitiful , so he thought since he was a child, is there a way to help everyone a little... That person has been running around for his people all his life. He values ​​love and nature, and he is like this to the creatures in the world, and even more so to his people He once said such a sentence to a person, and it was this sentence that moved me, and I remembered him. He said that life is extremely brilliant and precious, and it will never come again. Be respectful and fearful, precious..." Ji Yan remembered every word of Xie Yi very clearly, for the young man who dedicated his life to Liuyue City and Shen Ye, Ji Yan admired and expressed emotion of.

Sometimes, Ji Yan would think, why did he die like that?Died in the tomb of the goddess.Such a vivid and real existence, within reach, just disappeared...

Xie Yi is a person who is worthy of his life.

He was also the first person who touched Ji Yan's heart.

Even at that time, to Ji Yan, he was just a virtual existence.

"If he doesn't regret and doesn't bow his head, even if he does it all over again, he will still make such a choice. Even though he knows better than anyone else that the way of heaven is determined and his fate is hard to change, he still struggles in this world, and for a glimmer of hope, he sacrifices himself Fight with all your strength, try your best to deal with the sky, and you are worthy of this short life." At this point, Ji Yan sighed softly and said: "I can be so persistent, probably because I learned from him, and I can dare to fight against the sky like him. , even knowing that the ending is hard to change, but still try my best to fight, with no regrets in my heart."

Yu Qi closed his eyes and said, "The person you are talking about is Xie Yi?"

His blunt words made Ji Yan slightly nodded.

Ji Yan said: "Looking at Xie Yi's life, he really didn't waste a single day. He exhausted his life's knowledge to benefit countless beings, and he also warmed people's hearts with his own way. It's a pity that he treats his disciples as teachers and friends... The time he left for Wuyi was so short. When dealing with Shen Ye, his master, father and friend, he lamented that after all, he had different ways and did not conspire with each other. But even so, he never betrayed Shen Ye. Yuqi, I still remember that on the secluded Huangquan Road, for the sake of his old friend, he held an umbrella and waited there quietly, just to shield him from the icy rain that was flying all over the sky. For the sake of Wuyi, after he passed away, I was afraid that the child would go astray and return to the road to the underworld, and lighted a heart lamp for him, dispelling the endless darkness in the child's heart." She straightened her back and looked at the child. Looking at the dusk outside the pavilion, he said: "A person knows the ending of so many people, but he doesn't know his own ending...whether it is good or bad, I don't know at all. The future is uncertain, and sometimes I am afraid, afraid of what I am obsessed with. In the end, it was like a phantom of bubbles, and it shattered at the touch of a touch. Only when I think of those words Xie Yi said, what shakes in my heart will turn into firmness, and I will no longer be confused..."

Yu Qi frowned slightly, and said, "As far as you are concerned, what is the position of Prince Changqin in your heart?" This was the first time Yu Qi wanted to ask Ji Yan, what did she think of Prince Changqin?Children, pets, friends, or a partner who makes her want to live together...

Adjusting his sitting posture, he spread one palm up on the desk, Ji Yan stared at his palm, at the palm that was so pale that the lines were hardly clear, and said in a low voice: "I don't know what to do with him anymore. Is my attachment to responsibility or so-called love... But I know that if he is gone, I will die here." When she said this, she raised her open palm and pressed it to her chest, and continued: "Only He is here, so I can dance here."

"He's...the only...the only person who can make me jump here..."

"I gave up my past and my own world for him. In the future life, I would like to be with him, to accompany him in every life, to accompany his blue hair to turn white... until one day, I will no longer exist in this world ..."

Ji Yan's answer was one that Yu Qi had never expected. He looked at her deeply, and his heart was greatly shaken.

How about getting one person like this, even if you are in a difficult situation?I kind of envy him.

"You know so many things? Why don't you help him?" Yu Qi calmed down and asked.

And Yu Qi was referring to Xie Yi.

Ji Yan looked directly into Yu Qi's eyes, and said word by word: "Knowledge and change are different after all. I know, but I am powerless to change. Yu Qi, I am not a saint, nor a savior. In this life, I just want to change one person's life." Other people's fate, I have my heart but I don't have enough energy. Even if I have the ability, I don't want to help change it. Call me selfish or hypocritical, I don't care what others think of me, as long as Changqin understands me That's it."

"Furthermore, do you think I can really change this fate? Or, Yu Qi thinks I have this ability?"

Yu Qi listened, and after a while, he smiled lightly and said, "So, are you at ease? The prince plays the piano." As soon as the voice fell, a little black cat jumped in from outside the pavilion.

It turned out that it had been listening to the conversation between Ji Yan and Yu Qi outside.

Looking at it, Ji Yan was bored for a moment, but still stretched out his hand to it, saying: "Come here."

Changqin looked at the hand, hesitated for a moment, and then walked over.Coming to Ji Yan, I put my paws on the palm of her outstretched hand. There were some thin calluses between the white palm, but even so, her palm was still so white and soft, and it was as soft as Changqin's. The black paws provide a nice contrast.

"Meow." It called softly.

The claws that hold it are soft and small. With a little force, Ji Yan can crush its claws. "You feel uneasy about me? Is it because of that day?"

Changqin hung its head and its ears drooped a little, but it didn't answer Ji Yan's words.

"When did you have so little confidence in yourself?"

Changqin's head moved, and after a while, it slightly raised its head and looked directly at Ji Yan.Looking into its eyes, a trace of displeasure flashed across Ji Yan's eyes. "I know that you have gone through thousands of years of crossing the soul, and the world situation has already made you see through and make you despair. You are afraid that I will be like everyone else, aren't you?"

Changqin let out a 'meow' in response.

Ji Yan closed her eyes, her voice gradually became indifferent. "Do you remember what I said to you when I died in your arms?"

Changqin was taken aback, her strange-colored pupils widened.

He can forget everything, but he will never forget what happened that day.It was a memory engraved in his bones, even if it was broken, it would still be fused into his blood, becoming a part of his body, and he couldn't give it up.

"I came for you. In this world, you are the only hope for me to live... At that time, you asked me, why did I adopt you and stay by your side when I knew you were a person with few relatives? I replied You, even so, so what? Fate is set, no one can change it, but I want to fight for you, even if the ending will be miserable, at least we have been together and accompanied each other well. Remember? My death is not the end, The promise I made with that lord? No matter where you are in the future, my soul will accompany you forever...until you turn into a desolate soul...live well..." The few words she repeated were like Nightmare, day and night, replayed in Changqin's mind constantly.

Closing the cat pupils, Changqin's weak body couldn't help shaking.

Ji Yan looked at it, her heart ached slightly, she didn't want it to recall that memory, but at this time, she had to make it remember.She wants it to remember, deeply remember, no matter what happens, it cannot distrust her.

Let go of its claws and draw back his palm, Ji Yan still used this hand, stretched out an index finger and thumb, brought up Changqin's fluffy face, pinched it fiercely, and said: "Remember, No matter what happens, I will never betray you, but if you don't believe me, then I have no choice but to remind you again and again, to remind you of every word I said to you when I died in your arms until you no longer hate me. trust me……"

Ji Yan's tone was as cold as ice, which made Changqin stunned. It is possible that Yuqi had already left the pavilion when Changqin came in, otherwise Ji Yan's words and actions just now would have shocked Yuqi.Suddenly, while Changqin was in a daze, Ji Yan changed from pinching her two fingers to stroking its chin, and said softly: "Next time, don't hide from me anymore, once you hide from me, I will miss you." Why are you avoiding me, do you not like me being by your side, do you want to leave you... those questions will always be circling in my mind... that feeling is really bad. "

The act of Ji Yan stroking its chin made Changqin squint her eyes comfortably. This is a cat's nature, but it is not the nature he wants.I was a little tangled in my heart, but I had no choice but to let her caress.

After stroking it, she picked it up and hugged it into her arms, a sigh poured out of her mouth, and said: "I only have you... Changqin..."

Changqin poked her head into her arms, that coquettish behavior also reassured Ji Yan.

As far as Changqin is concerned, it only has Ji Yan...

They all have each other and nothing else...