Dagami is seriously ill [Quick Transmigration]

After Yang Ruichen's parents explained Yang Ruichen's situation to the school, the punishment was cancelled, and they apologized and compensated the roommates. In the end, the school canceled Yang Ruichen's residence qualifications, and focused on Yang Ruichen's situation. At present, Yang Ruichen is suspended for one month Make adjustments and think about going back to school after you calm down.

After everything is settled, Yan Zhi can only stay with Yang Ruichen at home, because there is no other way, Yang Ruichen's situation is really special now, so he just works harder to go to and from school, but fortunately, Yang Ruichen's parents are taking care of him so he is not so tired .

Finally, on weekends, he was able to stop running at both ends. He woke up naturally after sleeping, and Yang Ruichen’s condition seemed to be much better because he didn’t have to go to school. A person will not be cranky.

He opened his eyes and stared at the lamp on the ceiling, and was stunned when he looked at the exquisite lamp above his head, and then he remembered that he was at Yang Ruichen's house.

Yang Ruichen's home belongs to Yang Ruichen's home.

I saw that the big bed was placed in the middle of the large and exquisite room, and not a lot of furniture made the room extraordinarily empty.The window was left open last night, and the morning wind blew up the heavy curtains, lifting a corner slightly, and finally hanging back under the weight.

And there is an easel by the window, and there is an unfinished painting on it, the outline of the simple outline is still very vague, and I don't know what the painting is.Recently, Yang Ruichen has fallen in love with painting. I heard from my aunt that Yang Ruichen sits by the window and draws every day. He thinks it is very good. Although he never knew that Yang Ruichen could paint, at least he will not let Yang Ruichen think about it all day long and find something to do. good.

There is a well-painted oil painting on the wall, which is a table full of tomatoes, which neatly fills up the table, leaving no gaps like obsessive-compulsive disorder.

Just as he was thinking, he put a hand on his stomach, startled him, turned his head and met Yang Ruichen's sleepy eyes: "Why are you scaring me so silently in the morning?" Jump."

Yang Ruichen hugged Yan Zhi from behind, and buried his head on Yan Zhi's shoulders contentedly: "It's good that you didn't leave."

If it was normal, when he opened his eyes, he would see Yan Zhi wearing clothes and preparing to go out. When the door closed, he would feel uncomfortable, and would start to think wildly whether Yan Zhi would not come back after going out, or The other students in the school were talking and laughing, and thinking about it made him feel very uncomfortable.

So today I feel very good. This is the first week since he was suspended from school. He has never looked forward to the weekend so much, because his appearance can finally be with him at home. This feeling of being able to see his appearance after waking up is special. satisfaction.

No fear, no apprehension.

"Hey, where am I going? What are you thinking about all day long?" Yan Zhi let Yang Ruichen hold him, and then looked at the paintings on the wall: "When did you like painting? I have never seen you paint before." , it's pretty pretty."

"It's not me, it's someone else."

"Ah, so, have you...know them?"

Although this question is mysterious, for multiple personalities, there is a dialogue between personalities. The psychiatrist told him that Yang Ruichen's current state is to control his personality, but controlling this idea will only make Yang Ruichen in a state of tension. A good way is to let the personalities live in peace, and finally slowly merge.

Yang Ruichen looked thoughtfully at the oil painting of tomato on the wall. It was very well painted. Tomatoes are very beautiful. That person painted tomatoes very well and hung the painting on the wall, which means that People also want to like their looks.

"Does it look good to you?" he asked.

Yan Zhi replied without thinking: "Not bad."

"But I didn't draw this." Yang Ruichen was a little disappointed when he heard the praise for his appearance: "Then do you still think it's okay?"

"It was you who drew it, and it was drawn by your hands." Yan Zhi's hand covered Yang Ruichen's hand, and he clasped his fingers together: "It was you who sat by the window with a pen and drew it, and the frame is also yours." You choose it, and finally you hang it on the wall yourself after painting the colors.”

"But I can't draw."

Yan Zhi turned to look at Yang Ruichen, and saw Yang Ruichen said firmly with doubts on his face: "You painted it, you are the only one who can move around in this room, and you are the only one who can decorate this room. I know you are very afraid of them appearing." You will have no memory, but in fact you are them."

"I'm not them, they are completely different from me." Yang Ruichen decisively rejected the idea of ​​appearance.

"They are produced by you to protect yourself. As for when they appeared, you should be clear. They appeared when you were very young, when you were most afraid. To a certain extent, they protected you. You, aren't you?" Yan Zhi felt that he was about to become a chicken soup chef because of Yang Ruichen.

Yang Ruichen frowned and didn't speak, as if he was thinking about what Yan Zhi said.

Yan Zhi patted Yang Ruichen on the back and said: "You don't need to be afraid of them, they are you, you are them, what they show is what you have never dared to show, try to accept them and don't be afraid, only you are willing to take the step You will be fine after this step, don’t be suspicious of them.”

"I'm afraid that one day they will show up and snatch you away."

"So if you get better, I won't go."

Yang Ruichen stared at the face in front of him for a long time, then hugged him into his arms, feeling the presence in his arms, and said: "Okay, I will work hard."

The heavy curtains were blown again, and this time a corner was lifted to let sunlight into the room, spreading warmth all over the place.

After both of them got up and had breakfast, they planned to go back to the room and stay. Yan Zhi proposed to go upstairs to play games, but when he was going upstairs, he saw Yang Ruichen holding on to the handrail and stopped moving, as if in a daze.

Just when he was about to ask what's wrong, he suddenly saw Yang Ruichen raised his head and smiled at him:

"Yan Zhi, let's go draw."

He froze.

How often does Yang Ruichen laugh?There are not many, there are only a handful of them, at most, it is a light smile, and it is rare that the smile is as sunny as now, as dazzling as the sunlight outside the window, with a smile on the brows, completely different from the usual gloomy appearance.

Yan Zhi looked at Yang Ruichen who was standing on the stairs and stretched out his hand towards him, and his heart skipped a beat. Is this another personality?

It was only when he returned to the room that he confirmed that it was another personality, because this personality could draw, but Yang Ruichen couldn't.

Wait and see.

"I was drawing by the window that day, and I suddenly forgot what you looked like, because I never saw your face in my dreams, and every time I woke up, you had left the house, I stood by the window and only saw the back of you leaving, and I felt very sad." Yang Ruichen sat at the easel by the window and finished the unfinished painting.

Yan Zhi saw that the simple outline on the canvas gradually took shape after a few strokes, and it turned out that it was a person's face.

"I really want to see you, but he won't let me, so I can only bear it."

Yan Zhi dared to ask: "So you are..."

"My name is Yang Chenchen, and I'm a painter." Yang Ruichen looked sideways at the boy sitting by the bed, with a bright smile: "I'm really glad to see you."

"Are you happy?" The appearance feels quite fresh, because the Yang Ruichen in front of him is indeed completely different from the usual Yang Ruichen, sunny, and a little cute, with a completely opposite personality.

"Because you are the lover of my dreams, but in my dreams I can only see your back forever, including when you are making love." Yang Ruichen said bluntly.

Appearance: "..." He is still underage: "Oh yes."

It was quite new to be regarded as the lover of dreams for the first time.

"I appeared because of Yang Ruichen's obsession with you. He wanted to draw you, because he was afraid that he could miss you in this way if he couldn't find you one day." Yang Ruichen smiled and expressed his beauty. The face is drawn on the canvas, stroke by stroke, vividly.

Yan Zhi was a little surprised: "How do you know? Does Yang Ruichen know about your existence?"

"Otherwise, why do you think we can live in peace for so long? It should be said that we lived in peace before seeing Lin Luo. After we came out of the orphanage, we temporarily forgot the warmth you and grandparents brought us. The pain, he chose to escape. To be precise, Yang Ruichen chose to escape. He hid the pain and tried to pretend it never happened. But after meeting Lin Luo, especially after Lin Luo passed away, Yang Ruichen's emotions It has begun to affect us, he is very repulsive to our existence, trying to control us."

Yan Zhi began to feel a little worried when he heard what this personality said: "What if he always wants to control you?"

"He will be the one who gets hurt in the end." Yang Ruichen carefully painted the eyes of Yan Zhi, and there was still an idle smile on the corner of his lips: "He wants to occupy you alone, but only his appearance, so he rejects us Existence, but also exclude the people around you, in the end he will only let himself into endless madness, not only he will be injured, but you will also be injured."

Only now did Yan Zhi see a personality completely different from Yang Ruichen's. Yang Chenchen in front of him was gentle and dazzling, even speaking so comfortably, and felt a little sad in his heart. Does the appearance of such a personality mean that Yang Ruichen also wanted to be such a person, but he didn't did not succeed.Maybe it's because the other personalities are too good, Yang Ruichen has been unwilling to let himself know of their existence, and never said it, just because he is afraid that he will not like him.

But in essence, these people are Yang Ruichen, all of whom Yang Ruichen subconsciously wanted to become but could not become.

"I'm worried about him."

"Some people won't wake up until the most painful time." Yang Ruichen didn't stop his brush: "I think as long as I see you, I will be happy, but some people don't think that, he wants to have everything, wants to have everything. Take it for yourself, even if it is wrong, you have to go to the end. Everyone understands the truth, but Yang Ruichen can't do it, so the best way is to make him suffer. Just don't stop him from doing it, let him let go Do it, just quietly accompany him."

Yan Zhi frowned, what does this mean, just don't do anything with him?

I saw Yang Ruichen paused his hands, and the red paint accidentally dropped a little under the eyes of Yan Zhi on the canvas. He frowned with a strange expression, but the painting was considered completed, because the face of Yan Zhi appeared.

And Yang Ruichen, who has been trying to regain his sovereignty in his body, is about to wake up.

So he put the paintbrush on the palette, got up and walked in front of Yan Zhi, leaned slightly with his hands behind his back, and stopped in front of Yan Zhi's face at the last distance.

"Just remember that some people won't understand what is wrong if they don't feel pain. Be safe. And I'm leaving. I'm very happy to meet you."

Yan Zhi was taken aback, can he still say hello when he leaves?

Then he felt Yang Ruichen put a kiss on his lips, his eyes widened in surprise, and the moment he raised his eyes, they met Yang Ruichen's eyes.

At this time, Yang Ruichen's eyes were full of affectionate tenderness, and his amber pupils reflected his surprised expression, as if he wanted to put people in his eyes in the warmest way, and finally engrave them on his heart.

"Goodbye." Yang Ruichen raised his hand and stroked the corner of the man's lips twice.

In the next second, Yan Zhi felt that he was pushed down on the bed, and he didn't even react to it so suddenly, he just looked at Yang Ruichen who was sitting on him in a daze.

I was dumbfounded when I met Yang Ruichen's eyes, huh? ? ?The personality with smiling eyes is gone? ? ?The person in front of him didn't have a smile in his eyes, and he couldn't figure out whether it was Yang Ruichen himself or who.

Anger appeared in Yang Ruichen's deep eyes, and he wiped Yan Zhi's lips with his sleeve, trying to wipe away the traces of the man kissing Yan Zhi just now.

"Fuck, what are you doing, it will hurt!" Yan Zhi felt that his lips were almost peeled off by Yang Ruichen's hand, and glared at him angrily: "Why are you going crazy for no reason!"

"Did he kiss you, why did you allow him to kiss you!!!" Yang Ruichen couldn't help shouting at Yan Zhi.

Yan Zhi was inexplicably yelled at, and suddenly became furious: "Why can't I allow it, that person is Yang Ruichen, why should I allow it!!"

What a genius!

"That person is not me!!! I said they are not me!!!" Yang Ruichen was a little emotional, he held Yan Zhi's hand tightly and said: "They will definitely not be able to replace me, let alone you, You are mine, you know, you are just my face."

Again, why do you always occupy him when he is distracted! ! !

Because his body was occupied, Yang Ruichen felt endless panic. He was very afraid of what his appearance would look like when he saw them, but no matter what, he knew that those personalities were more attractive than him. Hate him and leave him.

This is not allowed.

Yan Zhi looked at Yang Ruichen's bewildered look in front of him, and immediately felt that what Yang Chenchen said was right. Some people are so obsessed that they can't explain it. Only regret and pain can make people realize what should be cherished, not immersed in error at this time.

"Yang Ruichen, do you know what you look like now? I feel pitiful when I look at it. Why did you become like this? What made that brother who I thought omnipotent and calm and stable since childhood become what you are now? That Does the old lady have such a deep influence on you? Did she teach you to love others so much? Do you like me so much? Do you think you will be happy if you possess me? Do you only think of yourself!"

Seeing Yan Zhi's expression changed, Yang Ruichen seemed to be very dissatisfied with himself, he was stunned, what did he do just now, did he shout at Yan Zhi?

"No, Yan Zhi, I originally wanted to control myself, but..."

"Yang Ruichen, there are some things that are not said again and again. If you do this again, you will really drive me away."

Yang Ruichen was stunned.

Yan Zhi pushed people away when Yang Ruichen was in a daze, and when he got out of bed, he happened to see himself on the easel next to the bed. The lifelike self looked so happy on the canvas, except for the red drops at the corners of his eyes that looked like tears. Very dazzling.

He walked into the canvas and touched the corners of his eyes, and the wet paint accidentally stained his fingertips, and he bowed his head and laughed out of nowhere.

Seeing his appearance like this, Yang Ruichen was suddenly a little scared.

The window was blown by the wind again, and the sunlight poured in from the outside just shrouded Yan Zhi's body, as if Yan Zhi would disappear in the sunlight at any time.

"Do you think I won't be uncomfortable?" Yan Zhi rubbed the wet paint on her fingertips, the bright colors are very dazzling: "I want to help you, but you refuse again and again, then you still want to help me?" what should I do."

He turned his face to look at Yang Ruichen and continued: "You said that you are afraid that others will snatch me away, okay, I will stay within your reach, but you are still afraid, is it because you are not confident in yourself or you are in me Not confident. Are those personalities really threatening your existence? No, you are threatening yourself, you are the one who pushed yourself to this point.”

Obviously he has compromised so much, why does he always irritate Yang Ruichen, what is wrong?

Is it his existence?

"Yan Zhi, did I make you uncomfortable?" Yang Ruichen looked at Yan Zhi's disappointed eyes, did he really not make any progress?Did he make his appearance more and more uncomfortable?

Yan Zhi smiled sadly: "I'm uncomfortable, you have pulled me into the abyss, can you not feel uncomfortable? I thought you would improve a bit, but besides the classmates at school, you have other people who will influence you, I think It's no longer your excuse that there are too many people in the school, you're just making an excuse for your terrible possessiveness, shit like it."

He's had enough of it.

After speaking, I wanted to leave the room.

Seeing that someone was about to leave, Yang Ruichen got up nervously, trying to catch his face.

"Yang Ruichen!!!"

Yang Ruichen stopped in mid-air with his outstretched hand, his expression startled.

He watched Yan Zhi turned his head and roared at him, and saw that the person's body trembled slightly, and his eyes were red as if he had endured some emotion to the extreme.

……are you angry?

Yan Zhi felt that his vision was a little blurred, he didn't expect that he would cry sadly, because Yang Ruichen really made him sad and drove him almost crazy.

"Let me go, give me a breath, please?"

"What... What?" Yang Ruichen's pupils shrank slightly.

"I don't think you like me, you're just used to me being by your side, so when you're scared and fearful, you subconsciously want to put me by your side, to accompany you through the unhappiness." Yan Zhi raised his hand and wiped it away The tears in the corner of the eyes shouted angrily: "I will accompany you when you are sad, and if you don't want me to be close to other people, then I will be obedient, even if you are ordered to stay overnight, I will go home to accompany you, then you Well, have you considered my feelings? I am also a flesh and blood person who will be hurt..."

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