Bite Your Fingertips

This time, Chu Yu only bit a small cut on the skin, but it was a bit deep.After the tooth was loosened, it took a while to fully heal.

Seeing Chu Yu wrapped in a black thin coat one size bigger, sitting on a heavy motorcycle with his head bowed.

Lu Shi pulled up his collar and raised his eyebrows, "Is this reflecting?"

"I just... couldn't hold back."

The moment Chu Yu let go of the handle of the car, Chu Yu's body became very agitated. It was obvious that he had no strength in his whole body, but his fingertips were still shaking excitedly.The desire to suck blood surged up and couldn't be suppressed. When he bit down, he didn't restrain himself as usual.

Chu Yu quickly promised again, "Next time I will be lighter!"

In the past, even today during the day, Chu Yu would be nervous, worried that Lu Shi would be cold-faced because of this.But now, he was not afraid at all, he even reached out and tugged at the hem of Lu Shi's clothes, raised his head, and said with a more serious tone, "Really!"

"Ah."

Lu Shi put his left hand in his pocket, and pushed back Chu Yu's wet forehead with his right hand, exposing his eyebrows and eyes completely, lowered his head, approached, looked directly into Chu Yu's eyes, and asked in a low voice, "Are you still sad?"

This was an extremely aggressive and powerful move, Chu Yu didn't feel disgusted at all when Lu Shi made it.

"Not sad."

Chu Yu lowered his eyes, and unconsciously played with the metal zipper of Lu Shi's jacket with his fingers, "I just for a while... I can't accept it."

Compared with Lu Shi's dormitory, his tone was calm.

"Everyone around me thinks that my mother is very fond of me. She buys whatever she wants, and even spends money on school for my happiness in school. She doesn't treat me as strictly and high as she does my brothers and sisters. They thought so and taught me so.”

"So, I used to think that was really the case."

"Even all her indifference to me, I tried to attribute to her busy work. But, where is so much busy? She just didn't care or even ignored it."

Lu Shi listened quietly.

Chu Yu wrapped his coat around his body.

The clothes belonged to Lu Shi, one size too big, with the smell of Lu Shi on them.

"My mother went to the graduation ceremonies of my brother and sister's elementary school, middle school, and university. Aunt Lan always occupied the seat at my graduation ceremony."

"I used to be scared, so I lied to myself. But now I think, what's there to be afraid of? Just admit it,"

When he landed, he tightened his grip on the zipper, paused for a long time, and then said softly, "I just admit that she doesn't love me."

Having said that, it seems that it is not as uncomfortable as imagined.

"My mother is a typical person in power and superior thinking. That is, she will only devote her attention and energy to capable and useful people. As for me, it is probably because of this blood relationship, so , she gave me the best living environment, gave me endless money, built me ​​a glass greenhouse, let me obediently stay in it, and don't cause her any trouble. You see, even what she asked of me Just be healthy, happy, safe, and don't let her worry."

Chu Yu's brain gradually became clearer, and he didn't make sense of each sentence, and said,

"When I was young, my mother treated me like my older brothers and sisters. She hired many teachers for me, and the classes were full. I was lazy, not particularly smart, and not self-disciplined. I liked to sleep late and play. Etc. When I was a little older, my mother never hired a tutor for me, never asked me to take classes, and asked me to get good grades."

He curved the corner of his mouth and pulled out a non-smiling arc, "Thinking about it now, probably at that time, my mother felt that there was no hope for me, so she just gave up on me."

"Chu Yu."

"Yeah." Chu Yu raised his eyes and opened them wide, "I didn't cry, really, if you don't believe me, look."

"I know."

There was no pity in Lu Shi's eyes, nor any other superfluous emotions, he just said, "Do you want to comfort me?"

"What consolation?"

"What comfort do you want?"

Chu Yu couldn't think of it for a while, so he tentatively suggested, "... give me a hug?"

"it is good."

Before Chu Yu could react, Lu Shi took action.

He leaned over, stretched out his arms, and hugged Chu Yu who was sitting on a heavy motorcycle and wrapped in a large black coat.

With his arms folded, Chu Yu fell into Lu Shi's arms.

What lingers around the tip of the nose is the clean smell of the familiar laundry detergent.

Chu Yu froze and didn't dare to move. After a while, he relaxed and put his chin on Lu Shi's shoulder.

"Am I... very useless?"

"No."

"Really?"

"Ah."

On the return trip, Lu Shi rode a bicycle at a very slow speed.

The night wind was very light.

Chu Yu leaned on Lu Shi's back, remained silent for a long time, and suddenly asked, "If, I mean if, I really got to the 220th in the grade, or even the top 120, the top [-], would my mother... yes? Won't you take a look at me?"

"Want to try?"

"Well, I want to try."

With the heavy roar of the engine, the heavy motorcycle rushed into the tunnel.In the early hours of the morning, there were no other vehicles.The orange lights at the top of the tunnel fell like chopped sunset light.

Chu Yu grabbed the clothes when he landed, and his eyes fell on the dazzling street lights. He didn't know whether to tell Lu Shi or himself, "Probably still not reconciled, not reconciled to being given up so easily."

"I will help you."

Lu Shi parked the car on the side of the road, propped his long legs on the ground, and turned to look at Chu Yu.

"But no matter what the result is, don't cry."

Chu Yu was pissed off by another sentence, "I'm not a crybaby! How can I cry so easily?"

Lu Shi chuckled and sat down again, "Hold me tight, little crying bag, back to school."

I went to return the car first, then took a taxi, and went back to school over the wall.

When he walked to the door of the dormitory, Chu Yu suddenly remembered, "Wait for me!"

He took two quick steps, opened the bedroom door a crack, squeezed in, and closed the door with a "bang", so as not to give Lu Shi a chance to peek inside.

There was a sound inside the door, and soon, Chu Yu opened the door again and came out.

He held two bottles of blood-enriching oral liquid in his hand.

He inserted the straw and handed it to Lu Shi, annoyed, "Hurry up, drink one more bottle, it's my fault too, you're so irresistible! What if you're anemic!"

Lu Shi was too lazy to stretch out his hand, so he took Chu Yu's hand, bowed his head and finished drinking in two sips, commenting, "It tastes strange."

"It tastes weird and you have to drink it. I have asked the chef in the cafeteria to boil black-bone chicken soup, and I will bring you a thermos tomorrow."

After saying a few more words, Chu Yu yawned, "I'm so sleepy, I'm going to sleep, see you tomorrow."

Back in the dormitory, Chu Yu quickly took a shower, put on his pajamas, and fell on the soft bed.

I was too excited when I was riding, and the weakness in my limbs has only now fully spread.

He closed his eyes and was about to go to sleep, when he smelled a faintly familiar smell, propped himself up, and saw the thin black coat that was still beside the bed, and then remembered that the clothes had not been returned to Lu Shi.

After sitting for a while, Chu Yu mysteriously brought the coat over and put it beside the pillow.

Lying down again, Chu Yu held an inch of fabric and slept soundly.

separated by a wall.

After Lu Shi took a shower, his hair was wet and he sat down at the desk.

He took a pencil and started to solve the problem before he finished writing the paper spread out on the table.

The white light of the desk lamp only covered a small area in front of him, and there was darkness behind him.

Phone vibrates.

Lu Shi glanced at it, and it was a familiar number.

He didn't answer, and continued to solve the problem, letting the phone vibrate over and over again.

Lu Shi didn't press answer until he wrote the final answer in the blank space under the question.

"Lu Shi, are you not going to answer your dad's phone call? How about your manners! How about your upbringing! Really think I have so much time to spend with you time and time again?"

After Lu Shi took a shower, he didn't wear the black wristband and watch, revealing his thin wrist.

He was turning the pencil flexibly in his left hand, and there was nothing in his dark eyes. He said in a clear voice, "I'm working on a question, and the phone is turned off on silent."

Lu Shaochu's mood was a little more stable, "I'm still working on the questions so late, is it hard to study?"

"It's not hard."

"If you are not willing to let you study in city A, but you insist on traveling so far, you are the one who suffers!"

Lu Shaochu repeated the old saying, "Your mother misses you very much, and your grandpa also misses you several times. When will you come back?"

"Busy, I don't plan to come back for now."

"Lu Shi!" Lu Shaochu's voice suddenly rose, and he couldn't hold back his anger. "Busy, you can figure out how long you haven't been home, ah? One and a half years! Last year's New Year's dinner, everyone was there Ask, why are you not here, how do you want me to answer? Where do you want your mother to put face! Do you really think that your wings have grown hard, and you will not come back when you fly out? Ah!"

Lu Shi was silent and listened to Lu Shaochu's scolding.

There was no fluctuation in his expression.

Lu Shaochu eased his tone again, "Lu Shi, your mother has a headache recently, and the family doctor has seen it several times but it doesn't help. I'm not at home, so I can't take care of it. She raised you so much. If you have a conscience, come back and have a look." .She will be much happier when she sees you."

Lu Shi said coldly, "I guess you don't want to hear me repeat what I just said."

Lu Shaochu didn't speak for several seconds.

"I put 30 in your card, and if you have no money, tell me."

Breathing out, Lu Shaochu finished giving the candy, and threatened again, "I'll just treat you as a rebellious youth, but when I tell you Lu Shi, I have taught you a lot. You must have a degree in everything. Here, you have used ten out of ten patience to come out, and you know it in your own mind. It’s really beyond the limit, and you know what the consequences will be!"

After hanging up the phone, Lu Shi threw the phone on the table with a "bang".

After sitting still for a while, Lu Shi took out a blank piece of paper and carefully wrote stroke by stroke with a pencil.

"...Seeing the first bloom, the peach is like a swallow, and you have to believe it, Jiangnan Spring is early. There are several branches, scattered and residual flowers, floating all over the ground, never swept away.... 谢起eyes, the pavilions are far away, there are few people, The audio book has arrived. I'm afraid, don't have deep feelings, and forget the promise of the alliance."

In the end, he wrote down the title of the poem, "Xijiang Moon Slow".

Too much force, the bent knuckles turned white, and the tip of the pen trembled slightly.The handwriting sank into the paper.

His eyes fell on the tip of the pencil that was smoothed by the paper, Lu Shi opened the drawer, took out a pencil sharpener from it, and sharpened the pencil.

Sawdust and lead ash fell on the pure white paper piecemeal, covering the last three characters of the word card and dirtying the paper.

The blade is sharp.

Lu Shi's movement of sharpening the pen suddenly stopped.

The pencil sharpener moves down, and the blade finally stops at the wrist of the left hand.

On the cold white skin, there are several deep and shallow scars, which are eye-catching and dazzling.

Thinking of the scene of the knife point piercing the skin, the blood spilling out, and the sobering pain, Lu Shi's eyes became focused.

The tip of the knife pressed down, the skin was sunken, and there was a tingling pain.

But this time, Lu Shi didn't push the tip of the knife deeper.

Throw away the pencil sharpener and close the drawer.

Under the lamp, Lu Shi stared at the blue blood vessels under the skin of his wrist——

His blood cannot be wasted.

If there is no blood to drink, the little crying bag will cry.