whale wave

Zhao Yousheng had another nightmare. He dreamed that he was holding the dead Chen Yu under the ginkgo tree, with dead leaves falling all over his body. His heart was throbbing, and he woke up because of the pain.

It has been many years since Chen Yu passed away.

In these years, Zhao Yousheng traveled to many places. He was sent to Jingbo, drifted in foreign lands, and never set foot on his homeland again.He lived like Chen Yu back then, resenting his homeland and trying his best to find that unreachable thing.

The difference is that Chen Yu is looking for a way to revive him, while he is looking for a way to go back in time.

During his long wandering career, Zhao Yousheng heard that there is a god called the mirror of the heart, which looks like a mirror but is not a mirror, and can reflect a person's life.It is said that in front of the mirror of the heart, the scenes of life will unfold like a painting, and you can reach out and touch it to enter the time you want to go back.

The past is so painful, if he can go back to the year, before the disaster happened, he will stop everything, and he will take his family to escape from the world and stay away from disputes.He can't turn the tide and help the building to collapse, but he can save the one he loves from disaster.

Let them survive, and let yourself not have to be an immortal monster, get rid of this boundless life, boundless despair.

As for hatred and vengeance, after the resurrection, these emotions gradually faded in the face of personnel changes. It seemed that he had no hatred anymore, and the faces of those enemies had long been blurred.Even later, he couldn't remember Chen Yu's appearance.

He naturally forgot about others, but Chen Yu, he forgot on purpose.

The withering and prosperity of the vegetation in the world is recorded in years, but Zhao Yousheng has lived too long, and his years are almost recorded in ten years.

Every ten years, he had to leave the place where he lived, so as not to cause troubles. His ageless appearance once made him be regarded as a monster and arrested by others.When another Jiazi year passed, the dynasty Guozuo was short-lived and was replaced by another regime, but the mountains and rivers remained the same, and the centuries-old wind and rain had already painted the old palace walls mottled.

There are not many traces left of the era Zhao Yousheng lived in. The strange attire and the somewhat difficult-sounding local accent all tell him that he is a stranger from another world.

Zhao Yousheng came to Quanzhou, which was already in decline. The war destroyed this big port, and the scene of sails gathering was never seen again.

Zhao Yousheng went to Nanxi, and stood in front of the collapsed Chen family's old house, with weeds up to his knees, and he could no longer recognize what it looked like back then, but the ginkgo tree in the Chen family's bookstore was still there, still prosperous, tall and blotting out the sun.He is tired of life, and he no longer remembers the seasons. Only when the leaves of the ginkgo trees turn yellow, does he know that another year of autumn is here.

Ask the elderly living nearby, where did the owner go and is he still alive?

The old man said: You are asking about Chen Jingsheng, right?During the war, his whole family went to Mingzhou and never came back. After so many years, he must have died.

Zhao Yousheng just asked casually, but he didn't really care.He didn't even go to the Chen family's cemetery to visit Chen Yu. His tomb was built at the foot of a mountain with a pine forest on his back.Chen Yu is special in his heart, but this special has faded a lot after a long time.

Only Yuyi, no matter how the world changes, Yuyi remains safe and sound, and it is the place where Zhao Yousheng often goes.

Zhao Yousheng met Mu Yuanyi a few times in Yuyi, he was still young and beautiful, I heard that Yuren has a lifespan of [-] years, and Mu Yuanyi is less than [-] years old, so we can see him again in the future.

They all knew Chen Yu, so Mu Yuanyi later became Zhao Yousheng's friend.He often persuaded Zhao Yousheng, saying: You just live in Jiaoyi, the world is not your place after all.

Later, Mu Yuanyi knew that Zhao Yousheng was looking for Xin Jing, and he said: It was just an old rumor, no one has ever seen what kind of object Xin Jing is.

He said: Back then, in order to find a way to revive you, Chen Yu traveled all over the world and spent his whole life. I don't want to see you like him again.

Zhao Yousheng didn't listen to his heart, and looking for the mirror of his heart has long been his sole purpose of living. He has to find a sustenance for his too long life, otherwise he is afraid that he will go mad and develop endless hatred.

About a hundred years after Chen Yu's death, Zhao Yousheng took the huge fleet sent overseas by China, and he acted as the clerk (translator) of the fleet and served the commander of the fleet.

It was an imperial envoy wearing a three-mountain crown and a python robe—Admiral Zheng. Admiral Zheng was only thirty years old, peaceful and dignified, with eyes that could see everything.

The ship passed through Champa (Vietnam area) and Java (Java Island, Indonesia), and anchored in the old port country (Sumatra Island) for several days. Many local fugitives from Zhangquan, Guangdong gathered as pirates and endangered merchant ships.

Admiral Zheng ordered the capture, and the pirate leader was captured and returned with a big victory.

At night, officers and soldiers were drinking and celebrating on the beach. Zhao Yousheng stayed away from the crowd and looked at the dark sea with his hands behind his back.

"Suppressing the pirates, the officials and the people are happy, why is Zhao Tongshi still frowning?"

A voice came from behind. Although the voice was not majestic, it was respectful.Zhao Yousheng turned his head, saluted Admiral Zheng respectfully, and said, "Your Excellency will laugh, I saw the night was dark and suddenly remembered the past."

The sky was covered with dark clouds, without any starlight, the sea area was dark and oppressive, pressing against the heart, and there were sounds of toasting and chattering in the ears, just like the scene when the official shipyard slaughtered at the banquet.

Admiral Zheng has always been approachable, and he has known Zhao Yousheng for a long time. He made a gesture of invitation and spoke softly: "Is Mr. Zhao willing to tell me about the past? It's not good to hold back your heart."

His eyes are as wise as an old man's, and his eyes are like the water curtains of the sea and the mountains. Zhao Yousheng has seen countless people, and he knows and trusts the person in front of him.He hides the background of the tragic events he encountered that year, and tells about the tragic death of his family members, and the reunion and farewell with his friends under the ginkgo tree sixty years later.

Admiral Zheng listened silently, until Zhao Yousheng finished speaking, he still lowered his eyes and pondered, and after a long while, he sighed: "I lost my parents when I was young, and I was alone, and I also felt miserable in my heart."

The sea breeze floated the tassels on his dental plaque, and the tassels fluttered like random flocks, his expression was sad but not hurt.

"How did your lord get peace of mind later?" Zhao Yousheng asked.

Admiral Zheng turned to look at the beach, a beautifully decorated temple, with all kinds of tributes placed in front of the temple, used to pay homage to the concubine, no matter women or children, men were worshiping devoutly.

"My heart is bright, and I have a sanctuary in my heart." Admiral Zheng said leisurely.

The unique life circumstances have made Zhao Yousheng disrespect ghosts and gods. However, people in misery often put their hearts on the salvation of gods, and their resentful hearts gain peace from faith.

Zhao Yousheng remembered the first time he went to sea, passing by Zhenla, and saw the majestic temple in the capital in the forest, the sun was shining golden, sacred and indescribable.

Admiral Zheng saw Zhao Yousheng thoughtful, and remembered the past events he told, which was very meaningful: "What you said is a long time ago, it must have been 30 or [-] years." There was a gentle smile in his eyes, but it was not dangerous .He obviously understood what Zhao Yousheng said, but he still treated him as usual.

He is a calm and taciturn young officer who has lived for more than 100 years.

Zhao Yousheng went to sea with Admiral Zheng's fleet several times. He relentlessly searched for the mirror of his mind. Whenever he got a clue, he always failed to pursue it.

Finally, Admiral Zheng died of illness during the voyage, and his subordinates led his fleet back to China, where they anchored in Hong Kong. Day after day, year after year, they were finally forgotten and gradually decayed.

Unconsciously, many years have passed, and there are no more seagoing ships on China's coastline, and the sea ban has been fully implemented.

Zhao Yousheng no longer looks for Xinjing, he has lived in Jiaoyi for a period of time.

He rented a room in the mansion, where Chen Yu used to put his "corpse", there were several items of Chen Yu, and a shell bed where he and himself lay.

When the past becomes blurry due to the long distance, some memories emerge—too long ago, maybe they are just wrong memories.Zhao Yousheng remembered that during the 60 years when he was lying on the bed and "died", Chen Yu came to visit him again and again.

Touching his face, whispering to him, and lying beside him with his clothes together, watching him fascinated, day and night.

The person named Chen Yu has long since vanished, but those memories that belonged to him have never disappeared.

Admiral Zheng's fleet, which once set sail in the old port, left in the morning light, has become a cloud of the past, and Zhao Yousheng started to go to sea again. He suddenly wanted to go to Chenla, to see the magnificent temple capital under the sun, where there may be His peace of mind.

Years of wandering overseas made Zhao Yousheng familiar with maritime affairs, so he easily boarded a sea ship to Chenla and pretended to be a traveler.This is a small sea boat, the cabin is narrow, and the sleeper can only accommodate a person. Lying on the berth, closing his eyes and resting his mind, he suddenly heard a rooster crowing. It was the cook chasing a turkey in the aisle with a knife.It is so satisfying, for many years, there is no such lively and full of human fireworks around me.

Zhao Yousheng recalled that when he first went to Chenla, he met a Chinese traveler who said his surname was Wang and his first name was Dayuan.He is not a maritime merchant, does not sell goods, is not a sailor, and does not know how to sail. He said that overseas is so big that he wants to see it with his own eyes.

He said that life is limited, but the sea is boundless.

Later, Zhao Yousheng never saw him again.

Arriving in Chenla, the sea ship berthed in the port. As a Tang (Chinese), Zhao Yousheng was interrogated. This place has long since lost the custom of treating Tang people with courtesy.After many years, the scenery of the foreign country has also undergone tremendous changes, but I don't know if the temple is still there.

Changed to a small boat and went down the river. The winding river was covered with ancient wood and vines, and the rainforest was densely covered. It took several days to reach the temple.

People call it Sangxiang Buddhist House, which is built of stones. There are countless temples and pagodas, resplendent in gold and jade, magnificent and magnificent. People who have seen it are all amazed.

It has been a hundred years since I saw it for the first time. When it appeared in front of Zhao Yousheng again, it had been abandoned and became a place where wild animals haunted. Weeds and tall trees grew everywhere.

Because of the war, King Fan took his people out of here many years ago, and everything left behind returned to nature.

Zhao Yousheng walked endlessly in the forest, alone, as if he was walking slowly on the road of life, seeing only decay and depression.

Those gods who were enshrined and finally forgotten by the world, do they still exist?

Zhao Yousheng stopped and walked, and unknowingly came to a clear pool. Suddenly, the sugar palm trees were tall and straight, reflecting the shadows of the trees in the water. Behind him was the abandoned ancient temple, and the pagoda covered the forest.Zhao Yousheng rested on the ground, and the hired servants brought clean water and clean food. They didn't understand why they came to such a remote place.

At night, Zhao Yousheng stayed at the monk's house, in a stone house next to the pool.The monk is old, and it is said that he practiced here when he was young and lived here all his life. The monk told him that the pool is called: Yansilu Pond.

At night, surrounded by dense forests, listening to the sound of wild animals, Zhao Yousheng's heart was not at peace.

Taking advantage of the moonlight, he walked to the pool to admire the moon. The full moon was reflected in the pool, and Zhao Yousheng's figure was also reflected in it. He was dressed as a Chinese, with a scarf and deep clothes, dignified and quiet.The moonlight was like silver, and the breeze was gentle, like a lover's hand, Zhao Yousheng's restless heart gradually calmed down.He was walking along the pool, and suddenly some petals fell on his body. He raised his hand to catch the falling petals, and held it to him. It was a bright red worry-free flower.

He slowly lowered his body, facing a pool of water, he put the worry-free flower into the water, the surface of the water suddenly became rippling, as if wrinkled by a strong wind, Zhao Yousheng's heart fluctuated accordingly, like the surface of water.

Suddenly, as if someone grabbed him suddenly from the water, he fell into the pool, he entered his heart, he saw a mirror of his heart, shining brightly, reflecting his whole life.

There are the happy years of children, the time of wanton youth, the still days and nights sleeping in Yuyi, and the ups and downs of life floating in the sea, all of which are revealed one by one. Everyone who is familiar and forgotten appears in him In front of him, his life is like a long painting, floating and evolving, surrounding him.

It turns out that his whole life is in the square inch of his heart, which is the mirror of his heart.

Zhao Yousheng's eyes fell on a figure on the "painting screen". That person was Chen Yu. He grew up with him, and he was present in almost every scene, from childhood to youth.

15-year-old Chen Yu, well dressed, stood outside the gate of the Zhao Family Courtyard and was looking inside. When he saw people from the courtyard coming out, he immediately smiled brightly, and the sun shone on his face.Zhao Yousheng raised his hand and tried to touch Chen Yu's face. When his fingers touched, the picture was frozen. In an instant, the "painting screen" in front of him shattered, and a shocking force grabbed his heart.

Zhao Yousheng's pupils constricted, and the surrounding darkness hit him. He felt like falling into an abyss. At the moment when he lost consciousness and was reborn, he heard a faint sigh in his ear, and a transparent young figure was floating in his arms.

Haiyu soul, a rare thing in the world, it can restrain the soul.

Under the ginkgo tree, Chen Yu's soul was already in his arms when he held his hand when he was dying. It turns out that he has been by his side for more than a hundred years.

The author has something to say: Director: Thank you readers for your company again, thank you for your love and support~

In the second episode, in the last life, when Chen Yu died of illness, Zhao Yousheng was very regretful, and he was always looking for the mirror of the heart (Yansi Lujing) to be reborn. After spending more than 100 years, he finally found the mirror of the heart and was successfully reborn.