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Is the way home from here unsafe? "" Of course it's safe in broad daylight. "Then you," "Just treat me as a gentleman and be idle and bored!" "

Sarah didn't fully understand, mainly because she couldn't hear good or bad, so the next day she repeated what Qi Yu said to her colleagues and asked for an answer.As a result, the colleague's answer still contained a pun that she didn't understand.She began to understand some of the words the teacher said, the confusion expressed by the teachers and the caring eyes of the American students.But she was full of curiosity, so she relayed some words of her colleagues to Qi Yu, and when she asked Qi Yu to drink coffee to express her gratitude-of course it was not the same thing, she was still shrewd.

"So, why can't Chinese people speak directly?" "Speak directly?" "It's just..." After searching her stomach, she thought that she should have learned idioms before, "Tell me the truth?" Qi Yu tried hard to understand what she meant , "Do you know what restraint is?" Sarah nodded, "Reservation is a virtue." "But the person who spoke did not let others understand." "Yes, but it depends on the ability of the obedient person."

"This will make people confused." "Yes, this is the oriental culture. After all, it is a kind of guessing if people don't understand it." "A kind of what?" "One kind, necessary. For example, in your Western civilization , don’t say ‘I’m threatening you’ clearly, but just use descriptive language, or insinuating, that’s fine. Those who come with open swords and spears are barbarians.” Sarah looked puzzled, and Qi Yu continued with actions and descriptions There's also history - citing the Roman Gauls - that explains things Sarah doesn't quite understand.In this way, instead of continuing to talk about Eastern culture all afternoon, why they were unwilling to speak directly, they started to take Chinese lessons.

Just returning home, Qi Yu, who took a bath and started to make tea, returned to a lonely state, and suddenly remembered that "not speaking directly" had caused trouble to herself.She once hoped that the other party could directly say "don't waste time" when she didn't like her, and she was grateful that the other party gave her time to stay by her side to enjoy a lonely masochistic happiness.When suffering, she hopes that it will never begin, and when she enjoys it, she would rather never end. Gradually, she no longer knows whether she enjoys loving that person, enjoying love, or enjoying her own pain.Treating torture as a treat, devotion makes you look great and something to be proud of, at least in your own eyes.

When Yushan fulfilled her wish later, she was almost drowned by the wave of overwhelming happiness.When she found out that Yushan never really loved her, she voluntarily sank into the sea.She told herself that from beginning to end, this can only be described in one word, deserve.For better or worse, youdeserve.

She had gradually floated up and could see the light on the sea level, but Yushan's sudden death was like an earthquake on the bottom of the sea, first causing waves to push her around and unable to stop, then dragging her down and burying her in the seabed.Now there was really no light, no sound, no living things, not even the falling sea snow.

Time has stopped for her, since she rushed to Seattle but was told that Yushan left a last word before her death and did not want her to attend the funeral.It's the same to die in the moment or stay in the moment, not moving.

What does the phrase "I don't want her to come to my funeral" really mean?Why is she still able to say such things when she is so hurt?Why did she immediately think that she was going to die, accept her own death in a calm way - obviously calm enough - and then forbid herself to attend her funeral?Why not "don't tell her" but not allowing her to come?Qi Yu wanted to lie to herself that Yushan could think of herself as a kind of success, but she couldn't.Not kidding herself is the most important thing she has learned from a fruitless relationship, but the victory also brings her greater pain.

Being filled with huge things in the heart is sometimes the same as being empty. She knew that she would definitely not be able to sleep today, so she made tea without emotion and found a thick book.

I used to think that I was full of regrets, but later I had no regrets, and then turned into huge regrets, and finally became lifelong regrets. Of course, life without regrets is boring, and we need the kind of happiness that we can’t get and want constantly.But regrets that cannot be filled are definitely not a good thing.

She can't get rid of it.And now I can't tell whether I still want this experience if I go back in time.Together, they have walked through so many places in the world, so many cities, so many people with different skin colors and clothes, so many memories and fragments that are glued to each other. It is a tumor that will die if it is torn off. It lives together.

She wakes up and keeps her eyes open until dawn.

When Qi Yu is still sinking, Sarah has no time to do useless things.In order for her to be able to take classes well when the school starts, she is trying to adapt, learning all the supplementary courses arranged for her by the school - or it can be said that her colleagues help her.Whenever she learns from her colleagues but it is difficult to communicate, she always thinks of Alex and her Chinese name is Qi Yu, "It's raining everywhere!" Qi Yu explained her name to her like this.But she didn't feel that Qi Yu was the same as a gloomy rainy day. In her eyes, Qi Yu was at most a sunny day with a little more clouds.From her point of view, she likes that kind of weather quite a lot: it is good to have a cloudless sky that is common in Florida, but it is always cloudless, too hot and sunny, and it is also a good thing that a little cloud changes from time to time.

She would also find it strange that Qi Yu would suddenly become negative once in a while, but who hasn't had a bit of a past?She doesn't ask, doesn't like gossip, don't judge, wherever you are.

A colleague asked, Sarah, how long will you stay in China?She said that I will go back when I feel homesick, or when I am tired of China, but so far, I am still full of curiosity, "One hundred million curiosity! Small goals!" This is a very fast learning.The colleague laughed and asked her where she learned it, and she said she learned it from a friend. "Friend? Do you have a Chinese friend?" Sarah nodded vigorously, "Yes, a Chinese, a Chinese who is as good as you."

When learning Chinese, her teacher said, Sarah, you will gain many Chinese friends because of your cheerfulness.She asked, aren't Chinese people reserved?The teacher said that at the same time, the Chinese will be more tolerant of you as a foreigner.You can keep your manners, and that's reserved enough.What's more, not everyone in China likes to be reserved.

She told the curious colleague how she met Qi Yu, "Should I give her a gift?" The colleague said yes, but do you know what she wants?She asked ordinary Chinese people what to give, but my colleagues didn’t have the nerve to say red envelopes—although Sarah knew—so they continued to practice Tai Chi, “It’s better to give them what they need! Don’t give them indiscriminately! Do you know what she likes?”

Sarah thought for a long time, "She likes SpongeBob SquarePants!"

The next day Sarah brought out a set of SpongeBob SquarePants DVD Jozi Rain. "A gift for you!" She wrapped it carefully and tied it in a knot, "Oh? What is it?" Qi Yu has never been a person who likes to refuse to show politeness, so he naturally took the box and shook it by the way. shake. Sarah didn't say anything, and asked her to open it, and it turned out that it was the complete works of SpongeBob SquarePants, and the smile on her face could not be suppressed. "Do you like it?" Qi Yu nodded with a smile, "I like it! No one has ever given me such a thing."

They used to send me rings, necklaces, clothes, no one ever gave me something related to my childlike innocence, I know they don't 100% care about me.

"That's good. I see you are always a little unhappy, so I want to give you something to make you happy."

With her carefulness, partial understanding of the Chinese people, and Qi Yu's concern, she certainly knows that such words are a bit intrusive to others, but she is a true courageous and fat American girl. If she thinks it is good, she will Do it, and leave no room for the other party to "let me think about it myself".How can you be unhappy?Of course it is to be happy!

When she saw Qi Yu holding a DVD in his hand, her smile faltered a little.What she didn't know was that the memories in Qi Yu's mind at that moment were like thousands of horses galloping past.

"Thank you, I'm very happy to receive the gift." Qi Yu said, "Let's drink coffee, it's getting cold." The tone of her words at the moment made Sarah feel a little strange.On weekdays, of course, Qi Yu could see such a shadow, but it wasn't very clear. Sarah wanted to say to her, there is a ghost shadow on you, why don't you drive it away?But she didn't know where to start the conversation.If she has done some research on Chinese people with a strong literary and artistic atmosphere, she will probably start with "Nancy's Love History" or the original "Licking Velvet" and ask her why she didn't drive away the shadows and leave behind a bright life.Then Qi Yu might answer her, I am not Florence, Yushan is not Lilian, and I don't want anyone to replace her.

But she was bold and decided to ignore it.She likes Qi Yu, even if she can't make it clear whether she is attracted to Qi Yu because of her help to her at the beginning or simply because of Qi Yu's appearance, she doesn't want to let him go.Being in a foreign country is very exciting, she wants to test Qi Yu.So when I had a drink at a local craft beer bar at night, Sarah and Qi Yu sat at the bar, leaning against her as much as possible, getting closer.Then try to tell jokes, make her laugh, get her slightly drunk before getting myself drunk, thinking about what to do next