A curtain of dream

Back home, Axiu came out with a smile to carry my luggage, and said: Miss, someone gave you a gift!

I was surprised, looked at her, and said: Who sent it?

Axiu said: I don't know, a big box with nothing written on it was delivered by a courier company.

My mother took me by the arm, helped me to the wheelchair with Ziling, pushed me into the house, and said doubtfully: "I didn't deliver it when I came out in the morning, right?"

I was also very puzzled. I was silently pushed into the room, and then I saw a box more than one meter high standing in the living room. Who would send such a big box to me on purpose?What's in here.

I said to Axiu: Axiu, help me unpack the box and have a look!

Axiu seemed to be very curious all the time. Hearing this, she immediately put down her luggage, ran happily, took a paper opener, cut off the tape on the outside of the box, opened the box, and took out a beige wooden board from inside with a wow , My heart moved, and my eyes were fixed on the wooden board. It was not a wooden board, it was a 4-carat drawing board, and then Axiu took out an oil painting box and a wooden easel from the box one after another.I clenched the armrest of the wheelchair and asked: Is there any note in it?

Axiu turned over and shook her head.

Mom said strangely: "Who will give you so many things for painting!"Luping, haven't you stopped learning to paint a long time ago?What is the use of these things?

I am silent. My mother doesn’t like my painting for a long time. She thinks that among the four things, piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, the piano is the most elegant, and it can be displayed in front of everyone. Painting is not only dirty, but also not easy to be brilliant. How many famous painters are often poor in life and become famous after death. It is not a very good project, so it was just the first time I studied for a while and immediately forwarded it to the piano. In the study class, she naturally didn't expect that someone would suddenly send painting tools to her home.

Ziling!where are you going?You push your sister to the room on the first floor, and I will prepare medicine for your sister.Mom called to Ziling who was about to sneak upstairs, Ziling glanced at me, lowered her head, and walked over slowly.

Mom said: I have cleaned up the guest room downstairs, and moved all your things to the guest room. When your legs are better, I will move back to your room, huh?

I smiled and said: Thank you mom!

Mom touched my hair, smiled dotingly, and said to Zi Ling: Push your sister over!

Ziling didn't speak, and silently pushed to the guest room. The guest room has been tidied up and filled with my daily necessities. Axiu is unpacking my luggage and throwing clothes into the laundry basket. Move everything in that box here!

Axiu nodded, and went out with the laundry basket.

Seeing this, Zi Ling also wanted to go out, my name is: Zi Ling!

She stopped, turned around, silently.

I pondered, and asked: You...hate me, don't you?

Ziling smiled when she heard the words, and said: Then, do you hate me?

I looked at her and smiled, but it was a fake smile. At that moment, I hated seeing her smile, as if she was laughing at me. From beginning to end, it happened between Chu Lian, her, and me. No one is victorious, they are all losers, Chu Lian lost a leg, Zi Ling lost her dream, that dream with Chu Lian, right?and I?What am I missing?The corners of my mouth curled up into a misty smile. What I lost was a self-righteous love and my belief in love.

I said lightly: Do I hate you?Maybe, I like you so much that I don't know how to hate you anymore.

Zi Ling stared at me and said softly: Lu Ping.do you know?What I hate most about you is your indifference to Chu Lian.

I looked back at her and said softly: He is no longer worthy of my concern.

Zi Ling bit her lip, her face was pale, and she, who had been restless for a while, looked more sick than me, she said: How could you be so, so cruel!Isn't he the one you loved?

love?I murmured, curling the corner of my mouth, and said: No, I don’t love him, I love the love I think I am self-righteous, even if the person we grew up with is not Chu Lian, I will still fall in love, first love, always There is no reason and no reason is needed, is there?

Ziling walked up to me, fixed her eyes on me, and said: How could you do this!

I raised my eyes, looked at her, and said: Ziling, you should grow up, don't be immersed in your Yilian Youmeng anymore.

She looked at me as if struck by lightning, with defensive eyes, and said: How do you know...how do you know...

I smiled calmly and said: Are you surprised?

Ziling didn't answer.

I didn't answer her how I knew, it didn't matter.I looked at her and said: During the time I was in the hospital, I have been thinking about it. My father and I dote on you, and my mother criticizes you. What, I also found a way to find it for you and handed it to you, but my mother has too many expectations of you, demanding your behavior everywhere, and the way the three of us treat you is too paranoid. This kind of paranoia makes you hide in a dream, unable to come out.I can understand your Yilian Youmeng, all your pain and thoughts, I also understand your various behaviors after the car accident, I understand that you didn't know how to face it, and chose to escape.but……

Her face became paler and her whole body seemed to be crumbling.

I continued to say slowly: But, you should grow up, Ziling.

Silence permeated between me and her, I watched her big eyes wander back and forth on my face, for a long time, a trace of sadness appeared on her face, and said: Is this how you look at me?What do you want to say?You just say it, I, listen to you.

I looked at her and said, "The only thing I want to say is this one sentence. From now on, I won't care about you anymore."Of course, you are still my dearest little sister, but you have grown up and have your own judgment on everything.

Ziling said patiently: What do you mean, I don't have my own judgment about Chu Lian?

I said gently: I didn't say that, you have your own thinking ability, Zi Ling, please consider carefully before making a decision about anything.

She looked at me, smiled sadly, and said: Now I know.

I am silent.

Ziling said seriously: I understand what you mean, Luping, I can only say how ruthless you are, why are you so ruthless to Chu Lian?Why are you denying your feelings?

I interrupted her abruptly and said harshly: Chu Lian, Chu Lian, Chu Lian!You only have Chu Lian in your heart.Ziling, I don't want to curse, and I don't know how to curse, but, do you have to be so ignorant?Do you have to force me to say things I didn't want to say?

Zi Ling froze and looked at me.

I took a deep breath, knowing that I was finally forced out of control by Zi Ling, the venomous snake lurking in my heart sprang out, sprayed snake letter, and bit me firmly, I looked at her in pain, and said: You have to be here I was reminded over and over in front of me, did I ever like Chu Lian?Okay, I admit, I liked him once, and I also fantasized about my life after marrying him, but I am not a fool, I can feel the truth of a man's tenderness towards you, and I can see that a man looks at another man. The meaning behind a woman's eyes is just that I have been unwilling to admit it and never want to let go. I have always lied to myself that the person Chu Lian loves is me, and his affection for you is family affection, not love.Now that the answer has been revealed, the person he chose is you, you two are happy and love each other deeply, what else do you want?You blame me for being ruthless to Chu Lian. May I ask, what should I do to satisfy you, Second Miss Wang?He doesn't love me, so I don't need to join in and die for him. What I can compensate him can't be feelings, but money. But doing this, you say it's cruel and heartless, do you have any brains? ?Do you want me to hold on to Chu Lian?What do you still think about me?

I stared at her and said wearily: Ziling, I'm already very tired. In this scene where two sisters fall in love with the same man, I can only take care of my family, and I can only take care of you. As for Chu Lian, since he doesn't love me, I won't give him any more affection from me. Even if his leg is broken, he doesn't need my pity or sympathy.Please, don't mention Chu Lian to me anymore, I really did my best.And you, my dearest little sister, didn't you just ask me that I hate you?

She looked at me with tears in her eyes.

I gritted my teeth and said: I hate you, I hate you for being ignorant, I hate you for holding this knife called Chu Lian, and stabbing it fiercely in my heart over and over again.

She took a step back, her eyes full of panic.

I looked at her, took a deep breath, and said: I hate that you are so ignorant that you only see Chu Lian's pain, but not the pain of your parents, and you only see Chu Lian's despair, but not my sadness.In the hospital, my mother was overwhelmed by my affairs, and you committed suicide.I don't have time to mourn what I've lost, but to listen to your half-truths, worry about you, and try to keep your worries away.I tried my best to deal with all kinds of things after the car accident. When I did my best, you accused me of being ruthless. Wang Ziling, in your heart, do you still have this family and my sister?Don't you only have Chu Lian in your heart?

Her mouth trembled, unable to speak.

I laughed at myself and said: Or, you only have a dream in your heart. You say you are in love with Fei Yunfan, and you say you love Chu Lian, and you want to marry him. To put it bluntly, you are just It's just choosing someone to share this dream with you.

She yelled sadly, tears rolled down, she looked at me and shouted: I hate you!Wang Luping, I hate you!you are so cruel!You are so cruel, how could you do this to me!

I smiled sadly, and watched her turn around and rush out, bumping into her mother, the water in her hand spilled out, and she rushed out of the door regardless, my mother was shocked, and after a long while, she turned to me: you two sisters, what are you doing? up?

I said quietly: nothing.