You are the one I can't beat

"Hey, kid, when did it start?" Xiu Ruijie asked curiously.

They each studied abroad for so many years, and they got together not long after they got back together.

He didn't realize that he had this tendency in the past. It was only when he was seduced by him that time that he realized that he actually liked it, although he admitted that he was a little ashamed.

Zhang Xiaohao said: "When I was studying outside, I talked to my girlfriend, but I had no desire. My girlfriend thought I was sick and broke up with me. Later, I also doubted myself. Later, I went to see a psychiatrist. The doctor asked After many questions, tell me that I may be gay, and let me pay more attention to the same sex around me in my life, whether I will have feelings for the same sex.”

"Oh... Then you developed feelings for the same sex?" Xiu Ruijie asked.

Zhang Xiaohao nodded and said: "When I found out that I really had feelings for the same sex, I was also shocked. I thought I was sick and went to see a psychiatrist for more than half a year, but the doctor told me repeatedly that it was not a disease. I Later, I gradually accepted this fact.”

Xiu Ruijie lay on his body, looked at him and asked, "Then have you ever dated another boyfriend?"

"Talk about it." Zhang Xiaohao said frankly, "At that time, I wasn't sure if I really liked men, so I wanted to try, find out and search. I talked about a boyfriend in the last year of college, but after graduation He didn't intend to continue with me, so we broke up peacefully."

"Oh...then do you still like him?" Xiu Ruijie asked.

"It's over, I liked it, but it's over. After I came back here, I wanted to find someone, but I haven't met the right one. When I met you, I... had a feeling, so I couldn't hold back for a while. ...I feel sorry for you."

"It's nothing, I've said it all, and I didn't reject you, did I? I've known each other for too many years, and I feel too familiar... Maybe, I haven't talked about a girlfriend for so many years, because I also like men. If it weren't for you, I would Didn't realize this problem, everything is God's tease, forget it, it's all like this, life has to look forward, right?" Xiu Ruijie said.

"Well, I liked listening to you before, and now I want to listen to you too." Zhang Xiaohao said, putting his arms around his shoulders, feeling the friendship, emptiness and loneliness that he had held for so many years. When he found out that he was gay, he felt He didn't dare to tell any friends that he didn't dare to contact his old classmates in the past. He was afraid that he would accidentally miss something, that his friendship for so many years would be ruined, and that his good friends would leave him because he was gay. , despised him.

Fortunately, none of this is too bad right now.

"So, is this why you became indifferent?" Xiu Ruijie asked.

"Maybe, myself, I didn't realize that I was indifferent, but it seems that everyone else thinks so."

"How cute was it when we were studying in the past? I often think that it would be great if we could be together when we study abroad, and we can study together and spend time together."

"It's good to continue being together now. I used to be poor, but now I have money, and I can spend more money."

"That's true."

Zhang Xiaohao looked down at him and asked, "Are we really going to chat in this position?"

Xiu Ruijie rolled his eyes, then climbed down from under him, and said with a smile, "Then let's talk like this."

Zhang Xiaohao lay on his side and took his hand.

Xiu Ruijie looked at him, turned around and lay on his side, and looked at each other face to face with him.

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Love language: We don't know what love looks like, and we don't know what the future will look like, but now, the you in front of me is what I want most.