Late ripening

Even though it is a weekday morning, there are still many people who come to buy fresh vegetables in the supermarket.Mrs. Yu pushed the shopping cart in front of the pile of bamboo shoots. When Jing Yan had a bad appetite, she liked to drink plain porridge with her cold bamboo shoots. She planned to pick two tender ones to take home.

Someone stood next to him and put two things in the car. "I've already priced the ribs and fish, is there anything else to weigh?" Lu Qian talked to her while covering his mouth and coughing.

Mrs. Yu glanced at him and ignored him, until she picked out the bamboo shoots and stuffed two packs of vegetables into his hands, then she replied forcefully, "I'll buy him some fruit later." Lu Qian nodded silently, and then He turned his head to one side and coughed.

The two walked side by side to the fruit section, and Mrs. Yu couldn't help thinking about what to buy, "These two boxes of strawberries are okay, and they won't be so sweet after a while. Peaches are also needed. He likes to eat soft ones and pick a few." indivual."

"Buy some more passion fruit, he likes to put this in lemonade." Lu Qian said next to him.

He clumsily tore off two plastic bags and opened them, then put the fruit that Mrs. Yu put in.Seeing his red-eyed and bloodshot face, Mrs. Yu sighed inwardly, her face still tense, "Why don't you buy some pears to eat too, seeing that you keep coughing." After finishing speaking, she wanted to add a few words, "I don't I’ve boiled pear soup for you, you can make do with it yourself.”

"No need, just buy it for him." The phone vibrated in his trousers pocket, and he answered it casually before hanging up.The shopping cart is full of things for Jing Yan, "It's not easy to take a car when you come out of his villa area to buy things. I will pick you up on Wednesday and Saturday mornings from now on."

Sister-in-law Yu was queuing up at the place where she paid the bill, and Lu Qian took out the car keys behind him, "Tell me if you are missing something, I'll send it to you after get off work."

After putting away the two shopping bags, Lu Qian plugged in the car key to check the time, "It's past ten o'clock, I'll take you back quickly, we can't leave him at home alone. Is he in good health these days? Before I see that his hand was injured for some reason, so he must be careful not to get infected."

Mrs. Yu was sorting out the things she had just bought in the backseat, without raising her head, "I only have something to eat at noon, is that okay? I'm stuck in his room all day, and I told him not to come out, so I brought him something." I don’t know if he has applied the ointment or not. You’ve already sent him away, so what’s the point of caring here!”

There was unconcealable resentment in her words, but Lu Qian took it up without saying a word.After driving for a while, he spoke in a very low voice, "No matter how much you can't eat, try to get him to eat more, and now he is the only one who can listen to what you say."

Thinking of Jing Yan alone in the room, Lu Qian almost couldn't breathe.He will definitely cry, I don't know how long he will cry, whether his eyes are swollen again.Or stuff yourself under the quilt, curl up against the wall, and sleep for a while until the thoughts in your head are about to explode.

If only he could hate himself, he wanted Jing Yan to hate him, and hatred was better than these emotions that couldn't escape.

"You put it simply, you didn't see him like that, you lost your soul! I know I'm not qualified to ask these words, but...do you have someone outside that made him so sad?" Yu Yu said The more angrily he said, "If you really don't want him because of this, then don't ask him how he is doing hypocritically in the future."

The car was getting faster and faster, Lu Qian's voice was hoarse, "I didn't, how could I do that to him..." He gripped the steering wheel tightly with his fingers, "What you said was right, He's going to hurt a lot with me. I can't let him..."

"Are you regretting it now? It's too late to regret it at this time! I couldn't persuade him no matter how hard I tried, and he even told me that you would never bully him. Mr. Lu, think about which of your words have come true. !" Sao Yu lowered her head and wiped her tears from behind, but she didn't want him to see her.

For a while, no one in the car spoke anymore, and when they drove to the villa area, Lu Qian stopped at the place where Jing Yan got off last time.

Mrs. Yu was carrying two bags of things and was about to get off the car. Lu Qian wanted to send her there, but she stopped her. "Mr. Lu," she said to him as if she had made up her mind, "Since you have sent him away, cut him clean, and don't even think about seeing him in the future."

Lu Qian didn't turn the car around until he couldn't see her, but he had to stop on the side of the road after driving for a while.His heart was beating fast, and the pain in his eye sockets made him unable to see the way clearly.He hardly fell asleep these days, and stayed up all night in the cot in the office last night.

He didn't dare to go home, and he hasn't been back since the day he sent Jing Yan away.The room was messed up by his packing, like a war.

As soon as he closes his eyes, he can recall every word Jing Yan said, every movement he made, and every expression he showed in front of him that day.

This is probably the last thing Jing Yanhui left for him. Even though the day was so painful and embarrassing, he still replayed every picture in his mind many times.

Lu Qian leaned on the back of the chair and took a few breaths. After resting for a while, he opened his eyes before he was in a trance.

Mrs. Yu told him not to think about disturbing Jing Yan again, Lu Qian smiled wryly in his heart while driving, don't say whether he wants to, how dare I?How dare I appear in front of him after doing that to him?

"Ha—" The person on the bed woke up panting heavily, and broke out in a cold sweat again.

Just after falling asleep for a while, nightmares came to him habitually.I don't know how many days after moving out from Lu Qian's house, Jing Yan is still wearing the dark green pajamas that he secretly brought out, the clothes are already wrinkled and drenched with sweat again.

Jing Yan took off his clothes and threw them on the floor. Yusao has washed this set for countless times these days, and the embroidery on the cuffs is already a little loose.He lay back on the bed naked.

After the cold sweat subsided, there were hot flashes and shivering, Jing Yan squeezed his palms to endure it.He was already familiar with this painful trembling from the soles of his feet. Whenever he woke up from the bizarre nightmare and found that it was not a dream, he would first experience a heart-rending torment.

There was a slight sound of the door opening and closing downstairs, and this slight noise gave Jing Yan a headache.He pulled up the quilt a little more, only to realize that the sound insulation effect of this house is so bad.

The sound of doors opening, the sound of cars passing by outside, the sound of birds chirping in the morning would bother him.Sometimes he didn't even want to hear his own breathing, so he just covered his head with his hands and stuffed himself in the quilt.

When the mind is confined in a dark space, the other five senses of the body are always amplified.Jing Yan doesn't want to see or hear any information from the outside world. He is like a space capsule that is gradually being scrapped, cutting off all possible channels to the outside world, and letting himself float alone in the universe.

Sometimes he lay in bed without feeling anything beneath him supporting him.Both body and mind were suspended in the air, and he didn't think about who was holding that thread, nor did he think about why he handed over his body and mind to another person to bind him.

"Jing Yan," Mrs. Yu knocked on the door outside, "It's time to eat." Jing Yan managed to prop himself up, but his calf was a bit weak and he couldn't stand up. "Understood, I'll change clothes and go down."

After saying a word, he felt the thirst in his throat. He drank the remaining half glass of water on the table, put on a short-sleeved T-shirt and pants, and opened the door.

It's already the end of March, and the house smells like camellias wafting from the yard.The flowers bloomed so well, it couldn't have been planted in the past few days, probably because someone had ordered the gardener to tidy up the yard in advance.

Jing Yan felt that the smell was so pungent that it made people dizzy, he held his hand and went downstairs, there was fresh hot tomato and egg noodles on the dining table, and a few dishes of side dishes piled up next to it.

"I've been drinking porridge for several days. Let's have some noodles today. I'll make you a small bowl." Jing Yan sat on the chair and didn't answer, picked up a few chopsticks and ate slowly.

Seeing that he seemed to be able to eat a little bit, Mrs. Yu breathed a sigh of relief. "Eat slowly, I'll clean the upstairs room for you." However, as soon as she went upstairs, Jing Yan put down the chopsticks.

The bangs are very long, and they will block the eyes when they are put down, and they cannot completely block the light outside.The living room is too bright, which makes Jing Yan's eyes hurt so much that he wants to cry.Staying in the dark and opaque room for a long time made him not want to see anything bright.

He went to the kitchen to drink a glass of water, with two sliced ​​lemons and a bag of passion fruit beside him.He choked on just one look, and he'd never told anyone he liked drinking that stuff, only that one.

Lu Qian told Mrs. Yu that either he went out to buy it with Mrs. Yu, or Lu Qian simply came here by himself.

No matter what the possibility is, there is that name that Jing Yan has forced himself not to remember countless times these days.He took a lot of effort to block himself out, the name that filled his whole brain, just appeared in his life so easily.

Jing Yan suddenly felt a rolling pain in his chest and abdomen, he didn't understand why this person could still appear from the gap after throwing him away.He shivered and put down his water glass, ran back to the restaurant and grabbed his chopsticks to eat noodles.

The face was very hot, as if it had injured the palate mucous membrane.He swallowed wildly, trying to suppress the feeling.Yu Sao heard the voice and came down, "Oh, don't eat so fast, chew slowly."

He was chewing vaguely, and there was no light in his eyes under his bangs. "I finished eating, I went up to rest." Jing Yan took a few steps up the stairs, locked the door, and rushed into the bathroom of his room.

He lay down on the toilet and vomited out all the food he ate, which might have been bought by Lu Qian.This thought only flashed in Jing Yan's mind, and the stomach poured out the stuff very self-consciously.

The body and the heart are torn apart, and no matter what his heart thinks, the body can no longer bear a little charity from that person.Jing Yan knelt on the ground and retched a few times, took the water and washed his face, beside the sink was the ointment brought by Mrs. Yu.

Jing Yan raised his hand and watched under the light.The wounds on his fingers were all scabbed over safely, and he stared at that, having extremely weird thoughts in his heart.You sent the ointment too, right?Do you think that the healed wound can be regarded as non-existent?

He tore up the parts that had been restored with great difficulty, and bit down the parts that could not be torn off with his teeth. His actions were rough and even made some places that had no breaks bleed.There is only one idea in Jing Yan's mind, and I can't let him get his wish.

The author says:

Tomorrow I will take a day off from comic exhibition!