After the years have passed

never thought

It turned out that on the day you left

It has become my end

Kim Taehyung turned the door lock, his fingers were slightly purple, and he closed the door tremblingly.

Before changing his shoes, he slumped on the sofa, and suddenly he started laughing, louder and louder, and finally almost crazy.

After laughing for too long, maybe he was tired, so he curled up and buried his head heavily between his knees, but finally couldn't hold back, crying like a child who lost his beloved.

For a long time, the room was still filled with sad sobs.

……

I stood in the heavy snow for a whole night until I lost all feeling, cold, and pain.

But it is very strange that he is not sick, but surprisingly in good spirits.

When my father saw me, his face was a bit ugly, he simply made breakfast, and then ate it dully.

"Where did you go"

His father's tone sounded questioning.

"Didn't go anywhere, just dangling outside"

"Didn't sleep all night?"

"Um"

My father's eyes flickered. He wanted to speak, but I got up suddenly and held back.

Closing the door, I nestled in the quilt.

I didn't cry anymore, and I couldn't say whether my heart was still in pain or not, but my whole body felt out of consciousness, my mind went blank, I closed my eyes, and fell asleep without knowing it.

I was woken up by my father, and as soon as I opened my eyes, I met a face that was a little anxious and then relaxed.

"Why did you sleep so dead?"

"Hmmm?"

"Do you know that you have been asleep for two days?

"Two days? How long has it been?"

I fumbled for the phone next to my pillow in a daze, and clicked on it, and February 2 was displayed on the screen.

"Just wake up, let's get up and eat something"

With food in my stomach, plus a good night's sleep and a hot bath, I seem to be in pretty good shape.

My father's observing gaze, which had been frowning tightly, became calm, and he stopped focusing on me. He turned on the TV and watched the news in a bored manner.

"I'm going out for a walk"

"Where?"

My father stood up vigilantly and walked to me.

I looked at him funny, stretched out my hand and stroked my hair, "I want to cut it short, and then buy some clothes"

"Oh, then go early and come back early"

After speaking, he sat back to his original position and stopped looking at me.

……

The sky cleared up, and the sun that had melted the snow shone on the face, giving it a hint of warmth, but the air was even colder. This kind of contrast really made people love and hate it.

Standing at the door of the barbershop, he hesitated for a while, trimmed the corner of his clothes, took a deep breath, and strode in.

When I came out again, I had short hair that was as short as the earlobe, and it was dyed a chocolate color.

If it is summer, it should be very refreshing and pleasant, but in winter, it seems a bit out of place.

However, I am quite satisfied, although the moment the hair stylist cut the scissors, I still felt a little pain in my heart.

Carrying big bags and small bags, I walked on the streets of Hongdae, just like when I first came to Seoul, I was caught in the crowd and watched the performances of street performers.

The dance they danced was their new song, and they were unconsciously lost in thought, but their eyes were wet.

Sure enough, I still can't do it, even though I have tried so hard to restrain it, it still becomes a scar that cannot be touched, and the blood will not stop bleeding when I touch it.

Can't stay here any longer.

Just as I was about to turn around, a voice from my ear made me stop.

"Hey... I really envy those girls who got the tickets, unlike us, I can only watch the jump here"

"Don't mention this, I will get angry when I mention it, so many votes, before I realize it, it will be gone"

"Yeah, BTS is very popular now"

The two little girls who looked like students beside them muttered dejectedly, with their shoulders thrust forward, watching the performance in front of them with some disdain in their eyes.

Today is the beginning of their world tour again, and Gocheok Dome is the first one.

They finally stood on the stage of their dreams, and they should enjoy this moment very much. They have worked so hard to get the glory.

Subconsciously opened the bag, and pulled out an admission ticket from the wallet.

This was given to me when he brought me back to my hometown, and it was also given to Han Enxue.

His fingers were a little stiff from the cold, and if he was not careful, the paper in his palm fell to the ground.

Looking down, I was a little dazed, maybe I just took it as a piece of useless paper and threw it away.

He raised his foot and crossed it, but he was stopped by someone before taking a few steps.

"Hey wait, you seem to have dropped something"

After a short pause, turn around and say "thank you"

The other party saw that I didn't intend to reach out to take it, so he smiled, stuffed it into my hand, passed by, and hurried away.

With that paper coupon in his pocket, he stuffed it back into his bag, hailed a taxi, told the driver the address, and drove towards the concert.

No matter how much I endured it, when the moment really came, I would still do something instinctively, and the fact that I still loved him could fool everyone, except myself.

Miss him so much, really miss him so much.

……

After getting out of the car, he stroked the broken hair around his ear, walked forward, and silently stood at the end of the entry line.

This is a venue that can accommodate tens of thousands of people, but there are still no absentees.

Not long after I went in, all the lights were turned off, and I screamed for a while, and all the cheering lights were held up high, flashing and flashing, like the ocean, and the beauty was thrilling.

Their image appeared on the main frequency in the center, and suddenly I realized that I was in a very good position, in the middle of the T zone, also in the front row, and the entire stage was in sight, very clear.

I realized that I didn't have a support light, and I was squeezed into the crowd with big bags and small bags, looking a little embarrassed.

Under the spotlight, they were very handsome and excited, and they danced a few strong dance songs in succession.

Everyone around, and even the entire stadium, were filled with shouts one after another.

Only myself, I just looked at that person quietly, my eyes fixed on him, every movement, every time I sang, my heart would be pulled by something, and the pain couldn't be worse.

It's so out of place with this hot and swollen crowd.

This is where we should be. You are right in front of my eyes, and I can see every look of yours.

But what about you?

can you see me

Would you still like to see me?

At the moment when the tears couldn't stop flowing, he pushed aside the crowd as if fleeing, and ran out of the field.

He hid in the bathroom and never dared to come out again.

……

In the backstage lounge, Kim Namjoon was quickly reapplied by the stylist, but his eyes saw Kim Taehyung lying on the chair next to him with a tired face.

"Taehyung, are you okay? You look bad."

"……fine"

"Persist for a while, there are still a few songs to end, cheer up"

Kim Namjoon patted Kim Taehyung's shoulders and gave him an encouraging look.

"Um……"

Standing on the stage again, Kim Taehyung's face was pale, and his eyes were a little distracted. When the last song was coming to an end, he just fell straight down from the stage...

The scream was harsher than ever, and I raised my head.

Standing up, as soon as he walked out of the bathroom, he saw many people with work badges on their chests, running towards the exit in a hurry, and vaguely heard a few words.

"... Where's the ambulance?"

"Where's the security guard? Call the security guard!!!"

"...ask Namjoon to say a few words to stabilize the scene."

"How much blood?"

"........."

"Already unconscious..."

……

bleed?coma?There are people injured?

When he entered the venue again, it was already a mess. Kim Namjoon seemed to be talking about something on stage, it seemed to be about him.

But after the line "...Kim Taehyung accidentally fell off the stage..." I couldn't listen to anything else.

There were buzzing sounds in my mind and ears, as if I had been hit hard by something, and the pain was splitting.

In the next second, he frantically ran out towards the gate.

Looking for the sound of an ambulance, he saw that he had already driven a hundred meters away, and he collapsed to the ground instantly.

After a while, I came back to my senses and remembered that the ambulance seemed to belong to the Central Hospital, so I got up abruptly, took a taxi, and drove directly to the hospital.

"Master, please hurry up..."

"I said this lady, you have also seen that there is a traffic jam, I want to hurry up too, there is no way I can do it"

The front and rear cars are almost endlessly lined up, and I will go crazy if I wait like this.

"This is money, thank you master"

Immediately got out of the car and ran desperately...

Maybe I shouldn't have come to see you in the first place, or maybe I should be glad that I came to see you.

"boom!!!"

Accompanied by a long series of sharp braking sounds, the already thin body was knocked ten meters away by the machine.

Drowsily half-opening his eyes, he saw a lot of feet surrounding him, slowly stained with a layer of blood red, and he couldn't see anything clearly anymore.

……

In the central hospital

All the doctors and nurses looked very nervous, all frowning, not daring to neglect for a moment, racing against time to prepare for the operation.

"Why did you send two patients with such serious injuries all of a sudden?"

"Where's Professor Li? Hurry up and call him over!"

"Nurse Zheng, how is the condition of the injured person just sent?"

"..."

"Professor... that... I'm afraid..."

"...Is there no other way?"

"Let's inform the family..."

……

……

……

September 5, sunny

A beam of sunlight shines on Kim Taehyung's hands through the gap in the curtain, and the skin can still feel the slightly warm temperature, but it's just that I haven't seen the light for a long time, and I almost forgot what it feels like.

With the eyes covered by the white gauze, you can still vaguely see some yellow ointment leaking from the net.

The corner of his mouth reluctantly twitched, the bitter taste in his mouth was still there. For more than a few months, he kept drinking various potions, and his appetite became worse and worse.

Sighing lightly, he sat up from the bed.

The ward on the fifth floor is the room for seriously ill patients, and today is the day when Kim Taehyung was transferred from there to the general ward.

"... Taehyung, didn't you say to wait for us?"

As soon as Zheng Haoxi pushed away from the ward, he saw Jin Taehyung moving towards the door with some difficulty while touching the wall.

“Just wanted to walk”

"Ouba looks much better"

Han Enxuan put down the bag in his hand, walked over with a sweet smile, and helped Jin Taehyung to sit down on the sofa.

"Tsk tsk tsk~ I was fed another handful of dog food invisibly."

Zheng Haoxi rolled his eyes at them while helping to pack things.

"Isn't there a schedule today?"

"It's only in the afternoon. I'll be there when you get these things done for you."

……

It was already lunch time when Kim Taehyung was lying in the general ward.

Before Han Eun-sul came here, he made the bento by himself. It was not delicious, but Kim Tae-hyung would eat it all every time.

So Han Enxue is very happy to do it every day, even though she actually hates the smell of oily smoke, but for the sake of the person in front of her, it shouldn't matter.

"Now I'm recovering very well, you actually...you don't have to come every day"

Han Enxue, who was still full of satisfaction, immediately collapsed after hearing these words.

Putting down the tableware in his hand, he sat down on the edge of the bed.

Kim Taehyung just smiled lightly.

And Han Enxue looked at the person in front of him as if she was about to speak, but finally swallowed it back, and leaned her head on his shoulder coquettishly.

"Knock knock..."

"Mr. Jin, it's time to change the dressing"

The nurse came in pushing the medicine box.

Han Enxue stood up knowingly and stepped aside.

"It looks very good today, and my eyes don't seem to be weeping anymore."

The nurse gently removed the gauze while talking.

"Professor Li said, you can try to open your eyes after a week or so."

"Really, really?"

Han Enxue clasped her hands together and stomped her feet excitedly.

"Yes, it is"

"Did you hear? Did you hear? Oppa will be ready soon..."

"Shh...be quiet, I hear you"

Although Kim Taehyung tried his best to speak calmly, the last few words could still hear the expectation between the words.

"Okay, change it. When I unpack it next time, I hope I don't need to wrap it up again. Let's have a good rest. I'm going out first."

The nurse nodded slightly towards the two of them, and then left the ward.

"very nice……"

Han Enxue threw herself into Jin Taehyung's arms, crying, her eyes were red, and the hands holding her waist became tighter and tighter.

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☆, the final chapter

The haze dissipates, the morning light gradually rises

Open your eyes and suddenly find

I seem to miss you more today

The city is still bustling and noisy.Even though it was midnight, it covered up the brilliance of the stars and the moon, and the neon lights were changing wildly, making the night too dark to be pure.

"woke up?"

Looking forward through the slightly opened eyes, it was very dark and I couldn't see anything.

I feel that I am lying in a soft place, the surrounding is very quiet, there is no light, is it a closed room?

"Finally saved my life"

There was a confusing female voice floating in the air, which was very pleasant to hear, and had the magic power to make people drowsy again.

He tilted his head towards the source of the voice, "What time is it?"

"Oh, I suddenly forgot that you couldn't see."

"..."

Involuntarily, he clenched his fists slowly, and his heart also trembled.

"12 o'clock in the middle of the night"

Feeling that the person who spoke sat down beside him, his cold fingers passed around his eyes, and he shrank back subconsciously.

"Is it worth it?"

"..."

"Yo~ regret it?"

After speaking, I heard a chuckle, which was even more charming.

"……I don't"

"Is it?"

"Um……"

I nodded lightly, as if I also gave myself an unshakable determination.

"At the hospital, including all those who have seen you in this city and know you, I have erased their memories about you. And your parents..."

The dream woman seemed to be getting closer to her, and she could sense the oncoming breath.

"They just think you're on a trip"

"thanks……"

Before he finished speaking, he heard a series of strange laughter.

"Little girl, do you really not regret it at all?"

"Maybe I'll regret it later, but for now...as long as he's okay"

"So love him?"

"Um……"

"Love to the point of giving up 30 years of life, love to the point of replacing his with my own eyes, love to the point where he doesn't even remember who you are now, is it okay?"

"...Oh, it's okay, but so what?"

I felt warm drops of water rolling down from the corners of my eyes and dripping on the back of my hands, losing the warmth.

"I think, I'm going back to my own world soon"

The dream woman was no longer obsessed with the topic about me, but suddenly talked about herself.

"You want to leave?"

"What? Unwilling?"

"Then... Xiang Lala her..."

I have some answers.

In fact, now I don't care about the things Meng Po did to survive in this world.

Whether she goes or stays is irrelevant to me, but I am still a little worried about Lala.

"I left on my own initiative, she will be fine"

"Then does she remember me?"

"She won't either"

……

……

……

For a long time, we didn't talk, and the silence was as if there had never been a sound in this room.

I don't know when she left, and I don't know if she really disappeared.

All I know is that I sat alone for a long, long time that day, and shed a lot of tears.

……

I have lived in this house since that day.

Even if you can't see it, it doesn't affect your daily life too much. You can do it well by relying on your intuition and hearing.

This house seems to be very big, it has everything you want, you can take a shower and tidy up by yourself.

And every day, someone would deliver meals and fresh fruit, but every time they just knocked on the window and left.

Today, I have been guarding by the window since I woke up. In fact, there is nothing else. I just want to know where this is and who has been taking care of me like this. I want to say thank you.

Not long after, I heard the puppy barking "Wow, woof", and I knew it was that person.

"please wait……"

"..."

"... Excuse me, where is this?"

"..."

"Sorry, I can't see, so..."

"..."

"Can you tell me?"

"...This is Daegu, the house you live in is rented by my family"

The voice of an old man who spoke was very kind and familiar.

"Really? Thank you so much for letting you take care of me all the time"

The corners of the mouth rose to a beautiful arc, smiling forward.

"You are such a sensible girl, you should take good care of yourself here, uncle, I will bring you delicious food every day"

"Okay, thank you, what's your last name?"

"Ah...look at my memory, my surname is Jin, and this puppy is raised by my son, named Shun Xin"

I felt my heart being pulled hard.

The old man seemed to be talking about something, but he couldn't hear anything else.

I just kept repeating those words in my mind.

My name is Kim...

The puppy is raised by my son, named Shun Xin...

……

I slept very well that night, and it seemed that I had a wonderful dream. In the dream, everyone was laughing, including myself and him.

If you lose your eyesight, your hearing will become better. After a long time, you can tell the time just by listening to the ticking clock on the wall.

Uncle Jin and I have become acquainted with each other day by day, and occasionally have a meal together, and occasionally gossip about family matters.

He also raised a lot of flowers and plants, and would take me to the fields, and Shun Xin sometimes acted as my guide dog.

Such a peaceful day is a kind of compensation, right?

……

Seoul

Central hospital

"Wow~ Dafa~ Oppa can finally see!"

Jin Nanjun and his party heard the sound of surprise coming from the ward in front of them at a distance of about ten meters.

"Brother is finally healed, it's really great"

Tian Jungkook was a bear hug when he entered the door.

"God bless, God bless, we are finally alright, thank you so much"

Zheng Haoxi ran to the window, opened the curtains, and bowed to the top again and again.

"The BTS Seven can finally stop sending people out"

Kim Namjoon called everyone to gather around and hugged him together.

"...stay in the hospital for observation for two days. If the condition is stable, you can be discharged from the hospital. Congratulations, you are back to health, Mr. Jin"

"Thank you professor, you are also lucky"

"Be more careful and rest well"

"and many more……"

"Is there anything else, Mr. Jin?"

"Wait, do you have time? I want to go to your office and ask some more information"

"Can"

The professor and the nurse retreated and closed the door, leaving a group of young people cheering.

This commotion lasted all afternoon.

After everyone else left, Kim Taehyung went to find the professor alone, but unfortunately, he still didn't know from the professor who the person who donated to him was, so this has become something that Kim Taehyung has been unable to let go of , it seems that there is a gravitational force in the dark, pulling him to find the answer.

……

Kim Taehyung can be discharged from the hospital the next day, which coincides with the [-]th anniversary of BTS' debut.

BigHit company held an anniversary fan meeting specially for them, and also started preparations for a new album.

Due to the lack of a lot of filming and activities before, he was busy until late at night, and practiced harder than other members.

It's just that he has to accept such an intensive workload after recovering from a serious illness, which makes his body more or less unbearable. Although his eyes are not constantly crying, the pain is still unbearable in the middle of the night.

Even though he had prepared painkillers, even if he took them, it would not have much effect. Fortunately, this kind of torture lasted for a short time, so slowly, Kim Taehyung got used to it.

In fact, he had already asked the professor what the reason was, but even an authoritative professor with rich clinical experience could not answer, because the cornea itself does not need to be matched, so there is no such thing as mutual exclusion.

But for every country, the stock of eye banks is very scarce, and some people even spent their whole life without surgery if they had to wait for a pair of high-quality penis.

Kim Taehyung was undoubtedly lucky. On the day of the treatment, someone happened to donate his cornea.

It's just that the donor requires a non-disclosure agreement with the hospital.So no matter how much Kim Taehyung bothered the professor, it was still in vain.

……

BigHit practice room

"Flying to Japan tomorrow, there will be an FM show, so don't be too late today, go back to the dormitory early."

The manager walked into the practice room and saw the members who were tired and slumped on the ground. A trace of worry flashed in their eyes, so that the hands on their shoulders became lighter.

The next day, the city was still shrouded in morning fog, but the teenagers had already dragged their luggage, passed the security check, and boarded the flight to Japan.

"After this trip is over, I will give you a short holiday. It can be regarded as a gift for the fourth anniversary of debut."

The manager announced to the members who had just returned to the waiting room after the rehearsal.

"Wow~ finally have a holiday"

"It's really a long-lost vacation"

"Ah~ By the way, is the young lady's Chinese girlfriend coming too?"

"Well... she graduated"

"Tsk tsk tsk... It seems that I have to take advantage of this vacation to find a girlfriend and come back."

"That's right, the three youngests are all in a relationship now, we brothers really have to hurry up"

"Hey~ wait...three? Isn't it just Taehyung and Jungkook? When did Jimin catch up?"

As the words fell, everyone turned to Park Jimin in unison. Seeing the flushed cheeks at that moment, they made jokes recklessly.

……

The next day, BTS had finished their trip in Japan and returned to Seoul.

Kim Taehyung bid farewell to everyone as soon as he got off the plane, and boarded the train back to Daegu.

During my rest period due to injury, my father worried a lot, and often came back to Seoul to see me, and occasionally talked about trivial things that happened at home.

For example, worrying about finding a partner, for example, my strawberry garden was stolen by the naughty child next door, for example, the old house team at home was given to a special person.

My father said that the very sensible girl would stay with him, the old man, and talk until late, and would help with some simple flowers and plants, and would go to the fields to help, although many times she would not do well, but every time They are very hardworking and serious.

As soon as I got off the train, the sky began to drizzle. The already fresh town was covered with mist, and there was a moist fragrance in the air.

Kim Taehyung walked very slowly all the way, the rainwater slowly flowed down the umbrella eaves, drop by drop at first, and gradually formed a intermittent thin line.

He paused, stretched out his hand, and let the water drop across his fingers.

"It looks like it's getting bigger and bigger."

After speaking, he withdrew his hand again and quickly walked towards the house in the distance.

"Dad, I'm back"

Kim Taehyung changed his shoes, patted the water droplets stuck to his clothes, and walked in.

It seemed that no one was there, so I found something to eat in the kitchen, and when I was full, I went into the warehouse and changed into a set of light clothes, put on a straw hat and white gloves, and ran away to my strawberry garden .

……

"Uncle, Shun Xin seems to be hungry. I told him not to move, and he has been lying on the ground."

I sat on the ground, smiling dotingly, pinching Shun Xin's ears with both hands, playing with them.

"Ouch~ it's all my fault, I forgot to check the time." Uncle Jin walked up to us and gently helped me up. "Let's go home and cook..."

Shun Xin seemed to know that there was something to eat, so Fei Ye seemed to run away after two "Aww".

On the way back, stepping on the soft soil and smelling the fragrance of unknown flowers, my mood seemed to be washed clearer by the rain.

And the half-bright and half-dark clouds in the sky also turned into a rainbow after the rain, with a ray of cool summer wind, passing through the ears, raising the hair, and going to you, quietly carrying longing, just to see you again I met you once.

"Dad, I'm back..."

Far away, came your voice, that familiar voice.

You must be smiling right now, with handsome smiling eyes, a square mouth, blown by the wind, and pretty bangs.

I miss you so much...

Kim Taehyung.

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Oh my God! ! !

Maybe you feel a little rushed!

But Ernie really has no ink in his belly!

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so~~~

It's the finale! !

As for whether there will be a special episode~~

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This is Ernie's first time writing a novel, so it's very short~

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Maybe some content will be interspersed to make the story more complete.

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