[Criminal Minds] years before love

"Jimmy, Carrie and I used to be good friends. We went to the same school and lived close together. We were a regular threesome. In middle school, Jimmy was barely a good kid at that time, and as for me—" Rossi looked at the crowd, once His past was almost blurred in his memory, he shrugged, "You know."

"I can imagine." Hotch nodded, the corners of his mouth slightly raised, "D□□idRossi's youth."

"And then Carrie and I started dating." Rossi sighed and looked down. "It's been a long time."

"Wait. Mrs. Payne?" Hotch's eyes widened suddenly, turning to stare at him, "I thought it was... Director Payne who had something to do with you. I'm not sure if I should apologize to you for that? "

Rossi shot him a look. "Aaron, believe me, my life wasn't that great in middle school at least. But you don't have to apologize, you rarely get it wrong about me."

"Ah." Hotch caught his meaning quickly, "I thought this was more exciting than I thought? But it was you who left, and if Mrs. Payne had ever known you, she would understand that you wouldn't say a word about it. "

"Not middle school." Rossi grabbed his fingers, "and I'm telling you."

"Me?" Hotch narrowed his eyes, "D□□e, I don't count."

Rossi almost laughed, "Of course, you don't count. Carrie and I, uh, probably have the same story as most middle school students. Then Jimmy and I joined the army, and we were together all day, life and death. And then...it It just happened."

"It's understandable, such an environment, and you."

"What is and me?"

"D□□e, didn't you find that in certain situations, you would habitually use □□□ to comfort and release your emotions?" Both of them were silent for a moment, and Hotch added, "This is not an accusation."

Rossi patted his hand reassuringly, "I understand, I just haven't given it much thought, Aaron, and I don't mind you taking advantage of it once in a while."

"And you broke up with Mrs Payne?"

"I really wanted to do it, and Jimmy's part... was completely different from Carrie, never been the same. But Jimmy strongly objected, thinking that it was just, well, an abnormal choice in a special situation, after all We didn’t have a clue about the future.” Rossi recalls bitterly, “I gave in. I wasn’t sure that when we came back from the war, everything would be back to the way it was, and I wasn’t even sure that we would ever come back. .”

"It doesn't."

"Of course not." Rossi sighed, "everything we experienced is part of us, and even the forgotten ones will not disappear. But I couldn't help it at the time. After I came back, Jimmy and I entered the police station. I can't say enough to Carrie, she's so happy and looking forward to it."

"I think I can understand her mixed feelings about you." Hotch finally grabbed him back. "You did hurt her."

"Yeah, she had a reason to blame me. Anyway, she caught us on the spot..." Rossi pouted, "It's not the way I expected to break up, whether it's with Carrie or with Jimmy."

"He certainly doesn't want to be found."

"Yeah. Not normal." Rossi smiled wryly and shook his head. "I don't care that much. But Jimmy, anyway, we're torn between violent arguments and crazy sex."

"I don't know if I should be jealous," Hotch said, but held him tightly.

"And then I met Jason for the first time."

"Don't say you fell in love with him at first sight," Hotch cut in quickly.

"Come on, Aaron." Disbelief was written all over Rossi's face. "You know Jason Gideon, do you think he's the kind of guy that makes people fall in love at first sight?"

Hotch blinked, the corners of his mouth curled up slightly, "That's not funny."

"Jason gave me a whole new world. He gave lectures as an FBI trainer, as we often do now—a completely different world, serial killers, abnormal psychology, and profiling. I was deeply moved. Attracted. Then I quickly let go of Jimmy and myself, and left all the past. Joined the FBI...and every day was so exciting." Rossi breathed a long sigh of relief, and continued after a short silence, "Later I knew They got married. I don't know what happened, but I know Jimmy, and I know Carrie, and I believe they bonded because of love. Aaron, I admit that I'm really bad at handling relationships."

"They'll be fine." Hotch shook his head disapprovingly, but seriously, "but I really appreciate Gideon."

Rossi looked at it for a while, pulled him to stand up, "Go back."