[Criminal Minds] years before love

Rossi lay on the bed in the small hotel and couldn't sleep.

Hotch was not his father, the respected Judge Hotchner, the biological son.

This seemed to explain all of his father's contradictory behaviors and opinions about him, and him about his father.

In fact, Rossi concedes intellectually that Mr. Hotcher Sr., willing to pay for his college education, did not prevent him from going to law school afterwards—nor is there any evidence that he ever denied that Hotch was his son, and he could not have been ignorant of the facts.Obviously he doesn't really hate the existence of Hotch, or rather, his moral values ​​don't allow him to hate.

Rossi guesses that Old Hotchner, though deep down he may never have loved Hotch the way a father loves his son, would not really be subjectively abusing him - at least not soberly. profile.

But Rossi also doesn't doubt that Hotch must have had a bad childhood, and maybe a teenager.

It's not that he hasn't thought about applying for access to Hotch's medical files directly, and of course he can even give reasons enough for him to apply for a search warrant.But he very much doubted that there was anything in there that he wanted to know, and based on Hotch's amazing speed of recovery from any physical damage, he probably didn't make frequent trips to the hospital or get other people's attention due to accidents.Besides, Rossi also knew that if he really investigated in this way, Hotch would disappear from BAU and his life immediately.

So he'd probably never find any real proof, but Rossi knew full well that he didn't even need that.

Hotch is evidence in itself.

There is no doubt that Hotch loves his father, and his becoming a lawyer, a prosecutor, must have something to do with him.That's despite Hotch admitting his father was occasionally violent when drunk and at one point abruptly stopped his funding when he needed it most.But overall, they reconcile in the end, and he's also more inclined to separate that side from the father he mostly remembers and tries to ignore.

But those actions that were not under the control of reason caused serious consequences. Everything he experienced made him what he is now.

But Rossi doesn't think that's all.He also tried to convince himself to avoid these pasts like Hotch, and spend a longer time with him to get out of the shadows, and finally he realized that the source of Hotch and himself being trapped in this weird relationship is the past. middle.

related to death. Rossi even thought it was worse than he guessed.

Despite all the horrific crimes he'd seen committed by men of the highest caliber, it was clear that Judge Hotchner had not attempted to murder the child who was not his own.Whether it is inferred from Hotch's own attitude or from Alex's words.

Rossi was almost shocked at what he was thinking—this Alex was of unknown origin, and the credibility of what he said was questionable, not to mention that he was trying to seduce himself.Why trust him?

But he said Judge Hotchner did not have another son.In a physiological sense, he was right.

And he also said that Hotch never mentioned his mother

Indeed, he hardly ever mentioned his mother, even back then.

Rossi couldn't stop herself from suspecting that she was trying to murder her own child, that she had a motive, to end everything before starting a new life, cruel as it was, but it didn't happen.

Of course, Hotch should have no clear memory of these things when he was 3 years old, but the fragmented fear and despair will take root in his heart, and eventually grow into a terrible monster.

Rossi is hesitant to meet Sean Hotchner and ask him what he thinks of his parents and brother.Or, go find this Alex, who is very suspicious no matter how you look at it.

Before he could make up his mind, he received a message from Gideon.

Rossi looked back quickly, knowing that of course Gideon knew what he was doing and wouldn't seek him out unless necessary.

"D□□id, has Aaron ever killed someone?" Gideon didn't circle around, his tone was full of worry.

"What do you mean?" Rossi frowned.

"There was a little accident in the case, and Aaron had to shoot the killer," Gideon explained curtly, "That's not a problem. I just think he's not in a good mood, and of course no one would be happy about that, but he looks a bit ...I'm just worried."

"Is your case over?"

"Yeah, we're going back. Aaron said he's fine, but I thought it best to tell you."

"If Aaron decides it's time to shoot..." Rossi sighed, "I see, Jason, I'll rush back."

"And what about your investigation?"

"I'm just on vacation."

"...Looks like your vacation is over." Gideon hung up the phone helplessly on the other end.

If Aaron judged that a shot was necessary, then the situation must have been quite dangerous, and Rossi suddenly felt panic-of course he had to rush back.

But before that he had to go to church one more time, and see Alex one more time.