[Projectile] You smile at the hope called despair

Seeing the pink-haired girl busy at the side, Kamizuo stood up.

Although I am used to this unbearable pain before, another consequence of 'overstepping' is that my ability is temporarily limited.

He can't fully see other people's hearts for a while.

Strength is also greatly reduced.

Perhaps, the true face of this "punishment" is that as long as "unallowed feelings" arise, part of the nerves will be continuously destroyed until he "corrects the mistake".

Although the recovery ability of the body has been transformed to a level that is not human level, but this kind of damage is real.

The teacher told him before that "Super High School Level Hope" should not participate in any party, should not have any personal feelings, should not have any human weaknesses, should not have any vulnerable places, completely follow reason, and completely protect this world The "jurisprudence" exists.

He has never doubted that he does things in full accordance with the teacher's expectations, and believes that this is his value and destiny.

As for who you are, what you like, what you want—this is completely unnecessary stuff.

This way, it's really easy.

However, when the girl said that day, what would happen if something was not done well or would not be done, he suddenly felt a kind of deep panic.

Will be thrown away, will be abandoned, he will no longer have the value of existence.

So, will he be abandoned one day when he no longer satisfies the teachers?

What should we do at that time?

This sense of fear made him really want to kill the person who broke this balance.

But—if she is really killed, does it mean that what she said will definitely not happen?

"Punishment" is painful and terrifying.

However, being abandoned by others and losing all value is a more terrifying thing for him.

Nanami... ah.

When I was hugged by her, I suddenly had an urge to call out this name slowly and slowly.

He also couldn't explain the meaning of doing this, but just calling out like this was such a comfortable thing.

What a beautiful... name.

Is this... how I like it?

This time it wasn't splinters that came with the headache, but a strange feeling.

Seeing her saying those words and her helpless look, he suddenly felt uncomfortable like a throbbing heart.

I don't want to see her cry.

With her tears, his heart throbbed.

I want to hug her tightly to relieve the uncomfortable feeling.

This...is even more abnormal than before.

However, it is really a happy thing to be able to have such illogical feelings like a person.

"Seven seas..."

Calling out this name unconsciously and slowly is something that you want to do.

"Huh?" She turned her head with a smile.

"Will you be unhappy if I call you 'Nankai'?"

"How can you be unhappy..." Her eyes seemed to light up for a moment, "I'm so happy to finally call me that."

"...Nanami, what are you doing?"

"Hey?"

"I can't see it now...my ability seems to be temporarily limited. Will this...will look down on me?"

"How could it be..." She looked at him with some reproach, "As I said before, a gentleman is a gentleman, and a gentleman is my friend. No matter what others think or what happens, I will be by your side .”

"really?"

"Really." She smiled, showing what she had in her hand—it was a red wreath that she had just made.

"This is a gift, the gift of Yi-kun finding a smile—as a friend, I'm so happy."

"Why are you so happy? Did you achieve what you wanted to do?"

"Because Yijun is my important friend... Yijun is very important to me."

"What about the 'Hinata-kun' that Nanami mentioned?"

"That's..." Qihai's attitude suddenly became a little strange, as if she was shy.

"...Hinata-kun is also my important friend."

"Really..." He suddenly felt a little sad.

"Although I don't know what color Yijun likes, but I tried my best to make this wreath that contains my heart." She smiled and handed it over.

"……Mind?"

"It means 'work hard for him'. Although Ichi-kun said before that everything is 'inevitably boring'--but I still like the fact that Ichi-kun gave me something. Because I know that even if it is for Ichi-kun It is a simple thing for you, but you have worked hard for me. This is your "heart". Therefore, the efforts I have made for you are also my "heart". It’s very important’ proof.”

I'm...very important to her.

After receiving the wreath, he unconsciously froze.

I am very happy.

I'm happy to be felt to be important, not useful because of abilities...

Well!

The pain that I was used to, intensified again.

He couldn't help covering his head.

...It turns out that it will be exacerbated based on the extent of the excess.

But... if she's here...

It always feels... tolerable.

"Yijun! Lie down and rest for a while!"

The hand was quickly grabbed by her——although it was a small hand, it was unbelievable and really felt the power.

Do not……

"The pink and white flowers are very suitable... I also want to... give Nanami... such a gift."

In the eyes, Qihai's expression suddenly became astonished.

"Yijun... laughed again."

I... laughed again?

"Yeah!" Qihai's expression turned into surprise, "...and it's a really nice smile."

"It's a pity that I didn't get it... But it doesn't matter, as long as I find it, Yijun will definitely laugh again in the future."

……

Kamito wears pink and white cherry blossoms and weaves them into a garland.

Although the ability is limited, it is still very easy to do.

He put a pink and white cherry blossom garland on Qihai's head, and he also put on a red garland.

"...In this way... Nanami is also... an important person to me."

——When he said this, Qihai quickly pressed the phone.

"I caught it this time... Ichikun's smile!"

God Zuo saw that on the screen, he showed a smile that brought the same feeling as Qihai.

This is... the smile that comes naturally when you feel warm and happy.

……

"When you see these flowers, you will be able to recall happy memories..." Nanami put the extra petals of primroses in her portable notebook, "I want to treasure them well...it has a special meaning."

"Special significance?"

"Ichikun sees those cherry blossoms, will he think of what happened today? Then, these cherry blossoms also have special meaning to Yikun."

yes……

God Zuo looked at the pink and white clouds blooming in the blue sky in the distance, and suddenly felt a mood.

Such a warm and happy mood.

"Then Yi-kun—" Qihai smiled and stretched out her hand, "Let's continue to create happy memories together today!"

……

Pulled by Qihai, I walked through the path full of cherry blossoms, walked through the cool stream, and walked on the grass.

He didn't understand the meaning of doing these things.

He has not been exposed to anything other than books and what the teachers have said.

Now his ability is also limited, and it is impossible to analyze why.

However, Nanami told him to stop thinking about the teachers and just play.

——What is simply playing?

——Just play, find what you like, and come here as you like.

This is the answer given by Qihai.

Is it something that makes him happy.

So, is it such an inexplicable and simple thing?

What can it bring to the world?What conclusions can be drawn?

"Why are you thinking about strange things..." Qihai looked at him with some amusement, "Why do you want to bring something to the world, and there must be a conclusion... Isn't it just because you want to do this thing... Want to go Just do it!"

Hey?

"Because I like it... As long as I like it, other things don't matter. Yi-kun should decide his own affairs for himself."

So... teachers...

"The opinions of the teachers are not those of Ichi-kun. Because Ichi-kun has his own heart... so Ichi-kun can decide his own affairs. Besides, some things must be found by oneself, so that they will be true. clear……"

"After I was defeated by Ichi-kun, I realized that I really didn't consider Hinata-kun's feelings at the beginning... I always thought wishfully, that it was my hope to share happy memories together. But in fact... the teacher told me This sentence... is actually one-sided... There is really a gap between me and Hinata-kun that cannot be ignored."

"Although I really don't like this...it's just my wishful thinking...at least, if I could understand a little more...I wouldn't feel so...regret...now, I don't even have a chance to apologize."

"Your Majesty, don't be blind and make yourself regret..."

Is this your experience?

"It's sort of... But, it's not necessarily correct. Which one is correct... I don't know... Because, every time I encounter something, I will change my opinion..."

For those with absolute abilities, this is meaningless.Absolute ability to foresee all futures.

"Is that so... But I always feel that... this is not a good thing. If the future is already doomed, and there is no point in doing anything, then... why do you still seek hope..."

"Although I don't quite understand it now...but...I don't like this kind of thinking."

……

A few white alpacas ran in the distance.

Qihai saw it, took his hand and ran over.

"Wow... so cute. Although Tanaka-san also raises some, the outdoor ones are more robust."

She immediately hugged the alpaca's neck, "...it's so soft and comfortable. Would you like to pet it?"

He hesitated.

The living things, except Qihai and the animals killed in the laboratory, seem to have never been touched.

"Don't you like it?" Qihai looked at him suspiciously.

"..." His hands were shaking.

"Are you afraid? Then let me help you!"

She took his hand and rubbed the alpaca vigorously.

He was a little confused.

Soft, warm, still moving.

So uneasy...the body unknowingly emits a cold murderous aura.

The alpacas immediately let out a terrifying cry, trying to escape.

"wait……"

Ignoring Qihai's reassurance, they struggled to escape to the distance.

This made Qihai look depressed.

He looked at his hand silently: "I...is scary. Whenever I touch a living thing, I will think..."

"...Didn't Yi-kun touch me before? It's useless to be afraid...it's just looking for a reason." She smiled, "I know this feeling...everyone in the class has this kind of feeling."

"I didn't dare to touch it because I was afraid of being uneasy...I said I was scary...There are many reasons for that."

"But... it's just to guard against fear or something, but it can't communicate well? If it is to guard against fear... this kind of feeling will be passed to it... Of course it will be afraid too?"

"If you want to pass on the feeling of relaxation and love to it, it will respond with all its strength."

"Does Yijun like to escape? If you want to do it, do it."

!

A cold expression gradually appeared on his face: "The teachers have never assigned such a task... If it is to kill, it will be very easy."

"Really...that's really pitiful." Qihai showed a disappointed expression.

"What's so good about it." His breath became even colder, "Aren't they all going to die in the end... What's the point of doing such a boring thing?"

"It's meaningful... Then, why don't you give it a try? Isn't it possible to do a lot of amazing things?"

……

... This is really annoying.

After catching up with the fleeing alpaca, he restrained all his breath and put his hands on the alpaca's neck.

The alpaca didn't respond.

"Isn't this... meaningless..."

...The flat tone was interrupted by the sudden movement of the alpaca.

!

"Yijun, are you afraid of unexpected things?" Qihai observed his expression and laughed.

"Yijun said before that the result is doomed, and the future is also doomed...how could there be unexpected things?"

He gritted his teeth suddenly: "The ability to predict the future will not be used in such a boring place!"

"Is that so... Then, the future to some extent is uncertain?"

"..."

"It seems that I have hit the mark? Then, it is still meaningful to work hard and pursue hope?"

"Perhaps Yi-kun knew the ending of everything a long time ago... But, we can meet and meet these things... I think... it is meaningful?"

"So, I'm thankful, a certain level of 'uncertainty' ... it must have something to do with it."

"At least...tomorrow, it's uncontrollable, right?"

"Yi-kun, now, enjoy this uncertainty. There must be...the answer you want to find, which is different from the answer given by Yi-kun's 'teachers'...I will always be with you. "

……

……

There, Nanami and I spent an unexpected day in an unprecedentedly relaxed mood.

I just wanted to see her, so I got there.

Never thought it would be like this.

what is the meaning of...

Although the teachers have told me before.

Now I have to wonder too.

While it's a no-brainer to just accept the answer...

But Nanami told me that maybe this will bring about regrets.

I……

I am 'Super High School Level Hope'.

But now, I think it is a very lucky thing to exist as a human being.

At least they don't have to be chained and suffer that pain all day long.

It turns out... I, too, have the same emotions as them.

If the teachers are not satisfied with me, then at least Qihai will be by my side.

Don't think I'm useless.

Don't look down on me because of my lack of ability.

I will be important to her, and she will be important to me.

At least tomorrow is unmanageable.

Even without being given the value of being human.

The overlapping chaos and daily life will finally give the answer.