[Projectile] You smile at the hope called despair

Today is the weekend.

Thinking of preparing the next week's bento and needing to buy ingredients, Qihai opened the door of the house, only to find Yikun standing outside.

"Yijun? Why don't you come in?"

Yijun was silent for a while, then slowly said: "Because... I don't know what kind of greeting to choose."

How to say hello...?

"Although the 'teachers' have taught me how to deal with all kinds of people... But before that, the 'identity' of the 'interlocutor' must be determined..."

"Qihai...I don't know what type of 'identity' I should classify you as."

Does this... need such strict rules...

Qihai was a little dumbfounded.

"...Of course you need it. Because you have to confirm the situation before you can make the best arrangements...I was taught that way before."

"That's why Yijun has been hiding in the dark...was he waiting to be discovered?"

"...No. That was a coincidence."

"Why, Yijun feels that there is no way to be sure? We are friends."

Yijun was silent again, as if thinking about something.

"Qami is my important person. This feeling...is not like the 'friend' in the definition of relationship...I don't know."

Is that so... Those teachers, what did they teach this child...

Such strict regulations on what to say and what to do, and I have never seen him change his clothes, and he is still wearing a school uniform on weekends...

"...That's because I don't know what kind of clothes to change when I come to see you. When negotiating, it's always right to wear a school uniform."

Negotiate?

Surprised by the words that popped up suddenly, Qihai saw that Kazukun uncomfortably missed her sight.

"I want...to find the meaning of 'uncertainty' together with Nanami...the meaning of looking forward to 'another future'."

"I don't know what to do...but, following Nanami, something unexpected will always happen, so I..."

...This child, did he live in a vacuum before...

Moreover, he... saw through what I wanted to say again...

"Yi-kun's ability has recovered." Qihai was pleasantly surprised.

Yijun nodded: "It's more or less getting used to it, and it doesn't hurt so much... Hard work will always pay off. Although I am used to organizing the language before speaking... But after I get used to it, it will be better. I'm like that and don't want to talk to me."

"How come... Yi-kun, I am very happy to be able to express my thoughts like this." Qihai picked up the shopping bag, "I am going to buy ingredients for the next week, do you want to go and see together, Yi-kun? "

……

The two walked on the busy street.

It seems that in order not to make himself too different, Yijun tied up his hair.

"If it bothers you, I'll be upset too."

Qihai remembered the first time he met Kazukun.

He has never been aware of the captivating eyes and ghostly posture—it's probably because he hasn't talked to anyone before.

Although he is really powerful, this child, in fact, is really lonely.

The common sense of life is zero, and I am used to doing things according to the set procedures.

I have never been in contact with anyone, just follow myself, and like to use various reasons to eliminate anxiety.

Ah...Actually, before meeting Hinata-kun and before Yukino-sensei encouraged me, I must have been the same.

Nanami thought of her empty home all this time.

Parents rarely go home and are busy with their own affairs outside.

Although she has no worries about food and clothing, Qi Hai has never thought about contacting others.

Gradually, I fell into my favorite game world.

After getting affirmed by playing games, I feel that contacting others is a troublesome thing.

As long as you get caught up in the game, it doesn't matter what others do, anyway, it's unnecessary.

It's fun to spend day after day like this.

As long as you play the game well, you can get affirmation.

Before becoming friends with everyone, Nanami was quite casual about housework.

I can't cook and don't want to cook, so I fell in love with desserts, fast food and takeaway outside.

It’s okay to sleep until noon, buy an ice cream and continue playing games.

Sometimes waking up in the middle of the night to hang out for a new game.

No one had ever taken care of her before.

After becoming friends with everyone and wanting to know more about everyone, she found more things she wanted to do.

While feeling troubled by everyone, I gradually changed myself.

……

At this moment, Qihai suddenly felt that Yikun's eyes had been focused on him.

Has he... been looking at her?

Since Yi-kun has the ability to see through people's thoughts...then, has he seen everything...

Sensing Qihai's gaze, Yijun gave her a faint smile.

His gaze gradually became gentle.

"That day... after I lost my ability, I felt something very important."

Yijun's voice slowly sounded from her ear.

"I have the ability to see through people's hearts. For me, communication is unnecessary. As long as I want, anyone's current thoughts can be read very clearly, especially like, suspicion and hostility."

"That day, I lost my ability, so I had to ask Nanami what she thought. This is meaningless to me who has the ability."

"However, after trying it myself, I realized that... asking, sometimes not just to get ideas and make countermeasures... just chatting like this is a very happy thing. It feels like... Nanami, discovering Same as me."

But then, his tone became cold.

"Qami is special, other people are boring."

"Bored people only think about their own affairs, only think about stepping on others to climb up, and then only care about their own fat and reproduction, and use the power in their hands to despise the people below... to control their fate. They are obviously insignificant existences, But using all kinds of ways to show each other's presence...it's boring."

"People without abilities have no need to exist. They are always pulling each other meaninglessly and repeating meaningless things... The world has no longer evolved. Only capable people are leading The world goes on..."

His tone was full of hostility and contempt, which made Qihai very sad——Ichikun, he wanted to reject the outside world so much.

Hope that most people in Feng's undergraduate course seem to have such a hostility.

It seems that people who have worked hard to climb up to this position have a little eccentricity.Although this eccentricity allowed them to be affirmed in their talents, it kept them away from ordinary life and was looked up to by the people below.

However, the problem that should be solved still exists.

Thus, eccentricities that are rejected by others are decorated by them as characteristics.They like to use their talents as a shield and refuse to communicate with other people. In this way, they dispel their distrust of the outside world.

In the end, the only thing they can trust and rely on is their own talents.

Just like her, there are only games in her world.

It was Hinata-kun who pulled her out of her alone world.

Hinata-kun without talent.

A person who was obviously hurt by himself, but still smiled and listened to her talking to herself.

Looking at this face exactly like Hinata-kun, but uttering such words...

"Yi-kun thinks... what kind of person is a person who has no ability...?"

!

It was obvious that he realized that he had said something wrong, and his expression became unnatural.

"I know... Ichi-kun is very powerful and can do a lot of things, much better than a super high school level in the general sense... But I don't like this kind of Ichi-kun."

"If Yijun loses his ability again one day, do you like to be treated like this? What should we do afterwards?"

This time, you are completely overwhelmed.

"Why... the world in Yijun's eyes is like this, is it terrible?"

"..."

"So... Yijun just saw the thoughts in my heart, what is it?"

"...It's a very happy thing to be in contact with others..." As if he sensed that his ability was used wrongly, Yi Jun's tone became hesitant.

"Sure enough... Ichi-kun doesn't know everything..." Qihai looked at his terrified attitude, and her eyes became pity, "Yi-kun's ability... is something that only one can see through and want to see... All the things you don’t want to see are skipped.”

"If you just want to repeatedly confirm your uneasy thoughts... you are simply self-satisfied and stubborn?"

"Why does Yijun have to use his ability to see other people's hearts..."

"Otherwise...if something bad happens, it's impossible to analyze the correct countermeasure..."

"Then Ichi-kun... is full of hostility towards everything around here?"

"Seven seas..."

"I'm only interested in malice, so I won't understand anything. Being hostile to everything around me makes me feel even more lonely..."

"Yi-kun, you have to watch all this carefully."

"I... don't know... the teacher taught it. If you don't analyze it in this way... there will be many mistakes... and you will be..."

"If you have malice towards the world because you were hurt maliciously... that is, very unfortunate. Saizonji in our class was like this before."

Xiyuanji classmate, as the heir of the classical dance family, was hurt by many competitors at home.

Even though she just heard her say that, Qihai can still feel the horror there.

Things like putting nails in a child's boot, stuffing a bed with dead rats, knocking out overhead lights on stage, putting drugs in someone's meal, etc.

Saizono said she hated her family, hated her last name, and wanted to curse them all to death.

——In this world, there is nothing more unbearable than the jealousy of these talentless guys.

For the sake of fame and fortune, this family has no warmth.

When Xiyuan Temple was young, her father pretended to be crazy in order to protect Xiyuan Temple, and was kicked out by the head of the family who valued the family's reputation, and she never saw her parents again.

Because of his superb talent, Xiyuan Temple officially became the heir and was loved by the Patriarch.

……

Xiyuanji's classmate always speaks acrimonious words.

He used pranks to play tricks on his classmates. At first, he even tricked his classmates into eating the flowers in the lawn.

It is said that because of the noble blood, it is destined to be the upper class, and everyone else is a slave.

Most of the students in the class naturally didn't want to talk to her.

But when Qihai held a game conference, she still showed a longing look.

At the beginning, Xiyuan Temple just yelled that only Miss Koizumi was kind and gentle to her, and everyone else was slave sows or something like that.

Qihai was very difficult to deal with this situation, and finally asked Mr. Yukino to solve it.

"Don't always be like this, student Xiyuanji. Always close yourself like this... If you graduate, do you plan to be like this in the future..."

Nanami saw that the eyes of Saiyuanji's classmate became moist for a moment.

……

"If the world that Yikun sees is like this... then I will help you to see the other side of the world, right?" Qihai held Yikun's hand tightly, trying to dispel his anxiety, " No matter what, I will never leave Yikun, because I am Yikun's friend."

"But... if Kazu-kun gets stuck in a strange place... As a friend, I will remind you, okay?"

"I didn't think so at the beginning... Before, I was similar to Yi-kun... I also felt that others are troublesome... As long as I have my own talents, it will be fine. But, Hinata-kun told me to play with me The game, I am very happy... and reminded me, 'Don't carry everything alone', cooperate with the pace, let me take everyone's feelings into consideration-because everyone is a game player. With this feeling, I really I got a different harvest than before.”

"Everyone is a very individual person, and their talents and preferences are different... But, this is not the reason why we can't communicate. Even if the talents are different, if you coordinate well, you will be happy. Let's welcome HAPPYEND, as long as everyone truly Participate in——Hinata-kun reminded me of such a powerful conclusion. In my mind, Hinata-kun is a very powerful person."

"Student Xiyuanji, you always use various methods to isolate everyone. We had a headache for a while at the beginning... If we left it alone, I'm afraid it's still like this... But, I think... ...Even if you are hurt, you have to try to believe and understand...then the situation will get better."

"So now I am very happy every day. Although I didn't like it at first, but if I change the way, I will find that everyone is a very good person."

"If you see this possibility...you will see a different future, right?"

……

He listened blankly and looked at the girl's smile.

The ability to see through the mind seems to be an obstacle for her.

Qihai said that there is no way to fully understand if you have a stubborn attitude in advance.

Insufficient knowledge and understanding are enough to affect correct judgment in ability.

So, which is right and which is wrong?

Without the guidance of ability, how should we judge?

Qihai is always used to believing things are good.

But there are too many malicious people in this world.

There is no way to imagine, let go of all defenses and face the world——

If it was a malicious attack, how would she maintain her trusting heart?

Is it like being taught by the 'teachers' before, no longer believing, falling into despair?

"Qami... What if one day the person you trust abandons you and betrays you?"

"What will happen..." She thought for a while, but still showed a firm expression, "I will continue to trust him and let him return to the way he was at the beginning."

"What if he approached you with malice in the first place?"

"I will still trust him, because I believe everyone has a heart."

"What if he has no heart at all?"

"There will be no such people."

nonsense.It's just...

"Why... Qihai insists on believing so much?"

"Because...if you don't believe that things will get better...how can you work hard, how can there be hope?"

"In this case... you will die."

"It's okay..." Her smile was so dazzling, "I like to get to know you, and I fell in love with you in the process of getting to know you... Of course there is Yikun. If I didn't care about anything because I was afraid of Yikun , Yi-kun is still very lonely now, and everyone is scattered...I like myself very much to be able to do things that I never thought of before."

"I don't like the atmosphere of undergraduates. Although I recently found someone who is willing to make friends in the class like me... But it is actually quite difficult to change the atmosphere... I was also rejected by many people who persuaded me There are also... But, if you don't take this step, there will be no future things."

"At least, it's done now—everyone in the class, as well as the juniors of the new batch, have the idea of ​​spending a happy time together—thinking about it this way, you can understand that apart from talents, I You can still do a lot of things. It's the same with Yi-kun."

……

The two started wandering around the supermarket.

Qihai observed the various ingredients, thinking about what kind of combination they would have in the future.

Yijun stood aside, still looking at all kinds of accumulated ingredients with dull interest.

"Have you ever thought about what to cook?"

"I don't know... this kind of meaningless thing is very boring."

It really is so...

"So shall we try the cooking game? Let's see who comes up with more interesting dishes?"

……

Probably because of his ability to read minds, Yijun prepared all the dishes that Qihai likes.

This surprised her very much.

"I'm so happy... Does Kazu-kun like these dishes too?"

His tone was very hesitant: "...I don't know. But Qihai likes... Considering doing this, it's better."

"Why do you do this? Will Yijun be happy when he does this?"

"I will be... happy." Yijun thought for a while, and gradually turned into a firm tone, "Because Qihai is an important person, if Qihai likes it, I will also feel that I am useful-although I don't know if this is liking , but I want to do something like this."

Hearing this, Qihai took his hand happily: "I actually like Yijun's mood."

Such an answer made Yijun very panic.

"I'm... very strange. The 'teachers' also asked me to do things, why... do I feel different? Is it because... I didn't get blamed for not doing well?"

"It's not because Ichi-kun cooks well... As long as Ichi-kun thinks about me like this, I'm very happy." Qihai was a little melancholy, "If I cook for Ichi-kun, but the cooking is not very good, Will Yijun be happy?"

After speaking, she took out the dinner plate she had hidden before.

It's a cute omurice.

But compared to Yijun's, it seems a bit ordinary.

"Does Yijun like it?"

!

Seeing Yikun's expression, Qihai felt sincere joy.

"Yi-kun really has the same mood as me... I'm very happy, not because of whether Yi-kun is doing well or not, but because it's really a wonderful thing to be thought of by others. If you think about it this way, cooking this Things will become very interesting. Yikun is my important friend, and I hope to bring you, Yikun’s smile. With this kind of mood, even if it doesn’t work well, I still want to do it.”

"To bring smiles to important people...?"

"It's not just for important people? It's also for myself." Nanami smiled, "Because I like Kazukun's smile. It's the same when I'm with everyone in class, because I like everyone, I like everyone With a smile, I want to spend happy time with everyone and get to know you better.”

"... What if other people don't think so?"

"Then show your interest in playing games!" Qihai seemed very interested, "As long as you expect things to get better and the game can be cleared, you will work hard. Hard work will pay off... And I believe, Although they have different ideas, everyone is a good person, and they all look forward to a world full of smiles... If you think like this, everything you do will be meaningful."

"Isn't Yijun the same way, looking forward to bringing a smile, so he did these things..."

……

This world, in my eyes, is full of despair.

Desperate people, because of the gap in ability, desperately pursue desperate positions.

Because there is no way to reach it - they are caught in a worthless spiral.

When the ability cannot be achieved, various small actions are started.

It's really boring.

But, in the beginning, they did look forward to bringing a smile.

Looking forward to being valued, looking forward to being affirmed, looking forward to being thought of, looking forward to being valuable.

but……

It ended up like this.

……

"If you just change the angle, things will be very different."

"...As long as you want to understand, you will find a lot of interesting things. Like my classmates, although they are all hot topics of online discussion, but... it seems that there are really not many people who are willing to understand them... Most of them are talking about how powerful they are and how envious they are... Now, it seems that who they are describing... I don't know them at all."

"Hinata-kun thought the same way at the beginning... But after getting in touch with him, you will feel that everyone has a lot of interesting things. Everyone... If you put aside the idea of ​​​​identity, you are actually easy to get along with."

"For example, Saiyuanji-san was not frank at first, but she likes Jinpeito and flower arrangement... Although she has been taken care of by her family before, she also wants to live independently... In private, she also asked Hanamura-san for advice on how to make flowers and flowers. What about the fruit. Because she has been worrying that the presents she gave on everyone's birthday were not exquisite enough..."

"Tanaka-san spoke very strangely at the beginning, but he is actually a very gentle person who is afraid of loneliness. When Sonia-san praised his hamster for being cute, he would be very happy; once at a cooking conference, I ruined the cooking. Tanaka-san actually ate it all...just to keep me from disappointing...and even said that his mother did the same..."

"The second classmate, although always encouraging everyone and showing a very energetic look, in fact, his stomach has always been bad, which was caused by being hospitalized when he was a child... He said that he was eager to discover everyone's characteristics and cheer with everyone, So I worked hard to learn massage..."

……

He was a little surprised.

All the things she said were things he hadn't noticed before.

I have observed them for so many days, but I have never thought about them this way.

I have been taught before that things without purpose are meaningless and boring.

Everyone is a competitor, a boring existence who steps on each other to obtain resources.

All people are like enemies.

As long as it is the strongest, it will not be looked down upon, it will not be eliminated, and it has the value of existence.

... Just like this conclusion, the world has become so boring in his eyes.

Is this what she called, the other side of the world?

Hinata Hinata who is obviously so incompetent and boring.

In her mouth is actually such an important person.

When mentioning him, she will show a very nostalgic expression.

Obviously a worthless, penniless person——

But no matter how he behaved, he couldn't win.

What is wrong with this?

Which is the correct answer?

As an existence loved by talent—why, talent couldn't tell him?

"In Qihai's eyes...what do I look like?"

Qihai described other people's happy expressions, which made him want to know what he looked like in her eyes.

"Yijun..." She showed a worried expression, "If I say so, Yijun will be very angry."

It shouldn't be a good answer... But, escaping like this is an attitude of seeking an answer.

"...I won't be angry."

"Yi-kun doesn't seem to...don't want to think about his own affairs at all. Although he is really powerful, and there are indeed corresponding skills in many places...but, there are actually no rules here...so tense-this will It's kind of boring. Always trying to be brave, regardless of your own limits... It's hard to let go of a Kazu-kun like this."

"However, Yikun has another side..." Qihai smiled slightly, "Just like me...Yikun is also someone who is looking forward to change and looking for answers. Although we don't know where we will go...but, Just do it if you think about it! Otherwise, Ichi-kun would not come to see me... I am very happy that Ichi-kun can accompany me to prepare cooking today."

……

I am also very happy to bring you a smile.

Nanami, indeed discovered many things that he hadn't noticed before.

Although it has no effect on the whole world...

But if you think about it this way, maybe you can really look forward to another future.

Even if it is destined to be destroyed...

But as long as you believe and want to change...

People will eventually find real hope.