[Projectile] You smile at the hope called despair

Chapter 9 Tumi

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People are very weak, so weak that they cannot even be sure of their own "voice" and "existence".

That's why I desperately pursue the so-called "powerful".

They also often have very self-righteous fantasies about what they are looking for, and become very aggressive when expectations are not met...

Do everything possible to attack the guy they don't like!

So they are very useful! (?)

A little incitement will make you excited! (?)

A group of people can do things that one person dare not do!

"Everyone" working together is "hope"!

Nothing is impossible!

Because they all believe in each other's "hope" and can get what they want, and work hard to cooperate and help each other...

They also added a reason why they thought it was wonderful!

For hope!

Tsk, he's obviously a rogue guy, but he always wants to look like a high-end person...

Whether it is those who think they are talented or not, it is the same!

Fortunately, this broken school pays special attention to this point!

And once this boring "hope" is broken, it becomes despair!

Originally thinking that they were all enemies, the desperate fact that they hadn't found out and were powerless to change the world that didn't kill each other was so hopeless and boring!

'Talented people hope that boring scum can be a stepping stone. It's an honor. What are you still waiting for? Only absolute hope is the best! '

Ahh... so annoying!I'm so tired of talking in such a serious tone all the time! ...But it will be boring enough to perforate the stomach! (crazy)

Say something that you will feel happy if you do something you haven't done!

……what!Stupid pig!

After all, people are the type who get tired of everything quickly! (star eyes)

...Although I am also tired of this kind of character that gets tired quickly. (gloomy)

Wow... Senior is so cruel!bad guy!Is there any reason to keep such a cute schoolgirl here?Wow wow wow... (tears of noodles)

What's the problem? Hey!Don't you think this world is boring?

Why throw yourself into hopeless boredom!

There is no room for you in this world!Why not kill these boring guys!

Ahhhhh!

Come on, ah hello!It's so boring to think about the past all the time!

Hey Hey hey!

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"you, too."

"Always, self-serving, expecting things of your own wishful thinking."

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senior!You are outside!Don't think that if you keep hiding your breath, people won't feel it!

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"Are you sad? Are you happy? If all of this meets your expectations, will you be saved?"

"The undead who keep laughing at the ants...Which one will gain more glory or regret? Do you think...you can find the feeling of being alive by turning everyone into your image?"

"Just repeat the previous words mechanically... This at least allows you to prove the meaning of your existence..."

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Then tell me about it?

In this world, what is there to look forward to, what is the need for existence?

Isn't it just a boring pre-planned reconciliation... No matter what the predecessors expected, people will always repeat their previous paths...

Always looking forward to something to live...Always looking forward to being saved by something...Always enduring for the established path...

It's annoying!Disgusting!

So ah~ People see this kind of world...

I like to have a good sex the most!

Especially that prudish face who thinks he can solve everything and find hope without giving up!

It's the best to defeat such a line with a sense of justice!

Treating such idiot-like existences as hope and packaging them as "heroes"...to justify their actions...

Thinking about who to attribute the crime to... to be alone...

Even though she has fallen into despair, she is still pretending to have hope...

Isn't it good to admit the truth obediently?

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"If you find this fact, what will happen... If you don't like this world, do you want to end it..."

"What kind of world are you looking forward to...?"

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Of course it is a desperate world!

All killing each other... destroying everything...

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"Then... you also have to die here, gaining the final despair."

"Because you... have been tired of all this... everything is so predictable, and even feelings can't tell the truth from the fake..."

"So you ruined everything about yourself... right?"

"Through pain and suffering, to feel the real sense of being alive...Through many lost and distorted emotions, to experience those 'love'..."

"...You have longed for death. But the fear of death can't give you new despair, and you did this..."

"Thank you very much. The road you opened up also helped me clear the huge obstacles on the road... If it weren't for you, I might have been the one who did all of this... Unfortunately, I don't like showing off very much. Woolen cloth."

"I'm sorry I just remembered it now... As a token of gratitude... you've worked hard all this time?"

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"There is no response... Are you immersed in the words you have woven again... When you don't want to hear it, you can't hear anything..."

"Then watch it again, your 'drama'..."

=========== There is no relationship to the dividing line ===============

The nine-headed dragon died.

She died at this school.

The teaching buildings are densely surrounded.

Only the police coming and going,

Proclaim the truth of this incident.

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Hinata, who just learned about this incident, seemed to have heard a joke.

The nine-headed dragon who was talking and having lunch together yesterday was not here today.

Mingming cried yesterday and vowed to go to undergraduate, to catch up with her brother's footsteps...

It's the fierce and willful nine-headed dragon who doesn't bother anyone!

Died today?

What... died?

Why did you die?

wrong.

By the way, this is obviously a school, why did the murder happen?

Isn't the biggest conflict in school the fight and being hospitalized and expelled from school?

Why is there murder?

And it is such a famous Hope Peak Academy, how could students be killed?

Are you kidding?

The satchel in his hand fell to the ground.

The surrounding discussions gradually became indistinct.

……

It was raining in the sky.

Pattering, gradually indistinct.

Hinata held an umbrella and wandered around the campus.

Aimlessly wandering.

"For the sake of the nine-headed dragon who died, you must live a good life."

Probably because there are no friends, no one mentions this person except for the vase of flowers on the table.

... Sato didn't come either.

"I didn't come, maybe I was late."

But what he heard before, related to Kuzuryu and Sato, always gave Hinata an ominous premonition.

Uneasy feeling.

The uneasiness is here, if you don't leave the classroom for a walk, you will have a feeling of collapse.

So at Hope Peak Academy, for the first time.

Hinata skipped class.

There was no one else on the road, and the sound of the rain seemed noisy instead.

It's like footsteps that are thin and don't know where to go.

The white mist invaded the sight, and there were quiet green leaves and thin white flowers wrapped around the mottled black iron fence.

Swaying and scattered.

Spring is coming to an end.

The deadline is approaching.

He still didn't do anything.

Obviously yesterday I felt ■■■■■...I didn't expect it to be today...

!

What... I don't know... I don't want to know...

I... if... I...

No, what can I do...

. . . except for superficial, comforting words.

There's nothing for show... ah.

It's like forcing others to cheer up when they don't know anything.

The bond between each other...is it really hope?

So, if there is a bond, tell her that your brother loves you very much and values ​​you very much, so that she can give up going to college?

So what is she doing all the time?

Forcing others to think this way, saying "this is the right way", is this... really good?

Is this what you call "hope"?

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No amount of joy could drive away the cloud in her heart.

So this is just...pretentious...pretty words.

Obviously don't understand anything... I'm completely talking to myself...

I...can't do anything...the me right now, can't do anything...

If I had the talent... Maybe I could...

can...

... find hope?

So, fear of disappearing?

...Obviously I have witnessed so many joyful things...

but!

If you do nothing... always pray for good things to happen...

That is unforgivable...

Really... unforgivable.

……

Hinata clenched her fists.

The white flowers bloom quietly side by side.

No matter how it is blown by wind and rain——

Still blooming quietly.

Hand in hand, the white flowers spread quietly.

Even if I don’t know what to be——

Still quietly spreading.

Clusters of white flowers live silently.

Even if it's never noticed—

Still living ignorantly and fearlessly.

The silent and withered white flowers finally fell silent in the fountain.

The girl was walking alone in the rain.

It looks like it's cold...

The moment he saw her, Hinata rushed over uncontrollably.

There was a sudden thought of wanting to hug her tightly to his chest.

"Seven seas!"

"...Hinata-kun."

She looked up, her expression seemed a little indifferent.

!

"Why don't you open an umbrella...you'll catch a cold if you go on like this..."

Suppressing that shameful and rude thought, Hinata looked at her reproachfully, and took off his coat: "If you don't take good care of yourself, there is no way...no way..."

He suddenly remembered what had happened, and was suddenly at a loss for words.

Qihai still had that calm voice: "It's obviously class time, why is Hinata-kun here..."

"I... I have something to do today, I asked for leave..."

"So... Hinata-kun, now I want to be alone for a while, is that okay?"

Her face was covered with rain, and her tone was cold.

Seeing these, Hinata only felt a throbbing pain in his heart.

She must... be worried, because of the nine-headed dragon...

Obviously you are working so hard to get to know everyone and become friends with you...

I pray for everyone's happiness and happiness...

but encountered these things...

No...

"I can't do it. Because Nanami like this is always very worrying."

"Qami is a very powerful person, and has become friends with everyone. But it's not good to stretch yourself too tightly, Qihai, after all, she is a girl."

"There's no need to worry about it alone... It's okay to rely on a little...friend...haha."

But even if Hinata forced a smile, Nanami still had that expression.

Oops……

Hyuga lowered her head helplessly: "Then...I'll just stay here...don't talk, is that okay?"

"After all, Qihai didn't bring an umbrella...you can share one..."

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...a long silence.

So embarrassing.

Well... at least say something.

However, wouldn't talking rashly bother her...

Besides, she wanted to be alone.

but……

What if she continues to be depressed alone?

... so embarrassing.

... My heart looks like there are many ants crawling over it.

Hinata decided to take a sneak peek at Nanami's expression from the corner of her eye, only to find—

She was observing his face very seriously.

This, what's the situation!

"...Hinata-kun is really talking to himself, like some unreasonable game..." Nanami's helpless voice sounded leisurely, "But... thank you."

"Troublesome things... It's really embarrassing to have someone next to you who doesn't talk or anything. If you're embarrassed, you won't be in the mood to worry."

Qihai smiled lightly.

"...Hyuga-kun is probably the invincible star in Mario, shining brightly, and jumping down when seeing monsters."

what?

This is, what a metaphor!

However, things look better.

At least, you can try...

After all, if you don't communicate well, you can't convey your feelings.

"Qami... I really like games. If you encounter an opponent you can't win no matter what, or a level you can't pass no matter how hard you try, will you... continue to play the game?"

"I've seen Hinata-kun, a game I'm not good at before... I lost badly. I was also depressed at that time...but... I think...whether I can win or not, or whether I can do it or not, I will continue to play... because, I like games."

"Uh... As expected of a super high school level game player..." Hyuga Weiwei sighed, "What if you encounter games that don't make sense? That is to say... those that don't even have a clear meaning..."

"Hinata-kun is talking about 'dung work'... Although it is unreasonable, there are other ways to enjoy it... The fun of the unreasonable game is to work hard to conquer it, and if you work hard, you will succeed. "

"Even if everyone hates it, then...?"

"What is Hinata-kun talking about? This kind of fun is my own business... I think it's not worth letting these insignificant things affect your mood. It feels... that is, just do what you want to do Already!"

If you want to do it... just do it... If it were me, I would have thrown this game out a long time ago.

"Nanami...it really is very strong."

The feeling of liking...is the strongest...so no matter if you can do it or not, you will never give up.

Because I can't give up my heart.

Or... I underestimated her too much.

Hinata smiled.

"It's great to be able to say that... I'm the same. So it doesn't matter if you lose. It's okay to take a break and start again later."

"No! You have to work hard to get over it!"

Qihai puffed up her face slightly.

She seems to have regained her spirits.

Hinata was a little happy.

The matter of the nine-headed dragon...even if nothing can be done...

At least there are things that can be done... I guess.

I don't want her to lose her smile...

It would be great if we could do more.

Can do more...to help people.

Hinata clenched her fists.

The white flowers withered around, lost in the grass blades.

Even in silence, the earth still remembers their tracks.

"...Today's situation seems to make it impossible to play games here... It's a pity."

"Hinata-kun, shall we go to the game center together?"

The girl put on Hinata's coat and smiled.

They disappeared into the rain holding hands.