[Comprehensive] Martyrdom is not a good civilization

It's a new day, and it's still a beautiful day.

This Sunday, I propped up the drawing board, sat on the balcony facing the fine morning light, sent my father's mechanical cold greeting call, stared at the blooming lilies, and meditated silently.

Obviously it was still a flower bud when I brought it back last night, but now the petals have stretched.It's driving really fast, and it will be replaced with a new one in two days.

"I bought it at your favorite store, don't be too picky, mom~"

Like a baby, I stared at Lily and muttered to myself.

【叮——】It is the notification sound when the mobile phone receives a new message.

【Mr. Dazai:! ! 】

【Mr. Dazai: I have an assignment today, so one slug is enough!Ahh, I didn't even have time to implement the suicide plan. It's not my fault that I didn't see the news! 】

【Mr. Dazai: Be cute.jpg】

I read the time of this reply, two o'clock in the morning... Well, the black-hearted boss really hammered it.

【Mr. Dazai: I want to chat with you for more than five yuan. 】

【Mr. Dazai: Red envelope】

I silently clicked on the red envelope, 【Huh, I forgive you. 】

【Mr. Dazai: Is that little Ayako going to die in love with me! 】

【...Dazai-san lack of oxygen caused by lack of sleep? 】

【Mr. Dazai: Sleep time is enough~ Death from lack of sleep is too painful! 】

【…Then what gave you such a bold idea? 】

[Mr. Dazai: I have studied all the methods in the suicide manual, and it is completely useless. My goal is to commit suicide in a clear and energetic way! 】

【Mr. Dazai: So I found a new way of thinking, Ayako and I will die in love together! 】

The premise of dying for love is to have love...you are stupid, today's Dazai-.-

[Please allow me to solemnly refuse! 】

【Mr. Dazai: Ah, so sad. 】

【…】

He obviously wanted to ask Dazai to pour out the black mud, but in the end he was smeared, and he always felt like he had lost...

Throwing away the phone, the fullness in the blood vessels felt a little uncomfortable. I spread my hand, and the slender palm was soaked in the sun, and a palm-sized candy bottle suddenly appeared out of thin air.

There are a few light blue frosted snowflakes on the body of the bottle, and a few crystal clear purple candies inside the bottle, which are bright in color and look very appetizing.

This time the sugar... is poisonous?

I frowned and shook the bottle, and the candy dropped powdered sugar crumbs when it was shaken and collided, just like normal candy.

These candies have a faint connection with me, and I can sense the general effect of each candy.

The strawberry-flavored pink candy that is placed in the cabinet is blood-enriching, and it has a miraculous effect on menstrual dysmenorrhea.The blue mint-flavored candy replenishes the energy value. If you have it before the exam, you will never have to drink bitter coffee...

Candies of four or five colors, this time the lethal purple appeared for the first time.

[This time a new species appeared, which is poisonous. 】

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Dazai didn't reply, and he was probably sent out to work by the unscrupulous boss again. It's a terrible job to be squeezed to death without five insurances and one housing fund.

My fingernails scratched the frosted snowflakes on the bottle body, and my thoughts flew wildly. When can there be that kind of candy that makes me see ten lines at a glance and never forget it?

What is the use of this kind of candy, which is not even comparable to rat poison? Is it used for slow suicide? Damn it!

Shake your head and get those inappropriate thoughts out of your head.

Dazai almost took him into a ditch.

The self-portrait on the drawing board was completed, and the pale smile on it was as ugly as a ghost.

I tore off the painting, crumpled it up and threw it into the wastebasket, thinking I might as well go out and have some fun.

So I put a handful of dried fish in my bag and walked to an alley not far from the apartment where stray cats often haunt.

I met a few familiar housewives on the road, and I greeted them with a smile, although the emotions in their eyes—like pity and love—made me unhappy.

The wind in the alley is cold and humid. If you pass by here in the sun in summer, you will definitely be able to sigh comfortably.

I stuffed a small dried fish into my mouth, it was prepared for cats, without salt or spice, it had a fishy smell but was very fragrant.

"Great man, I'm here to bring you food!"

The heartbroken man is a three-colored cat, lying on the wall and basking in the sun with his eyes squinted, enjoying himself very much.

The reason why it is called "a heartless man" is of course because it is really a heartless man worthy of the name!

With food in hand, it meows at you, flicks its tail when it's full, and ignores you no matter how teasing it is, it's so cruel.

I stretched out my hand, and the heartless man jumped off the wall with two self-conscious grunts, tilted his head and approached to rub my calf.

Because the alley is very close to the apartment, and the surrounding area is very safe, I came here wearing a European-style nightdress and sandals.

Carefully tucking the corners of the skirt, I knelt down and squeezed the dried fish with one hand, and rubbed the head of the three-flowered cat with the other, "Alas...in this cruel and ruthless society, only the head of your heartless man can make me feel a little warm! "

The Sanhuamao shook its ears and concentrated on eating the dried fish.

The happiness of feeding the cat is always short-lived. After the heartbroken man is full, he jumps up the wall without looking back, and runs away as usual.

I patted the crumbs on my hands, and watched the "unwilling man" go away.

My legs were a little numb, and I stood up on my knees. The moment I turned around, my vision suddenly blurred, like a mosaic reorganization, and the scattered light spots were reflected on my retina.

The alley disappeared out of thin air and turned into a wall, and several old dormitory buildings rose up on the way.

Lying, lying trough?What the hell? ?

My legs are not numb, I'm even shaking a little now.There is a clear boundary between the shadow and the sunlight under the wall, and a refreshing breeze blows towards my face, chilly, like someone is blowing on the back of my neck.

I shrunk my neck, the blood from my limbs drained quickly, and my whole body felt cold.

"Ayako, what are you in a daze for, you're going to be late."

The soft voice fell, and out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of a pale hand slowly resting on my shoulder.