Shirayuki

"Have you really thought about it?" The chief surgeon hesitated, "Your score is not very high..."

A psychological evaluation is required before the operation. Although Bai Xue deliberately filled in the answers of many feminized patients, as expected, unwillingness still takes up a lot.

The night Han Zinian found him by the river, the two of them sat quietly next to each other's shoulders for a long time.At dawn, Nie Liujun called and told him that he had an urgent mission.Han Zinian told him that he had to wait until he came back to talk about anything.

But Han Zinian had been gone for less than a week, and Yan Chu came to talk to him, coercing him internally and externally, but Bai Xue remained silent.

Yan Chu was extremely annoyed, and told Bai Xue negatively that if he revealed his gender in the future and could no longer do tasks, neither he nor Shen Xuan would call back to the headquarters, but "destroy" it directly.

In the past few years Bai Xue has been here, besides Lin Huini, Shen Xuan is the one who cares most about him.It doesn't matter to him alone, but he can't implicate Shen Xuan, Shen Xuan is innocent.

So, behind Han Zinian and Shen Xuan's back, he went to "perform complex tasks".

"I don't think so clearly, Yan Chu won't let me go." Bai Xue smiled coldly.People are floating in the rivers and lakes, and there is no one who does not suffer from the sword, and the orphans of martyrs are not as important as the real mission.

"...That's not the case. Your appearance and throat are feminine. We mainly consider doing breasts and lower body. Because we will be engaged in dance work in the future, we can only choose between 200g and 250g silicone. …Then, we need to cut off… um, and then create another… Don’t worry, it’s not much different from a girl.”

"As long as you're happy." Bai Xue took a pen to sign, "Are you ready? I'm leaving."

"Oh, no problem, I'll arrange it for you right away." The doctor didn't dare to look into Bai Xue's eyes.

Outside the inpatient department is a large lawn, lush and green.The sun was so strong that people couldn't open their eyes, and Bai Xue put her backhand on her forehead, "Isn't it time to start to look a little feminine?"

★

When being pushed into the operating room, facing a lot of strangers, Bai Xue felt very gloomy, closed her eyes and didn't think about it, and fell asleep after the anesthesia.

When he woke up again, the nurse was very excited, "You finally woke up, you have been in a coma for two days."

Bai Xue heard half and missed half, because her lower body was in pain, so painful that Bai Xue suspected that the doctor used an ax and a saw to split it slowly.Both legs were fixed, wearing elastic stockings, and Bai Xue saw a urine bag from the side of her face.

The face in the mirror was pale and pale, like a Xi Shi beauty.

"Don't move until the stitches are removed." The nurse took out a few books, "Is it boring? I'll read to you."

"Oh, good. Where's my rose?"

The nurse helped Bai Xue to put the rose on the bedside, "I know you treasure it, water it every day, it will be better."

Bai Xue touched her beloved rose, and her frail hand was pricked inadvertently.Put your hand in your mouth, and tears fall.Rose, don't even you like me like this?

A week later, the chief surgeon came to remove the stitches, and he still had lingering fears, "You had a severe reaction to the anesthetic, and we said that day that it was hopeless. Who knew you were quite strong, and you can still be fine now. You really need to pay attention to it in the future." , the second allergic reaction will be greater."

The bloody cotton yarn was pulled out from inside, Bai Xue only took one look at the cotton yarn, and kept vomiting.

The wound gradually healed, and Bai Xue stood in front of the mirror, looking at her brand new self.Doll head, pointed face, neck without Adam's apple, protruding chest, slender legs.

With the catheter removed, I was able to go to the toilet for the first time.Bai Xue picked up the toilet cover, then picked up the seat, she stopped and put the seat down.

Been sitting on the toilet in a daze.A long time ago, when living with a group of girls, Bai Xue squatted to pee. When she met Lin Huini, Lin Huini resolutely corrected him and told him that boys should stand up.

What now?Is he a boy or a girl?

The huge psychological pressure made Baixue sit up, but she didn't pee.In the end, I could only pretend to take a bath and solve it standing up.

Every time he went to the toilet, he needed to take a shower. The nurse aunt laughed at him for being too clean.Bai Xue gradually didn't like drinking water, which caused dehydration. The nurse's aunt could only watch him drink every day.

After another painful week, Bai Xue hugged the rose and basked in the sun on the window sill.Spray the leaves with a watering can and dry them gently with a cloth. My aunt also laughed at him. People love clean flowers, and so do flowers.

Han Zinian came to visit when he was unprepared.There is no words for each other, no tears.A petal happened to fall off, and Bai Xue picked it up calmly. This was the last gift left to him by his father. It was said that it contained chronic poison, so he would rebury every leaf.

The newly fallen leaves are bright and beautiful, and Bai Xue looks at the sun through the petals, which is crystal clear.I couldn't help but put it in my mouth and taste the poisonous taste.

But it is full of floral fragrance, elegant and sweet.

Han Zinian understood how sad Bai Xue was, so he grabbed Bai Xue's hand and put it on his chest, "Hit me. I missed the appointment and failed to protect you."

Bai Xue was sitting on the high balcony, resting her head on Han Zinian's shoulder, biting Han Zinian's chest muscle with great force, gradually bleeding from the tip of her teeth.Putting his hands on Han Zinian's chest, he gently touched the corner of Han Zinian's mouth with his blood-stained lips.Han Zinian had imagined many scenes of seeing Bai Xue again, but he never thought about this one. His whole body was stiff and his soul was shocked.

The more you love someone, the more you can hate him.Bai Xue mixed the juice of roses into this kiss, stirred, entangled, and licked and sucked along every crevice between teeth.

During the fierce tongue kiss, Bai Xue supported Han Zinian's chest with both forearms, and Han Zinian dragged his elbows because he was afraid that his hands would be sore.

The rose liquid mixed with blood streaked down from the corner of his mouth, and dripped on Bai Xue's slender forearm, adding a touch of lust.

This was the first kiss between him and Han Zinian, full of the taste of death, sweet to the heart.Bai Xue forgot everything, at this moment, she just wanted to die with the person she was kissing.

In this way, perhaps eternity can be obtained.

But a light year had passed, and the muscles on his face were clamoring for soreness. After letting go of Han Zinian, the two of them were still alive.

"I'll take you out for a walk." Han Zinian bent down to tie his shoelaces.Maybe...Bai Xue kissed him only because she was confused and sad?Sweet roses mixed with the smell of blood, this kiss is really impressive.

Sitting there, Bai Xue could only see the top of Han Zinian's head, tying his shoelaces thoughtfully.

At that moment, all the cells in my body reminded Bai Xue that I wanted everything about this person, smile, sadness, anger, fear, pride, seriousness, everything, even if it was just to help him tie his shoelaces.

The pain on the body was diluted.Bai Xue thought, from love to hate, from hate to love, is it really that simple?He was even so humble that he felt that perhaps being with him as a woman might prevent him from being discriminated against by the outside world.

Han Zinian gently carried Baixue outside in a princess hug, basking in the sun, Baixue showed her first smile these days.

"Aunt the nurse just said that you don't like drinking water. I made you rock sugar pear water. You can drink some." Han Zinian took out a thermos.

"Ah."

You are enough in my world.

The author has something to say: Thanks to all the book friends who commented, I feel that this article is the missing link.