[Dance Dance] Wake up, Sparta

Zhang Xiaogun leaned on the side of the bed with his head in severe pain, trying to recall how she came back last night, but the memory seemed to be tied to a distant and warm voice, like a kite, floating boundlessly .

What the hell did I do? Throwing the phone in my hand on the bed, Zhang Xiaogun also fell down weakly. She couldn't remember when she called him at all, but she went back and forth a few times. The call log without a name, and the call time that lasted for several hours, let her know that something must have happened last night.

Otherwise he would not have sent such a message.

Are you better? Let's clarify something. Don't do this, I feel bad too.

For so many years, he would let Zhang Xiaogun change his profile completely beyond recognition, let Zhang Xiaogun delete the messages from people she didn't like, let Zhang Xiaogun curse him for finding love all his life when he was unhappy. If he doesn't have a girlfriend, he will let Zhang Xiaogun come and go in his world, never drive him away, and never hold him back.

Zhang Xiaogun even deluded himself to think that if this continues and there will be no other girls around him, then maybe they will be together in the end.So no matter what kind of boy, Zhang Xiaogun couldn't get along with him deeply. She was afraid that once he turned around, she would find that she was not waiting for him at the place where he left.

But he never looked back, never even saw her again.

Their school is in the same city, their home is in the same city, they have many of the same classmates, and their good friends know each other well.The world is so small, but ever since he forgot Zhang Xiaogun's birthday and they broke up, they never saw each other again.

Although Zhang Xiaogun doesn't know what it's like to love someone for a man, no matter how good she is at confusing herself, she still clearly understands that loving someone won't be like this.

He does not love me.

Picking up the phone, Zhang Xiaogun traced those words with his fingertips, she could feel his worry, his worry, his apology, maybe even a little distress or pity, but no love.

Stumbling after him all these years, she humbled herself into the dust.The more she wanted to hold on to him tightly, the more she found that she couldn't hold on to anything at all.Every bit of warmth he gave was regarded as sweet by her, and she carefully treasured it up, lying to herself that he still cared a little bit.

In fact, he is just gentle, the same gentleness to everyone.

Stop deceiving yourself, maybe everything will be over long ago.

"Sorry, I won't do this again in the future." Zhang Xiaogun quickly pressed reply, afraid that he would regret it in the next second.Seeing that the mobile phone notification message has been sent, Zhang Xiaogun let out a long breath, and suddenly felt a burst of relief.

She had been secretly in love with this boy for four and a half years since junior high school. After graduating from high school, she confessed her love and then broke up and entangled her for almost three years. Looking back on the past now, she seems to be the only one standing behind him, flowers blooming and falling, spring and summer Autumn And Winter.

Maybe young love is a matter of one person, because it is a matter of one person, so it can be so crazy that it is desperate. The whole world is only left with yourself and full of love.

Because of its purity and intensity, it is easy to be remembered.

It can only be remembered.

It was one day seven years ago, the rebellious kid Zhang Xiaogun was repeated to his younger sister's class. He stood at the door with his head held high and listened to the teacher babbling about class discipline. When he turned around, he saw a boy in red with tablecloth, jumped onto the table and shouted in a hoarse voice, I am a rabbit.

The corner of her mouth twitched, Zhang Xiaogun knew that that moment of heartfelt, time flies by the cycle of spring and autumn, was always in a corner of her memory.

Open □□ and saw Uncle Xu's head flickering crazily, vaguely aware of how he came back last night, Zhang Xiaogun opened the dialog with a guilty conscience, and large swathes of pink font quickly filled his eyes, and he read it for a long time, Zhang Xiaogun can be considered to have summed up the central idea of ​​the uncle, "I will go drinking with you after Zhang Xiaogun, and I will call you uncle."

Don't be so desperate, Zhang Xiaogun muttered and typed: "Master, calm down, the little girl has already received her retribution."

"Did you fall into the toilet?" The uncle quickly replied.

How gloomy is this person's psychology? After sighing, Zhang Xiaogun told Uncle Xu about the phone call from last night and today's text message.

"It's really good, it's much better than falling into the toilet." This kind of schadenfreude that he didn't even bother to cover up really made Zhang Xiaogun want to punch her old bust face, "But Didn't you always want to know if he ever liked you?"

Seeing Uncle Xu's question, Zhang Xiaogun unconsciously pulled out an unnatural smile, as if she didn't know since when she was used to smiling when mentioning him, not trying to forget, and no longer trying to Approaching, quietly waiting for him to slowly disappear from her eyes and memory.

There will always be such a day.

So Zhang Xiaogun quickly replied to Uncle Xu, "Words can deceive people, but feelings can't. He doesn't love me, I know that."

"I don't care that you vomited on my favorite watermelon shoes last night, Da Pao, that's good." Seeing Uncle Xu's words, Zhang Xiaogun suddenly remembered the Hong Yanyan he saw last night before he almost lost consciousness. What is it, and then start to get scared, it's a miracle that the uncle didn't leave her by the side of the road.

But he was afraid of returning home, so after thinking for a while, Zhang Xiaogun still spoke his mind: "Actually, I have really been unhappy with your pair of watermelon cloth shoes for a long time." Zhang Xiaogun had no choice but to try to divert the uncle's attention.

"Master, do you know that I found a very delicious sushi restaurant."

“Is the watermelon sushi delicious?”

"Grandpa, do you know that Xinbai will have a discount recently."

"Is there a discount on watermelon shoes?"

"Uncle heard that the 3D version of Titanic is going to be released."

"You Jump. I'm not."

"..."

Speaking of the Titanic, Zhang Xiaogun got excited. After all, for girls her age, the Titanic was a sign of the times. The couple hugging each other on the bow greatly influenced the lives of many girls. Concept of Love.But it obviously didn't affect Zhang Xiaogun, whose nerves are as thick as a steel pipe, and her focus was obviously not there, "Master, do you know that when I was young, I always insisted that there is a cone under the iceberg. I think Jack and Rose are so romantic, they go to the sea to eat cones."

The uncle didn't seem to expect that Zhang Xiaogun would suddenly focus on the topic of Titanic, but this didn't change her bad mood, "So now you think you're an idiot?"

Zhang Xiaogun was obviously not shocked by the uncle's attitude, and still insisted: "No, I still firmly believe that there is a cone under the iceberg. Even if the Titanic was filmed in 3D, I still think there must be a cone under the iceberg."

But today's uncle is obviously not able to be shaken by Zhang Xiaogun's stubbornness after losing the anger bonus of watermelon shoes. I felt a little uneasiness in the way of speaking, and sure enough, the uncle said the next sentence quickly and ruthlessly, "You are not an idiot, you are pretending."

☆、Chapter Eleven

Ren Zhang Xiaogun's face is made of steel and iron, and she doesn't want to challenge Uncle Xu's bottom line anymore. She wandered to Sun Xiaoxiao's house to find something to eat. The feeling of being drunk and hungry is even more uncomfortable.Zhang Xiaogun was moved to tears when she saw the huge pile of food that Sun Xiaoxiao prepared for her.

This TM is a good friend. In comparison, Uncle Xu's two-dimensional voice actor who is the lower limit of the show all day long is really not cute at all.While slandering Uncle Xu, Zhang Xiaogun felt that these snacks were much more delicious.

"Xiaofu, eat less, your stomach is not good, and you drank so much wine and ate so much mess last night, you will have a stomachache after eating this way." Sun Xiaoxiao wanted to continue nagging, but Zhang Xiao How could you get out of it, rolled your eyes and continued to stuff it into your mouth, interrupting her vaguely: "I haven't settled for you yet, what good did you do last night."

As expected, Sun Xiaoxiao immediately silenced. After a while, he probably saw that Zhang Xiaogun didn't lose his temper, and said flatteringly: "Keep eating, Xiaogun, eat more, and grow your body."

Zhang Xiaogun, who was very useful at first, heard the words of long body, turned his head with his mouth puffed out, glanced casually at Sun Xiaoxiao's chest, which was about a dozen centimeters taller than her, and said leisurely: "How old is your body? If you say you don't have grooves in your chest, it's fine. Why don't you have grooves in your brain? There are smooth muscles all over your body."

Sure enough, Sun Xiaoxiao was silent again.Let Zhang Xiaogun eat and wipe off her snacks contentedly, and poured it on Sun Xiao's bed contentedly. After a long while, he said, "Thank you, Xiaoxiao."

Sun Xiaoxiao didn't answer, wondering if he was still immersed in the blow to the smooth muscle.Zhang Xiaogun didn't think it was disobedient, and lay there talking to himself: "I think I don't love him for a long time, but after him, I can't find an emotional sustenance, and I haven't met anyone better than him." People, I have never met such a clean relationship, so I refuse to forget him. In novels, I always say you are Spartan, but in fact I am more Spartan than you, you at least know what you want, But I never knew. I thought it was enough for me to just be with him, and many times I said that to myself, but when I was entitled to be with him, I complained that he didn't love me, and left him. I I told him that I would treat you well even if we were not together, but I didn't do it. I relied on his guilt towards me and let him accommodate me infinitely. I knew that the two of us were not suitable, and he was right. But I just don't want to let go, I don't want to admit that I didn't fulfill my original promise, that I didn't love him all my life as I said, if even the feelings I thought were so real turned out to be a thing of the past in the end, even I am so unreliable myself, so who else can I trust, I can’t make it through this novel, I can’t make it through, I like Mary in my heart, but I can’t convince myself, I can give, I’m not afraid of being let down, but I’m afraid of others Treat me well, I'm afraid that if I depend on him and then he leaves me, then I would rather not be loved."

After a long silence, Sun Xiaoxiao didn't speak up, and Zhang Xiaogun didn't continue talking. The eyes of both of them were blank like that. Perhaps their relationship at this age is the most embarrassing. They are no longer as pure as junior high school children, but they are also Unable to afford a too realistic future.In the end, I had to handover between dreams and reality, slowly becoming fragments, and then slowly piece together a new self.

"I know." After an unknown amount of time, Sun Xiaoxiao replied slowly.

But Zhang Xiaogun's reaction seemed to be that he didn't expect her to answer at all, so he sneered and said what do you know.

Sun Xiaoxiao also wanted to sneer like Zhang Xiaogun, but she obviously didn't have the talent for such a soft voice, so she finally had to snort softly and say, "I know you are more Spartan than me."

Zhang Xiaogun rolled his eyes, thinking that she really shouldn't be allowed to know Uncle Xu, anyone who gets close to a pig will eat him.Then I heard Sun Xiaoxiao continue to say Xiao Gun in that voice, I don’t have as many reasons as you, but I always feel that although love is to pursue a result, if it’s only for a result, it’s not counted. love.

Sometimes what Sun Xiaoxiao said was quite reasonable, but at this time Zhang Xiaogun was not in the mood to praise her, a carp jumped off Sun Xiaoxiao's bed and rushed out the door.Sun Xiaoxiao's words are really reasonable. People with bad stomachs should never eat like this.

After coming out of the toilet, Zhang Xiaogun rubbed her sore legs. She swore secretly that she would never eat like this in the future. When she returned to the dormitory and saw Mary's head flashing, Zhang Xiaogun's heart suddenly jumped violently. After jumping for a while, she vaguely remembered what a familiar yet unfamiliar voice said to her last night, but she couldn't remember what he said at all.

While clicking on Maria’s dialogue box, I looked through the call records. There were 47 missed calls and one received call, but the call time was very short, about 5 minutes. The first few digits of the number showed 0065, which is the area code of Singapore.

Putting down the phone with a guilty conscience, Zhang Xiaogun was already preparing for a storm, but Maria didn't seem to mind, and there was a very plain sentence in the dialog box: "Remember to eat something easy to digest when you get up."

Now it's Zhang Xiaogun's turn to feel uncomfortable, and she doesn't know why she is uncomfortable, but subconsciously, she knows that what she wants to hear is not such words, even if it is complaining or blaming, she doesn't want him to use this Treat yourself the same way you treat other people.Although very gentle and caring, this tone is just like Mary, polite and distant.

Thinking of this, Zhang Xiaogun suddenly realized that since when did she begin to wish that she was a different person in Mary's heart, a person even more different than Liu.

And his previous attitude almost really made her feel that she was really different.

Then what is this now, Zhang Xiaogun suddenly became angry.He typed the next sentence firmly: "It's late, I have already started to have diarrhea."

Then, looking at Maria Barabara's reproaches and exhortations, she began to laugh foolishly again.Ambiguousness is really a very magical thing. Many things are separated by a layer of unclear veil, and you can't touch them, but they are more beautiful.It's a pity that Zhang Xiaogun smiled wryly, probably because he was getting older and began to lose patience with such things, and began to look forward to something more stable.

Those things forced her to want an outcome, for better or for worse, at least one outcome.Taking a few deep breaths, Zhang Xiaogun found that his typing hands were trembling, but he pressed enter anyway: "Did you call me last night?"

"You don't remember???" Behind those question marks, Zhang Xiaogun seemed to see Maria's frowning eyebrows.

Guilty replied yes, Zhang Xiaogun felt that he seemed to be going too far.So I added another sentence: "I drank too much."

After typing for a long time, Zhang Xiaogun could even imagine how the young man deleted the typed words, carefully considering every word.In the end, only three words were sent: "I know."

What kind of answer is this? Just as Zhang Xiaogun wanted to express his dissatisfaction, he saw another typeface appear on the screen.

"I know you drank too much, because you have been crying, crying that they don't want me anymore, you can't let me go."

After being too shocked, Zhang Xiaogun calmed down instead, followed his broken morals, and tremblingly typed a sentence: "Then did you promise me?"

This time Maria replied very quickly, very calmly without even adding a few words with punctuation marks: "You don't remember this either." But Zhang Xiaogun saw the murderous intent between the lines, and felt that if he continued this topic, Sun Xiaowen Maybe even the ashes couldn't be retrieved for her.

"Mary, I want to ask you a few questions." Zhang Xiaogun's method of changing the subject was always clumsy, but Mary still gave her the usual pampering.

In fact, there are too many questions that I want to ask, but at this moment, Zhang Xiaogun doesn't know what is the most appropriate question to ask.After careful consideration, Zhang Xiaogun chose the question that had been bothering her.

Why are you teaching me technology?Knowing that I don't want to learn at all.

I don't know what the expectation in my heart is, but Zhang Xiaogun clearly knows that no matter what the question is, what she wants is the same answer. Maybe he gave that answer last night, but she doesn't remember it.

A throbbing that hadn't been felt for a long time slowly rose in Zhang Xiaogun's heart. She tightened her fingers one by one until the knuckles turned red, but she didn't even notice it.

After a long while, there was finally a reply, still in Maria's concise style, but every word, sentence, and every stroke was like a sharp knife, piercing Zhang Xiaogun's heart, dripping with blood, and shards all over the ground.

"Waiting for the opportunity to vent your anger on Liu, you made him very angry."

However, after the pain passed, Zhang Xiaogun nestled on the chair, but inexplicably smiled out of the corners of his mouth, right, this is Mary, it is because he is such a Mary, and it is because he is such a person that he gradually I was attracted by him, and when I didn't realize it, I was gradually afraid of him leaving, and gradually couldn't extricate myself.

Just as Zhang Xiaogun was thinking wildly, the phone rang again.

"But later I found out that you are very funny. Sun Xiaoxiao told me and Liu that you just want to help her get to know Liu. I hope we don't blame you. She said that you are lazy, have a bad temper, and have a poisonous mouth. Apart from that, she is really a very good person. Seeing Sun Xiaoxiao like that, Liu didn't say anything. Actually, I have to say, Xiao Gun, in the friendship between you and Sun Xiaoxiao, she has done better than you. You are much more, I know why you have a grudge against her, but people will make mistakes sometimes, just like you forgot that I promised not to leave you, since that mistake is not that important, there is no reason for you not to go Forgive her."

The fragments of that place suddenly bloomed in the dripping blood, and filled Zhang Xiaogun's heart, making her do not know how to answer. How could she not know how to choose between a man she couldn't see and a man she could smell and eat?The so-called good friend is probably the person who sees through all your shortcomings, but still never leaves you.

But these are no longer important at this time, what is important is that she finally got that answer.Although Maria, who was thousands of kilometers away, couldn't see her expression, Zhang Xiaogun still patted his exaggeratedly smiling face. Now that he had already got the answer, it was time to retrieve her long ago. I lost my reserve all over the place.

"I haven't said whether I want you by my side."

As if he could see the movement of Mary raising his eyebrows, Zhang Xiaogun continued to smile evilly and said, "You have to promise me one thing before I will give you this chance."

A simple question mark does not discourage Zhang Xiaogun. She has already suffered too much from Mary these days, so she can't wait to become a serf and sing.

"You accompany me to watch the 3D premiere of Titanic next year, and swear to the dead Jack that you will always like me, and I will be with you." Zhang Xiaogun is not making trouble out of no reason. Love needs to survive in life, but it needs something more to cultivate, and she doesn't know if Mary can give it.

Zhang Xiaogun was surprised by the beeping video request, then jumped up as if his ass was on fire, quickly looked in the mirror and clicked to accept. The boy on the other side of the video had a handsome face, he seemed a little embarrassed, and quickly took it. Take out a piece of paper and put it in front of the camera.

Zhang Xiaogun just wanted to scold his mother, but the content on that piece of paper attracted his attention.

It was a passport, and the ticketing time was this morning. The characters on the stamp were very small, and Zhang Xiaogun could only roughly read the larger Chinese characters when he squinted his eyes.

Please arrive at Terminal 22 of Changi Airport on time at 55:3PM on X/XX (early morning/morning/afternoon/evening) for check-in.

The signature of the inscription is the pinyin that is almost connected together, Maliya.