[Comprehensive] Let me go and let me die

【Kokichi Sawada】

Like the savior in the novel, the protagonist Tsunayoshi Sawada defeated the villain Bai Lan who tried to dominate the world, allowing everyone to return to the original time and space. He successfully fulfilled his promise to everyone.

Except for the girl he's always liked—

Qu pomelo.

Why did things become like this?

Sawada Tsunayoshi was very confused. Looking at Bai Lan, who was finally defeated by him, he felt a serious sense of unreality in his heart.

Returning to the original time and space with his companions, everyone who should have been cheering could only silently carry the 'relic' containing Ayou's clothes.

It was also rare for Reborn not to do anything to Sawada Tsunayoshi, allowing Sawada Tsunayoshi to hold the box, and came to Ayou's home silently by himself.

In fact, it is not the first time he has entered here.

When he was young, he actually received her help many times, big and small, the number of times was even beyond count.

The puppy who was tied up, the apples he picked up for him, the maintenance when he was blackmailed in the corner, and even the palm stretched out towards him when he fell into the icy pit of despair...

At the beginning, he would silently record it in his heart for a long time, and then as time passed, he began to learn to record it in a separate diary.

Although he thought he would never forget it in his life, it turns out that human memory is not as good as he thought.After realizing that some things in his memory were blurred, he was still young and even turned out a new diary with some fear, and wrote down all the help in those memories one by one. clearly.

Maybe the ending was doomed from the beginning?

Just like those who desperately want to remember but still gradually blur with time, in the end there is only a concept formed in my mind that I don't know whether it is remembered or not.

Sawada Tsunayoshi walked upstairs, followed his senses, walked to a door, and stretched out a hand to turn the doorknob to open it.

The girl's bedroom came into view. Originally, he would never dare to enter a girl's me so casually, but now...

Sawada Tsunayoshi's hand holding the doorknob tightened, and his fingertips turned slightly white due to the force.

With half the salary, he let go of his hand, stepped up his legs, and walked into the room quietly.

Like many girls, there are large and small pillows on the bed in Ayou's room, and there is even a large furry bear pillow that occupies half of the entire bed, and there are various plush dolls in every corner.

Really, what a lovely room...

Sawada Tsunayoshi sighed, and then his eyes were attracted by the photos on the cabinet next to the computer, where he saw himself flushed and shame-faced.

If...the previous self saw this, he would still show the same expression as in the photo, but now...

He sat in front of the computer desk and stared at the two people with bright smiles in the photo for a long time, his heart was peaceful without sadness or joy, and his vision gradually became blank.

Is it a prank set by the gods?She is obviously an optimistic and cheerful girl, but she happily pursues the arrival of death in a place that no one knows.

He never understood her, he just longed for her every day, and then looked at the girl who seemed to be shining from a distance, and hesitated under the light.

Sawada Tsunayoshi came back to his senses, he opened the box in his hand with some hesitation, new and old notebooks lay quietly inside.

He stared at the ordinary covers for a long time, then reached out and took out an old notebook numbered 1 and opened the first page.

"April 4th, today is the first day of school, but I was late because I overslept. Fortunately, the head teacher didn't make me stand! And the girl sitting next to me is so cute."

"April 4th, I was blocked by the neighbor's puppy at the door of my house after school today! Wow, why is she so fierce even though she is a little milk dog! I was rescued by the girl sitting next to me Yes, and exchanged names, but her face is cold, she must have been rejected! Even puppies are afraid of something! It’s embarrassing OTZ”

"On May 5th, I don't know how many times I was helped by classmate Qu You to drive away the little milk dog on the opposite side who always came to block me. I saw that classmate Qu You was familiar with taking away the little milk dog without me asking for help. Familiarity makes me feel so powerless QAQ But, I always feel that she is not such an 'indifferent' person like her expression?"

"June 6th, today was really unlucky. I helped my mother to buy vegetables, but halfway home, my pocket was broken, and the potatoes rolled all over the floor. But I met classmate Qu You, and she gave me a new one. Bags, but does she usually carry these when going out? I accidentally saw a thick rope in her bag, it may be used to tie the pockets, tie all the pockets together and it will be easy to carry!"

……

"On January 1rd, I was threatened by bad things again, and this time I fell into the river, and even they all ran away! At that moment, I was really desperate. When I thought I was going to die, I saw classmate Qu You! My first reaction turned out to be, could it be that this is the moment of death in the legend, would I see someone I like fly by? (covering face) Now that I realize it, I feel so ashamed! ) Ahhh, stop daydreaming! Quyu-san won’t like your Sawada Tsunayoshi OTZ”

"On January 1th, I also want to call classmate Quyou Yujiang, I am so envious of the female students in the class... But if I secretly call it in my heart, I should... Ahhh, Tsunayoshi Sawada, what kind of idiot are you? Thoughts QAQ”

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"May 5th, tomorrow I will go to the manga exhibition with Yujiang! Although it is only to hang out together! But this is the first time to go out to play with Yujiang! Rounding up is a date! (ps in the diary Secretly calling classmate Quyou as pomelo sauce feels good...good...(*/ω＼*))"

Reading and reading, at the beginning, Tsunayoshi Sawada could still smile when he read interesting places, but as time passed, as he opened one book after another, the memories seemed to emerge clearly from his mind along with the diary When he came out, his expression gradually became sad, and mist gradually rose from his eyes.

It turns out that a long, long time ago, those details that have never been noticed have always existed...

The tears in his eyes were already on the verge of falling, and with trembling hands, Tsunayoshi Sawada picked up the last diary. He opened the cover, picked up a pen that had been prepared in the box, and wrote tremblingly while talking, the voice Filled with repressed sadness.

"On July 7th, I finally defeated Bai Lan..."

Sawada Tsunayoshi's voice choked up.

"Everyone can return to the original time and space, but...but..."

As if something was stopping him, Tsunayoshi Sawada opened his mouth, but the voice could not be squeezed out of his throat. The tears finally broke through and fell on the words just written in the diary. The paper absorbed the transparent The water stains, so the handwriting that has not yet dried up gradually blurred along the water droplets.

Tsunayoshi Sawada, who had been enduring not crying in front of his companions, finally burst into tears in the bedroom of the person he admired.

It was Sawada Tsunayoshi who indirectly helped the girl realize her wish.

——It was as if he personally killed *blocked keyword* the girl he admired the most.

【Six Paths】

The encounter between Liu Dao Mu and Qu You was just a very coincidental accident.

He just happened to wander there, and just happened to be interested in it, so he entered and enjoyed a completely different scenery.

What could be more interesting than life and death?

Especially, this normal but 'abnormal' girl in front of him.

So, with light malice, he tempted the girl for the first time like a demon, and signed a contract with her.

He has carried out various deadly methods against her countless times in accordance with the contract.

Yet she remained intact.

Looking at the girl in the dream who was poking the blade of grass in frustration because of another failure, Rokudaokuro looked at the blue sky with his strange eyes, and smiled ironically at the corner of his mouth.

Disgusted by the world, retained by the world...

Kufufu lives towards death, it's really--extremely pitiful.

Maybe it's because a person's prison life makes people feel a little lonely, or maybe a girl like a small animal is really not a threat. For a long time, he began to take her into his heart, so he had the desire to let her erode himself a little bit. Opportunity.

When he reacted, he realized that he had been invaded and occupied in a terrible way, and he was also used to discussing various things with her from time to time in the dream.Although she is really annoying sometimes...

Liu Dao Mu became suspicious after a long absence——

Obviously, the relationship between them has always been very flat, and even the most fluctuations are as calm as the slight ripples of the breeze blowing across the lake.

"Boss... Do you have any other ways to kill me that you haven't tried?"

"Kufufu, no, let's talk about it when you can stand in front of me!"

Recalling some fragments of the past, Liu Dao Mu suddenly realized that fetters are not created only by living and dying together, and fighting hand in hand.

——There are hidden lights in those ordinary daily life.

He silently watched her seek death again and again, and then failed again and again. However, he himself has not used those attacks on her that seemed to kill her for a long time.

Is it really because he has tried his best and has no way out?

However, when he understood, it was already after he received the memory of the future ten years later.

When everything was settled, the girl disappeared as if she wished, and there was no trace of her in the world anymore.

No one else can be as interesting as her...

but……

Since they all came to this world from another world, who said that they would not go to a new world after death in this world?

Liu Dao Mu sighed, and then curled up the corners of his mouth, inexplicable luster shone in his strange-colored pupils.

kufufu don't forget what I said.

In reincarnation, I will find you, and then—kill you!

My little contractor——

【Bryn】

Dominating the world is really secondary, why not open a theme park with all kinds of sweets!The treasure of the town garden is my favorite cotton candy!

Bai Lan, who was thinking this way, gradually changed after communicating with the parallel world.

Bai Lan, who originally felt that she was a bit out of tune with ordinary people, has become a world that is out of tune with "I".

The nothingness that exists is getting bigger and bigger. In the end, he is alone and cannot be understood by others, so he begins to despair against the world...

Is this cookie-cutter world really real?

While thinking this way, he investigated something that was very common but very unusual to him.

What the Tsunayoshi Sawada of this world likes is not that Hanamori Hanakyoko, but a girl who died long ago.

The slight difference made him connect to the parallel world impatiently after in-depth investigation.

No!No!No!In the parallel world counted by trillions, there is no such person as Qu You!Even according to the name and appearance, there is no clue.

Bai Lan's eyes lit up with excitement.

What a surprise!What is the difference between such a special soul?You must get it yourself!

He started planning to bring the Tsunayoshi Sawada ten years ago to the present, he knows Tsunayoshi Sawada, he will definitely do what he wants, and Xiaozheng is also a very good 'friend', isn't he?

The plan was just as he had imagined, and he looked at the girl in front of him who was looking at him suspiciously as he wished, and the corners of his lips curled up in satisfaction.

but……

Bai Lan stroked her chin and looked at the girl who was playing games.

After several days of getting along with each other, Bai Lan deeply realized that he, Bai Young, more golden and handsome, Lan's charm value is not as good as a game!

Although he often thinks that playing games is better than being with those mortals, but it is his turn to be ignored, which makes people feel uncomfortable!

So he began to formulate a plan to show his strength as a god of the new world in the future.

However, although it is necessary to make a plan, Bai Lan is also doing things on a whim, doing whatever comes to mind.

Until...he saw her heart.

He sank into another piece of nothingness that was similar to him but different, and he saw another piece of beautiful scenery.

Who says nothingness can't be dazzling?

For the first time, he formally looked at the girl in front of him, and then stretched out his hand to her...

I am still living in this world with such nothingness, so as a rare kind, if I want to escape from this world alone, I will not allow it~

But Xiaoqu You is really an 'indifferent' person~

After going through her serious 'plan', Xiao Quyou hasn't changed at all... Could it be that her charm is really not as good as a game?

Bai Lan had doubts about her own charm for the first time, and even went to the street to test it.

Looking at the red-faced dessert shop waitress who was teased by him, he became deeply depressed...

But, [Choose Game] let’s take a look with Xiao Quyou too~ Although it’s certain that Xiao Quyou of the same kind won’t care much about those insignificant people, but it’s more interesting to see the opposite side playful~

Thinking this way, Bai Lan turned over for the first time.

Then at the decisive battle, he was crazily blocked by Sawada Tsunayoshi, watching her sacrifice himself in an unknown way...

"You don't know how precious Xiaoqu pomelo is!"

And what she means to me—

Bai Lan looked at Tsunayoshi Sawada who was blocking him, eyes full of madness.

"Hahahaha, that is a unique existence in all parallel worlds. In other words, if she *blocked keywords*, she will really disappear. There is no second her in any world! How about Sawada Tsunayoshi, heartache Do you regret it? Hahahaha"

Seeing the shocked Sawada Tsunayoshi Bailan laughing wildly, he picked up the familiar cat pendant that rolled all the way to his feet.

——It was given to her by myself in the amusement park.

He had given her many things before, but she never thought that this casual and most inconspicuous person would be brought by her side...

In the final duel, he took the initiative to reduce the flames.

Although there are still some parts that should be regarded as beautiful when interacting with people, he has felt nothingness most of his life.

In my opinion, this world is just a game, and the exceptions that I finally found just disappear. It's really...boring...

But this can be regarded as breaking away from this boring world together...

Bai Lan clenched the cat ornament in his hand regretfully, and then closed his eyes.

If you catch up with me, let's go to the amusement park together again.

In the end, there was only one ring left because it lost its owner, and it fell to the ground with a 'ding—', and lay quietly on the ground after bouncing a few times.