[Comprehensive] There is a Master's House in Yokohama

"Kyoko, you've done well enough." Akutagawa said.

Yunfu Kyoko felt that this sentence seemed familiar, as if she heard Dazai say it not long ago.

really weird.she thinks.Everyone is willing to trust her, but she doesn't trust herself.

"Akutagawa...I just feel scared."

"afraid of what?"

"I'm afraid it's too late." Yunfu Xingzi smiled slightly.

It seemed like a meaningless smile, because she herself didn't quite know why she was smiling.Maybe it's because I want to laugh at myself, or maybe it's because I want to comfort the young self who keeps crying in my memory.

"I am a person who is not even afraid of death. Logically speaking, I should be fearless, but I still have one thing that is afraid, that is 'too late'.

"Because I was so scared, I always told myself to work hard, to be serious, and to do my best.

"But I still make mistakes, I still slack off, and I still don't think well.

"Akutagawa, don't trust me too much, I'm not worthy of being trusted at all."

Akutagawa shook his head: "Of course you are trustworthy."

This is a weak rebuttal, and Akutagawa himself knows it very well.

Therefore, the black-haired boy with frosty temples hesitated for a moment, and raised his hand to lightly rest on the silver-haired girl's shoulder.

This action was the one that Yunfu Xingzi did when he and Yunfu Xingzi first met.To this day, Akutagawa Ryunosuke can still clearly recall every detail of that time.

"Xingzi, I trust you. Correspondingly, you can also trust me. This time I survived, and I will survive the next time. So, please don't feel guilty, and don't feel any burden."

Yunfu Kyoko looked down at Akutagawa's arm.

The boy's once thin and pale arms now seemed to contain a lot of strength.

Akutagawa's changes happened unconsciously, and now he has indeed become a trustworthy person.

"I like Yokohama very much, but do you know why I like Yokohama?" Yunfu Kyoko suddenly asked a slightly abrupt question.

Although it was a question, Yunfu Xingzi actually wanted to ask and answer by herself, her expression calmed down.

The atmosphere is just right now, and she suddenly wants to talk about her own affairs.

"I used to travel in every city in a very short time, some cities are vibrant, some cities are quiet and peaceful... In short, Yokohama is really not that good.

"But I still like Yokohama the most, because there is only this city, and everyone who lives here understands the meaning of pain deeply.

"I'm really not as good as you think, Akutagawa, I can't communicate with people who haven't experienced pain, and I can't communicate with people who haven't experienced misfortune.

"When I became a writer, I found that I could write an infinite number of tragedies, but only one comedy.

"So, I'm also a very shallow, narrow-minded guy.

"When I was young, my mother took my father and I constantly traveling through various worlds. It felt like we were wandering. The reason for this was because my mother wanted to cure my father's illness.

"My father's disease is an unfortunate disease. It doesn't mean that once he has this disease, he will become unlucky, but only those who are unfortunate enough will get this disease.

"It's not some unheard of strange disease called multiple personality disorder.

"In other cities, when multiple personality disorder is mentioned, everyone will immediately get excited, right?

"Several people live in one person's body, each with its own memory, each with its own personality. Everyone must be excited and think: It feels amazing, very interesting, very rare and so on.

"That's why I really like Yokohama, even if people don't understand this disease, they can understand my father's misfortune, and the pain my mother who loves my father is suffering all the time.

"It's a pity that I really didn't understand it when I was young. Once my father's main character came to his senses briefly, and he showed me a sad smile.

"I asked him why he got this disease, and he replied: 'Kyoko, I'm the one who can't figure it out. I don't understand why everyone can live on their own.'

"I was really stupid, so I asked him back after listening: 'Then it's better to rely on others?'

"Yeah, if he could rely on others, his father wouldn't get sick. He and his mother met so late that it was too late.

"Later, the waking time of the main personality of the father became shorter and shorter, and the sub-personalities who took over from him in charge of the body all had varying degrees of self-harm tendencies. My mother was an excellent psychologist, but even she was helpless.

"Conventional treatment methods are useless, so my mother had to take us to wander in other worlds, looking for some illusory solutions, such as magic, superpowers, fairies that make wishes come true, etc. Unfortunately, there has never been a cure. can be found.

"Until the end, my mother brought us to this world and began to search for 'books'. Taking advantage of my mother's negligence, my father finally seized the opportunity and successfully committed suicide.

"In the end, my mother got the 'book', but she didn't think about using the 'book' to revive my father. She said to me: 'It's too late, Kyoko, I'm tired, so let's end it like this.'

"It is indeed too late, because mother's heart has died along with father..."

Yunfu Xingzi couldn't continue, tears poured from her eyes.

This is really a bit rude, she raised her hand to wipe away her tears indiscriminately.

But Akutagawa's reaction was faster, and he hugged Yunfu Kyoko again.

This time he hugged very hard, but not so hard that it would cause pain. He put his head on Yunfu Xingzi's shoulder so that neither of them could see each other's faces, and Yunfu Xingzi didn't have to feel embarrassed about crying anymore. .

"You've never told us these things before." Akutagawa whispered, his voice sounded muffled to Yunfu Kyoko.

"I just thought that you might not want to know about these old events." Yunfu Xingzi whispered.She tried hard to hide her nasal voice, it's really rude to cry or something.

"No, you just don't want to talk about it." Akutagawa retorted, not tactful at all.

Yunfu Xingzi felt a little resentful, just a little bit: "...I'm sorry."

"Don't say 'I'm sorry'. Kyoko, you are good enough." Akutagawa raised his head, and he looked at Yunfu Kyoko with extremely calm and focused eyes. "Never say 'I'm sorry' to me. I'm the one who should be blaming myself. It must be my behavior that makes you uneasy. It must be that I'm not strong enough to make you feel powerless."

Akutagawa didn't say a word, but it played in his heart several times.

It's like repeating a poem silently, silently singing the most moving ballad.

Every time he meditates, he can feel the strong beating of the heart in his chest, feel the blood flowing through the whole body, and feel the strength.

But Akutagawa doesn't plan to speak out yet, he doesn't want Kyoko to take more responsibility.

Kyoko has already taken on enough.

So he just repeated it silently in his heart:

What I have been pursuing, longing for, the meaning of existence... I have already obtained it.

that is you.

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