Dumb

I saw his cautious face when he held my feet tightly and helped me apply the medicine. I saw him stuff the pinch of fairy wands into my hands and shouted to burn them. I see. Seeing his slightly green face when he held my face and kissed my lips, I also saw him leaning on my thigh and muttering: Yu Shen, I like you...that is the one I loved. Zhang loves smiling face, those are the tearful eyes I loved.

Luhan, I really want to hear you call Yu Shen again.

Luhan, I really want to hear you say you like me again.

Luhan, I really want to see you again.

……

"I fell in love with a girl when I was 17. It was she who made me firm in my beliefs and persistent in my dreams. I wanted to be as good as her. I thought that was the only way I could be worthy of her. Unfortunately, in the end, I still lost her."

"I'm not afraid to say some things. If I have a chance to see her again, this time I will never let go of her hand no matter what."

"Each of us must have our own dreams to survive in this world, and everyone should fight and fight for our dreams. We are still young, we still have a good youth, and we still have a long, long way to go I want to go. I hope that you can also become an excellent person for your own beliefs like me, so that you will not waste your youth."

I seem to see Luhan's face looming in the sky like an illusion, and I seem to see the corners of his mouth slightly raised, as if he is calling my name softly.I slowly raised my hand to touch it, but only thick blood flowed down my arm. The warm touch was like Luhan kissing my lips when I was 17 years old.

I know I'm going to die, because people only play so many memories of the past when they die.Sure enough, my head started to hurt violently, but I didn't have the strength to look any longer, everything in front of me became more and more blurred, and the darkness swallowed me bit by bit.And the gray sky above his head gradually disappeared into his pupils.

Luhan, Luhan...

That was the last name I would ever call in my life.

It turned out that he had been in his heart all these years and never went away.

【End of text】

◆【Luhan extra chapter: The girl I love goes to a faraway place】

2012. 10, 26

56 days until the end of the world

A notification tone was displayed on the screen of the mobile phone on time, I pressed it impatiently, leaned my head against the car window, and looked outside weakly.

Beijing ushered in the cumbersome rainy season again, and it didn't take long for the sky to start to drizzle.The rain is not heavy, it is thin, and the passers-by are not scurrying around like headless chickens in my imagination. They seem to be used to this situation, and they still take it seriously on the street. Walk slowly.

Involuntarily, I thought of Yu Shen again, and of us five years ago.

In my eyes, Yu Shen has always been a not very smart girl.

At least, emotionally.

I always remember that when I saw her for the first time, she stayed quietly in the corner like a docile lamb, with a look of indifference to the world, which seemed so out of place with the surrounding environment.That's a girl I've never seen before, a girl whose face turns red when she speaks to strangers, she's really special.

But the most regrettable thing in life is to easily give up what should not be given up, and stubbornly persist in what should not be persisted.

I used to stubbornly think that as long as I let go, even if we can't be together, we can be good friends for a lifetime.

But in this vast sea of ​​13 billion people, we still lost each other in the end.

Withdrawing from the memory, the car has already driven to the gate of Moonlight.

Forgot to mention, today is a routine class reunion.Su Qing told me that Yu Shen would also come.

When I pushed open the door of the box, the inside was already a mess.I vaguely heard someone calling my name, followed the source of the sound, and a small figure walked towards me with high heels. I stared blankly for a long time before I realized that it was Yu Shen’s good friend Su Qing .

Holding a mobile phone, Su Qing walked up to me in three steps at a time: "Lu Han, it's not good! Yu Shen... something happened to Yu Shen!"

All of a sudden, all the unknown emotions came to my heart.The whole world lost its sound in an instant, and I only felt that there was only the humming sound in my ears that was constantly whirling around.

I rushed downstairs and stopped a car, Su Qing followed closely behind me.

The incident took place on a road in the outskirts of the country. When we arrived, the police had already cordoned off the incident.

The scene of the car accident was in ruins, and there was a strong smell of blood in the air, but it did not dissipate for a long time.The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the bean-sized raindrops mercilessly hit the city, as if mourning the dead souls.Several bright lights pierced through the clouds, followed by deafening thunder.

Since I was a child, my mother told me that a man should not cry.

But at that moment, my tears could no longer be restrained, gushing out.

"Yu Shen!" I heard Su Qing's ear-piercing screams echoing along the entire highway.

There was a deep smile in front of my eyes again, her almond-sized eyes narrowed into a crescent shape, and her slightly flushed face was like the soft sunshine in spring.

"Luhan, I heard that there will be an end of the world in 2012, when the whole world will be turned into ruins, are you afraid?"

That's the dumbest question I've ever heard.

But my silly girl, because of you, I have nothing to fear.

Later, I finally learned how to love.

It's a pity that you have already gone far away and disappeared into the sea of ​​people.

Later, I finally understood in tears,.

Some people, once missed, no longer.

The crowd of onlookers gradually dispersed, and the ambulance personnel carried Yu Shen onto the stretcher.I pounced on like a mad beast, as if defending what was my own.This time, I can't let anyone take Yu Shen away, I can't lose her anymore.

If it was before, I would never believe that there is a God in this world.

But this time, God, please take good care of this girl for me.

And tell her for me: The only thing Lu Han will not lie to her in his life is that he has always loved her.

I gently hugged Yu Shen, and in a trance, I returned to Beijing five years ago.

In Beijing that night, snowflakes swept across the city in an overwhelming manner.I carried her on my back and walked a long way on the soft snowflakes.On the way, she vaguely regained a little consciousness, lying on my back, half asleep and half awake, and said:

"Lu Han, have you ever liked me, even if only a little bit, a little bit..."

I was taken aback, bit my lip and replied: "Lu Han is a very bad boy, he is not worthy of your liking."

"Nonsense, Luhan is obviously the best person in this world to me..."

"Luhan, I like you so much, I really really like you..."

Yu Shen, my silly girl, I like you too.

From now on, the best people in the world will not let you wander alone again.

This time, I will take you home.

【End of full text】