[Korean Entertainment YG] Black Lotus

All the endings have already taken shape as early as when I wrote the pen. What you thought didn’t exist, but you just haven’t found it yet. When you have malicious intentions in your heart, you can’t really smile anyway. It’s unfair to people who don’t know. , at least open your heart to see if there is any reason, because of yourself.

----Huang Baocan

The wind chimes on the door were jingling by the wind, the hydrangeas on both sides of the seats were just in bloom, and the hoarse and low voice of the lead singer of the Eagles came from the stereo.

"it wasn't really ad

atmosphere is not sad

dye

when they say goodbye

maybe just thurts sobed

or maybe it hurt too much

'tcry. . . .

She couldn't cry. . . . "

Huang Baocan, who was on the opposite side, turned the straw in his hand once and for all, looking extraordinarily careless, as if they were sitting here now, they were friends who came to the milk tea shop to chat.

Jiang Enzhu stared at the other party in silence for a while, and found that she hadn't shown any signs of speaking since she ordered the drink. The time she sat here seemed so long as if it had been stretched out, and her delicate face flashed There was a slight struggle, and then he opened his mouth as if he had let go of something,

"Did you see it?"

Huang Baocan raised his head, finally willing to put his eyes on her, and asked in confusion,

"what?"

Jiang Enzhu's complexion was as pale as if he had eaten overnight.

"you are always like this."

She couldn't help but think of every look in the other party's eyes and every movement that seemed casual but full of alienation from the beginning of school to the present. This made Jiang Enzhu, who had thought that she would have a perfect high school, very frustrated, including Li Shien and Quan Xiao in the back. From the beginning to the end, she had no chance to integrate into their small group including Bin.

She lowered her head uncontrollably, which made Huang Baocan unable to see her expression clearly.

"You know it, you have heard it all, why, now you are going to come to Xingshi to question the crime?"

"I heard it all, but may I ask why?"

Jiang Enzhu smiled softly as if hearing something ridiculous,

"You want to know why, and you actually ask me why?"

She raised her head, her voice trembling slightly because of the excitement, Huang Baocan saw something flickering in the corner of her eyes.

"Since the beginning of school, I have been working hard to be a good deskmate. I sincerely hope that we can have a good high school life, but what about you, you have been unwilling to communicate with me too much, the three of you I can't get into this world at all. You have never thought about how uncomfortable it is for me to be isolated. You live in self-doubt every day, but you don't know it, and you don't even have any burden in your heart. Smile happily, Huang Baocan ,I hate you."

Huang Baocan came out of her own thoughts, the reason for her distraction at that moment was because she remembered this time before.

That was a long time ago. . .

At that time, she was excluded and couldn't find the hidden test papers everywhere. Because she had to hand in the statistical scores the next day, she was so anxious that she didn't know what to do. She was alone in the empty classroom after school. Keep digging through the trash can.

Finally, when the teacher called her name and asked her why she didn't have any test papers, she saw Jiang Enzhu take out a piece of crumpled paper from the drawer and said

"Teacher, this is the test paper I picked up next to the trash can on duty yesterday."

She didn't dare to think about it anymore. The teacher who encouraged her back then looked at her after seeing the name on it clearly, like a nightmare, torturing her every day during that time.

She knew that Jiang Eunzhu, Jin Zhener's little follower, usually kept silent and was an extremely shy girl.She knew that the other party didn't seem like someone who would do that kind of thing, and was probably instigated by others.

Going back to this time again, after she was surprised that the other party was actually her deskmate, all that was left was endless disgust.

Because when I saw her, I would think of the time when I was in constant panic, because when I saw her, I would keep thinking of my ridiculous and innocent self back then.

But now, she heard the other party say these words over and over again, as if laughing at her own weakness.

Weak to the point of being unable to face the shadows of the past, unable to accept myself who was once so stupid.

Jiang Enzhu didn't do anything wrong, at least before Huang Baocan decided to use cold violence against her, everything here was still the same as it was at the beginning, and all the injuries hadn't appeared yet, and now Huang Baocan has no qualifications to do this at all.

But the nightmares from the past keep appearing in front of her eyes. Is it because everyone has lost their memories and she is the only one who bears it, so she must be forgiven?

Then who has a conscience for the injuries she has suffered?

"rday.

And she's yesterday's girl

wwhatsright.

she doesn't know what's right

g.

don't know what's wrong

She only knows the heartache that comes

g.

Heartache from the long wait"

The low and hoarse singing sound surrounds this small shop, and the leaves outside the window are also swaying with its rhythm. The yellowish scenery at dusk falls into her eyes, like a dream that can never come out.

"That's just your self-righteousness."

The voice from behind was like a ray of light hitting Huang Baocan, who was deeply in the swamp, she turned her head in a daze, and saw Quan Youbin and Li Shien standing behind the seats one behind the other.

"You... how do you..."

Before he finished speaking, Quan Youbin grabbed his neck,

"Did you think we had already left? You idiot said that you were going to come back to get things. We noticed it as early as when we were collecting the schoolbags."

Unexpectedly, his intentions were so obvious, Huang Baocan silently raised the upper limit of Quan Youbin's IQ a little bit in his heart.

"Do you think that if you sit together, you will get along well and be good friends?"

The first one to speak out was Li Shien, who had been silent all this time. It was because of her, Huang Baocan, that he just woke up from his self-loathing.

"You don't understand at all, and you haven't experienced the feeling of sitting alone in a corner, the people around you are all colored, and only you are black and white. What right do you have to say that I am self-righteous."

For such a person who doesn't make sense at all, Li Shien's dark energy that has not been revealed for a long time is almost materialized, and the two people behind him shrink their necks silently, praying for Jiang Enzhu.

Li Shien slapped the table with one hand, and the wooden table, which was not very strong, immediately began to shake, scaring Huang Baocan to quickly pick up his own milk tea.

Glasses are easy to break and you will lose money.

"Friends are two-way. It doesn't make sense that everyone has to like you. Only when two people have compatible personalities and hobbies can they become true friends. As for the isolation you mentioned, it is actually your own cognitive error. You want What you want is not a friend, but someone who accompanies you, eat together, after school together, even go to the bathroom together, some friends will be like this, but some will not, you are just too lonely, you don’t treat each other at all Be friends."

Li Shien withdrew his hands on the table and stood with arms folded,

"If you can't bear it, why don't you just ask the teacher to change positions? You are just having self-esteem, thinking that everyone wants to be friends with you, but how can you control other people's wishes? Could it be that the high school you want Is life the kind of clinging to others, even if you don’t want to smile, you have to smile? Even if such a person looks popular, how many friends do you have in the true sense?”

"You say I'm not qualified, and I'll tell you, that's how I came here in junior high school. I will never do stupid things like crying silently by myself again. Really, I can't help but think of those things before. Crying, something that makes me sad every moment, now it seems that it is not a big deal, at least I am living a good life, right?"

Neither Quan Youbin nor Huang Baocan expected that Li Shien would suddenly reveal his past, nor did they expect that Li Shien, who looked like a paralyzed queen, also encountered cold violence in junior high school, and couldn't find words to comfort this moment. A girl who looks particularly vulnerable.

Quan Youbin suddenly rushed forward and hugged Li Shien's waist, but was thrown back to the sofa by Li Shien who reacted very quickly.

Li Shien spread his hands, "Conditional reflex."

Then everyone laughed.

Huang Baocan thought to himself, is this conditioned reflex due to the habit formed by tense nerves all the time?

But this question will never be answered.