Naruto's heart throbbing

"Sasuke, you've got too much, let's stop here today." Suigetsu snatched the wine glass from Sasuke.

Sasuke nodded: "If you don't drink anymore, it's against the rules. She should blame me."

Shuiyue turned cold, and looked at the person in front of her with distress, who would never change no matter how old she was.

As long as it comes to the pommel horse Baiyun, he is so reckless, he thinks he has grown up and can accept her departure, but the result is still the same, time and time again, he can't help drinking, crying, and sleeping calling her name.

"Do you still remember that you once asked me if I regret it? At that time, my answer was regret. Now I have to change it. I don't regret it, not at all!" Sasuke drank another cup.

"Hey! You can do it!" Shuiyue didn't catch it at a glance, and was snatched back.

"I shouldn't have expressed my heart to her. If I hadn't met again later, if I had been separated like that, I wouldn't have been so uncomfortable. Absolutely not. I might have married someone else right now! Kurama Baiyun You hurt me so badly hahaha!" Sasuke smiled with tears, and every word hurt the people in the corner: "Do you know, Suigetsu, I was wondering if I was crazy, I Sometimes I feel that she is by my side, just like now, but I can't find her, I dare not look for her, I am afraid of meeting, and I am even more afraid of being disappointed... Every corner I can go has her breath, I Guess she came here, because of that dish, only she can make that familiar taste... I don't know what I'm talking about, Shuiyue, do you think I'm crazy..."

"Okay, Sasuke, stop talking, let's go home!" Suigetsu picked up Sasuke, who was confused, and walked out of the tavern.

Is this the first time you have secretly visited him?I've seen the well-cared-for tomatoes in his yard, the extra breakfast he makes every morning, the way he puts the milk carton low enough for me to reach...  

I tried my best to hide my aura, but I still couldn't help but expose it, but he couldn't find me when he was drunk, he could only feel my presence, he would only think that he was hallucinating from drinking too much...

While he was not at home, I selfishly lay on his bed, breathed in his smell greedily, and was careful not to drop tears on his pillow.

I'd go to the bathroom and lie on the edge of the tub, reminiscing about the embarrassing things we'd done together, but the blissful things that made me cry.

I would look in the mirror and imagine how he would be reflected in the mirror. I touched the mirror, thinking if I could touch his face, if I could feel his warmth instead of the cold cruelty of the mirror.

I sometimes help him clean his room while he is away. I am not afraid of being discovered because he lives with his friends, so even if the room is cleaned, it may be done by someone else. I pretend to be the owner of the house , Imagine if we were washing the dishes together, he would wrap around my waist, act like a baby on my neck, hold my hand and let me rest, and he would do the rest...

Maybe I made a mistake this time. I picked the tomatoes you took care of perfectly and made a dish for you. Do you still remember the fried tomatoes I learned from Meiqin's mother?How long has it been since I did it for you?I've thought about it for a long time, I wonder if your taste buds still remember this taste?

I know that you will be hungry when you come home drunk, so I made hot tea and prepared meals. I know these are hurting you, but I still beg you, accept what I can only do for you.

I imagined myself sitting across from you, watching you taste the food I made for you with a happy face like a child, talking delicious and then gobbling it up, tears falling on the table, feeling your breath approaching, I left in a hurry and returned to the tired space.

I sat on the cold ground with my back against the bathroom door, crying heartbreakingly but unable to make a sound, beating the bathroom floor in pain, why are we torturing each other so much, Sasuke, do you and I exist and meet just to hurt? ?Is there any way for us to forget each other forever, forget all our words, all things, forget Kurama Baiyun, forget Uchiha Sasuke.

I'm really, and you're really...tired.

The next morning, Xiaoying looked at the joints on my wrist that were bruised and said nothing, but went to the field alone to let me have a good rest. I knew that I didn't take him into account, and I couldn't hide it from him after many visits. He knows that he never said anything, never blamed me, he really loves me, and is afraid that I will be hurt again here.

Frolicking in the water, he seemed to be worried about my wrist all the time. After playing for a long time, he said he was tired and took us to the flowers. get up.

I don't understand what he wants to say, he always speaks straight, what's wrong with him today?

"What are you trying to say?" I asked impatiently.

Xiaoying looked at me who was a little warm and angry, and smiled: "This is you."

I withdrew my anger, I am not qualified to get angry with him, and I am too embarrassed to get angry with him.

"If you want, I will agree." After a long time, he said again: "As long as you want, I will give it to you."

"I know...you've always been like this..." It's just that you won't give me the person I really want, so what are you emphasizing?

"No." Xiaoying rarely refuted me, and I looked at him in surprise.

"What happened to you today?"

"In the past, I did give you whatever you wanted, but I never gave you what you really wanted. Maybe I didn't really understand what love is until ten years ago. I understand, love, what exactly is it." At this moment, Xiaoying faded away his pretended face, without a forced smile, it was the first time that he exposed his heart to me without any concealment.

Because of me, the first time I saw his eyes filled with things that never belonged to him.

I was stopped by him just as I was about to speak: "So, now, what exactly do you want, as long as you say it, I will satisfy you immediately."

I understand his intentions, but I know that he is struggling in his heart, he is reluctant to let me go, but he can't see me now, I am really cunning... How unfair to him, but I can stay with him Is it fair around you?

"Ten years, you let me see that love is not possession, I don't want this kind of false possession, I understand, what I want is your smile, your sincere smile, maybe I don't understand it right, But I think love is to make you happy, I love you is to let you live happily forever..." Xiaoying looked at me who was crying helplessly.

Seeing his bewildered look and listening to his simple views on love, I know that he, like Sasuke, will always be a child, and he also needs to be loved, but I can't give it... I will always feel guilty for him, but I deeply Know, the torment that comes with guilt.

"Xiaoying..." I kissed his lips, this was the first time I kissed him actively in ten years.

Finally unable to contain the heavy tears, he wept, Xiaoying dazedly wiped off the strange liquid with his hands.

"I actually..." He never cried, never...

He hugged me tightly: "Whether it's happiness or heartache, only you can give it to me, so I want to give you the most precious love."

He choked up, kissed my lips greedily, as if sucking my taste for the last time, after a long time he let me go and called Xiao Nian to come over.

Put Xiao Nian's hand in my palm, hold the hands of both of us, looked at Xiao Nian and said: "Xiao Nian, you heard from my father that my father has a disease, a disease that changes personality, but do you remember , no matter what father becomes, father still loves you deeply..."

"Is that serious... Dad, will you be in danger?" Xiao Nian cared unknowingly.

Xiao Ying smiled: "Dad will be fine, Xiao Nian, you have to promise Dad that no matter what happens to Dad, you will love Dad, and you must protect Mom so that your mom won't get hurt in the slightest. Can't do it!"

"Of course! Dad, don't worry!" Xiao Nian patted the ten-year-old immature chest.

"Xiaoying..." I stroked his cheek.

Xiaoying held my hand and rubbed her cheek: "You go back."

"Take good care of Xiao Nian, and be happy with him. If you are unhappy, I will always be here..." Xiao Ying held back her tears: "Just kidding, you must be happy and don't come back."