I may not be human [holographic]

Feeling Lin Zhengyan's obedience and his slightly trembling body, Shi Changan was naturally also distracted.

His gaze moved down from Lin Zhengyan's side face with lowered eyebrows and downcast eyes, to the gorgeous golden lines on the boy's chest.

The water-stained skin reflected a little brilliance under the light of the courtyard, and the golden star pattern exuded a warm and soft shimmer, illuminating a small water surface.

Shi Chang'an couldn't help reaching out and touching the star pattern lightly.It was warm and slightly damp, but it seemed that a weak electric current penetrated into his heart along the fingertips.

He couldn't help covering his entire palm up and rubbing it lightly.

Lin Zhengyan raised his hand abruptly, and pressed the back of Shi Changan's hand, stopping his movement.

Shi Changan sighed with a smile, withdrew his hand, put it behind his head, slid a little towards the water surface, leaned against the edge of the hot spring pool and looked at the sky.

"It would be great if there was a starry sky here." He said, "It won't be too embarrassing if you can lie here and look at the stars."

The touching skin suddenly moved away, and the warm spring water replaced the original touch, but it made people feel a sudden emptiness.

Lin Zhengyan pursed his lips, and raised his head to look at the night sky that was completely blinded by city lights.

"I don't feel embarrassed," he said. "It's good to sit quietly like this for a while."

Shi Changan laughed and said, "Okay, just sit for a while."

Lin Zhengyan was silent for a moment, then said softly: "...I know what you want."

"Oh?" Shi Changan raised his eyebrows and looked at the profile of the boy beside him, and asked with a smile, "Tell me, what do I want?"

Lin Zhengyan did not speak again.

After a long time, he suddenly remembered something else, turned his head and asked, "You said this morning that you were an officer... have you retired?"

"En." Shi Chang'an nodded: "Two years ago, there was a rebellion on the border planet of the Federation. I was injured when I participated in the counter-rebellion. I could no longer fly a fighter plane, so I retired."

"Retired due to injury?" Lin Zhengyan's heart trembled, and he asked, "Is the injury serious?"

Shi Chang'an thought for a while, and said with a smile, "...it's not too serious. I'm very lucky to have survived that kind of situation."

"Sorry." Lin Zhengyan lowered his head, "I shouldn't have brought this up."

Shi Changan was not unhappy because of this question, instead he turned sideways, supported his head with his arms, looked at Lin Zhengyan with interest, and asked, "If I am disabled, you won't dislike me, right?"

Lin Zhengyan suddenly turned his head to look at Shi Changan, feeling a burning pain in his heart, subconsciously said: "You...you...didn't you say that the injury is not serious?"

Shi Changan said calmly: "I blocked an energy capsule explosion in deep space, and only lost a calf, which is already a minor injury."

Hearing such tragic facts, Lin Zhengyan was suddenly at a loss.

He didn't know if it was time to comfort Shi Chang'an at this time, but he also felt that in this kind of matter, all words of comfort were actually useless.

Besides, it has been so long since the incident, and Shi Changan's character is not the kind of self-defeating, sad spring and autumn, and words of comfort may be inappropriate.

Unexpectedly, before he could understand, Shi Changan laughed by himself.

He stretched out his arms, sat up close to Lin Zhengyan, raised the corners of his mouth and said, "Although I won't be able to fly real fighter planes anymore, at least I'm still invincible in the game."

As he spoke, he pulled Lin Zhengyan into his arms again, lowered his head and whispered in his ear: "Besides, if I hadn't retired due to injury, how would I have met you?"

Lin Zhengyan raised his eyes and looked at Shi Chang'an's face who was close at hand.

In a daze, he felt that this face seemed to have been engraved in his memory long ago, but was forgotten by him for some reason.

But the throbbing of his body still remembered all that, making him doomed from the very beginning that he couldn't escape, couldn't refuse, and wanted to get close to the person in front of him.

When Shi Changan stared at Lin Zhengyan's obsidian-like eyes, he suddenly smiled.

"You like me." He said firmly, "I can tell from your eyes that you like me."

Lin Zhengyan began to feel his throat burning again.

He subconsciously licked his lips, coughed lowly, and said, "Well, I... like you."

Shi Changan held Lin Zhengyan's cheek and touched his forehead, and couldn't help laughing.

He kissed the boy's soft lips passionately, and held him tightly in his arms.The skins of the two were in close contact, and they felt each other's trembling and trembling clearly.

After a long, long time, the two could barely separate.

Shi Changan sighed and said hoarsely, "Do you know what I am most dissatisfied with about this game?"

Lin Zhengyan was a little dizzy from the hot spring water, unable to answer for a moment, he could only shake his head.

Shi Changan reached out his hand under the water, hooked the edge of Lin Zhengyan's underwear and flicked it lightly, and said in a muffled voice, "I can't take this off...I'm so angry now..."

Hearing Shi Changan's aggrieved tone, and thinking that the character models in this game are indeed not allowed to take off their underwear, Lin Zhengyan couldn't help laughing.

He put his arms around Shi Chang'an's neck, and fell on top of him laughing so hard, he didn't stop for a while.

"I said..." Lin Zhengyan propped himself up, clung to Shi Changan's ear, and said softly in a very low voice, "Although I can't take it off, but...there is a sense of touch."

Shi Changan's body trembled violently because of these words.

He pushed Lin Zhengyan against the edge of the hot spring pool, pressed him against him, squeezed Lin Zhengyan's chin and said with a smirk, "You're teasing me again, can't you wait? Huh?"

This time, Lin Zhengyan's gaze did not avoid it, he just blinked embarrassedly, and smiled nervously: "I... am also a grown man..."

Before he finished speaking, he was overwhelmed by Shi Changan's sudden passionate kiss.

Passionate and intense, gentle and affectionate, Lin Zhengyan felt that the whole world seemed to emit a dazzling light with the touch of love.

His breathing gradually became faster, and the scorching heat in his throat continued to heat up...

still heating up...

Until this temperature suddenly turned into an unbearable scalding, burning his chest.

Lin Zhengyan felt that he might have been pushed into the hot spring water by Shi Chang'an, surrounded by a thick liquid, making him unable to breathe.

He tried to get his breath back, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't get any more oxygen into his lungs.

The sense of fear quickly overwhelmed the sense of comfort, and Lin Zhengyan began to struggle.

"...time...Chang'an"

He squeezed out a few broken tones from his extremely painful throat: "Stop...let go..."

From the initial dizziness, his mind gradually turned into chaos, and his vision also began to blur until he fell into a thick darkness.

He even began to have auditory hallucinations, and these sounds seemed to be separated by some thick liquid, distant and dull, making him unable to hear clearly.

"...hyperbreathing...lowering oxygen concentration..."

"Patient...reacts obviously, stress..."

"…Nervous system activity... disconnected prematurely?"

"Trying to wake up..."

"... Words..."

"Zhengyan, wake up..."

"Not yet... the critical value, if... continue to stimulate, it may..."

"...the cerebral cortex..."

"Admonishment!"

"Lin Zhengyan, wake up!"

"Wake up! Please—"

A piece of light gradually appeared in the field of vision, but the throat still hurt as if a piece of burning coal was stuck there.

Lin Zhengyan tried his best to open his eyes wide, trying to calm down his rapid breathing.

Shi Changan knelt beside the bed helplessly, full of anxiety but at a loss as to what he could do.

Recalling Lin Zhengyan's sudden violent body convulsions just now, and his obviously extremely painful breathing rhythm, Shi Chang'an only felt a sharp pain in his chest.

All he can do is to carry the person from the yard back to the bedroom, put him on the bed, and then he can only...

...look.

Watching him struggle in pain, watching him seem to be dying.

Even when Shi Changan rushed into the enemy army with a fighter plane, even when facing the violent explosion, he was never as frightened as he was at this moment.

It wasn't until Lin Zhengyan finally calmed down and opened his eyes to look at him that he felt relieved.

——The reason why he still can't breathe a sigh of relief is because he hasn't figured out why Lin Zhengyan fell into this state.

After waiting for a long time, Lin Zhengyan's breathing rhythm completely returned to normal.

Shi Chang'an got up slowly, sat down on the edge of the bed, looked down at Lin Zhengyan with his eyes empty and somewhat absent-minded.

"Just now..." he asked with difficulty, "...what's going on?"

After a while, Lin Zhengyan sighed softly, and said in a hoarse voice, "It's okay..."

He guessed that his soul might have fallen into some kind of unstable state.But this guess, he will never be able to say it.

There are only fragments and fragments left in my mind about the memory just now.

Like a dream, but not like a dream.It's hallucinatory, yet too real.

He only remembered that there was water and there were many voices, but he couldn't remember what those voices said.

Shi Changan wiped his face with his hand, and said with a wry smile, "It's because of these that you refuse to tell me your real story?"

Lin Zhengyan remained silent.

When Chang'an looked at Lin Zhengyan, the unquenchable fire was always burning in his chest, which made him want to lift Lin Zhengyan up a little bit, and asked him why he refused to tell the situation he was facing in reality. .

But he dared not ask.

That conversation early this morning still left him with lingering fears.

If he kept asking, he might not only get no answer, but also lose Lin Zhengyan.

——It's really fucking worrying about gains and losses.

Shi Changan sighed slowly, and said, "It's almost ten o'clock, I'll be off the assembly line in a while... Take a good rest."

Lin Zhengyan was silent for a moment, then let out a low "hmm".

Shi Changan left the bedroom, came to the roof of the small building, opened the system panel, pulled out the dialogue with Shen Xing Zhiyuan's friends, and entered a message.

"Help me find out the access address of Lin Zhiyan's helmet."

Seeing the voice being converted into text, the recording strip vibrated up and down, as long as he loosened his fingers, this message would be sent to Shen Xing Zhiyuan immediately.

Shi Changan suddenly hesitated again.

"Promise me, don't check my reality."

——He still remembers Lin Zhengyan's expression when he said this sentence.

Shi Changan closed his eyes and slid his finger down to cancel the entry.

Watching the time on the system panel jump to 22:[-], Shi Changan supported the railing of the roof, lowered his head, and took a deep breath.

Then he raised his head, directed at the starless sky, and roared out the pent-up anger in his chest.

That night, Wu Yuheng, who was once again urged by the health doctor to go to the game to find someone, once again caught Shi Changan in the deep space war zone who was venting his anger on the empty eclipse beast.

"Leader, it's time for you to go offline." Yu Heng said helplessly, "No matter how many you kill these empty beasts, it's meaningless..."

"I really want to kill the rebels." Shi Chang'an said in a deep voice, "But can I kill them now? If you want to, you can kill them. I told you to go back to the regiment and you didn't come back! I'm wasting here with a cripple like me. , you make sense?!"

The fifth Yuheng who was caught off guard and stunned: ...

"Leader, you...are in a bad mood, you should talk to a doctor." Yu Heng persuaded loyally.

"Lao Li and I can talk about shit!" Shi Changan was still furious: "He will find trouble for me behind the scenes, and he and I—"

In the middle of speaking, Shi Changan suddenly got stuck.

——Wait, that Qin Yan, who found him in the game through his health care doctor and left him a real-life communication number, seems to be a researcher of a neuroscience research institution?