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The cold customer service notification tone No. 40 rang three times. This time, before the call was automatically hung up, the mobile phone went black first, and Ji Zhengkong's face was printed on the pitch-black screen.

He put his dead phone on the desk and looked at his watch. At seven o'clock in the evening on September 29, he and Xia Bingyang 'disconnected'.In fact, since yesterday, Xia Bingyang's cell phone number has become empty, but he didn't give up. He called the customer service desk and asked the customer service to check Xia Bingyang's number himself. The customer service told him that the number was indeed empty.

After Xia Bingyang's number was empty, he was anxious and panicked at first, but now he felt nothing in his heart, his face and body were numb, no thoughts, no panic, no sadness, he himself disappeared with Xia Bingyang up.

There was only one desk lamp turned on in the study room, and the curtains were drawn, so the light was dim.Ji Zheng sat under the light and looked around the four walls, feeling that the whole world was a prison for him.Someone was going to die because of him tonight, and he felt excited and despairing at the same time.He knew that after that person died, he would be trapped in this cage forever, which was big enough to hold the whole world, but small enough to accompany him like a shadow.

Xia Bingyang was originally his hope, but now Xia Bingyang has 'disappeared', so he is left with only despair.

The study door was pushed open, and a white light leaked in from the living room.Then Bian Xiaoqu walked in, holding a glass of juice.

The egg yolk was nestled on Ji Zheng's lap. When it saw Bian Xiaoqu coming in, it immediately jumped off Ji Zheng's body and fled to the cat's nest behind the bookshelf.

Ji Zheng was a little far away from the desk, the upper half of his face was hidden in the darkness, and he looked at Bian Xiaoqu expressionlessly.

Bian Xiaoqu put the cup on his desk and said, "This is the juice I just squeezed."

Ji Zheng didn't move, and didn't drink the glass of juice, just said: "Thank you."

Bian Xiaoqu looked at his face, and found that his face was hidden behind the light and shadow, and in the interweaving of light and shadow, there was infinite despair and loneliness, which was a kind of loneliness of being alone in the world.She was surprised, but didn't ask any questions. After putting down the juice, she stood still for a while, and then wanted to go out.

As soon as she turned around, Ji Zheng called her softly: "Xiao Qu."

Bian Xiaoqu stopped and looked back at him.

Ji Zheng asked: "Do you hate me now?"

Bian Xiaoqu thought about it seriously, and said, "I don't hate you, but I don't trust you anymore."

Then she saw Ji Zheng raised the corners of his lips indistinctly, seemed to smile, and asked her again: "What if I abandon you? Will you hate me?"

Bian Xiaoqu looked at him with the same numb eyes as him: "No, because I don't trust you anymore."

After a long time, Ji Zheng asked again: "What if the way I abandon you is to disappear from your side?"

Bian Xiaoqu took a step forward: "Where are you going?"

"...don't know, no direction yet."

Bian Xiaoqu couldn't understand what he said, so she turned her head and continued to walk out. When she reached the door, she heard him say again: "If I'm not here, someone will take care of you instead of me."

Standing outside the door, Bian Xiaoqu turned around and asked him, "Who?"

Ji Zheng smiled at her where she couldn't see: "You will know."

Bian Xiaoqu stood in the light and looked at Ji Zheng who was sitting in the darkness for a while, then she closed the study door and took the light away.

Ji Zheng sat behind the desk and took out the letter paper and pen. He wanted to write a letter to Xia Bingyang, but he couldn't write a word. He looked at the white letter paper, as if writing on it would stain it.His mind was calm and chaotic, and in a trance, he heard Xia Bingyang smile and say to him again, "If you want to tell me, I'm listening."

You better not know, or you will hate me very much.

He remembered that he replied to Xia Bingyang like this.what about now?What he wanted to tell Xia Bingyang, was that what Xia Bingyang wanted to hear?I'm afraid not, even he himself didn't dare to face it, how could Xia Bingyang accept it.

Ji Zheng put down his pen and leaned back weakly on the back of his chair.From his premeditated approach to Yan Shen, he has been waiting for today.Just tonight, his plan was about to succeed, but he faltered.He was struggling violently in his heart. Without Xia Bingyang, he would not have struggled, because he was already ready to die with his own life.But it’s no longer possible. Now he has to face not only himself, but also Xia Bingyang. Although he has lost contact with Xia Bingyang and may never see Xia Bingyang again, he will never forget Xia Bingyang. When thinking of Xia Bingyang, together with Xia Bingyang, he also remembered that crime.Xia Bingyang is the only clean and warm place in his heart, he doesn't want to keep the last piece of memory for himself, it's really cruel to him.

He has seen Xia Bingyang's principles and sense of responsibility, and Xia Bingyang will never forgive him.

He remembered what Bian Xiaoqu said to him just now, "I won't hate you, because I don't trust you anymore". In this world, he only cares about Bian Xiaoqu and Xia Bingyang. Are you going to lose Xia Bingyang's trust in him?When Xia Bingyang no longer trusts him, he will have nothing.

In order to kill a person, he will give his all.This seems to be the same price as killing the other party's life...

Ji Zheng suddenly understood that he was not taking revenge, but dying with his enemies.So is he really willing to die with the other party?

He didn't want to, so he unplugged the phone that was charging and walked out of the study.

When Ji Zheng stood in the porch and went out, Bian Xiaoqu quietly asked behind him: "Where are you going?"

Ji Zheng tidied up his clothes, without turning his head: "Look for someone."

"...Then are you coming back?"

Ji Zheng felt very sad suddenly, he looked back at Bian Xiaoqu and was silent for a while, then smiled and said: "If I want to leave, I will say goodbye to you."

Bian Xiaoqu looked at him and said, "Then I'll wait for you."

Ji Zheng walked out of the unit building, stood beside the lit corridor and looked up, and saw Bian Xiaoqu standing behind the lit living room floor-to-ceiling windows, also looking down at him.She stood there, like a kind of waiting, but also like a kind of farewell.

It wasn't until many years later that Ji Zheng knew that Bian Xiaoqu was standing upstairs looking at him, not waiting for him or saying goodbye to him, but confessing to him.

Because Bian Xiaoqu still hurt him in the end.