[Hunter] Self-satisfaction

I closed my eyes and buried myself in his chest, not wanting to see his expressionless face.

"I... come from a world you don't know." Once you open your mouth, the rest is very simple, "Our world... many things are not as good as yours. We don't Need to have a strong body, there is no special mind ability for everyone. We are just good at learning... and creating."

Illumi's hand is still slowly stroking my back, as if to support me to say: "We don't have such a large virgin forest and all kinds of magical species. Human beings have always been at the top of the world. It has not changed, and all other creatures belong to the hunting range of human beings. There is such a group of people who have been devoted to creating all kinds of imaginary worlds. Among them is here.”

I speak very slowly, every word seems to be squeezed out of my mouth.When saying this fact, I had to pause for a long time to calm down.Then I continued with difficulty: "You know, a novel always has to have a protagonist. All the world unfolds around him, so that we can gradually understand the whole world from his experience. Qi Ya, that is One of the protagonists. And you, Illumi, as the big brother who has influenced him deeply, is also a key person who will definitely appear."

Illumi didn't seem to be shocked or dissatisfied by the fact that they were a novel, but when he heard that he had a profound influence on Kira, he chuckled in satisfaction.

"It all started with the Hunter Exam. We watched him make friends with Jay, Kurapika, and Leorio. Slowly, he really broke away from the Puncher family. After being educated by you and going home , was allowed to walk out of the door of beating the enemy again, and began his real exploration of this world. You know, he can't stand the day-to-day work and life of killing people. He wants to be interesting, and wants to live a life without seeing the future .” As I spoke, I sat up by myself, watching my elder brother nod after my last sentence.

"So I know that he went to the Sky Arena, where he got his Nian ability. He went to Youkexin City, and he fought with Xiaojie to help Coola achieve revenge. I also know that he went to NGL, where he was fighting with Ant I pulled out the needle you put on him in the battle." Speaking of this, I knew that the last step that Illumi was waiting for was about to come.

Didi-didi-didi-the continuous ringing of the phone interrupted the weird atmosphere between us.Illumi looked at the phone screen, and finally decided to answer the call.

I can also clearly hear the funny voice coming from the phone: "Brother Illumi, Qi Ya has already used that guy's ability to heal Xiaojie. Both of them are fine."

After hanging up the phone, I breathed a sigh of relief and didn't plan to hide it from Illumi.

He heard the voice turn sharply towards me: "You've been waiting for this moment?"

"Yes~! That's why I've been talking so slowly! You don't even know how hard it is for me to pretend!" I was completely relaxed and spoke with energy.

Illumi's thoughts were running at high speed: "You know I'm going to force you to question... What's the reason for this? I can't find a reason for you to do this."

I stretched a lot, just now was a test of my ability to graduate from the back!I answered his question: "Because I'm afraid~ You call Hisoka to help you deal with the housekeepers, so that you can chase and intercept Qi Ya. In order to let Qi Ya keep himself safe, you will propose to let him kill him. You. This plan should have been formed when you received the call, right? But you know that I am really weak. I also really cherish my life. Although I come from another world, this world treats me It is true. If I die, I will really die. If I just die in a place where I know the danger is very high, I will not be reconciled~"

Illumi asked calmly: "Do you think that I will let you deal with those you can't deal with, just to realize your own ideas?"

I nodded: "Isn't it natural! After all, you don't even plan to take your own life, how could you still want to protect me? I also want to make some plans for my own life~!"

Illumi's deep voice sounded dangerous: "You don't trust me?"

"No." I suddenly removed the hippie smile on my face, and answered him seriously: "It is because I trust you that I am willing to tell you everything. What I just said is my real experience. It is because I trust you, I just know that you will not abandon me because of such a thing. It is because I trust you that I have the courage to make such a plan. I know that I have left enough flaws that you can draw a conclusion by yourself, and you will definitely Think of the special ability I may have. I will also be curious about the origin of my ability and the benefits I can bring to you in the future. A younger brother who is sure to be safe, and an unknown ability that may have huge benefits. Which one What's more important?"

I reached out and took his hand, which reassured me a little that he didn't shake me off.I bowed my head and formally apologized: "I took advantage of what I knew about you. I'm really sorry. I really don't know anything after this. I will completely become an ordinary person, maybe you are interested There will be no more. I just hope you can just let me go and let me live this hard-won life well, okay? "

I mustered up the courage to look at his expression. As expected, his expression was a little angry, but at the same time there was a trace of helplessness.

Illumi raised his forehead: "I didn't expect that letting you think for yourself would cause such a big deviation from the result. You always like to use your own thinking to figure out my psychology, and I have told you before that you are not allowed to If you do this, next time you do it again, I will be angry."

His words made me a little confused: "No matter how much you think and how thorough your consideration is, your starting point is already wrong. I didn't intend for you to deal with enemies you can't deal with. I imagined that if Archie Just kill me like that, you and Archie will be in so much pain, and remember me for the rest of your life. You just underestimated the two of us. I feel a little sad."

Fuck?So the perfect plan I thought I was researching was actually the product of my own extremes?But Illumi actually said 'our feelings' just now?Does this guy actually know about feelings?

I felt the sense of guilt in my heart suddenly climbed to the top: "I'm sorry, Yilu...I don't know what's going on...When I think about the plot and the possibility that I will die sex, just can't stop thinking badly about things...."

I stopped and thought about it carefully, and then made a decision: "Yilu, this time I was too wrong, it doesn't matter how you want to deal with me, I will accept everything. Don't be sad, okay? ?”

Illumi's pupils were a little dilated because of excitement, he stood up from the sofa, walked to the corner where he usually kept important items, took out something, and walked to my side again.He sat next to me, slowly bent down, and at the same time clamped my shoulder with one hand to prevent me from moving.

I listened to him calmly, and vaguely guessed what was going to happen next: "You can do whatever you want. It's a pleasure. You finally realize that only I can keep you from going astray? You know, I It will not hurt you. Everything I do is for your own good. After today is over, you will no longer be influenced by your own thoughts. You will become another part of me, and there will be no more between us. There will be disagreements. You can enjoy as much as you want. You can finally be truly mine.”

I suddenly thought of that empty wedding.Illumi seemed to be talking to himself, saying that you still don't belong to me completely.Was he already prepared for this at that time?Illumi gave me injections of anesthesia with words in this way, so that I didn't have a huge reaction when I saw him take out a thin and long needle.

Just when he was about to slowly pierce between my eyebrows, I said, "Yilu...can you...can you kiss me?"

This man who doesn't know how to love, his lips are as cold as imagined, and all the intimate physical contact has never happened between us.I know that as soon as he puts the needle in my brain, I won't be me anymore.The real me was about to die at his hands.So allow me, for the last time, and for the first time, to ask for a kiss.

I closed my eyes, felt a sharp pain between my brows, and my consciousness drifted away slowly.

Farewell, my Illumi.

The author has something to say:

This time it's really over.

Personally I think this is a HE ending.Everyone got what they wanted.

Congrats, congratulations, congratulations.

PS. When writing these two paragraphs, I have been listening to ILEM's funeral song hahahahaha, great feeling!