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After taking a shower and putting on the facial mask, Chu Jinyi lay on the sofa and pushed Shang Yiluan who was absent-minded on the other side with her foot, "Tell me her story~ I need to know as much detail as possible, her experience It can help me judge her character."

"Okay, I'll tell you everything I know, but there is one thing, we haven't been together for a long time, and what I know is very limited."

"Well, I'm listening~"

"Her, her parents are doing business abroad, and she has lived alone with a strange teacher's house since the fourth grade of elementary school..." Organized the language, Shang Yiluan told Chu Jinyi exactly what Liu Yifeng said that afternoon .

After listening to Shang Yiluan's complete narration, Chu Jinyi already understood the reason for Liu Yifeng's character in his heart.

"Lthrant, have you checked?"

"Of course I checked. I'm studying psychology and astrology. I just hope to understand her better, but in the end it's all in vain..."

"Lthrant, it means that when you have a good feeling for someone, when you know that he has the same feeling for you, you will hate this feeling, or even stop liking him. This kind of person will have love feelings for others, But she doesn't want to get emotional response, which translates to - sexual unrequited love. Based on your description, her definition of herself is quite accurate."

"Can it be changed?"

"A person like her can also be called an avoidant attachment type. As for the cause, it is naturally related to her being alone and helpless for so many years. In her subconscious, others are unreliable, so when someone appears and starts to express to her Love, especially when she makes a promise that lasts forever, her subconscious mind thinks that this person is unbelievable and her promise cannot be fulfilled. So even though she desperately desires to be cared for in her heart, her subconscious mind is Will close this door forcibly. As you said just now, the relatives she should rely on the most hurt her the most, so who do you think she will trust? Who else can she trust? The people who should take care of her most Unreliable, do you want her to trust a stranger who she has never been alone with?"

"Am I a stranger? But she even knows my address! She has been following me for at least a year!"

"So what?" Taking off the mask, Chu Jinyi's eyes were full of sarcasm, "Did you protect her from the wind and rain? Did you show up when she needed it most? Did you give her warmth when she was crying alone?" hug?"

Shang Yiluan stared at Chu Jinyi's cold eyes, speechless.Undoubtedly, Chu Jinyi did not answer any of her repeated questions.

"You haven't done any of these things for her, so you are a stranger in her heart."

"But, she even the most precious..."

"Yes, it is precisely because she feels that she owes you that she wants to make up for you. Now, she no longer owes you anything, and she doesn't need to bear any responsibility for this unresolved relationship. If you want me to say, this It's the saddest place!" Chu Jinyi's words were so enlightening that Shang Yiluan's eyes were already red.

"Do you know where the saddest thing is? Just like in her self-report, she always believed that her parents were sorry for her, and she didn't feel any guilt in spending their money. But what about you? You are completely different Seeing that you treat her well, she thinks she owes you, and where is the source of her cognition? It is because she never regards you as the closest person from the bottom of her heart! In her cognition , you have no obligation to treat her well, and you don't have to take the responsibility of taking care of her, this is the saddest thing!"

I have to admit that Chu Jinyi's analysis is very thorough, she has already completed a comprehensive analysis of Liu Yifeng with just a few hours of description, and Shang Yiluan understands that she may never be able to do this.

"According to what you mean, between us, we can only let it go like this?"

"It's not that I'm hitting you, but it's too difficult for a child like her to be changed. Even if you knew how to change her, I'm afraid you wouldn't realize it, because she wouldn't even give it to someone close to her." you."

"But I love her... I recognize her..." Shang Yiluan

She shed tears, and those crystal clear tears made Chu Jinyi's heart tremble even more.

Handing over a tissue, Chu Jinyi sighed, "I have a question, I want to know, why did you suddenly fall in love with her?"

"Even you ask this question?" Shang Yiluan almost fainted from crying. Isn't it enough to answer Liu Yifeng's question?

"This is not only my crux, but also Liu Yifeng's crux, because in her heart, she feels that she is not worthy of being loved at all, so you must answer me this question. If you can't even convince me, then Let alone convincing her."

"Because...because she gave me carefully prepared gifts...because...she suddenly appeared to accompany me when I was the loneliest...because...I was fascinated by her melancholy temperament I just want to protect her and give her a warm embrace..."

"It's not because she doesn't believe you. Even I can't believe your answer. Or, are you sure your feelings for her are love?"

"What do you mean?"

"Let me put it this way, there is a philosopher named Lacan who made a systematic summary of desire. He pointed out that fantasy must surpass reality. Because the moment fantasy comes true, you can no longer Fantasize about it. In order to continue fantasizing, your desire must never be realized. In other words, what you really desire is not what you fantasize, but the fantasy itself. Another philosopher Pascal also pointed out that only in fantasy In the future, you will be truly happy. So, be careful with your fantasies, because once you get it, you can't fantasize anymore."

"What do you mean by that?"

"You are all Liu Yifeng's fantasies. Didn't she say that you are her spiritual pillar, and she never thought that one day she would really get you. And you, did you also fall in love with her because of this factor? ?She takes a small step forward every time, but takes a big step back. This distance makes you unacceptable. You long to have her, and hope that one day she will no longer reject you. But, is it really her that you want? ?Instead of the frantic longing that her invisibility gave you?"

"She feels this way about you, and in her subconscious, which is filled with insecurities, she is even more afraid that you feel this way about her..."

"As a human being, you will more or less have this illusion, just like the joy of fishing. In fact, what you care about is not how many fish you can catch, but the fishing itself. So, based on what I just said, please answer seriously My question just now, what is it about you falling in love with her?"

Stop being sad, Shang Yiluan began to face up to this problem.Liu Yifeng asked this question many times. She thought it was just Liu Yifeng's inferiority complex caused by lack of love, but now, what if the problem lies with herself?

Shang Yiluan thought for a long time alone, and during this time, Chu Jinyi had already completed the last procedure before going to bed.

"I'm sure and sure, I love her! My feeling for her is that I will grow old forever!"