The protagonist is always seen

Lin Luan liked to show weakness in front of Zhou Yan, half of his tears were spent in front of Zhou Yan, because he knew that he would get good comfort.

Perhaps because of his childhood experience, Lin Luan was very entangled with Zhou Yan, and he was uneasy. If he was a child who was loved since childhood, he certainly would not doubt the fact that he was loved.

But Lin Luan will be uneasy, he will make sure over and over again that he is loved by others, this kind of uneasiness is specifically manifested in the fact that he will use his own wounds to win Zhou Yan's attention, and he will even intentionally hurt himself. Achieve their goals.

Lin Luan was still a very jealous child. When he was a child, he even hated Suiyi once, because he felt that Zhou Yan liked Suiyi more, but he was very careful not to show it, because he was also guilty of stealing Zhou Yan away. Smoke, he vaguely remembered, and Sui Yi were the first children to come.

Under the influence of this anxiety, he instinctively tries to please Zhou Yan, he is very good, he doesn't cry, he doesn't walk around asking for things, and he will exaggerate his wounds to compete for favor.

So later, when Lin Luan was sure that he was loved and was no longer uneasy, he would also habitually act like a spoiled child in front of Zhou Yan, a very subtle kind of spoiled, in line with his adult status.

Zhou Yan knew what he wanted, even if he would be harsh on Lin Luan on weekdays, he would cooperate to comfort Lin Luan at this time, and the child would feel sad if he ignored his words.

At this time, Lin Luan also felt a little embarrassed by his behavior. He was so big that he had his own horse and a small machete. Very handsome.

He grabbed Zhou Yan's neck, and laughed himself, with a lively tone, making Zhou Yan happy.

"I'm a little villain, and I lied to you."

After he finished speaking, he waited for Zhou Yanliu to raise his eyebrows, and twisted his ears, telling him to drink a bowl of very bitter medicine, without giving him desserts and candied sweets.

But he didn't wait for Zhou Yan to twist his ears, what he waited for was Zhou Yan's soothing touch and hug.

"Mother's good boy, lie down well, mother will bring you medicine."

Zhou Yan was talking in his ear, and she seemed much gentler than usual. Of course, my mother was usually very nice, but Lin Luan obviously liked it better. He was a little embarrassed, but he still couldn't help turning his ears red and rubbing his face against Zhou Yan. As soon as he rubbed his face, Zhou Yan laughed.

Zhou Yan started to laugh, and Lin Luan felt relieved, and took the opportunity to bargain.

"Then I still want to eat mung bean cake after drinking the medicine."

Zhou Yan grabbed his nose and pinched it lightly.

"Give us Lin Luan three yuan, okay?"

"Okay, I want to pick three big ones."

Lin Luan couldn't finish eating snacks by himself, Zhou Yan was very strict, and always had a fixed number of snacks. Lin Luan cherished every time he ate, so every time he got an extra reward, he was very happy.

I didn't feel uncomfortable anymore, and happily waited for the medicine to be finished and snacks to eat, the whole person was covered under the quilt, covered tightly, only the head was exposed, and looked very good.

Zhou Yan reckoned that the medicine was almost ready, kissed him on the forehead, exchanged glances with Asalo who had been quietly beside him, and went to the kitchen to watch Lin Luan's medicine in peace.

Asalo was very obedient these days when Zhou Yan was here, and he was very obedient to Lin Luan, and he seemed very calm at critical moments. Zhou Yan was very relieved of him.

Naturally, guards were still left outside the door to watch. Zhou Yan was more vigilant than ever when such a bad thing happened, and she also had many people under her command, and they were all mobilized now. configuration.

There are people in the small kitchen all the time, they are all confidantes, Zhou Yan doesn't have to do it himself, but she doesn't feel at ease if she doesn't take a look.

Asalo has been very quiet. Something happened to Lin Luan and there was a lot of noise around him. He just stayed aside and watched Lin Luan for a long time.

Now that Zhou Yan went to the kitchen, he leaned over, followed Zhou Yan's example, and touched Lin Luan's forehead. His hands were cold, and Lin Luan snorted twice, and stretched out his hand from under the quilt. , and pulled Asalo's hand in.

It was warm inside the quilt, and Asalo froze for a moment, then stayed there obediently, not moving, but looking at Lin Luan, he wanted to get close to him again, remembering that Lin Luan just rubbed his face with Zhou Yan, he also Leaning over, rubbing around,

He rubs differently from others, like a cat, rubbing with the top of his head, from his chin to his neck, Lin Luan is a bit disgusted, Asalo has hairy hair, rubbing him a little itchy.

The two quarreled, and Asalo wanted to say something, but finally leaned on Lin Luan contentedly. At least he still remembered that Lin Luan was a patient, and he remembered to tuck him in the quilt.

Asalo suddenly became quiet. He looked into Lin Ran's eyes with clear eyes.

"They said, you're very sick and you're going to die."

Lin Luan was stunned for a moment, and then hummed, he has always been in poor health, although Zhou Yan never told him these things, but he has changed many places with Zhou Yan these years.

There are a lot of talkative women in the neighborhood. They don’t talk about it in front of the victim, but they never avoid their family members, including their children. Know more or less.

Can the child survive the snow this year?Will the child be able to move around this winter?It's a pity for that appearance, he was born with the appearance of Tanhualang.

Lin Luan was very scared at first, he was afraid of death, the mattress was cold, and when no one came, he was terribly frightened, afraid that he would die like this alone, and no one would notice after a long time of decay.

He is afraid of bugs. If he dies, what will happen if bugs come?

He is terrified and cannot leave people for a moment. He needs Zhou Yan to be by his side all the time to be at ease. When Zhou Yan is not around, he will shred his clothes. Zhou Yan is also patient. Press his head to his chest.

Later, I said that if I thought about it a lot, Lin Luan was no longer afraid. It was like a very quiet road. You were afraid when you walked for the first time, but you had to walk every day. When this road becomes your daily life, one day You'll get used to it and forget about being afraid.

Whether it is death or pain, neither is something that cannot be tolerated, even bugs can be tolerated.

He didn't know anything when he died, and he could cry and cry out when he was sick.

But what would mother do without him?Who is with her?

Being alone must be lonely, and Sui Yi is a bastard, never willing to stay by Mother's side.

Then, what would the broken clothes do without him?He has never had any friends, has a bad temper, and doesn't like to eat green vegetables, and Zhou Yan never ignores him. After Lin Luan is gone, he will throw green vegetables into his bowl, and he will not touch them at all.

What should I do with my newly found father?Mother said, he searched for a long time, and finally found him.

Ye Zhan, Ye Zhan seems to have nothing to worry about, but Asalo is a little fool, what should he do if he is bullied?

His new friends are not familiar yet.

What was to be done with his pony?What about his meow?

Lin Luan was worried about these again. After thinking about it, he couldn't think of a good way, so he simply stopped thinking about it.

Now Asalo looked at him and said, you are going to die, he was not afraid at the first moment, but worried, worried that his mother would shed tears when he was alone, which made people feel distressed.

Although he is a little bastard who refuses to work for Zhou Yan and always wants to have fun, he knows that he loves his mother.

I hate being alone the most, Lin Luan hates being alone, especially in winter, when there is a charcoal fire in the house, and when you are roasting your hands, the little baby who doesn't have a mother around will show her this and that, and your mother is roasting her hands by herself , the house is so so quiet.

This is too scary, who will talk to mother?Who is going to give the little snacks made by mother?

Lin Luan tilted his head and thought for a while, but Asalo didn't rush him, and looked at Lin Luan quietly.

Asalo was a little dazed, he had learned a lot during the days he was out, and he had already understood the meaning of death on the battlefield.

But when he knew that Lin Luan would also die, he suddenly felt a little bored. In his life, what he felt most often was pain, and all he saw was dirt, ugliness, and aging. Later, he met Lin Luan. , In winter, the snow keeps falling, the red lanterns, the boy with red lips and white teeth under the lamp, everything is beautiful like a painting.

Then the painting, touching him, was warm.

Then he seemed to have found his goal, with a decisive attitude, like a dagger tore something apart, he tore apart the quagmire-like daily life, broke away from the life that can be seen to the end at a glance, and crazily chased after this warmth .

Then he got more than he could have imagined.

Much like a dream.

But now, someone told him that the source of the dream was about to shatter.

Asalo looked at Lin Luan, even he didn't know it, his eyes were so sad that he felt it deeply before he understood this feeling.

Then he heard Lin Luan say in a brisk tone.

"Yes, you have to remember me."

Lin Luan was so relaxed, Asalo suddenly broke the confusion, he nodded, and even gave Lin Luan a slight smile, docile like a puppy.

He doesn't know anything yet, but he's growing.

And Lin Luan was worried about his mother, his broken clothes, his father, his friends, his pony, and his meowing.