[Korean Entertainment] The first girl group

When Quan Zhilong called Jiang Salang, she was busy charging her phone with a coin-operated charger at the airport.

As soon as it was plugged in, a text message from someone popped up as soon as the phone was turned on. She was in a trance, and she even forgot that someone whose surname was Quan just kissed her a while ago and then went diving again.At that time, she didn't seem to think about anything, she just tried her best to calm herself down, just like before, like usual, she sent back a text message to Quan Zhilong, telling herself why she didn't answer the phone.

She tried to maintain her sense of normalcy.

Then Quan Zhilong called and asked her why her phone was down, she was stunned for a moment before remembering.

Oh, I just talked to my dad on the phone for more than two hours. I made a call from Seoul to Belgium. Of course it should be stopped.

Quan Zhilong stammered, as if he wanted to ask something else.

However, Jiang Salang had already seen Yi Daoxian walking towards her with the ticket, so she hung up the phone perfunctorily.

A few steps to greet the past, received the ticket.

My mother, Professor Luo, entered the hospital in the evening.Although the caesarean section for next week has been scheduled before, the most authoritative doctor in Seoul will perform the operation at that time.Unfortunately, that day, Professor Luo slipped and fell in his own bathroom and suffered heavy bleeding, so he went directly to the operating room of the hospital.Professor Jiang, who was usually in a safe place, was in a hurry. After calling his daughter to inform him across thousands of miles and mountains, he kept talking about various things in a panic, always asking questions over and over again.

nothing will happen...

Sarah, your mother will be fine...

"Of course nothing will happen!"

Jiang Salang said it firmly, but from the moment she got the news, she was actually in a daze.

During the two-hour call, she comforted her all the way from the hotel to the airport.

Until my phone dies.

After Jiang Sarang took the ticket from Yi Daoxian, he looked back at his mobile phone.

The power displayed on the screen is still only a little thin.But she booked the latest flight, and the check-in time was almost past.And it was because she was lucky, there were no tickets for this flight, no one knew who refunded one, and she just happened to snatch it.

Picked up the ticket and reconfirmed the time, there was nothing I could do, I had to go.

As soon as the phone is unplugged from the charging cable, a prompt box warning of low battery immediately pops up on the screen.

Jiang Salang called up the keyboard of her mobile phone, quickly sent a text message to her aunt, and then turned off the phone neatly, and waved to Yi Daoxian and several seniors who sent her all the way to the airport:

"Then I'll go first~ I'll see you later in Seoul~~~"

"Oh, let's go."

Yi Doxian watched the girl away with a worried face.

"When you arrive, lend me your mobile phone to tell me you're safe!"

I was worried all the way, and couldn't fall asleep even if I closed my eyes.

Just like that, I returned to Seoul alone.

When she got off the plane, Jiang Salang was still wearing the long printed dress that she sang after being drunk last night.Originally, because of the rain last night, she lifted up the skirt a little and tied a knot on her knee.When I got on the plane alone, when I was always thinking about it, I tried to untie that knot to divert my attention.

But it only took 5 minutes to untie it...

It wasn't as she expected, it was a difficult problem worth spending a lot of time to solve, and the deadlock couldn't take away her complicated thoughts.It's just that there are some deep and shallow fold marks on her skirt.

"Ah! Are you crazy?!"

As soon as the girl came out from the exit, she was covered by a windbreaker.

A pair of hands tightly wrapped around her arms, leading her out, while lowering her voice, she continued to scold:

"You got off the plane wearing this? Is it useful to cover your face? The whole world saw you drunk last night!!!"

The girl picked out a small slit in the windbreaker, exposed her eyes and said anxiously:

"Uncle Bing! How is my mother? Are you all right?"

Byung Chang-soo turned to stare at her, closed the small slit with his hands, and dragged her to continue walking outside.

"Your mother is fine. Congratulations on having a younger brother. Your aunt knew you were coming back after receiving a text message and wanted to pick you up, but it's not convenient for her to appear in front of the public right now, so please ask me to come and deal with it."

"Really? My mother is fine, right!"

The girl raised her voice, and her whole head popped out of the windbreaker.

Looking at Byung Chang-soo with bright eyes, he also breathed a sigh of relief.

"ah!!!"

Byung Chang-soo looked around in a panic, and quickly pushed that head in again.

Then he didn't speak anymore, just pulled the girl out all the way, very fast.

When flying back from Europe, Jiang Salang wished that the plane could go faster, and faster.

She was afraid that any accident would happen to her mother, and she would not be able to bear it.

However, when Byeong Chang-soo shoved her into the nanny's car and drove all the way back from Incheon to Seoul, the girl leaned in the passenger seat and suddenly felt some hesitation in her heart.

Brother... She has an extra brother...

My mother has already confirmed that she is fine. Now my father, grandpa, grandma, aunt, aunt, and probably everyone from the Luo family have gathered in the hospital.Mom is all right, that's good, really good.But the hospital...

Jiang Sarang sat in a daze on the seat, Byeong Chang-soo took the time to turn his head to look at her, and immediately adjusted the seat to an angle suitable for sleeping, and even fished out a blindfold from nowhere, and handed it to the girl.

"I was so worried all the way that I didn't sleep, I'll sleep for a while, and I'll call you when I arrive."

His tone was much gentler than when he saw Jiang Salang coming out of the airport unkempt just now.

No, can't sleep.There is a voice in my heart, speaking quietly like this.

But the girl didn't make a sound, she just snorted lightly, then obediently put on the blindfold, let her whole body go limp, and stuck to the seat.

He was motionless, as if he had fallen asleep.

In the past, whenever she closed her eyes but was conscious, her sense of hearing would be particularly sharp.

But this day was different, she closed her eyes, as if she had fallen into a dark chaos, all her senses were closed, and everything outside was far away.

She vaguely remembered that the day after she learned that Professor Luo was pregnant, she had gone to drink with Jiang Gouli.

She also seemed to be quite annoyed that day, similar to the recent situation, annoyed by many things.

But that day, she asked Jiang Gouli about things in the company, and talked about her troubles because of Lin Hela.On that day, she also tried to solve some problems and make things easier for herself.But in the end, she didn't say anything about the thing that gave her the idea of ​​finding someone to drink.

Later, I never said anything.

Because the whole family began to look forward to that life, and because her own affairs became more and more, and they all weighed on her head like a hill.

In the end... since when did it become what it is now?

The girl trapped herself in the darkness, thinking all the time.

Think back, think again.

It feels like continuously drilling into layers of black clouds, peeling off one layer, maybe there will be another layer, maybe... There will also be some memory fragments that have been ignored for a short time.The present Jiang Sarang, the past Jiang Sarang, and the past Jiang Sarang, countless Jiang Sarang, seem to be split into many pieces, randomly thrown in every corner of the darkness, and connect every corner A broken piece of her veins was covered by layers of black clouds.Does such a vein still exist, has it been cut off, or stretched so thin that it looks like a string that is about to break?No way of knowing.

She tried, and tried, trying to find out what was wrong.

"Sarang, we're here."

Byung Chang-soo patted her on the shoulder.

Well, here we are.

Jiang Salang sat up and smiled.

He took the hat, sunglasses and mask from Byeong Chang-soo, and even took a bag of clothes that Bing Chang-soo handed over from the back seat.It was sponsored by the brand they endorsed, and a few sets were often placed in the nanny's car in case they needed it.And now, it just came in handy.

Dodgingly approached the bathroom closest to the parking lot, changed into the pure white A-line short dress, brushed some oily hair, put on a baseball cap that didn't match the outfit at all, and put on Sunglasses, masks.With his head down, he followed Byeong Chang-soo, found the elevator, and went upstairs.Leaning against the cold elevator wall, quietly counting the elevator's ascent time, blinking in confusion behind the sunglasses.

"Ding -" a sound.

Arrived.

"wuli sarang~~~"

As soon as he stepped out of the elevator, he was hugged by a bear.

Jiang Salang struggled to free his arms, took off his sunglasses and called out:

"Auntie."

"Did you not sleep on the road? Why are the dark circles under your eyes so heavy?"

Luo Jingen approached and looked carefully, seeing that the girl turned her head away a little bit, and remembered that now is not the time to pursue dark circles, so she immediately brought up her smile again, pointed to the corridor beside the elevator and said:

"Your brother was named Jiangshenqi by your grandfather. The reason is that the medicinal material ginseng has a warm and sweet taste, and it is common. Your grandfather said that your brother has a good life. With such a mild and common medicinal name, you can suppress the horoscope. ..."

While talking, Luo Jingen walked towards a certain direction in the corridor with his arms around the girl's shoulders.

"Wait, is the ward over?"

The girl had already taken off her mask, only wearing a hat and sunglasses, and raised her finger to point to a sign somewhere behind her.

"Oh, your mother was called for an examination just now. My brother-in-law and my parents are accompanying me. Let's go to see Xiaoqi first~"

Luo Jing'en's tone was brisk. She also just gave birth to her baby son Liu Zhihao in May. Now, it's the time when she sees anyone's baby and wants to kiss her.Therefore, she, who has always been the closest to Jiang Salang at home, did not notice the girl's awkward mood for a moment.

Just talking to myself...

"Xiaoqi looks like you when you were a child, his eyes and nose are exactly the same! And he also loves to laugh, he grinned when the doctor said it, the nurse patted him on the back to make him cry twice, silly The children are still grinning, they really deserve to be your own brother!"

Luo Jingen chanted all the way, and Jiang Salang listened quietly all the way.

Soon, they walked to the door of the nursery.

"Here, it's the bed next to the wall, can you see it?"

Luo Jingen stood on tiptoe and pointed out the direction of her little nephew to her little niece.

The girl also tiptoed unconsciously and looked inside.

A dozen cribs were filled with wrinkled newborns, and it was hard to tell who was who.However, under my aunt's persistent identification, I finally found out.On the bed next to the wall, the chubby little boy with particularly fair skin was her younger brother, named Jiang Canqi, who was indifferent and loved to laugh.

That was the fourth member of their family, her blood relative.

The 10daysoff ten-day carnival ended. Yi Daoxian and his group came back from Europe and finally turned to Japan. When they began to formally carry the banner of rock and roll over the Fuji Rock Music Festival, Jiang Sarang was unable to follow him, saying that he wanted to stay at home. Help with the kids.

Regarding this, I Do Hyun said: "...Congratulations."

After nearly half a month of growth, Xiaopangqi has shed the wrinkled appearance at first.

The relatives and friends who came to visit all said that Xiao Qi and Sa Lang look alike, especially when they smile, they are exactly the same!

Professor Luo checked out of the hospital and went home to recuperate.Professor Jiang has a lot of classes this semester and is relatively busy, so he didn't ask for leave. He just asked Sa Lang's grandparents to stay in Seoul for a few more months to help take care of Luo Jingxi's body and take care of the children.

Jiang Salang doesn't know how to make soup, and to be honest, she doesn't know how to take care of children.

Something to do at home.

She wandered upstairs and downstairs, wanting to do something, to help.As a result, after turning around twice, she was yelled at by her mother and went to the study——

"Isn't the college entrance examination tomorrow? Go and review, and memorize the words twice during the holiday!"

Professor Luo suffered a hemorrhage during childbirth, which shocked the whole family.In the past two days, his face was still pale, but his roaring spirit had already returned one step ahead.

In this regard, the grandma who controlled the kitchen of the Jiang family was very pleased.

Professor Jiang, who has to report to school every day, expressed his gratitude.

Just like that, suddenly came a certain day, a certain morning in August.

It was sunny that day. Professor Jiang went to school early in the morning. Grandpa and grandma went out for a walk to buy vegetables. Only Professor Luo and his son and daughter were left at home.Professor Luo laments that the sun is just right outside the house, and the sun in the early morning in summer is a rare warmth and refreshing.So although Professor Luo still couldn't blow the air, he asked his daughter to help move a recliner and put it in the French window near the balcony of the living room.After putting it away, Professor Luo hugged Xiao Qi who was sleeping soundly, and carefully sat down on the chair. His eyes were slightly closed by the golden sunrise.At the same time, his right hand subconsciously covered Xiao Qi's eyes.

Probably the mother's instinctive reaction.

"Let me turn the chair around."

The girl standing next to her immediately stepped forward, grabbed the back of the chair, and pushed hard to the side.

If it's just a chair, it's not heavy, which is fine.

But now there are two people above.

The girl struggled to break it, and after gritting her teeth to break the direction two inches away, she slipped her hands and leaned back instead, almost falling off her ass.

Professor Luo who grabbed Jiang Salang's arm at the critical moment: "Why are you always so rough in doing things!"

Staring at her eyes, after confirming that her daughter was standing still, she held Xiao Qi and stood up again, saying:

"Forget it, I'm the one who thinks about it. Sa Long, come with me to the study, I have something I want to ask your opinion on."

That day, Professor Luo held Jiang Xiaoqi in his arms and asked his daughter a question.

"Sa Lang, mom is thinking about whether to adopt you to your aunt. What do you think about this?"

Jiang Salang: "..."

"Ah, Sa Lang, don't think too much. Mom doesn't mean not to want you anymore, but your aunt... She has been getting worse and worse in the past two years. She has no children after divorce, and she doesn't plan to get married again. You Grandpa, grandma, me, your father, and your aunt, we are all worried about your aunt, afraid that she will be old and no one will take care of her. And when Xiao Qi was born, you were not there so I didn’t see it. Xiao Qi was just hugged by the doctor. When you came out, your aunt suddenly started crying, afraid of being seen by us, she secretly hid outside the ward and pretended to make a phone call."

"Sa Lang, as for our Luo family, the children and grandchildren are not very prosperous. My aunt has no children, and your aunt just had Zhihao. So I thought about it... I think the only way is to make you feel wronged. You are us The oldest grandson of the Luo family, your aunt has always liked you very much. Adoption is just a name. Your aunt has a strong self-esteem. I'm afraid that if you don't go through this procedure, she will be too embarrassed to accept your kindness to her, but it doesn't matter, even if you leave With such a procedure, you will still be the daughter of our family in the future, and this will never change in our family. I just hope that in the days to come, you will take more care of your aunt..."

Click, click.

Later, Jiang Salang occasionally recalled—something, probably at that time, at that moment, suddenly shattered.

She knelt on the ground and picked it up for a long time, but she couldn't piece together the original shape.

The thing that was broken was herself, Jiang Salang who didn't know that since that day, a lot of things had been suppressed in her heart.On a certain day of a certain year, a certain month, it suddenly fell apart.There was not even a cracking sound, no exclamation, no crying, no begging, biting his lip, with a dazed expression, but his heart had been shattered into pieces all over the place.

However, the irony is that there are many, many problems that have not been quite figured out.Suddenly, at that moment, it was untied suddenly.Suddenly, she realized that the true face of something was hidden in the dark clouds that had been haunting her.

It wasn't that she waved away the black cloud that filled her surroundings, but that some kind of power directly dragged her to the deepest part of the black cloud, allowing her to see the shocking figure in the deepest part.

It was her, in the dark cloud, and it was always just her.

It was Jiang Salang who sat alone by the safe in TBB's studio and cried for four or five hours after the uncle suddenly left the company to say goodbye; Jiang Salang who didn't dare to cry while wearing the quilt; Jiang Salang who found that Pu Chuya was bruised, but was so angry that he could only slam the door out in the end, Jiang Salang who stayed in the company for more than a week; it was Jiang Salang who learned that Lin He Jiang Salang, who wanted to change his way of life, nodded and said he could understand; after learning that Aunt Bai had indeed stolen her little black box, she was so shocked that she thought she was dreaming, and she didn't stop Shen Yazhong in the end. Jiang Salang who punished Aunt Bai...

There are many of her, curled up in the depths of the black clouds.

It seems a bit cold here, so she hugged herself so tightly, right?

"Of course, this is just my mother's thoughts in the past two days, not that it has to be like this."

Finally, that day, Luo Jingxi pulled out a hand, pulled the girl's wrist and said:

"You have been sensible since you were a child, that's why your mother wants to discuss with you. You think about it first, and then tell your mother what you think, okay?"

Now there is another her in the deepest part of the black cloud, Jiang Salang, whom even his own mother doesn't really want.

In the darkness covering the sky and the earth, the girl hugged those many selves tightly.

Finally, did she know what those black clouds were?

Fear, that is fear.

With a stiff back, Jiang Salang walked out of her study, turned back to the bedroom, and closed the door behind her back.

With his back against the wall, he slid to the floor and sat down, covering his lips tightly with his hands. In a short while, the palms and backs of his hands were all wet.

She was so scared. From a certain moment, she suddenly became more and more afraid, afraid of being left behind.

Because she is always left behind...

It was obviously not like this, it wasn’t like this!

She used to be carried by Professor Jiang to school every day, she used to be able to eat Professor Luo’s best fish porridge every morning, she used to stay in the company carefree, and she once knew someone who always gave her The president of the brokerage company with a high thumbs up.In the past, she was obviously the person Pu Chuya relied on the most. In the past, she thought that she had become the captain enough for O'Neill and others to trust.Once, there were obviously many people by her side.

But then?

Once she liked someone, together, and then only herself.

She used to think that her family would always be her backing.As she got older, she even felt sorry for her parents for being a trainee when she was too young, because she didn't give them the opportunity and time to watch her grow up, because she deprived them The right to well-being of parenthood.

However, when she wanted to go back to the past, her home... seemed to be no longer the home she was familiar with.

At least the parents who used to get along with her day and night probably wouldn't want to give her away.

No matter what the reason is, they will not push her away.

It's obvious...it's obvious that you have worked hard.

She has really worked hard and tried her best every time.She would rather let others hurt her than let herself hurt others.She always wants to live honestly and honestly, treat everyone with sincerity, be useful to everyone she loves, become their pistachio, become their friend and depend on.

So far, she has a clear conscience for everything she has done.

Never lazy, never hypocritical.

But why, always being left behind again and again?

Why... the people who love the most the most, but want to escape from her most eagerly?

The girl squatted beside the door of her own bedroom, squatting in the brighter morning.She fumbled with her face with the back of her hand, but it only made her cheeks more messy.So she sniffed, stood up simply, pulled a large ball of tissue from the table, and rubbed it hard on her face.

After rubbing, I picked up the mirror and looked at it.

Thin pale face, red and swollen eyes.

"Jiang Salang, you are in such a mess."

Inwardly, laugh at yourself.Then he took a hat and put it on top of his head.

"Mom, I have something to do in the company, I'll go back first!"

After yelling hastily, he hurriedly went downstairs.

I don't know if such a hasty shout made Professor Luo feel that something was wrong.

Jiang Salang lowered her head all the way, only focusing on walking outside.After walking out of the gate and out of the community, I suddenly became confused again.

Where to go?

I don't want my parents to see her selfish emotions and thoughts, and I don't want to go back to the company and be surrounded by Lee Jun-suk...

After waving for a taxi, after getting in, he took out his mobile phone to call Shen Yazhong.The bell rang over and over again, but no one answered.

The girl lowered her head and threw the phone back into her bag.

When I wanted to close the bag again, I suddenly saw the passport.She carried it all the way back from Belgium, and kept it in her bag since then, forgetting to take it out again.

At that time, in the taxi, the passport suddenly appeared in front of her eyes.

Like destiny.

In the hot summer of August, a certain taxi, which was still inconspicuous, suddenly turned another corner on the way to Cheongdam-dong and drove to Incheon International Airport.The only passenger in the car sat in the back seat, looking out the window at the blue sky.She pursed her lips in a daze, under the brim of the hat and black hair, there was a tight jaw line.The girl is too thin, so the curve, from a certain angle, looks sharp, sharp and fragile, like the arc on the blade, very thin, but inexplicably makes people feel faintly dangerous.

Sensible, because sensible.

Jiang Salang was in a daze. She remembered that that was the reason why her mother wanted to adopt her to her aunt, because she believed that she would be able to take good care of her.At the same time, it is also the reason why my mother will ask her thoughts so bluntly, because I believe that she will look at the problem rationally and will not be influenced by her emotions.

Is...is that so?

Because she was obedient and sensible since she was a child, she felt that...

Even if you leave her behind, it won't matter, will it?

In the midsummer of 2010, a certain girl, after experiencing a long period of adolescence that was restrained so much that she didn't look like a kid, finally started her own late rebellion.

No resentment, no hatred.

She was just a little tired... No, she was really tired, so tired that she couldn't live happily anymore.

In the past, I stubbornly followed the good human qualities I was taught, tried my best to be a good person, and wanted to do good things all my life.But now, after realizing it, I realized that there probably never existed any good people or good things in this world.Including herself, she has always been hiding her weaknesses - she is afraid of being alone, afraid of eating breakfast alone, afraid that no one needs her, afraid of crying, drinking, or getting angry, she doesn't know who else to call.

Over the years, I have tried my best to do what I do best.

Occasionally, when I am free, I carefully expect that more and more people will come to me, and I always look forward to everyone staying together lively and smiling.

But, it's too sad for her like this.

Everyone saw through her cowardice, that's why they ran away, didn't they?

The unreserved, eternal love and trust that I have been looking forward to all this time, the family love and friendship that always appeared in fairy tale books when I was a child, and my eternal companionship.It's always been just a fairy tale, right?

It was she who was too stupid to believe it for so many years.I have been fantasizing and looking forward to it all the time.So the harder she tried and the closer she got, the people she had always trusted and looked forward to, the faster she ran away, and they all ran away as they should...because she was too stupid.

So, Sarah, stop being stupid.

Deep down, someone is speaking softly.Then it seemed as if he suddenly sighed, taking a long and long breath, echoing in a certain wide and empty space, making a lonely and scattered sound, and then circling.

That place was like her barren heart, no matter how she shouted, no one responded.

So, give up.

In the depths of the black cloud, countless Jiang Salang who embraced him all raised their heads to look at her.

Take a look at yourself in such a mess.

So just give up from this moment, Jiang Sarang.

It's not too late, but it's time to grow up, it's time to recognize your reality.

You're not a very nice girl, accept that fact, Sarah.

Then you can live, barely.

Accept it, Jiang Sarang.

The author has something to say: This one is a bit cruel, so I posted it early, so as not to spoil everyone's mood for the New Year's Eve~~~

As for why the New Year's Eve is released... well, because according to the outline, the plot just came here, and I didn't expect the timing to be so coincidental!But there's really no way to avoid it.So I can only comfort myself by saying that New Year's Eve is a day for family reunion, but at the same time, it is also a day for us to reflect on whether we are not enough for our loved ones.

Family affection is something that you will only know how precious it is after you lose it.

But as a hypocritical person, I sincerely hope that everyone, including myself, should know...you must love your family while you are still there, and please ask them to love you well.When setting the outline, the reason for this plot is to remind myself to reflect and remind me not to do things that I regret in the future.

Well, all in all, today is New Year's Eve.

I wish you all a happy new year~ auspicious year of the monkey~ good health~ all the best~~~

Tomorrow is the first day of the new year. The author will spend all his time with his parents, so he won’t update. Will it continue as usual~ I love everyone who accompanied me here~ I’m really grateful~ I like you all too~~~ Kiss, kiss, kiss ! ! !

Also, today's New Year's Eve... so the author gave out red envelopes~ Everyone who left a message in this chapter today will get red envelopes~~~

And besides that, there is a prize contest~~ Those who answer the first five questions correctly will get extra red envelopes~~~

Question: Excuse me, until August 2010, how many songs have I released in total~

I would say that I came out to throw red envelopes to think about a problem, did my hair scratch...

Well, how about another one, the rules are the same as above.

Question: I, Sa Lang, used to be the MC of which song program~

It's easy!Send red envelope questions! !

Well, well, I can no longer be long-winded.