[Comprehensive] BE saves the world

At the end of the filming, only the finale is left.

However, this part is stuck.

Because when the male lead bid farewell to the dancer, the director always shouted to stop.When calling the card for the fifth time, Ushio Kurosaki finally couldn't bear it, and called me and Shinichi Okazaki to give him a training session.

"Shinichi, do you understand, this person is the girl you really like, but you have to give up this relationship, you understand from the very beginning that this is a fruitless relationship, and you also understand that if you do this, you will be caught by the girl in front of you." You are resentful, you can tell from her expression that you have hurt her heart, so you are a little afraid to look at her, do you understand? Even so, you still can't help but look at her, because in the future you may There will be no more. All you have to show is the feeling of being calm on the surface, but sad inside. What are you acting out? It's basically a play with a girl you only have a slight crush on."

Ushio Kurosaki couldn't help but touch his forehead when he said this.

"Just put in the feeling of your lovelorn... Have you ever been in love? Just put it in!"

"Eh... But I've never been dumped by a girl. I have a lot of experience in dumping a girl, but none of them apply to this situation."

The little bastard Okazaki Shinichi showed an unusually innocent look, and then he was hit on the head by Kurosaki Ushio who rolled up the script.After beating up the little bastard, Kurosaki Ushio looked at me again, he was silent for a moment, and suddenly sighed deeply.

"You are the other side of the problem... the feeling of wanting to refuse but being unable to refuse, wanting to keep him but having to let go, as well as the wordless sadness and almost numb pain, you all showed Very good. Especially avoiding his location and seeing the details of the sky and sea, you handled it very well."

After Kurosaki Ushio said these words, he shut up and remained silent for a while, and whispered some trivial thoughts such as "the expressiveness of the newcomers now is too amazing", "the emotional appeal is just like that of Mogami Kyoko", and then Clearing his throat, he continued.

"But you didn't handle the part well when you watched the actor leave. You are the one who was left behind. You have a certain resentment towards this man, and you are also disappointed with him, so you will always Don’t talk to him – you feel lost and don’t know what to say to this person, but you’re also afraid that the first thing you say will be complaints, which will make this person hate you and leave a bad impression on you. But in the end, you still You can't bear it anymore, you still hope that this person can remember you, so you keep waving your handkerchief there, the white handkerchief is to hope that he can see you, and can see you as long as possible, you are extending your life by this means Separation. Do you understand? You haven't dealt with the feeling of being left behind."

"..."

I didn't refute, just hung my head silently.

Yes.

Because... all along, I was the one who left first.Although I have imagined the feelings of the people left behind countless times, as expected, I still don't understand as well as I thought.

"You two go over there to rest. Rethink the relationship between these two characters."

Director Kurosaki rubbed his temples, waved his hand to let the two of us get out of here, and went to re-discuss the lighting angle with the lighting engineer.

Okazaki Shinichi and I walked to the next lounge as we said, and the two of us sat facing each other and looked at each other. "Well" sounded.

"It's so hard to understand." He complained in a low voice, "Am I acting out of the ordinary, senior?"

"Not really." I thought for a while, then raised my hand to poke the boy's cheek, "However, your sadness is too straightforward. In fact, at this time, I will force myself not to think about it."

"Don't think about it?" Okazaki Shinichi tilted his head curiously, "Why don't you think about it?"

"How should I put it..." I vaguely recalled the feeling before parting, and said in a trance, "Because if you realize it, you will feel pain, and you will have no way to do anything. You see, avoiding pain is It’s human instinct, so I don’t think about it subconsciously, but fill my mind with unimportant things. In "The Dancer of Izu", the reason why the hero keeps chatting with Kaoru’s brother is because of The reason why the boatman took care of an old woman he didn't know was because he wanted to avoid parting."

"Really, I thought it was because he didn't pay much attention to dancers." Okazaki Shinichi puffed up his cheeks childishly, and spread my fingers, "If I really like it, wouldn't it be very sad? He always They are all so plain, and chatting happily with others, I thought he didn’t like it that much.”

"no."

I smiled wryly, and it was really difficult for a young boy of this age to experience such complicated feelings.Such a young man is at the time when his desire for self-expression is strongest, and he can't suppress his feelings at all, and he can't understand why he is unwilling to express his feelings.

However, human emotions are very complicated.

"Not showing it doesn't mean you don't love, or don't love enough." I said softly, "On the contrary, it's because I love that I can't express it. It's because I like it so much that I don't want to let it go. The other party knows."

Because if you say it, even that person becomes painful.

Since nothing can be given, it is better not to say anything.

Once you say it, the other party will become heavy, and you will also become heavy, so heavy that you can't go on.

"That's it."

Okazaki nodded, not knowing whether he understood or not, he looked at me and asked another question.

"However, seniors don't understand the feelings of those who are left behind, right?"

I was stunned for a moment, and wanted to refute, but couldn't help but smiled wryly.

"Is it that obvious?"

"That kind of thing is obvious." Okazaki Shinichi leaned back and bent his knees casually, "Because the seniors have always left first."

"……Eh?"

"I always want to stay longer with seniors, but seniors will always leave first." The teenager hugged his knees and looked at me with cat-like eyes, "Not only when I'm with you, but at school It was the same when I was in an underground band, and my senior was the one who left first almost every time. You probably haven’t noticed it yet, but you don’t look back every time you say goodbye. I look at the back of my senior Sometimes, I always think, Senior is really free and easy."

...Does it look like that to others?

I'm a little lost.

It seems to be true as he said.It seems that every time I say goodbye, I don't look back.

When did it start?

I don't seem to be going back anymore.

This time, it was the boy who reached out and gently pinched my cheek.

"Thank you senior for the advice, I seem to have found that feeling."

Those beautiful eyes were bent, and when I subconsciously wanted to stand up, he exerted force on his wrist and pressed me to sit down, preventing me from getting up.The boy's strength was stronger than I imagined, and his slender fingers conveyed his slightly higher body temperature, which made me lose my mind for a moment.

"This time." He said, "Senior, just watch me and leave first."

Do you want me to experience the feelings of those who are left behind, or does this young man finally give up those vain thoughts?

I don't know which one it is.

However, I still did as he said, just sitting quietly in the Japanese room, watching Okazaki Shinichi walk out of the dark corridor and into the infinite skylight, the back of the student in Kon Feibai's uniform was illuminated by the bright sunlight Turning pale, he greeted the staff casually, his smile seemed to be melting in the sun.

So bright and so far away.

So I also lowered my eyes, clenched my hands, and smiled silently.

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"a!"

In the last scene of the film, Xunzi sees off the male students at the pier.

Subconsciously, I grasped my sleeves tightly, and drew my tightly closed lips slightly inward. I even shrank my body slightly behind my elder brother Rongji, unwilling to look at the expression of the person in front of me.However, after the boy stepped onto the sampan, my gaze followed him, trembling slightly, silently following his back.

The boat sailed, and I moved my steps accordingly. The first step was still hesitant, but after the first step, every subsequent step became easier.I walked faster and faster, and at last I almost broke into a trot, but the road was still too short, not short enough to catch up with the sailing boat.My footsteps stopped at the edge of the pier, and I leaned forward slightly because I couldn't hold back the inertia.

My eyes quickly swept around, and finally pulled out a white handkerchief, and waved it desperately towards the distant ship.

After the man on the boat waved his hat at me, the long-suffering tears finally fell.

Goodbye.Bye now.

We will never see each other again.

But please don't forget me.

Even if it's just at this moment, please don't forget me, don't forget the time we spent together.

"Ok!"

Kurosaki Ushio called out Ka in satisfaction.

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After the filming was finished, everyone present relaxed, removing make-up and chatting, and I was no exception.With the help of my assistant, I packed up my things, and when I was about to go outside, there was a sudden weight behind me. It turned out that Okazaki Shinichi pressed me from behind again.

"Really." Shinichi tightened his wrists as if complaining, "Senior is really too much, I just said it, and another person like this left."

I froze for a moment: "...Doesn't that mean you want to break up with me?"

"of course not!"

Okazaki Shinichi let go of his hand as if he was annoyed by me, but he insisted on pulling me, making me turn around to look at him.The boy slumped his shoulders as if angry or helpless, and sighed while resting his forehead like an adult.

"If I hate you, how could I come to talk to you?"

... I'm really sorry that senior is so dull and delusional.

I bowed my head in shame.Then I felt a hand on my cheek.

"Forget it, I'm used to being like an idiot like senior."

The boy smiled, but for some reason, his eyes fell behind me.He squinted his beautiful eyes like a cat, and his childish face suddenly became inexplicably alluring.He leaned forward a little, and stopped at a position where I could smell my breath. His well-shaped lips curled up, as if he wanted to kiss, or just wanted to act like a baby, and made an ambiguous smile.

"However, the agreement between me and senior is always valid." He said.

"...promise?"

I wondered, when did I make an agreement with this kid... Pay back the money?No way...

"Well, if seniors want to find someone who graduated as a virgin, you must come to me?" He said with a smile, "I'm very skilled."

I:"……………………"

Who tm made an appointment with you! ! !I don't! ! !Absolutely not! ! !

A unilateral agreement is called self-talk!It's not called an agreement! ! !

However, before I could snarl this sentence, there was a voice behind me that sent chills down my spine.

"Mana, let's go."

Chrollo Rushiru appeared behind me at some point, and said coldly.

The author has something to say: The summary of the chapter comes from the finale of "The Dancing Girl of Izu" by Yasunari Kawabata.