Chen Qing

Xiao Zhan has been standing not far away, looking at the figure of Chen Chen talking with Su Ke.After a while, Su Ke left, and Xiao Zhan walked to Chen Chen's side.

"Xiao Zhan, do you know how much I loved him? I pretended to be him in my heart. Every one of my friends knew him. I even showed his photo to my mother, risking being beaten to death by my mother." The risk of telling her that I want to marry him after graduation..."

Chen Chen leaned on the pillar and looked at Su Ke's back from a distance, as if talking to Xiao Zhan, or muttering to himself.

"Then why did you separate?"

"I'm afraid, I'm like crazy, I want him to be by my side all the time... Xiao Zhan, you know, I've never been so dependent on a person, that feeling scares me, I'm afraid that one day he will leave I……"

Chen Chen's eyes were sore and he could no longer see Su Ke clearly.

Xiao Zhan saw Chen Chen's tears dripping down, but she didn't seem to know.

"He told me he still loves me...but I don't love him anymore..." Chen Chen buried his face on the pillar, hugged the pillar and cried softly, "Why should I hurt him...I hate him the most It's him who doesn't want to hurt...but I don't love him anymore!"

Xiao Zhan feels sorry for her, but at this moment he feels rejoicing, fortunately she doesn't love him anymore.Chen Chen didn't know how worried Xiao Zhan was when he saw her obediently leaving with Su Ke, worried that she would never come back to him.

Su Ke turned around and looked at the couple from a distance, and smiled self-deprecatingly.When he realized that the breakup was not because Chen Chen was tired of him, he suddenly felt relieved. It turned out that he was only obsessed with one reason for so many years.Chen Chen didn't need to give her an answer, he understood when she hesitated.He also knew that if he begged hard, Chen Chen would definitely soften his heart, and he still couldn't bear to embarrass her.

When Chen Chen decided to leave when she was young, she hoped that Su might keep her, but he didn't.Chen Chen remembered that he was always lukewarm, except that he was abnormally shy when he saw him, as if he had never loved him before, so she got angry and didn't look at him or pay attention to him.The friends around me thought what was wrong, their ears were already used to Su Ke's presence, so why did they suddenly keep silent.

After a long time, Chen Chen figured out that he was the one who hurt Su Ke. After all, she was the one who wanted to be together, and she was the one who wanted to break up, and he was such a proud person.

Chen Chen felt guilty towards Su Ke, but it was only guilt, so what if some misunderstandings were explained clearly, she didn't love her anymore, and no one could change it.

Chen Chen hugged the pillar and cried for a while, then gradually calmed down.Xiao Zhan stood beside her quietly, accompanying her.Chen Chen felt the warmth of the people around him - how can one heart hold two people.

……

When they went back, the evening wind was a bit chilly.

"Have you ever held hands with him?"

"No."

Xiao Zhan took Chen Chen's hand.

"Then did he hug you?"

"No."

Xiao Zhan hugged Chen Chen, and without letting go of her hand, he wrapped her arm behind his back and hugged her: "Don't move."

Chen Chen's face was buried in Xiao Zhan's chest, he was suspicious but also greedy for this warmth, so he stood still.

"But if you say you love him, you always have him in your heart."

"That was before, it's been so long... From now on, I will always have you in my heart, okay?"

Very good.

"But you showed his picture to your mother, and you didn't even want to take me home."

"I was young, frivolous and ignorant...why do you always want to go to my house?"

You are sensible now, so why don't you take me home?

"But you still obey him now. If he tells you to go with him, you just go with him."

"Didn't he have something to say... I'm not going to obey you?"

"Where to obey, I say a word and you agree with it."

"..."

"But……"

"Xiao Zhan, there's no need for you to do this, and you're not recording a program right now." Chen Chen looked up at Xiao Zhan, laughed at himself, and interrupted him.Xiao Zhan is a gentle person, he wanted to comfort himself, but he didn't know that he used the wrong method.Chen Chen was afraid that he would be immersed in it, but it was only an illusion in the end.

Xiao Zhan held Chen Chen's hand and trembled, but he didn't let go of her, and met her eyes: "Do you think it's because of the show?"

"Or else?"

Xiao Zhan's heart was cold and a little angry.He let go of Chen Chen, and walked away without saying a word, striding forward so that Chen Chen couldn't keep up, he didn't want to talk to this silly woman anymore.

Why does she always say she loves herself but doesn't understand her heart.