[Infinite Horror] Xiao Ran

? "Have you seen my memory?"

In the spiritual world, C, who still looked like a five-year-old girl, didn't speak, but nodded lightly.

"Then give me yours."

Chu Xiaoran smiled and opened her hand to her, but C didn't hold that hand immediately.She raised her head slightly, but hesitated again - perhaps this was the first time she had such a soft look on her face.

"Come on." Chu Xiaoran sighed, squatted down, took the initiative to grab her hand, and pulled her into her embrace.

In the next moment, endless painful memories flooded the sky.

Chu Xiaoran clenched her teeth tightly without making a sound.As a cyborg, she was greatly enhanced physically, especially mentally, before she was born.But in the face of such brutal experiences, a strong memory feels more like a curse than a gift.Being subjected to a living craniotomy, being tested with various medicines and the body's limit endurance, being directly stimulated by a current hundreds of times stronger than bioelectricity to the pain center of the brain... This kind of pain is enough to make anyone without mental strength Those who are gifted break down and go mad.But Chu Xiaoran just didn't say a word, and used all her powerful spiritual power to bear them one by one, and then sealed them in the depths of her memory.

It is no wonder that such a painful experience will prompt C to develop another personality to protect himself.But when "Chu Xiaoran" was born, C's choice was not to push her to the front to suffer the pain, but to seal himself and the dark memory in the depths of his spirit... only leaving a blank past and future behind. gave her.

"You didn't create me to protect yourself..." Chu Xiaoran whispered to her mentally, "Your hope at that time was not protection, or revenge...you just... hoped for a future where you don't have to bear these pains, I hope I can live without having to carry these things..."

C trembled lightly in her arms, occasionally breaking into tears.

"To live"... It was an idea that both of them had always hoped for, but never dared to have too much hope for.

With her current mental strength, five years of memory is only a very short time to accept.Chu Xiaoran closed her eyes, and while enduring the pain, she couldn't help thinking about it: I don't know whether my current body will show these pains, or if it's just a nightmare...

After turning on the fourth level, the AI ​​part of her brain has been able to take over the body when she is asleep. Although this "takeover" cannot really perform activities such as fighting and dialogue, it can remember the information received by hearing and perceive Risk and so on are still very useful.As for whether it can suppress her body's instinctive reaction to the pain in memory, Chu Xiaoran doesn't know.

"I hope you are by my side, Chu Xuan..." She sighed faintly in her heart.

"You're thinking about him again!"

C suddenly withdrew from her arms.The most painful memory has passed, her eyes are still red, but her expression has returned to sternness and resentment, "Why do you still miss him?! Why do you still miss him like this?"

"After reading my memory, don't you know why?" Chu Xiaoran said softly.

"I don't understand!" C gritted her teeth, but her expression lacked a bit of firm determination, "He's not that good at all—he lied to you, he used you, he's your control valve, master your lifeline—this is betrayal, he betrayed you, you betrayed yourself—”

"It's not that I've never lied to him." Chu Xiaoran said calmly, "And you also know that even if he doesn't show it...he still cares about me and cares about me. If he has feelings..."

She smiled bitterly and did not continue.

"If he has feelings, you will even imagine that he might love you too." C said cruelly, after all, the two of them are two different personalities of the same person, and they have shared memories, so they don't have any thoughts Maybe hide it from the other party, "This is just a fantasy. You also know that your feelings for him are not real love at all—"

"You're talking nonsense." Chu Xiaoran laughed, "After everything we've been through, do you really believe in the pure love sung in those knight novels? Don't tell me you ever thought that we could have normal love."

C is silent.Neither of them spoke for a while, but they were able to convey countless messages without words.

"Is he worth it?" she finally asked softly. "Worth your life?"

Chu Xiaoran returned a smile.

"You know, the suicidal part is contained in me, and the part that is most desperate to live is in you," she said softly. "He deserves my life. Maybe one day, he will be worth it too." You died for him."

C laughed contemptuously, "For love?"

"Not for love." Chu Xiaoran said, "For him, for everything he represents."

"He will let you down." C said, "At least I have experienced too much despair, I don't want to add this time. You look at him like Zhan Lan looks at Zheng Zha, and you are destined to have no chance of success." .”

"First, Zhan Lan doesn't rely on Zheng Zha anymore; second, he won't let me down, because I didn't expect success in the first place." Chu Xiaoran retorted calmly, "If you want to say like, I I think we are more like Ye An'an - we haven't experienced many good things, so we will do our best to protect what we have."

"Maybe I don't, but you are too pitiful when you talk about yourself." C shook his head and said, "Besides, Chu Xuan is not that innocent, silly and sweet boy."

"It's not pitiful, because I said that my expectation is not success." Chu Xiaoran said, "You will understand in the future... I hope you can understand one day."

"Before I 'understand'," C said suddenly, his tone changed from sarcasm to seriousness, "What should I do with my demons?"

Chu Xiaoran sighed and shook her head.

They still have nothing to do.

C silently sank deeper into her consciousness, while Chu Xiaoran floated up, about to return to the horror movie world she was in before.Before her consciousness returned to waking up, she released her mental power almost unconsciously, and swept across the space she was about to enter—in her mental power, that space was intertwined with dense runes, supporting a fictional world.

And in a certain place, these runes showed signs of discordant rewriting.

……

"What I'm asking is, what is your ultimate plan? Founding a country? Independence? Or dictatorship?"

"So, in order to wake up a nation, there must be a fierce collision of blood and fire, and the Egyptians must want to revive their own nation, just like the May [-]th Movement that has occurred in China, and the sleeping ignorant people ...let them wake up on their own."

"Jonathan's letter said...'Zheng Zha, help me! If I don't come again, I will die. This matter really has nothing to do with me. I am just an agent of a warlord and an arms dealer. , but who knows that I accidentally ran into this incident...'"

"'God', do you mean 'God'? The kind of god who flies into the sky and escapes after cultivation?"

"From the information we have obtained, in ancient times, some human beings created another practice method that is no less than the fifth-order gene lock of the saints, called cultivation, and these people who use cultivation are called 'immortals' , until that great war of unknown reasons, the "immortals" and saints were basically extinct, and the "gods" would appear. In fact, according to the mythological records of our country, the appearance of the "gods" was after the first battle of the gods. That is, it appeared after the battle between the two factions of "immortals", so immortals are immortals, and gods are gods. I think immortals should be human beings who use the cultivation method, while gods refer to biological weapons created by containing human souls , you can basically equate it to the vampire you encountered in America."

……

When Chu Xiaoran woke up again, she was already in Shanghai, the loud noise of the battle could be clearly heard in the distance, and the panic-stricken shouts of ordinary people could be heard from the street.Chu Xuan said without raising his head, "You slept for an extra day."

"An accident was detected temporarily, so I had to take the risk of analyzing the information in this space." While talking, Chu Xiaoran quickly scanned the surroundings, and found that Ye Anan, Xiao Honglu, Zhan Lan and others were all surrounded by an open space in a square , while Zheng Zha, Saitoichi, Zhu Wen, Zero Point and others were not around, presumably they were fighting.She turned her head and said, "Zhan Lan, connect with Zheng Zha and tell him that there is a problem with the side mission this time, don't trigger it yet, remember not to trigger it lightly!"

Zhan Lan nodded immediately, and then Zheng Zha's voice rang in Chu Xiaoran's mind: "What's wrong, why can't it be triggered?"

"It's a bit troublesome to explain. Is Jonathan over there?" While talking, Chu Xiaoran had already found Jonathan's location from the scanned image provided by Zhan Lan, "Throw him over here!"

Soon, a tornado formed by a ball of sand wrapped Jonathan and flew over, but it was Saito who brought him here with a spell.Jonathan was thrown to the ground, before he could speak, Chu Xiaoran stepped forward nimbly, and slashed the back of the neck with a knife, making him faint.

"...Wait, how did you know about this branch plot?" Zheng Zha asked at this moment, "Didn't you sleep all the way from the altar?"

"Using words you can understand, you can think that my AI part is always on standby and never turns off." Chu Xiaoran replied, "How is the battle going, do you need my help?"

"No need!" Zheng Zha's voice sounded very relaxed, "I'm testing the current power of the fourth-order gene lock, mainly to see how much power I can use without triggering demons... Otherwise, these few The guy can be wiped out with the Tiger Soul Knife!"

Chu Xiaoran looked at Chu Xuan, and asked, "Have you completed the layout in Shanghai?"

"It's not completely completed, but looking at it now, it's better to leave the city. Zheng Zha made too much noise..." Chu Xuan said lightly.

"Let's evacuate from the urban area and meet up at the location Zhan Lan showed you after we've dealt with the enemy." Chu Xiaoran said, marking a location on the mental power map Zhan Lan showed, and she herself took out the Green Goblin skateboard Come, step on the skateboard and fly to the distance with others.

"Xiaoran?" Suddenly, another voice came into her mind.

"Zhang Jie?" Chu Xiaoran asked in surprise, Zhang Jie was standing next to her, there was absolutely no need to link with mental power to say something. "What's wrong?"

"You said earlier about your 'AI part'..." Zhang Jie said, with a rare hesitation in his tone.

"What?" Chu Xiaoran asked in confusion.

"I may not be fully aware of your situation, but I have probably heard from Zhan Lan and Chu Xuan." Zhang Jie said, "I also used to have two parts, myself, and as a guide. But since I Resurrected in exactly the same form as the day after tomorrow..."

Before he finished speaking, Chu Xiaoran suddenly understood.

"You mean, it's not two parts at all, it's a whole?" She asked urgently, "This is...it's not as clearly separated as a split personality, but it belongs to me One part, just because of my own cognition, I feel that this is another identity?"

"That's it." Zhang Jie said, "This is one of your abilities, not an isolated part...For example, have you watched the X-Men series? Professor X in it will think it is when he reads the human brain. His own ability, not that he has a 'brain-reading part' doing this kind of thing for him, isn't your ability to read a computer the same?"

Chu Xiaoran fell into silence for a moment.It wasn't until Zhan Lan pushed her gently that she suddenly realized that everyone else had stepped on the Green Goblin skateboard and was levitating.

"I'll think about it...thanks, Zhang Jie." She said in the spirit link, and she also stepped on the Green Goblin skateboard.

"I should thank you." Zhang Jie replied when they soared into the air with a roar.