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Early the next morning, Mao Taijiu's driver drove Jin Nana to work. When the car was near the bus stop, Jin Nana asked to stop, and then walked from the bus station to the Blue House as usual.

After four days of absence from work, Jin Nana came to Cheong Wa Dae again, and felt that the atmosphere was very different from before, everywhere was dull and serious, and everyone had a straight face.

Colleague Kim Min Hee shed tears when she saw Kim Nana.

"What's wrong?" Jin Nana was taken aback, and found that everyone in the department had serious expressions. After asking, she learned that when Li Zhenbiao broke into the Blue House, he killed two guards who blocked him.

When Mao Taijiu told her about the incident yesterday, he didn't mention such details.

The two guards, Jin Nana, have both been trained and are still very young. One is just married and the other has a girlfriend.The two living young people, who seemed to be smiling and greeting her yesterday, disappeared into this world without a sound.What about their parents?White-haired people send black-haired people.What about their wives and girlfriends?Lost his lover forever.

If there is a grievance and a debtor, can avenging one's own revenge hurt other innocent people?Jin Nana's sympathy for Li Zhenbiao completely disappeared.

Because of this incident, Jin Nana felt very sad and heavy all day long.

People from the national security department investigated Li Runcheng as usual and asked Jin Nana for questioning in the afternoon. After all, Li Runcheng always came to her a while ago.Jin Nana told everything truthfully, because she has been rejecting Li Yuncheng, and the information she can provide to the national security department is really very limited.

When he was about to get off work, Jin Yingzhu called, Jin Nana hesitated for a moment, and finally answered.

Jin Yingzhu has mixed feelings. He has been so busy in recent days that he has never had the courage to call Jin Nana, but it is impossible to escape forever.

"Sorry, Nana."

Jin Nana was silent.

"Nana, I treat you well because you are really kind and worthy of me...Although there are reasons to make up for the guilt..."

"Stop talking." Jin Nana stopped him, "Please don't call me during this time, and don't come to see me."

Without giving Jin Yingzhu another chance to speak, Jin Nana quickly hung up the phone.

Chen Shixi also called, but Jin Nana hung up and didn't answer, and replied with a message: "Sister Shixi, please don't contact me for the time being. I'm fine, please don't worry."

hate them?It seems not.It was Kim Jong-sik who did the evil, not Kim Young-joo.Jin Yingzhu's kindness to her in the past nine years cannot be wiped out.In many cases, it has become Jin Nana's instinct to look for Brother Yingzhu when she has something to do. In her heart, she really regards him as her brother and her relatives.

But forgive him?Nor can it be forgiven.In addition to the unforeseen misfortunes, there is also a reversal of right and wrong. The lives of parents and nine years of life are heavy. If a sentence of "I'm sorry" can be written off, then the weight of life is too light.

After Mao Taijiu told her about Jin Yingzhu, Jin Nana went online that night and read various materials released by "City Hunter".

Li Qingwan, Xu Yongxue, and Jin Zhongzhi committed different things, but one thing is the same. They think that they are superior people, and ordinary people deserve to be their food or stepping stones.

There is a video of Kim Young-joo and Kim Jong-sik talking, and Kim Nana watched it several times.

Kim Young Joo said: "Knowing that my father bribed the witnesses, I was so painful that I was about to go crazy. I am a son, and for the families of the victims, I plan to take those responsibilities for you."

As a result, Kim Jong-sik laughed at his son and scolded him: "Meddle in your own business. Do you think that human life is worth the same? I am different from them. I have dedicated my life to the country. Guilt? Forgiveness? Surrender? Forget it, I have long forgotten about the traffic accident." Well, I was just a little unlucky. Just take it as their fate."

Is this the fate?They are obviously the same life, but in the eyes of those people, only their life is life, and the life of others is as cheap as a speck of dust.

On the car home from get off work, Jin Nana received a call from Mao Taijiu.

"Oppa, Uncle Cai is here to pick me up. He's in the car. Well, aren't you coming back at night?"

"I know, I will stay at home and not go out and run around."

"The resignation report has already been given to the section chief. The section chief told me to delay me for a few days, and now people are panicking...Okay, I'll talk about it when you come back."

Jin Nana hung up the phone sullenly, in a bad mood, thinking that she would be happier to see him when she went back, but he also ran out.

Also, how can a big man be kept at home, he also has a task when he comes back.

Fortunately, as soon as Jin Nana entered the door, she saw Xiao Hei rushing towards her wagging her tail. Mao Taijiu was afraid that she would be lonely, so he ordered Xiao Hei to be brought over from the tower room.Jin Nana was immediately happy, and the pet's wholehearted love for the owner was particularly healing.

Mao Taijiu called again before going to bed at night.

"Are you asleep?" It's actually completely nonsense, how do you answer the phone when you're asleep?But lovers are always talking all kinds of nonsense, and never tire of it.

"Just going to sleep." Jin Nana had already changed into her pajamas and lay down on the bed, holding the novel "Moon Palace" that Mao Taijiu had read that day.Her English is so-so, and she can read English books that are not too profound, but it's terrible, she fell asleep after reading a page of this book.A scumbag is indeed a scumbag. Books are not for reading, but for hypnosis.

Mao Taijiu smiled lightly.

"Miss me?"

"Yes. Can you come back tomorrow?"

"I'll try my best. Come back as soon as I'm done."

Mentioning that Jin Yingzhu called her during the day, Mao Taijiu's voice sounded a little erratic.

"Nana, do you hate him? For cheating?"

"No, although cheating is also hateful."

"Why then?"

"Seeing them makes me sad, and I think of my parents. My father died after five years of pain. I didn't even see my mother for the last time."

Jin Nana was sobbing on the phone, and Mao Taijiu was silent.

"Sorry, Nana."

"Ah? It's none of your business."

"I failed to protect you."

"You didn't know me at that time." Jin Nana shed tears, and her heart became lighter, "Okay, the sad thing is over. Brother, hurry up and come back, I want you very much now around."

"Okay. Have a good night's sleep, and I will definitely be back tomorrow."

After a few more words, the two said good night to each other and hung up the phone.

Jin Nana was coaxed by Mao Taijiu, threw away the book in her hand, turned off the light and went to sleep.

Before going to bed, she was still thinking vaguely, when Oppa was talking, she seemed to be able to vaguely hear the sound of the tide, is he at the beach, and what did he do at the beach?

Mao Taijiu was indeed at the seaside, and he returned to Chengyun City.

Given that his face is so well-known, even after two years, Mao Taijiu is not sure that others will not recognize him.That's why he returned to Chengyun City by car in the evening. The car didn't stop on the road and sent him directly to a villa by the sea.

It wasn't the original Mao family's villa, but it was very close, only a few hundred meters away.

It turned out that because of the murder case, no one was willing to buy the villa even though it was located in a very good location and the place was huge.

Ishihara objected to him coming back, it was dangerous.The information on the Internet is gone, and the information in reality has been replaced, but the memories of so many people who have met Mao Taijiu cannot be replaced.

"If you want to take another look, just take it as a farewell, and I won't come back in the future." Not only Cheng Yunshi, but even South Korean Mao Taijiu didn't plan to come back in the future.

Shi Yuan couldn't resist him, so he could only follow him back.

As dusk fell, Mao Taijiu came to the beach in front of the villa and threw a disc and a rose into the sea.

"My mother loved listening to Mozart's Requiem, and she loved flowers."

Shi Yuan was startled, did he come back to mourn his mother?

"Actually, when a person is dead, nothing exists. All kinds of nostalgia and delusions are just the deception of the living."

Mao Taijiu puts his hands in his pockets, and the sea breeze blows his meticulous suit and hairstyle.

"My mother is a very delicate woman who likes poetry and music." Mao Taijiu recalled the most important person in his life. It's been a long time, and she can't remember her appearance clearly. He only remembers her sad face, tears in her eyes. eyes, and the words before parting: "Taijiu, you must be a good person."

Why didn't you listen to her?Be angry, because she broke the most precious thing in his life, the only warmth and love in his life.

Now I know what she has to do. A serious physical and mental illness like depression is not something a weak little woman can fight.Thinking about it from another angle, she didn't make an agreement with her son to break the promise, but at the last moment of her life, she still wanted to leave a spark in her son's heart.

"Taijiu, you have to be a good person."

But at that time, he didn't understand.

Shi Yuan could feel Mao Taijiu's heavy and depressed emotions, but he didn't know how to comfort him. After thinking for a while, he started another topic: "I found that Nam Jae-min. He is no longer working on the garbage ship. He works at the pier. I bought a small shop, it seems that because I am old, my body is no longer fit to go to sea."

"Oh, how is his business?" Mao Taijiu's attention was diverted by Shi Yuan's words.

"Business is not very good." Shi Yuan shook his head and said, "I bought insurance for him according to my brother's instructions, and he will receive a fixed living allowance every month. I can’t survive. That small shop was bought and given to him as a gift. Nam Jaemin is very happy, but he doesn’t remember brother, he seems to help others a lot.”

Mao Taijiu smiled and said: "The other people should also be thankful. There are three people who saved me. Without them, I would have died at sea."

"They are all arranged. Do you want to meet them?"

Mao Taijiu shook his head, there is no need, the meeting is not beneficial to both sides.

"Dr. Kwon Jung-hwan of Chengyun Psychiatric Hospital, and his two assistants, Dr. Jeon Joong-ki and Dr. Lee Joo-hyuk, were hired by our foundation with a lot of money. They are already on their way to Malaysia. I heard that Dr. Jeon and Dr. Lee are now You can also perform surgery independently.”

Mao Taijiu's face turned cold again.Being able to operate independently, how many people have been harmed?

"You don't have to worry about the rest, leave it to Funaki." Funaki will throw these three scumbags on Paradise Island, so that they can experience the true taste of the world.

"it is good."

"Rest, we'll be back tomorrow morning."

The liquidation of Chengyun's side has not been completed yet, and Chairman Zhao, Secretary Cui, and the gangsters they control have not been touched by Mao Taijiu.

Don't worry, all these accounts will be recovered within two months at most.

Standing on the beach, Mao Taijiu called Jin Nana before going to bed, then entered the villa, and prepared to go to bed after washing.

He lay down on the empty big bed, unable to fall asleep.

Why do you want to come back?He couldn't tell, but he just felt that if he came back to take a look, he would know why he was so uneasy when he returned to Chengyun City.

Now that he's back, he knows it too.

The things that have been done will not disappear, even if all the materials are changed, others will run away far away.The facts that happened will still weigh heavily on him forever, like a sharp knife hanging above his head, which will fall down at some point and split his happiness.

Last night Jin Nana said, "In this world, as long as you don't lie to me, it's fine."At that moment, the hairs on Mao Taijiu's back stood up, and his heart reached his throat.He felt that Jin Nana would question him the next moment: Why did you lie to me?

Fortunately, Jin Nana was depressed at the time and did not notice any abnormalities in him.

When sleeping at night, Mao Taijiu was still restless with Jin Nana in his arms.

As long as Jin Nana was by his side before, Mao Taijiu could sleep well, but this night, he suffered from insomnia in the first half of the night, and had nightmares in the second half of the night.

The content of the dream is not new, and I would do it occasionally in the past. In the dream, Jin Nana discovered his identity and pointed a gun at him.

When dreaming of this time before, Mao Taijiu would wake up with a start, but this time Nana in the dream shot him.

The bullet exploded in his chest with a "bang", and Mao Taijiu looked down at his chest, revealing a big bloody hole.

The body hurts, but the heart seems to hurt even more. Nana hates him, and Nana shoots him.

Mao Taijiu woke up in a cold sweat, his hands pressed tightly to his chest, and there was a burning pain in his chest, as if he had been shot.

Jin Nana was still sleeping beside him, her breathing was steady and her face was soft.

Mao Taijiu stayed up until dawn with his eyes open.

He was still working during the day, but he was always restless. When Jin Nana was about to get off work, he suddenly wanted to go to Chengyun City to take a look, and then took Shi Yuan all the way to the seaside of Chengyun City. The place where his childhood nightmare began.

After two years, looking back at Mao Taijiu in the past, everything became clear at a glance

In his life, the only person who loved him left too early, and he never met anyone who could guide him to be good. In an environment full of evil, the flowers of evil were born and the fruits of evil were born.

When Jiang Quanjiu arrested him on the rooftop, he once said: "...Next time, I hope you will not lean towards the monsters around you, but toward the people who love you, toward the people who love you..."

At that time, Mao Taijiu was still sneering in his heart, next time?It's all over, what happened last time and next time.

But on the way to escape, he met Jin Nana, fell in love with her, and was loved by her.

His Nana, his little sun, is warm and strong, sunny and bright.

Fate really jokes with people, if he could have met her earlier, wouldn't he be like this now?

what to do?Can he cut off the old Mao Tae-joo from his body and throw it away?Can time be turned back?Can he not do things that Nana can't accept?

Mao Taijiu turned over and sat up from the big bed.He felt short of breath, out of breath, his eyes hurt, and his head hurt.

In the past, he always felt that there was nothing wrong with cheating Nana for the rest of his life, and he could do it.As long as a lie is not exposed, it is no different from the truth.

Now he is getting more and more afraid, what should he do if one day comes?

Having tasted warmth and sweetness, how can we willingly return to coldness and darkness.

Mao Taijiu touched the ring on his left ring finger, and felt strong regret for the first time in his life.

He didn't believe in God originally, and at this moment, for the first time, he prayed to that hidden destiny, hoping that his deception would be seamless and never make mistakes.

Mao Taijiu bowed his head and kissed the ring on his hand.He will change in the future, he will never do bad things again in his life, only do good deeds and be good people.

Please God keep Nana by his side, he really can't live without Nana.

Mao Taijiu put on his clothes, sat quietly by the bed, and waited for the dawn.

He carried sleeping pills with him, as well as two medications for his depression.In the past two years, he has been under too much physical and mental pressure, and has suffered from mild depression symptoms. In order to ensure his physical and mental state is normal and not affect the execution of the plan, Mao Taijiu has been taking medication.

But this night he didn't want to rely on drugs, even if it was more painful, he had to survive this long night by himself.He should deeply engrave this painful feeling to remind himself not to make the same mistake again in his later life.

The sky finally lit up, and Mao Taijiu came to the living room.

Although it is not the same villa, the structure of this villa is also very similar to his previous one. Standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling glass doors and windows, you can see the beach and sea outside.

The morning sea was cold and lonely, as desolate and lonely as his heart.

After a while, the sun came out, and the sea was full of golden lights, and finally a gleam of warmth sprouted between the cold and chilling heaven and earth.

Ishihara and his entourage were all ready to leave.

"Brother, let's go."

"Okay." Mao Taijiu exhaled, put on his coat and sunglasses, and got into the car after going out.

Goodbye, Chengyun City.No, never see you again, Chengyun City.