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For gods, their lifespan is a bit too long.

Gathering, separation, and longing can easily take a hundred years, a thousand years or even ten thousand years, how powerless, how painful, how lonely.

Runyu looked at the woman in black standing under the warm red light of the setting sun, looked at her familiar eyes, and couldn't help being dazed for a moment, so many memories came overwhelmingly, with tears moist With the bloody heat, Runyu realized that they probably had been separated for 300 years.

Runyu moved forward slightly, but did not dare to advance too much.He has been the emperor of heaven for thousands of years, and he has never been timid, but now, he is timid.He was a little afraid, afraid that this was another dream, beautiful and joyful, but it was fake.He was afraid that if he walked too fast and woke up too fast, the person he had missed for so long would leave him lightly like a gust of wind.

He can't, can't bear to lose anymore.

Kuang Lu didn't notice Runyu yet, the little girl in white was holding her hand tightly to prevent her from leaving, and while holding her hand tightly, she called out to her father, that she had found her mother, tearing her hand loudly. Heartbroken, people on both sides kept casting curious glances, which made Kuang Lu want to leave as soon as possible.

She wanted to stroll around the street and buy some sweets to eat back because it was still early today except for the ghost watching.

Over the years, she has become more and more addicted to sweets, and she can take out pockets of candies at any time.Someone who has known her for a long time asked her why she loves sweets so much. She thought about it, and remembered the scene of that beautiful woman stuffing raisins into her mouth so many years ago, so she smiled and said, "I eat too many sweet things." I don't feel pain anymore.

She fell into the mortal world 300 years ago, relying on the remaining little spiritual power to help others get rid of little monsters and goblins to make a living.Over the years, although he was physically inconvenient, he traveled all over the world and met many colleagues.

She knows that she is a strange existence in the eyes of those people. Many people don't want to associate with her, and many people are curious about her past. When they meet, they often ask, how can you live for so long?Why do you always wear black and a veil?How did you lose your left leg...

Kuang Lu seldom answers them. There are some things that she always tastes bitter on the tip of her tongue when she thinks about them. Tighten her body so that she cannot escape.

She met the exorcist, met the elves, and then met the descendants of the exorcist, and met more elves. In 300 years, she met countless people and things, saw countless gatherings and separations, and some things were miserable, but she did not shed tears for them.Then someone asked her again, do you never cry?

Kuang Lu said that she cried. Many years ago, she often cried. Maybe she cried too much and shed all her tears.

The man laughed and said that was very good, the tears were shed, and in this life, only happy things remained.

Kuang Lu also smiled, stroking her left leg while laughing, she could feel the twisted knuckles, the pain in her left leg, bursts of stabbing pain, the pain made her want to chop off that leg.

It would be great if it could be cut off, Kuang Lu hugged that left leg on a stormy night, as if it was burning with oil, sweating all over his face, thinking, if it could be cut off, it would be great, cut it off , Cut off all the people and things that make her suffer so much, then she will definitely, definitely not suffer like this again.

But, after all, she still couldn't bear it, even though that leg was no longer useful, even if that leg was twisted like a withered branch, it was shocking every time she saw it, she still couldn't bear it.

She comforted herself that there are good and bad things in this world, and only some bad things must be left behind in order to cherish the good ones.

Always keep some good ones, so as not to hate so much about those bad ones.

Kuang Lu sometimes looks at the bloody sunset even though it is blurry, and thinks of the last time she saw that person, that person ran towards her, the blood on the palm of his hand was like red silk, wrapping her lightly, It also cuts her off from the world, and that's what she saw, clear for the last time.

Some people, you can't hate them, there are all kinds of good and bad, kindness and resentment, there are always some reasons, you can't hate them.

I can't hate it, I can't forget it, Kuang Lu lived a hard life, but she is still alive, cowardly wanting to rely on the fireworks in the world to warm herself up.

In every street and every village, Kuang Lu looked at those mortals whose lives were short but lively, breathed greedily, and fantasized that she would laugh like that, run nimbly, and live happily in a vulgar way.

But now, Kuang Lu looked at the little girl in white who was still yelling loudly, and finally felt that maybe being too lively was not a good thing.

The little girl was bouncing all the way. The merchants on the street were already preparing for the Lantern Festival at night. They were moving piles of things, and they had to be careful to avoid them. When they became unstable, they bumped into the little girl.The little girl leaped forward, just in time to throw herself into Kuang Lu's arms, and pulled off her veil.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." The little girl finally realized she was afraid, and kept saying sorry while raising her head, but her immature voice stopped abruptly the moment she saw Kuang Lu's face.

Kuang Lu didn't pay attention that much, she was busy helping the little girl upright, and putting on a veil for herself, but the little girl held her hand.

Kuang Lu looked at her in surprise, but the little girl said blankly, "Mother?"

"what?"

"Mother? It's you, mother! You're finally back!"

"Wh-what? Mother? Little girl, you misunderstood the person—"

But the girl shouted regardless: "Daddy, come quickly! I found my mother! Mother is finally back!"

Kuang Lu was yelled at one head and two big, but repeated comforting explanations were useless. More and more people gathered around, and the sky was getting darker and darker. Kuang Lu panicked and had to leave quickly, but right here Then, she heard a familiar yet unfamiliar voice.

The voice was cold and gentle, just like in the past, but with some suspicion and disbelief: "Kuang Lu..."

Kuang Lu raised her head in a daze, and a white figure appeared in the blur in front of her eyes, tall and tall, handsome and elegant.

Some people say that the most beautiful words in this world are lost and found.

However, even if the lost things come back to your side, can you guarantee that everything will return to its original appearance?

You and I, standing on this familiar yet unfamiliar street, are only a few steps away from each other, but in fact, there is already a world apart.

When the sky outside the window was completely dark, Runyu and Kuang Lu sat together in the room that Kuang Lu had reserved in the inn, relatively silent.

Kuang Lu stared at the swaying red lantern blown by the wind outside the window, no matter how hard she thought about it, she couldn't figure out why she brought this big and small beast back to the inn?

What's wrong with me?Am I out of my mind?Why the hell am I bringing them back!

"Mother?" Deng'er lay on the side of the table, blinking at Kuang Lu, "Mother, mother."

Kuang Lu sighed silently, turned back to look at Deng'er, and put on the most indifferent face: "I'm not your mother, don't call me mother."

"Good mother." Deng'er nodded obediently, completely undeterred by Kuang Lu's thoughtful indifferent expression

"You..." Kuang Lu was helpless, what happened to this little girl.

Runyu coughed lightly on the opposite side: "Deng'er, you go out first and play with the nightmare beast."

Deng'er looked at Runyu, then at Kuang Lu, showing a strange expression that I understand, he laughed twice, pulled the nightmare beast out, and said as he walked: "Go, go, spring night is worth a moment!" Qianjin, let's not disturb them."

Kuang Lu looked at Deng'er's back in disbelief, and Runyu secretly made up her mind to separate Deng'er from her uncle immediately after returning, and she must not let her uncle take her to look at messy things again.

Finally, there were only two people left in the small room. Looking at Kuang Lu who was looking down at the opposite side, Runyu became nervous for some reason.

"I thought..." Runyu stared at the dancing candles on the table, "You..."

"The Emperor of Heaven thought," Kuang Lu's voice was calm, without any emotion, "I'm dead?"

"No!" Runyu looked up at Kuang Lu, "I know you are not dead, you will not die. All these years, everyone thought you were dead, but I know, you will definitely not die. You must , will be back."

You'll come back, come back to me, stand by me, as you've always done before.For those times, I prayed, I waited, and now, I think I finally got what I wanted.

Kuang Lu fell silent, turned her head to look at the bright light outside the window, and spoke for a long time. The voice was soft, as if it came from a distance: "When I jumped off Zhuxiantai, I thought I was going to die. But unfortunately, I didn't die." .”

"Speaking of which, I have to thank the Heavenly Emperor. If it weren't for your dragon blood to block a lot of heaven's punishment for me, how could I survive this life and survive in this world."

"However, the Emperor of Heaven can rest assured that Kuang Lu is no different from a crippled person today, and can't make any trouble." Kuang Lu turned her head to look at Runyu who wanted to speak but couldn't, and her tone was a little harsh, "Of course, If the Emperor of Heaven is still angry or worried, he can kill Kuang Lu right now, anyway, I have nothing to resist."

"Kuang Lu, what are you talking about?" Kuang Lu said coldly, Runyu was suddenly a little uneasy, but still forced a smile, and spoke to Kuang Lu in a very gentle voice, "How, how could I kill you? You don't know how much I want to see you..."

Kuang Lu listened to Runyu's rare gentle voice when facing her, and looked at his uneasy but joyful smile. The anger in her heart grew slowly for some reason, and she was about to speak when she heard a voice from the door. the sound of.

"Deng'er!" Runyu reprimanded by turning her head towards the door first.

There was a little girl's dissatisfied murmurs outside the door, and another sound of running. After all the sounds disappeared and the door was restored to silence, Runyu turned to Kuang Lu and smiled apologetically: "Deng'er is a white girl. Cat, you are very troublesome, don't mind. Just now on the street—”

"I understand." Kuang Lu's voice became colder and Runyu became more flustered, "It's not the first time I've been recognized as Jin Mi."

"No," Runyu explained anxiously, "No, it's not what you think."

"After you left, a lot of things happened, and I can't finish talking at once. Later, I will tell you slowly in the future."

"No later."

"...Kuang Lu?"

"Today is the last time I will meet with the Emperor of Heaven. After that, I don't have to see you again."

"Kuang Lu!" Runyu really panicked and grabbed Kuang Lu's hand forward, "How can you say that? You don't know, you don't know how much I miss you, I've been waiting for you, you know ?”

There was a burning pain in the hand held by Runyu, Kuang Lu bit the tip of her tongue in pain, and a rusty smell spread from the tip of her tongue, carrying the bitterness, entangled her tightly again, entangled her almost unbearably breathe.

Runyu was still talking, flustered, uneasy, and urgent: "...I met Deng'er at the Lantern Festival 200 years ago. At that time, she had no father or mother and was bullied. She was very pitiful. I thought at the time that she must really want someone to walk into her life, to accompany her, to tell her that she is not alone, just like me back then. At that time, you walked into my life, accompanied me so much The long time has taught me so many things. Therefore, I adopted her, and I also hope that she can be accompanied by someone earlier, and she will understand what love is and how to love earlier. You don’t have to be like me, who understands so late and loses so much..."

Kuang Lu's left leg was in piercing pain, and those twisted joints seemed to be smashed, crushed, piece by piece, little by little, broken into sharp pieces, piercing her bloody.

"...I call her Deng'er, but that's just her nickname. I want to wait until you come back, wait until you come back, and give her another name, because you—"

"go out."

Kuang Lu was so painful that she was about to faint. She felt as if a fire was burning her, her heart, her eyes, and every corner of her body.She really wanted to cry, it hurt so much, her eyes turned black from the pain, and her heart was blocked.Every time the man said a word, she felt more pain, so she didn't want to listen anymore, she didn't want to listen anymore.

Runyu was stunned, her hands began to tremble slightly: "...Kuang Lu?"

"Get out!" Kuang Lu couldn't stand the pain anymore, she shouted sharply, and stood up.

Her movement was a little big, and she knocked down the candlestick, and the room became dark in an instant, only the light from the lanterns outside the window and the lanterns on the street came in.

"What authority do you think you have? Why do you say these things here? After you say those words and do those things, what authority do you have!"

"Love?" Kuang Lu sneered, "You don't understand love? You are wrong! You understand love, and you understand it very well, but, in this world, you only love yourself!"

"No matter who it is, no matter how much you pay for you, it's useless and you won't get your love! Because all your heart is given to yourself! It's me who is blind and stupid, so I will always stay with you Beside!"

Runyu stared blankly at Kuang Lu hoarse, he had never seen Kuang Lu like this, even on the day at Zhuxian Terrace, Kuang Lu was not as excited as he is now.

"Look at me, look at me, and look at what I have become. My legs are useless, and I can't even do the most common running and jumping. Destroyed once. And all of this is thanks to you!"

"Do you know? Whenever it rains, my whole body hurts. The most painful time, I hit my head against the wall, and the blood was all over my head, but it was nothing compared to the pain. Like this For me, I might as well die."

Kuang Lu thought she was crazy, she wasn't crazy when she jumped off Zhuxiantai, she wasn't crazy when she woke up and found that she was almost a useless person, but at this moment, facing Runyu's tenderness and so-called love, she seemed crazy , not because of love, but because of resentment.

Why are you acting so gentle and affectionate?

Is it pity, is it guilt?

I don't want it, I don't want any pity or guilt.

I put myself so low just to follow you, so now I lift myself up, I want us to be equal in the end.

"At that time, I jumped off the Zhuxian Terrace. I wanted to die. But your dragon's blood wanted me to survive. Do you know how painful it is to survive? I am in such pain, why don't you Will you let me go? Why do you still show up? Why do you pester me like a ghost?"

"Where am I sorry for you?"

Kuang Lu wanted to cry so much, she trembled, but found that she couldn't cry, so she thought, even if she shed all her tears, it might not be all happy.

Standing opposite her, Runyu stretched out her hand sadly, trying to hug the trembling Kuang Lu, but found that she didn't have the courage at all.

"Get out." Kuang Lu repeated tremblingly, "Get out!"

"Kuang Lu—" Runyu struggled, thinking of something to say.Kuang Lu started to push him, trying hard to push him out of the door, but she lost her balance and fell to the ground.

"Kuang Lu!" Runyu hurriedly knelt down to help her, but found that Kuang Lu was staring blankly into the distance, her eyes lacking expression.

"Your...eyes..." Runyu vaguely knew the answer, but still couldn't believe it, and slowly stretched out her hand and shook it in front of her eyes.

"Ah, you said that," Kuang Lu laughed softly, "This is also, thanks to you."

"I lost a leg, lost most of my cultivation, and these two eyes, during the day, I can still see the outline vaguely, but at night, it's pitch black, and I can't see anything."

"Hey, Your Majesty the Emperor of Heaven, tell me, is it better to die than to live like this?"

Kuang Lu said it lightly, but Runyu felt the coldness spread from the bottom of her heart to her body and heart: "Kuang Lu...I don't know, I don't know...I'm sorry, I don't know, I, I don't know ..."

"You don't know, what does that have to do with me?" Kuang Lu said coldly, "Get out, I don't want to see you! Get out!"

"Okay, okay," Runyu hurriedly stood up and retreated, with a cold touch on her face, "I'm going out, I'm going out right now, don't, don't... I'll go out, I'll go out..."

Runyu retreated in a panic, and closed the door in a panic. The last thing she saw was the back of the woman sitting crookedly on the ground. That figure that was full of gentleness a long time ago was now full of desolation.

Runyu closed the door, and the joy of reunion disappeared without a trace, leaving only grief and depression.

He finally understood why Kuang Lu would jump off the Zhuxian Terrace, without any nostalgia or reluctance, so resolute and desperate.

Big teardrops rolled down, he remembered the first time he saw her that year, she smiled so innocently, as if there were no troubles in this world, everything was beautiful like clouds, like wind, like blooming flowers.

But now, the clouds are gone, the wind is gone, and the flowers are gone.

The root of all this is him.It was he who tore her apart, into pieces, into pieces covered in blood.

Kuang Lu, tell me, what method should I use to piece you together?

Kuang Lu stayed up all night, leaning on the table leg, staring out of the window in a daze, watching the darkness in front of her eyes gradually turn to the blurred morning sun.When the light came in, Kuang Lu was full of sadness. She thought, the sky will be bright, so when will her life be bright?

There was a knock on the door, accompanied by Runyu's soft voice: "Kuang Lu, are you up?"'

Kuang Lu still looked out the window and ignored him.

The voice outside the door stopped for a while before it sounded again: "Did you sit on the ground all night?"

Kuang Lu blinked, still quietly watching the sun rise little by little.

The voice outside the door continued, with a bit of blame: "If I knew that you would not cherish yourself like this, I would not have left last night."

Kuang Lu finally said, "Go away."

However, Runyu didn't walk away, he gently opened the door and walked in, walked in front of Kuang Lu silently, bent down and picked her up.

"Let me go!" Kuang Lu became excited, struggling in his arms.

Runyu ignored her cries and struggles, but just hugged her and put her on the bed.

Kuang Lu raised her hand and hit it, a red mark immediately appeared on Runyu Ruyu's face.

Kuang Lu was a little dazed looking at the red seal, and stepped back subconsciously: "Who, who told you not to avoid..."

Runyu looked over with her red handprint on her face, and Kuang Lu quickly shrank back to the foot of the bed.

"follow me."

Runyu's voice was calm, and there was no sign of anger at all.Kuang Lu was taken aback, looked at him, then turned her head again, refusing to look at him again: "Impossible."

"Come with me," Runyu insisted, "I won't ask you for anything, I just want to heal your injury and take care of your body. After that, I won't stop you from going or doing what you want to do." bother you."

Kuang Lu stared at the patterns on the quilt, and once again felt the tingling pain in her left leg.

"Kuang Lu, come with me."

It must have been a long time, and it may not have been that long. When the boiling pain in her left leg finally stopped, Kuang Lu said softly, "I will not return to the heaven."

"Okay," Runyu agreed readily, with a sense of relief that she finally agreed, "We will not return to the heaven."

It doesn't matter where you go, as long as you are willing to let me pay back all this, that's fine.