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On the way back, there was only one person in the car, so it was naturally quiet.

Xiao Mocun doesn't talk to himself like Yu Nian, nor does he want to listen to boring evening radio.He just wants to drive quietly by himself.

But he couldn't calm down, he had to admit that he regretted what happened just now.

This is not the first time he has vented his anger to Yu Nian.They also quarreled at first, but he never felt anything to regret until one day a year ago.

That time, he had just tagged Yu Nian, before even the pheromone could catch him, the two started arguing in the living room.Said it was a quarrel, but in fact it was him losing his temper with Yu Nian unilaterally.The voice became louder and louder, and he suddenly stood up from the sofa, and an uncontrollable impulse suddenly appeared in his mind.

I want to raise my foot to kick Yu Nian, kick his soft body so hard that his skin is ripped apart, so that I can calm down.

This nameless fire sparked instantly like a match passing through phosphorous paper. Fortunately, it didn't take long for Yu Nian to notice his crazy thoughts, and he was restrained after two or three seconds.

But these two or three seconds were enough to scare him.

What are you doing?Want to hit Yu Nian?are you crazy?

That day, Yu Nian looked at him in horror and forbearance just like today, not daring to utter a single syllable casually.

Since then, every time he quarrels, he has tried to restrain his temper, not to let himself yell at Yu Nian casually, and not to act aggressively towards Yu Nian, but he never really managed to control it.

Like a torrent rushing down after a heavy rain, he just wanted to get angry with Yu Nian, and it got worse every time.

The hotter the love, the hotter the heart.

He also couldn't understand why, maybe he was really a wild child with a mother but no mother as others said, no matter how many books he read and no matter how expensive clothes he wore, he couldn't hide the poverty and rudeness he was born with.He has no manners, lacks upbringing, even shouts at people close to him, and will never live in peace of mind like Yu Nian and Yu Yuan.That is the temperament that can only be formed by being pampered and carefree since childhood, Xiao Mocun does not think he has it.

He doesn't think it's unfair, but he understands that the gap is as far as a turbulent fjord, and it will be difficult for ants to cross in their entire lives.For Yu Nian in the past, money would never run out, so there was no need to worry about things, and there were many ways to solve them.I am different.I have to work part-time, look at the store, study, be alert to all possible dangers around me like a wolf, and spend time thinking about Yu Nian.

That's right, in his tense and depressed life, whether he wants to or not, his heart will take a little time to think about Yu Nian. This is a secret that no one knows.

He chose not to tell Yu Nian, from the past to the present, because it would be useless to tell.In the past, he was a poor boy who tried his best to climb up to the young master of the rich family. He had nothing but the pheromone with the highest concentration. Even if he said it more sincerely than a prayer, no one would believe him. He wanted to be with Yu Nian, a beta, just because he liked it. .And now that he's a pheromone-fueled asshole, saying these outdated things is like [-]% sophistry.

If you hurt me with pheromones, I'll hurt you with pheromones. Sounds fair, doesn't it?Even if you hurt the enemy one thousand and you lose eight hundred, there is nothing you can do if you lose both. Who told fate to play such a bad joke with each other.

After thinking about it and digging too far, Xiao Mocun pulled his thoughts back to tonight, stopped the car on the side of the road and called a friend.

"Hey."

On the opposite side was a man's voice, who answered it in only three seconds, and asked rather puzzled, "Xiao Mocun? Why did you think of calling me?"

The car blinked twice, illuminating the trees in front of it on and off.

"Zhijie, are you on duty?" Xiao Mocun asked.

"Yes, I'm on duty every Monday, Wednesday and Friday, have you come to the hospital?"

The person who spoke was a friend he had met in the year abroad. At that time, the other party was a backpacker. He was a Chinese tour guide hired by a tour group, the kind without a certificate.The two met at the scenic spot and chatted speculatively. After calling each other, they lost contact for a while, and only reunited at the Los Angeles Central Hospital the year before last.Later, because of the glands, they kept in touch frequently, and gradually became close friends.

"It's not me, it's my Beta." Xiao Mocun paused for a second, "Yu Nian."

Zhou Zhijie quickly recalled the matter of the gland matching, and restrained his sloppy tone, "What's wrong with him, is there something wrong with the original gland?"

"No." Xiao Mo kept his eyes on the tree trunk in front of the car, and said slowly, "He was scratched by a cat, and he was vaccinated in your emergency department. You can take a look at it when you have time."

Zhou Zhijie was stunned for two seconds, and then began to scold him loudly in the corridor of the inpatient department: "Fuck Xiao Mocun, you are going too far! It's unlucky for us to meet you by chance, I admit it, I did the gland matching for you earlier Even if my doctor is benevolent, I also recognize it, but Yu Nian was just scratched by a cat. You let me go over and see, you think I'm free, don't you?? I still have more than a dozen beds here. Don't go, don't go!"

Xiao Mo took the phone a little further away amidst his roar, and looked at his watch without changing his face: "You go there now, he entered the emergency room 15 minutes ago, and he should have finished the registration by now. If you find it, don't worry about it." Talk to him, if you can't find him, call me immediately."

"You fucking—"

"Please Zhijie." Xiao Mocun said in a low voice.

"Fuck..." Zhou Zhijie turned off the ignition, "I owed you in my previous life."

Xiao Mo frowned calmly.

"You are so worried about him, why don't you accompany him to the injection?"

"I'm a little anxious and need to go back now."

"More anxious than your Yu Nian being scratched by a cat?"

Xiao Mocun thought for a while: "It's because he is anxious."

He always speaks so briefly, he doesn't care whether the other party understands or not, Zhou Zhijie is surprised to find that he has already gotten used to it.

"Forget it, I don't understand and I don't want to know...the last question, how can I find him if I don't know what he looks like?"

"I have a photo and I'm sending it to you now."

After turning on the speaker, he opened the photo album, quickly found the target from the few stocks in stock, passed it on to Zhou Zhijie, and stopped looking at it.

It was the only photo of him and Yu when they were in college, a selfie in front of Swan Lake.He is carrying a rustic shoulders, his hair is only a little longer than the board inch, and there is nothing outstanding in his whole body, only his facial features are still relatively strong.Yu Nian beside him had a bright smile and vivid eyes. He compared the white wagtails fluttering on the lake, and he knew that he was well-raised from childhood to adulthood.

Yu Nian who is so happy, who made him disappear, is it himself?

Xiao Mocun couldn't ask, and couldn't even meditate in his heart.He took a few deep breaths, expelled the stagnant air in his body with all his strength, and opened his mouth with difficulty.

"Excellent."

"Huh?" Zhou Zhijie was looking at the photos he sent, very casually.

"If you want to control yourself from losing your temper, is there any medicine you can take in medicine?"

"Control your temper?" Zhou Zhijie's doubts were all reflected in his tone, and the ending sounded so long, "What nonsense are you talking about, thinking that medicine is an elixir?"

"I think so." Xiao Mocun said in a low voice, "It's hard to find a way."

After hearing what was wrong with him, Zhou Zhijie raised his spirits and asked, "No... tell me what's wrong?"

"It's nothing."

"It's nothing, why are you so annoyed? It's the first day I know you. I'll give you 2 minutes, hurry up and I'll find Yu Nian for you."

Xiao Mocun raised his left hand and rubbed his sore eyes, analyzing his heart with difficulty.

"Sometimes I feel like a mad dog."

Zhou Zhijie on the other end of the phone shivered all over, and the tiredness from the night shift disappeared instantly.

"What do you say you look like?"

"Like a mad dog." Xiao Mocun smiled helplessly, "Get angry and bite anyone you see. Don't you think so?"

"you……"

"You don't need to comfort me, I know what kind of character I am."

During the few years that he and Xiao Mocun have known each other, Zhou Zhijie has never really seen him lose his temper, but he fully knows how bad Xiao Mocun's temper is, because they often chat about Yu Nian.

Zhou Zhijie was speechless for a while: "Then you change it..."

"You think I haven't tried hard? It's not easy." Xiao Mocun rarely showed extreme frustration, and lowered his forever high head, "When the temper comes up, let alone Yu Nian, even I can't stop it. Sometimes I have I just wanted to smash things, and there was a fire coming out of nowhere in my lungs, and I always wanted to yell at him, it would be more comfortable to yell out."

A gust of wind suddenly blew in from the left window, with a bit of coolness, it shattered his words.

Such symptoms may be suspected of exaggeration when others say it, but what he said can only mean that the real situation is already bad.Zhou Zhijie's professional intuition made Zhou Zhijie ask, "Could it be that you are too nervous, maybe it's hypomania?"

Irritability and impulsivity are indeed symptoms of mania, but they can also be a simple bad temper.But even mania is by no means a big problem, and there is really a cure, so there is no need to wait for a magic bullet.Zhou Zhijie is not a professional in this area, just guessing by himself.

What he didn't know was that Xiao Mocun had already learned about what he was talking about through the Internet.

"Maybe." Xiao Mocun didn't want to talk any more, "I'll talk to you later when I find a chance, you go to Yu Nian first, I'm worried that he won't listen to me."

Zhou Zhijie hesitated for a moment: "Okay, let's find a chance to meet next week, and I will untie you in person."

The moment I hung up the phone, a fallen leaf fell from the tree and happened to land on the front hood.Xiao Mocun glanced at it, feeling a little uneasy in his heart.

Autumn is already on the way, another season.