Ai Min of Fomalhaut's Self-written Book

?When I woke up, I found myself lying on a strange bed, with white banners hanging all around. There were cries of men and women. Through the wall and through the window, the cold wind sifted in. Tell me this is reality. Cham is dead.

Cong Zhan died.

No, this is not reality, no!Cong Zhan would never leave me alone, he must have played a joke on me.

"Cong Zhan, Zhao Cong Zhan, where are you, come out to me." I shouted uncontrollably to the surroundings.

No one answered me, the door creaked open, and a maid came in with red eyes in white clothes. I used to go in and out of Zhao's house frequently, and we knew each other a little bit, she said in a low voice: "My lord is in the mourning hall, the girl follows me." Come see him one last time."

I staggered a few steps and almost fell, but she hurriedly supported me.

On the long journey, I seemed to have exhausted all my energy and spent all the time we spent happily together in the past. I almost put all the weight on her to barely complete this journey.

The light in the inner hall is dim, only those raw white, like needles stinging my eyes one by one.

His coffin was quietly sleeping among those white clothes, just like his favorite white clothes.

The spiritual seat is already there, my eyes are in a trance, and I can't see the words clearly. There are a few sticks of incense rising up, gathering and dispersing.

There were a few people kneeling inside, all crying softly. I staggered past them, walked past the ashes of the thick pile of burnt paper money on the ground, and pushed Cong Zhan's coffin lid, but they didn't stop me.

He lay quietly inside, he had already changed his clothes, the blood on his face was gone, his skin was almost transparent, but it didn't have the luster it used to be, it was only pale and transparent.

"Cong Zhan, didn't we agree to be together forever? Didn't we agree to go to Tibet? What should I do if you leave? What about your favorite red scape? What about the poems and paintings you have treasured for so many years? What to do? What about your flute?"

I hardly had the energy to make a sound again, and the words just spit out indistinctly. I am timid, cowardly, and I can't bear this alone.

How I wish he would speak to me, but he just closed his lips tightly, with only a ray of heroic soul in his brows.

I lay paralyzed by the corner of his coffin for a long, long time, there were constant cries, and people came up to offer incense. After my heart ached, it was like a pool of stagnant water. I didn’t feel anything anymore, I just stayed there blankly and numbly. tears.

In the evening, the little brother came, he added plain clothes, put two sticks of incense, and asked the servants to read the imperial decree, and gave Cong Zhan the posthumous title "Wen Jing".

You are born with no ambition for vanity, and after you die, what are you going to do with all these superficial articles!

"Let me here to mourn for a while." He let the Zhao family go out, but left me alone, "Miss Ai, I want to ask you something."

I stayed there numbly, only staring blankly at Cong Zhan's spiritual position.

"You, do you want to go back?" After a long time, he whispered.

I nodded numbly and didn't look at him.

He seemed to sigh, and said, "You will stay for him, why...can't you stay for me?"

stay for you?

If it wasn't for you, if it wasn't for that queen mother, wantonly planting blame, Cong Zhan would not have died!will not die!

I sneered, "I really didn't expect it, it turned out that I did it myself, I did it myself..."

I smiled back from the pain, and laughed for a long time. That day I was in the flower garden with me. I thought Cong Zhan was thinking about it.It turned out that all this was just my overthinking, he didn't look away, he didn't look away!

The little brother stood there watching me cry and laugh for a long time, and finally couldn't bear it, he jumped up and strangled me by the throat, and shouted: "Stop!"

I had already lost all my strength, and I was thrown by him and fell heavily to the ground.

The little brother fell on top of me, his eyes were a bit complicated, I couldn’t tell whether it was guilt or something, I stared at him for a while, and said: "I really didn’t expect it, I thought... I caught it Opportunity can make you compete with the empress dowager, the queen party loses power, and Cong Zhan and I have a future... I didn't expect... I didn't expect that the matter between you and the empress dowager will come first One dragged him into it... I really did it myself..."

He stayed there for a long time, his face suddenly became extremely sharp, and his voice lost its usual tone, "So what you told me about my mother is all false... You lied to me on purpose to make me and my mother quarrel! You...you..."

The story about his mother was never a lie. If the Empress Dowager was really his biological mother, why bother to fight with him, she is really a child, a child who can be manipulated and manipulated by others!

I lost my temper, and I didn't know what to say. There was only one thought in my mind, and it was all of you!You are all selfish!

"Even if Concubine Li Chen is your mother, why should I tell you for no reason? Why should I accompany you that trip when I have nothing to do? I didn't expect you to be so easy to deceive. I told you, and you believed it... What kind of emperor are you? It turns out that you only have the judgment of a child!"

After listening so much coldly, there was already deep hatred in his eyes, like the dark night.

After all, I was full of sadness and despair, I didn't even know what to say, my ears were buzzing all the time, Cong Zhan's death had made me lose all my sanity.

My body was stiff and painful, and I realized that it was he who was pressing on me, "Get up." I wanted to push him away, but he suddenly grabbed my two hands, bowed his head and kissed mine without saying a word lip.

His breath swept up overwhelmingly, his eyes were hazy, and he freed up a hand to tear my clothes.

"This is the price you paid for deceiving me." He whispered in my ear.

I never thought that his strength was so great that I couldn't move at all.

"I am the emperor, and you are not Zhao Congzhan's widow. There is nothing in this world that I cannot get..."

I think my face must have become as white as paper, I struggled a little, and said coldly: "You have exhausted all our previous friendship."

He was stunned for a moment, but still continued with the movements in his hands without saying a word.

When I can't wait to prevent the pain, I know that everything has settled down.

Zhao Zhen's panting was still in my ears, I opened my eyes, and looked at him viciously, I have never hated a person so much, all the pain and resentment melted into one sentence: "Zhao Zhen, I really regret it, why did I meet you?" you!"

He didn't speak, and didn't look up at me, he lowered his head to help me put on my clothes, with a hidden expression. ?