Ai Min of Fomalhaut's Self-written Book

?The days in the palace are full of yellow flowers, flowing water, curtains and westerly winds, and there will be a few pairs of geese at dusk. The taste of life is grinding day by day, like chewing wax.

I often look at the flowers blooming and fading outside the window, thinking that I am also like the flowers on the trembling branches, so weak that I can't help myself in the world.

It reminds me of a poem by Lin Daiyu:

Blossoms fall and flowers fly all over the sky, who will pity the red silk fragrance?

Since he is powerless, he can only be a flower buryer who wants nothing.

Zhao Zhen would come over and hug me to sleep almost every night. He knew that I was unhappy, so he didn't force me. He just told me interesting stories in the palace. I rarely smiled at him, and occasionally took the initiative to talk to him. He was very happy after saying a few words.

He told me that he believes in long-term love.

He told me that he believed that one day I would be impressed by him.

He told me he couldn't live without me.

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After listening to it for a long time, I became tired and fell asleep until dawn.

The days are slow, it’s almost winter, the weather is always hot and cold, I don’t know why, I always feel weak and lethargic, and I usually have nothing to do, so I’m even more lazy, half asleep on the couch all day long rest.When he comes, he doesn’t bother me. Sometimes he sits quietly by the bed and reads carefully with a booklet. Sometimes he draws my eyebrows with a screwdriver. When I wake up, he smiles at me and says, “Look what I brought you.” Have you eaten?"

Maybe he didn't know how to make me happier, so he always gave me the best food and the rarest rare treasures.

Or so he thinks that's the best.

In November, all the main halls in the palace that were burned by the fire had been repaired, and he and the queen mother went to the Xiangtai Temple according to the ancestral practice to pardon the world.

When his imperial guard returned to the palace, the whole palace would pay him a visit. I didn't want to go, but the queen's entourage came to invite me over and over again, so I had no choice but to put on a cloak and go.

His harem is really worthy of that sentence, the 72 concubines of the Sixth Court of the Sangong, so many women gathered together, I can only feel the collision of pearls and emeralds like the sound of rain, everyone has probably put on a lot of makeup, and the smell of cloves thin.

Zhao Zhen stayed at my place every day, and they were probably jealous of me. Sure enough, when I arrived, they looked at me coldly and whispered something, and a bold one raised his voice and said to me: "Yo , Sister, this is a big air, I came here so late, I only heard that the concubine is waiting for the empress, but I have never heard of which concubine the empress is waiting for."

After all, he looked at me with mockery in his eyes.

Standing in front of Tingting's makeup, the queen was dressed in brocade clothes, still maintaining a proper reserve and dignity, just like when we met for the first time, as soon as the concubine spoke, the makeup piled into a ball of laughter, and everyone looked at me and me. Queen, I think it's a good show.

I bowed down and gave the queen a blessing, and said: "I've been delayed by something on the way, I hope the queen will forgive me."

The queen looked at me unintentionally for a while, and then said slowly: "My younger sister serves the emperor all day long, and I think she has more weight in the emperor's heart than us as older sisters. If you don't get along with etiquette occasionally, it's what we should do." My sister's understanding."

I was taken aback for a moment, it turned out that her resentment towards me was so deep, so I just lowered my head and said nothing.

"Welcome Your Majesty and Empress Dowager—" the eunuch's voice resounded loudly.

A group of people came slowly, surrounded by bright yellow, and the queen immediately stepped forward to give her a blessing: "My concubine, Mrs. Guo, welcomes you back to the palace."

Zhao Zhenxu gave her a hand, and looked towards me from afar from the crowd.

I bowed my head immediately.

He didn't say much, and went to see the new names of the halls with everyone in the harem.

Maybe it's been a long time since I've walked so much. After walking for a long time, I feel my body is so weak, I can barely support my body and follow behind the powder pile.

When I passed the newly built Yuhua Palace, I was already panting. Zhao Zhen, who was sitting on the sedan chair, looked back at me. Maybe he realized that I was exhausted, so he pointed to me in the crowd and said, "Here is the gift Let her live, don't need to follow her, just rest here."

When I heard him say this, I found a small table to sit down and rest as if I had been amnesty.

Zhao Zhen was still worried, but he was afraid that there would be too many people, so he was too embarrassed to ask me what was wrong, so he pointed out an imperial physician to come and see me.

The imperial doctor put Parkin silk on my veins, cut the pulses for a long time, stroked my beard, and asked me: "Your Majesty, do you feel any discomfort recently?"

I thought about it, shook my head, and said: "I don't feel any discomfort, just..." I paused, and said: "Maybe it's cold, and I always feel tired and flustered. Lethargy, shouldn't it be a big deal?"

"Is the concubine's monthly letter postponed for more than half a month?" The imperial doctor's face was filled with joy, and before I could react, he had already knelt down: "My lord, this is a sign of a child, and the old minister is here to congratulate you first." .”

The servants and eunuchs in the palace are so clever, they all knelt down on the ground when they heard the words, and said flattering words in their voices.

It took me a long time to react. I stroked my lower abdomen, feeling unspeakable for a moment.

The shadow of the day is long and narrow, and the sun stained with rosy clouds blows the sweet and fragrant fragrance of mature flowers and trees all over my body. It meanders faintly into my heart, and there is even a trace of unspeakable joy.

"Min'er--"

I turn around.

I don't know who informed Zhao Zhen, he threw away the palanquin and walked towards me from a distance, his hasty steps were full of joy, he ignored the crowd, and hugged me fiercely, his voice was so excited that I didn't know What to say, so I didn't speak at all, just hugged me tightly.

The Queen and the others also arrived not long after, staring blankly at my lower abdomen for a while, then said softly to Zhao Zhen with a smile like a flower: "Congratulations to the Emperor."

Zhao Zhen didn't even look at him, just immersed in joy, rubbing his fingers against my black hair.

The queen coughed slightly, and said to me: "My sister will come and walk around the palace frequently in the future, and I also want to be part of my sister's happiness."

She doesn't like me, doesn't want to see me, and why is she so superficial.

Just when I didn't know how to answer, Zhao Zhen said: "Since she is pregnant and has trouble walking, these rituals and the like can be avoided, and..." Zhao Zhen glanced at me, and then said: "Pregnancy requires rest. If you have nothing to do in the future, don't come to Yuhua Palace."

The queen's face was very ugly, but she still forced a smile and said, "Remember, my concubine."

After Zhao Zhen sent everyone away, he suddenly hugged me horizontally. I was caught off guard and let out an exclamation. His eyes were as deep as water, and he led me steadily to the inner hall.

I didn't know where to put my arms for a while, so I said in embarrassment: "Put me down quickly."

Zhao Zhen looked at me with crooked eyes, "No way!"

The tone of voice is so joyful, which I have never heard before.

In the sleeping hall, cloud-top sandalwood is used as beams, crystal jade is used as lamps, pearls are used as curtains, and Fan Jin is used as pillar foundations.A crocodile twirled tent hangs beside the six-foot-wide bed of aquilaria wood, with begonia flowers sprinkled all over the tent, and the wind blows the silk, which is extremely extravagant.

Zhao Zhen hugged me on the bed, stared at me deeply for a while, "Min'er, we are going to have a baby."

His voice sounds so soft, infinitely tender, his brows and eyes are as warm as jade, he is so familiar. I am not familiar with the incense burning in the new temple, but it smells so good, and it goes straight to the tip of his nose and mind. Drilling, there is a peaceful beauty in the brain.

It vaguely seems to be the night when the sky is full of pink flowers like snow, fog, and frost. He holds a fife in his hand, stares at me, and sings faintly the shade of drunken flowers.

His face is extremely handsome, and his voice is extremely tender.

I stretched out my hand and caressed his face involuntarily, all kinds of brilliance suddenly appeared in my eyes, "Yes, we have a child."

After that, she hugged him sideways, pressing her face against his warm neck.

He was stunned for a moment, then hugged me tightly, and after a long time, he said: "Be my queen."

.....make me the queen

Those words were like a pot of cold water being poured down suddenly, which made me instantly alert. He is Zhao Zhen, not Cong Zhan, no!

Is it because I miss Cong Zhan too much?To think of Zhao Zhen as his shadow.

My heart was getting cold inch by inch, I pulled myself away from his embrace stiffly, Zhao Zhen's eyes still had the tenderness just now, and he asked me softly: "What's wrong?"

I watched him silently.

He lowered his head seriously and looked into my eyes, "Did you just say that you were unhappy when you became empress?" He raised his hand and brushed the broken hair hanging from my temples behind my ears, "I know you don't like it." Those, I just want you to have a better life in the palace, and I also want to have more time to cling to your hand in the future."

more time?

I looked up at him and said, "How much time is more time? No matter how much time there is, it's just me sharing a husband with other women. So what if there is more time? Can we eat together or snuggle together?"

It may be that my mood changed too quickly, he was stunned for a moment and didn't know what to say, but after a while he smiled and said, "Are you jealous?"

Before I could speak, he lowered his head and kissed my lips, panting for a while before saying, "You are mine at last."

There was a burning sensation on my lips, I pushed him away and said, "I've never belonged to anyone."

"What's wrong?" He tentatively wanted to hug me again but I pushed him away time and time again. The high-pitched voice of the inner eunuch shouted "Your Majesty, the Empress Dowager has summoned you" three times at the door, and finally got a little annoyed, and said to the door: "Your errand is very good, tell me, what's your name?"

The inner eunuch at the door said: "Back to the emperor, this servant is named Xiaozhouzi."

"Xiaozhouzi? This name sounds very familiar."

"Back to the emperor, this servant recently got some advice from Eunuch Fangliang to serve tea in front of the imperial court."

"Go back and tell Eunuch Fangliang that you don't have to follow me from now on, and I can't keep such a blind servant by my side."

The Empress Dowager's words were not to be disobeyed, and before he left, he left a sentence: "Min'er, if you are happy, I will stay in Yuhua Palace every day in the future, and I will be with you every day."

I didn't make a sound, just watched him leave.

I feel a little uncomfortable in my chest, which should be related to the hard work of pregnancy. Cong Zhan, I am sorry for you after all. I only pity the innocent child. After a long period of silence in the palace, this child may be the only one I can rely on. ?