Ai Min of Fomalhaut's Self-written Book

"On May [-]th, the shooting star will step onto the roof." These words are often on my lips, lest I forget them, and I will have to stay in this palace for another ten or eight years.

Zhang Jieyu has been promoted to Concubine Shu, and Zhao Zhen left her surname as Concubine Zhang Shu.

Originally, concubines in the Jin Dynasty had to choose another auspicious character as the title, but because Zhang Qingyuan was born as a court lady and was exclusively favored by Zhao Zhen, the concubines in the palace and the ministers of the court objected, so Zhao Zhen had no choice but to give up.

When Zhang Qingyuan mentioned this matter in my palace, he just laughed it off, filled a few gold silk cakes and said: "I really don't like titles, if the two love each other for a long time, how can they have the same title?"

She likes Zhao Zhen, and her cheeks will blush when mentioning Zhao Zhen. I took a sip of tea, looked at the falling flowers outside the window, and said, "It's a great blessing to like each other and be able to see each other day and night."

The peonies outside the window were in full bloom, and Zhang Qingyuan's delicate face was faintly glowing.After hearing my words, she was silent for a long time before she said: "It's true that I like the emperor, but I know that the only thing in the emperor's heart is..."

She didn't continue talking, but just looked at me with complicated eyes for a long time, then sighed leisurely, and said, "I want to be you so much."

I was stunned, feeling sore and unspeakable, Zhao Zhen, he is not my beloved.

When Zhang Qingyuan finished speaking, she lowered her head slightly, her slender neck had a gentle arc like a bow, her eyes were a little misty, as if she had hidden a lot of unreadable worries.

I said silently: "Butterflies love flowers, flowers love running water, some things are hard to find and difficult to get, but there is no right or wrong. Zhao...... The emperor has a deep affection for you, is it true?" Others can compare, so why do you say that you want to be as frustrated as me."

The incense in the hall was still burning, and when Zhang Qingyuan looked up at me, her eyes were mixed with smoke, and her voice was also hazy: "The emperor has always had nightmares since the empress dowager's funeral, and every time he wakes up, he shouts Your name." She said to herself, with a gentle curve on her lips, "I used to always wonder why I, a court lady with no outstanding talent and appearance, could be so loved by the emperor, but after seeing you, I got along with you for a long time You know, it turns out that when I was taking care of the flowers, my face with my head bowed was very similar to yours, the emperor loves to see me watering and fertilizing those orchids, and only then can he treat me tenderly."

I quietly listened to her finish. She said such sad words as if she was talking about something unrelated to herself. She was just in a daze for a while, and her eyes returned to their usual clear and bright appearance. , "Tomorrow is the emperor's birthday, would my sister be willing to attend?"

Tomorrow, his birthday happens to be tomorrow, and after tomorrow, the two of us may never see each other again. I should have refused, but I nodded for some reason.

Dinner.

Zhang Qingyuan took my hand and walked into the Yuchen Palace where the banquet was held. She is Concubine Shu, and Xunli should sit in front, and the eunuch has already guided her.

When it was my turn, the young eunuch hesitated for a while, so he called an older father-in-law and whispered: "This empress's imperial concubine has been drawn up, but she has not been promoted for some reason, so why should I sit?"

His voice was so soft that I could still hear it.

The older husband glanced at me and said hesitantly, "My Lady..."

"It's fine if I sit here." I pointed to the furthest mat next to the vermilion palace door.

Not long after, Zhao Zhen came with the Empress Guo. Zhao Zhen was wearing a jade blue Shu brocade gown embroidered with bamboo, with a jade crown and hair tied up. He looked good.The queen has always catered to Zhao Zhen, wearing a peony red shirt embroidered with hundreds of flowers, with only a few gold hairpins on her head, which is very homely.

The two came in style, and everyone bowed three times and bowed nine times, shouting long live.

I slightly raised my head to look at him, but it was too far away, so I couldn't make out the description. I ran into him at Butiantai that day, and he looked like this, too far away, only a faint outline.

lonely.bleak.

The birthday banquet begins.

The flute and flute are in harmony, the sound of the piano is curling, and the singing voice is graceful.

Officials and ministers ordered their wives to toast Zhao Zhen according to the order of their seats, expressing their best words.

Lantian jade's luminous cup is cold to the touch, and the clear wine has a icy luster under the light.

Drank it down.The wine slowly slid down the throat, and the strong throat seemed to be burning.

I remember that it was also such a banquet, he pressed my hand and said to me, this is not good, just drink milk while you are pregnant.

Before I knew it, it was my turn to toast. Now that the banquet was drawing to a close, Zhao Zhen was already drunk. When I stretched out my hand to toast, he didn't reach out to receive the wine, but looked at me for a long time with a blurred expression. Watching and talking quietly.

"I wish the emperor good health and longevity." My voice became a little louder.

Only then did he reach out his hand as if he had just woken up from a dream, but instead of taking the wine, he held my hand.

The light and shadow merged, although he was drunk, his face was clean and dustless, his shadow was half hidden under the golden pillar of the coiling dragon, and he also had a faint look.

"I will remember that I loved you, and live alone in the future." I said in a very soft voice.

He raised his head, his gaze fixed on my face, his pupils were as dark as a deep pool, and he could only see my figure.

"Life alone in the future."

This was the last sentence I said to him, his eyes were very dim, I don't know if he heard it or understood it.

The birthday banquet is over, and everyone goes to the Jiqing Hall to worship the real king.

Zhao Zhen's sedan chair was at the front as usual, and a group of people walked away through the flowers and willows.

The night was surprisingly bright, and the sound of copper leaks became louder and louder, and the approximate time was approaching.

I stopped under Butiantai, the Jiqing Hall was on the right side of the vast flat field, and Zhao Zhen was surrounded by everyone and went inside.

Looking at the sky carefully for a long time, the fireworks finally ignited, covering the entire twilight sky obliquely and densely like a silk net. tapestry.

The people in Jiqing Hall heard the voice and came out again.

Only this time.

I lifted the hem of my skirt and ran towards the fireworks on the rooftop.

I don't want anything, nothing.

Night Breeze grinned, and a palace official shouted from behind: "Your Majesty..."

Zhao Zhen came out at some point and ran behind me.

The breath of Longdanxiang seems to be in my nostrils, such a light breath, I don't know why I can smell it so clearly.

This kind of breath has given me good memories, but also horrible nightmares.

Maybe I can't run him, his breath seems to be gushing on my neck, maybe he can reach me as long as he stretches his arms.

Just me, can't turn back.

He still didn't catch me. After I stepped on the last step, I tried my best to jump towards the flashing portal under the city wall. As far as I could see from the corner of my eyes, there was that smear of yellow.

Suddenly a world away.

I should have been happy, but I wanted to laugh, but for some reason there were two lines of clear tears in the corners of my eyes.

Little brother, if life were just like the first time you saw it, how wonderful it would be.