golden moonlight

Sui Tan did not take the senior high school entrance examination.

This is also a matter of course.In the third year of junior high school, he didn't study at all, so where did he go to take the senior high school entrance examination.In fact, most of the children in the school are like this. After all, it is only a small mountain village. At most, the children will go home to work after finishing junior high school. It is meaningless to take the senior high school entrance examination.

But the problem is that Sui Tan didn't even take the final exam.

As a matter of fact, Sui Tan didn't take any exams, big or small, this year.The teachers at the school knew about his situation, and knew that his father was far and wide and out of reach. Old man Geng's house was just a place for him to borrow, so they couldn't control him at first, so they simply let him go.

But graduating from junior high school is a big event after all, old man Geng is usually busy with his own work and can't take care of it, and Sui Tan can't talk to him three words a day, he has never asked Sui Tan about his studies before.But this time he heard from the grandson of the village chief's family that Sui Tan not only did not go to class, he even did not take the final exam of the third year of junior high school.

This is the first time old man Geng knows that Sui Tan goes out every morning, not to go to school.He was entrusted by Sui Tan's father to raise Sui Tan. Originally, Sui Tan's father was kind to him. After wandering around in the mountains every day, old man Geng thought about it, and felt that he couldn't explain to Sui Tan's father.

So after Sui Tan returned to old man Geng's earthen house that day, old man Geng dragged him to talk with him once.

"Son, what do you want to do in the future?" Geng old man asked him with a moan while smoking an earthen cigarette.

"Don't do anything, wait for death." Sui Tan shrugged.He knew that old man Geng knew that he didn't go to school or take exams, and he also understood what old man Geng meant. Old man Geng had work to do at home, but he would never let Sui Tan do it. For old man Geng Speaking of which, Sui Tan is a young master who needs to be supported, so he neither dares to let Sui Tan help him with work, nor orders him to go to school. At best, he can only drag Sui Tan to fight with him like now A few words.

After hearing what he said, old man Geng was obviously anxious. "You kid, why are you talking nonsense! You are still so young, how can you not go to school or study, just wandering around!" Geng old man knocked on his pipe, gritted his teeth, and said, "No... Wait until autumn, when school starts, you are still I have to go back to school to study, at worst we have to pay another year's tuition, we have to go to this school."

Sui Tan looked at old man Geng with a funny expression. "What do you go to school for?"

"What...?" Old Man Geng was obviously stunned by the question, his wrinkled old face showed obvious confusion, but he came back to his senses after a while. "What do you do... what can you do if you don't go to school!"

"If you don't go to school, you will wait for your death." Sui Tan didn't care. "Just like now, just dawdling around every day. There are many people in your village who have not gone to school, so they are living well."

"You child!" Old man Geng was anxious, and swung the pipe in his hand resentfully in mid-air, but it was not a gesture to strike. "The village is the village, you are not from the village! You are from the city, and there is no one in the city who does not study! You..."

"Am I from the city?" Sui Tan asked sharply before old man Geng could finish speaking.

Old man Geng was stunned: "Why, why not?"

Sui Tan sneered. "I'm from the city, so why have I stayed in this place where chickens don't lay eggs for a year and no one cares about me?"

Old man Geng finally understood what Sui Tan was talking about.He held a pipe in one hand, and rubbed his thigh with the other hand in a daze. Just as he was about to find something to say, Sui Tan snatched it up again.

"You came to ask me about going to school today, you want to ask me, right?"

Geng old man subconsciously nodded, not understanding what Sui Tan meant.Sui Tan sneered: "I've lived with you for less than a year. When I go out in the morning and come back in the evening, you still care about whether I go to school or not. The person who sent me here is my father. I have been watching my person for more than ten years since I was born. But has he ever asked me about my exam?"

"I've been here for almost a year. Has he ever called me to ask me? Except for the wad of money he gave you, has he asked me a word about my lazy life here for a year?"

The more Sui Tan talked, the harsher his tone became, the more gloomy his face became, and the more he couldn't conceal the hostility in his voice.Old man Geng rubbed his thigh in difficulty, not knowing how to speak.He also knew in his heart that Sui Tan's father left his son here alone and ignored him. Sui Tan would definitely feel bad in his heart. He was as stupid as him. How could he find any words to resolve Sui Tan's resentment? ?

The huge mood swing made Sui Tan's breathing short of breath.He took a deep breath, and the voice that had become sharp just now was lowered, but the gloom in his tone did not decrease but increased.

"Before my grandma passed away, she told me that my mother ran away, and she and grandpa also left. There are only me and my dad. Let me listen to my dad. Now that my dad has nothing to say to me, Then I have nothing to say to him, and I don’t need to listen to anyone anymore.”

After speaking, he glanced at old man Geng, stood up and walked away.The adolescent boy's stature was growing, and as soon as he raised and retracted his long arms, he lifted the cloth curtain and got into the small space in front of his bed, unwilling to speak or see anyone anymore.

Not long after, old man Geng sighed from outside.

This conversation made Sui Tan's already bad mood even worse, and what Shi Xiaozhao saw the next day was Sui Tan who looked even more gloomy than usual.Seeing Sui Tan like this, Shi Xiaozha didn't say anything, but quietly sat beside him, stretching out her hand to grab the growing weeds around her feet.

The wind in the mountains became warmer with the change of seasons. Shi Xiaozhao sat next to Sui Tan, and after a while, grabbed his hand and tied something around his wrist.

Sui Tan looked down and saw that it was a bunch of weeds.

To be precise, it is a grass ring made of weeds.Sui Tan opened his eyes wide in surprise. Although the grass ring was simple and rustic, it was very delicately woven. The emerald green grass was entwined with a kind of thin white stems and branches, which had a sense of playfulness and wit in the mountains.

Seeing that Sui Tan's expression softened a bit, Shi Xiaozhao smiled at him: "Do you like it?"

Sui Tan didn't speak.He looked at Shi Xiaozha's hands, which had just unknowingly woven a delicate grass ring, which was stained with light green grass juice. When Sui Tan reached out to those hands, Shi Xiaozha hide and hide.

"Dirty, don't touch it."

Sui Tan ignored him, grabbed one of his hands, and then put that dexterous fingertip to his mouth and kissed it lightly.

Shi Xiaozhao trembled for a moment, then blushed, bowed her head and remained silent in embarrassment, but her body moved closer to Sui Tan.

Sui Tan felt a burst of heat in his abdominal cavity.Shi Xiaozhao is now more and more pleasing to him, and he doesn't know why, but he just feels that this stupid countryman is cute no matter how he looks, every movement and every look is aimed at his liking.Sometimes he thinks Shi Xiaozha is cute, so no matter what the other party is doing, no matter where they are, Sui Tan will push him down and rub him.Shi Xiaozhao never pushes back and resists, that way of opening herself softly and unreservedly is more pleasing to Sui Tan.

He felt that Shi Xiaozha was his only hope of surviving in this mountain. Sometimes he didn't even resent his father for leaving him here and ignoring him. It is not impossible to live a lifetime under the curtain of the sky.

He even gradually accepted this kind of life.

But accepting it doesn't mean liking it.

So when the winter wind blew and a black car drove into this small mountain village that was obviously out of place, Sui Tan's mind seemed to be boiled for a moment.His premonition has already told him that the possibility of a car appearing in such a mountain village is too small, unless...

There were no unlesss, and the moment his father stepped out of the car, he cut all unlesss.

His father has changed a lot, darkened and thinner, but wearing high-end clothes and leather shoes that are rare even in Shanghai, he looks domineering.The mountain road is not easy to drive, especially after entering the village, from the narrow path to the door of the old man Geng’s house, Sui Tan stood there blankly and saw his father and the driver coming this way, the driver seemed to complain that the road was too Difficult to drive, damaged car, but his father didn't care and said that the car broke down, and it would be better to get another one.

His father walked up to him, touched his face, and then asked him to pack his things and take him away.

Sui Tan quickly rushed into old man Geng's adobe house and began to pack his things. Those things that he had imagined in his mind, how he would resist and resent him if he saw his father, at the moment when he really had the opportunity to leave this mountain village, All vanished.He has done countless psychological constructions, allowing himself to accept the reality that he will spend the rest of his life with Shi Xiaozha in this small valley, but now that he is leaving, those psychological constructions have become meaningless in an instant.

Sui Tan's hand to pack his things suddenly stopped in mid-air.

Psychological construction is indeed meaningless, but Shi Xiaozha is real.

Sui Tan put down his hands and walked out of the room. His father was talking to old man Geng. Seeing him coming out, both of them looked at him.

"I... I have friends to say goodbye to," he said stiffly.His father nodded, telling him to come back quickly.

Sui Tan quickly ran to the hawthorn tree, the hawthorn tree that gave him countless comforts in the past year and a half, and the boy who had grown taller like him was still sitting there waiting for him.Hearing the sound of Sui Tan's footsteps, Shi Xiaozha turned around and showed a pure and gentle smile that was exactly the same as in countless mornings.

"You're late! Look what I brought you!"

Shi Xiaozha jumped up briskly, like a swift deer.The little deer jumped to his side, and opened a cloth bag like offering a treasure, inside was a small jar of hawthorn honey.

"It's brewed with this year's new fruit. It's not ready yet. It's best to open it when it's snowing. It's especially good! You didn't taste any new ones last year, and they were all sold out. This year I specially reserved them for you. An altar."

Sui Tan seemed to have his feet nailed in place, he suddenly didn't want to take a step forward, let alone tell Shi Xiaozha that he was leaving this place soon.

He didn't want to see the innocent and gentle smile on Shi Xiaozhao's face stiffly stop on his face, and then disappear bit by bit.

Just like it is now.

Many years later, when Sui Tan recalled Shi Xiaozha's frozen smiling face, his heart ached beyond measure, and even as time passed, his heartache became more intense when he recalled this moment.He couldn't remember what he said to Shi Xiaozha at that time, he only remembered that when that face was facing him, the first time it appeared was neither a gentle nor a smiling expression.

"... Then you... are you coming back?" Those big and long eyes almost lost their focus, and they just looked at Sui Tan in a panic, as if they lost the sight of life all at once.

Sui Tan suddenly felt that the blood vessels around his heart seemed to be infarcted, and he was so uncomfortable that he couldn't breathe.

"Probably not coming back." He whispered.These words seemed to take all the strength in his whole body, he watched Shi Xiaozhao grab his hands, those hands trembled too much, so he couldn't use any strength at all, as long as he struggled a little, he could break free Come.

But Sui Tan didn't want to break free, this might be the last time he felt Shi Xiaozha's warmth.

And the last time he felt Shi Xiaozha's temperature was almost zero degrees cold.

Shi Xiaozha was shaking all over, this was the result of him restraining himself.There was a hint of pleading in those eyes that were about to cry: "Then you... can you take me away?"

Sui Tan's throat was choked.He couldn't answer.

"Please... take me away..." A line of tears flooded Shi Xiaozha's eyes, and quickly swept across his gentle and delicate face.At this moment, Sui Tan suddenly felt what it means to be heart-wrenching. It is obvious that such a young life should not feel such a heart-piercing separation, but they met for no reason, and the separation came too soon Without warning.

Sui Tan couldn't take it anymore.He held Shi Xiaozha's hand holding him with his backhand, and then hugged Shi Xiaozha into his arms. The two thin sternums bumped into each other, causing pain to both of them, but the pain could relieve them on the contrary. Heartache, give them breathing room.

Shi Xiaozhao hugged Sui Tan tightly, buried her face in his shoulder and wept silently.How could he be willing?How could he be willing to watch this person who brought him a new life leave like this?How could he be willing to close the door to the new world like this?How could he be willing to let his only consolation, his only friend and lover never come back?But the person in this world who knows how much Sui Tan wants to leave here is Shi Xiaozha. He knows that Sui Tan has struggled, compromised, and is unwilling, but in the end, he still belongs to the outside world.

He is not Shi Xiaozha's thing, not Shi Xiaozha's lover, he is Sui Tan from Shanghai.

He's going to go one day.

"Take me away...Take me away..." He lay on Sui Tan's shoulder and kept crying.This is the time when he is the most willful in front of Sui Tan, but he knows in his heart that this may be the only time when he can be willful.

Sui Tan felt that his shoulders were wet with warm tears, as if someone had poured a pot of hot blood in his heart, the intense and hot pain was too real, making it hard for him to breathe.At this moment, Sui Tan suddenly had the feeling that if he wants to be separated from Shi Xiaozha and never see each other again in this life, then he might as well not leave here, not return to Shanghai, and don't have that so-called , the life he wants.

He gritted his teeth and said to Shi Xiaozha in a deep voice, "Wait for me to pick you up."

Shi Xiaozha was stunned, and even stopped crying for an instant.He opened his eyes wide on Sui Tan's shoulder and couldn't believe his ears.He didn't dare to move, as if any movement would burst the dream in the phantom.

"When I go back, I will definitely study and make up for my year. I will work hard to pass the exam, and then I will take you over."

He held Shi Xiaozha in his arms, and whispered in Shi Xiaozha's ear the resolution he had just made.He has never had such a determined moment in his life, as if he can do anything as long as he can take Shi Xiaozha to Shanghai.

Shi Xiaozha let go of her hand, straightened up and stared blankly at Sui Tan.Those eyes were red from crying, they should have looked swollen, but at this moment they were as bright as stars and moons in the dark night.

"...Really?" He asked in disbelief, and Sui Tan nodded heavily, then pulled him over, and kissed his soft, salty lips soaked in tears.

They were still young at that time, one didn't know that they shouldn't make promises casually, and the other didn't know that they shouldn't believe in promises casually.

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After all, Rong Yi is still a rookie director. When dealing with some scenes, his design and conception are very good, but he lacks experience.In the farewell scene between Sui Tan and Shi Xiaozha, both of them passed the same scene, but because the arrangement of the camera positions was not rigorous enough, in the end, two cameras took three shots in this scene before calling it a day.Qu Haiyao and Rong Yi had to focus on their emotions all the time, and it was very hard for both of them after a scene.

This scene lasted all day, and Qu Haiyao left early after filming. Today he has already called off work.And Rong Yi still needs to study some empty shots. In terms of montage, his thinking is not very clear, so he can only shoot the materials he thinks should be shot first, and use them according to the situation in post-editing.

So when he returned from work, he didn't see Qu Haiyao at all. He heard from Guan Xiaojun that Qu Haiyao was tired and fell asleep without eating.

In fact, it was true that Qu Haiyao hadn't eaten, but had been lying on the bed tossing and turning.The film crew will leave this location tomorrow, whether it is for Sui Tan or Qu Haiyao, this is a real separation.

Qu Haiyao didn't know exactly when he fell asleep.In a trance, he seemed to be still sitting under the hawthorn tree, holding in his arms the altar of hawthorn honey that Shi Xiaozha gave him. Shi Xiaozhang lay beside him, and told him with a sweet smile that the honey was ready and could Eat it, let him taste it.

With that sweet smile on his face, he opened the jar full of joy, but what came to his face was not the sweet smell of honey, but a strong smell of blood.

He looked into the jar in horror, only to see a scarlet patch.Those crushed red hawthorns are like crushed hearts, some are still beating, soaked in a jar of blood.

"When are you coming to pick me up?" A trance voice came from beside me.Qu Haiyao suddenly turned his head to look over, and saw that Rong Yi's heart seemed to have been dug out a big hole, there was no beating heart in his chest, only the blood soaked his whole body, and he looked into his eyes with resentment.

Qu Haiyao woke up from the dream with a muffled hum and twitching.For a moment, he even felt that he was about to suffocate and go into shock. He sat on the bed and breathed heavily. In the dream, the heart soaked in blood, the chest cavity that was filled with no heart, and the pair of resentful eyes, he couldn't help but feel that he was dying. Can't tell which one scares him more.