golden moonlight

The year Sui Tan's father was imprisoned, Shi Xiaozha's grandmother also passed away.

This is Shi Xiaozhao's only blood relative in this world, and it is also his concern that he cannot let go of.The death of grandma made another concern in his heart infinitely magnified.

It has been more than three years since Sui Tan left the village, and Shi Xiaozhao never thought about why Sui Tan didn't come to pick him up, nor did he ever doubt that Sui Tan might have broken his promise back then.Maybe it is subconsciously knowing that once he doubts, he will be attacked by despair, so Shi Xiaozhao doesn't think about it, and just waits for the day when Sui Tan comes to pick him up and go to Shanghai.

And if he can't wait, he will go to Shanghai to talk to Sui himself.

At that time, there was no road construction in the village, and the farthest place Shi Xiaozha had been to since she was born was just the market at the foot of the mountain.He didn't know how far Shanghai was from the village and the market, but he remembered that Sui Tan had told him that after a day and night train ride, he had to take three bus trips to reach the mountain village.

It wasn't something that Shi Xiaozhao could walk with both feet in the cloth shoes that his grandma gave him, so he started looking for those people in the village who had traveled far to take him out.

No one would take him out.

Shi Xiaozha is young, but the villagers are not fools.What he talked about with Sui was not unknown in the village, and the villagers love to gossip, and it didn't take long for this kind of thing to become an open secret in the village.Shi Xiaozha was originally disliked in the village because he had no father, no mother, and was weak, but now it has become even worse. There is almost no room for Shi Xiaozha in a small mountain village.

This made him want to leave the village even more and go to Shanghai to talk to Sui.

Let alone take him to Shanghai, he couldn't even find anyone who could take him to the provincial capital.The people in the village didn't want his money, they just didn't want to get involved with him, not to mention that everyone knew why he wanted to go to Shanghai.

—An indecent act!The villagers despised the existence of Shi Xiaozha in their hearts.

At this time, the village began to build roads.

I heard it was arranged by the government.The work was contracted by an enterprise in the county. At first, several groups of people came to talk with the village chief. Most of them didn't know what they talked about.Anyway, the result is that since then, there have often been large trucks carrying various raw materials coming in and out of the village to prepare for paving the road.

Shi Xiaozha stared at those big trucks, her eyes were bright.

The first driver he went to ask looked very honest. Hearing that Shi Xiaozhao wanted to take a ride out, he was very embarrassed.The man said it wasn't about the money, but that the convoy didn't belong to him, and he had to ask their boss about this kind of ride.

The driver looked at Shi Xiaozha, hesitated to speak, and said in a secretive way: "You...don't ask him."

Shi Xiaozhao didn't listen at all, he went to find the team leader the next day, they called him "Master Jiao".

Master Jiao is a middle-aged man with dark skin and a big waist, which looks very unfriendly.When Shi Xiaozha found him, he first looked Shi Xiaozha up and down a few times with a fierce face, until Shi Xiaozha started to get nervous without knowing why, Master Jiao showed a smile, and was full of tears. Smokey yellow teeth.

"Are you going to Shanghai?"

Shi Xiaozhao nodded.

"Shanghai is far away, do you know where it is?"

"It's, it's in the east. When you arrive in Shanghai, you'll be at the seaside." Shi Xiaozha whispered what Sui Tan had said to him before.

Master Jiao nodded: "It's not impossible to take you to Shanghai, but Shanghai is too far away. I can't go there once or twice a year. I can only take you there when I go to Shanghai."

Shi Xiaozha widened her eyes excitedly.This was the first time he saw hope, and he quickly said: "It's okay! I can wait! As long as I can go!"

"That's fine." Master Jiao pinched his cigarette, looked at Shi Xiaozha and said, "Well, I can't come to your village every day. Don't forget about it when the time comes. You go to the county with me first, go I can pick you up whenever I go to Shanghai in the future."

Shi Xiaozha didn't expect things to go so smoothly.He immediately agreed, then hastily packed up his things, and went to the county seat in Master Jiao's big truck.There was a strong smell of gasoline and smoke in the truck, but Shi Xiaozha didn't care. The excitement and joy of going to Shanghai soon filled his brain, and he didn't realize that there was something unreasonable about the whole thing.

He soon found out.

Master Jiao didn't ask for his money, so Shi Xiaozha thought that after going to the county, he would help out in the convoy to cover the fare for his ride to Shanghai.Although he may not know anything about the team, he can learn, and he is not worried about it.Arriving in the county seat is like taking the first step to go to Shanghai, Shi Xiaozhao thought so, his mind was full of Sui Tan's reaction when he saw him.

But Master Jiao did not take him to the convoy, but took him to a building.This house is a residential house built in the county town. It is not as big as the house in the village, but the small room outside is a kitchen and toilet, and the room inside is a little bigger. There is a balcony at the end of the room. It is a small house with all internal organs.

"You will live here." Master Jiao said.

Shi Xiaozha looked at Master Jiao in puzzlement, but Master Jiao locked the double doors, then walked back to Shi Xiaozha, looking down at him.

"I heard from people in your village that you want to go to Shanghai to find your little lover?"

Shi Xiaozha was stunned, and stared blankly at Master Jiao's pointed face.

"Have you slept with that little white face?"

Master Jiao's tone and demeanor made Shi Xiaozha aware of the danger. He shook suddenly, and took two big steps back, but he reached the edge of the bed next to the wall in the room.

"Let me make it clear to you," Master Jiao said carelessly, "If you want to go to Shanghai, yes, I will take you there, but my business is not for nothing. I don't need the money, so I will go with your money Not in Shanghai, but if you sleep with me a few times, our business will be considered."

"No, don't! I don't want to! Go away!"

Shi Xiaozha pushed Master Jiao away in horror and wanted to escape.But he was already thin and small, so he was no match for Master Jiao.Within two strokes, he was stripped naked and tied up. After a while, what awaited him was hellish torture and humiliation.

He whimpered, something was stuffed in his mouth, it was stuffed so deep to the root of his tongue that he couldn't even cry out.The pain behind him made him almost pass out. He closed his eyes tightly, and could only hear the bed creaking, mixed with Master Jiao's dizzying panting.

"You decide for yourself," Master Jiao sat on the edge of the bed and smoked a cigarette after the incident, and Shi Xiaozha was already dying of torture, Master Jiao's voice came to his ears one after another.

"Anyway, I've already slept with you. If you are obedient and don't compete with me, I will take you there when I go to Shanghai. At that time, we will break up. If you are disobedient," Master Jiao looked at Shi Xiaozha, who was paralyzed on the bed and could not move, showed a sinister smile: "I have plenty of ways to treat you. This is the county seat, not your village. Even if you die here, no one will know."

Shi Xiaozha half-closed her eyes, and from Master Jiao's perspective, she couldn't tell whether he was awake or what he was thinking.In fact, Shi Xiaozhao himself knew that even in the village, he was just a dispensable person. If he disappeared, the villagers would only be happy and no one would ask anything.

This has been the case since my parents left the village one after another, and nothing has changed.During those years of living in the village, only during the time when she was with Sui Tan, Shi Xiaozha was truly alive.

Does he have a choice?In order to go to Shanghai, does he have any choice?

The second time was just as painful as the first, if not more painful than the first.Master Jiao no longer blocked Shi Xiaozha's mouth. When the pain was extreme, Shi Xiaozha could only bury his face in the pillow and whine in a low voice. He didn't know what he was crying or screaming until Jiao Jiao came from behind him. The master asked a panting and meaningful question.

"'Small talk'? Is that your concubine?"

Shi Xiaozhao didn't know what "姘头" meant. In fact, his consciousness was a little fuzzy, so he just cried softly: "Small talk... I hurt..."

The voice behind was a bit malicious, and smirked: "It doesn't hurt, Xiao Tan hurts you..."

Master Jiao seems to like this kind of game, or he especially enjoys the pleasure of using Sui Tan's identity to bully Master Xiaozha.Every time after that, he would force Shi Xiaozha to call "Xiao Tan", and he would call himself "Xiao Tan".Over time, as long as the word "small talk" resounds in this claustrophobic room, it is the beginning of insult to Shi Xiaozha.

Shi Xiaozha never thought that this name, which he regarded as a treasure, would one day become a sharp knife to torture him.

It's been like this for several months.Every time Shi Xiaozha would ask Master Jiao when he would go to Shanghai, and the answer every time was "wait a minute".Shi Xiaozhao also resisted. He once fell out of the balcony at night, twisted his foot, limped, and didn't know where to run. The next day, Master Jiao pulled him back by his hair. the cabin.

After that, Shi Xiaozha even tied a chain to her body.

He was hopeless.Shanghai... As soon as he took the first step, he was chained here forever.Shi Xiaozhao curled up and buried herself in her arms, trembling and weeping silently.He has never had anyone to rely on, and no other embrace can hold his thin body.

I can't remember which day it was, Master Jiao came here like countless times in the past, and stripped off Shi Xiaozha's clothes—he didn't let Shi Xiaozha wear clothes at all in summer, and even if he did, he could only wear some clothes he brought. Come here, the dresses worn by women, this seems to be another interest of Master Jiao.

On this day, Shi Xiaozhao was also wearing a non-covering skirt brought by Master Jiao, and she had nothing but this skirt.He lay on the bed staring blankly at the stain on the ceiling, and the pain accompanied by the rough gasp was already familiar to him.

What was unfamiliar to him was the clamor of breaking and entering.The things in his body were pulled out suddenly, he turned his head and looked towards the door, a group of men and women squeezed in through the small door, Master Jiao hurriedly put on his pants, but was beaten by the leading woman with something On the body.After the woman swung at Master Jiao for a while, her eyes immediately turned to Shi Xiaozha on the bed. The face that was already crowded so hard to see her face suddenly became more ferocious, and then she slapped Shi Xiaozha all over the face. down.

Shi Xiaozha is already very familiar with the pain.He barely hides, and doesn't know how to hide—he's still chained.

In the dizzy pain, he vaguely heard the words "man!" A stinking car, then transported back to the village.

It was thrown at the entrance of the village like a broken rag.He didn't even know it was days away.

What happened to Shi Xiaozhao during this period was immediately spread in the village. On his limping and difficult way back to the old house, he experienced the baptism of countless contemptuous eyes, and endured countless overt and secret abuse and ridicule. .He thought that after returning to the old house and closing the door, the house he had lived in for 20 years could become his temporary safe haven.

But when he returned to the old house, what he saw was the village head leading a group of people pointing the country at his home.

They are going to separate!

Shi Xiaozhao didn't know where the strength came from, she didn't even care about the pain, and suddenly rushed up to push those people away, and rushed into the old house.

"What are you doing!" he yelled in a hoarse voice, "I'm not dead yet! There's nothing in the house! What are you thinking about!"

There is indeed nothing in the house.It turned out that there was a bean field in the backyard, and a few chickens and ducks were raised in the pen, but when she buried her grandma, Shi Xiaozha had already sold the chickens, ducks and beans, and he had nothing left.

The village chief put his hands behind his back and looked at him with disgust: "If you are not dead, you are not dead, but the rules of the village, if there is no man in the family, it will be considered extinct, and the family must be separated-look at you, it's okay." a man?"

Shi Xiaozha lowered her head and looked at herself.He was still wearing the non-covering skirt that Master Jiao brought him that day, nothing else was left, the skirt was beaten and scratched a few times, exposing his scarred skin.He touched his face and hair—the half-length hair was hanging loose, and he was dressed shamelessly, just like what he heard the villagers say about him on the way back—shameless.

Seeing him in a daze, the person next to him began to sneer and mock: "It's a pity, I'm not a man, and I can't be considered a woman. If it was a woman, I would let the little boss sleep in the village at that time." If you have a stomachache, can't you follow to Shanghai in a legitimate way?"

The men laughed maliciously and obscenely, and someone answered, "I think the little boss likes women. There are not many decent ones in our village, so I let this kid make do with it. When I go back to Shanghai, what are you doing?" Is there such a beauty? If you don't get pregnant by him, you will have no hope at all."

"... get pregnant... woman..." Shi Xiaozha murmured.

"That's right." The men echoed, "You look like a woman now, and this little skirt is... better than the sluts in the town. If you put on some lipstick, eyebrows and powder... ... Tsk tsk, maybe I can really conceive."

The men laughed wantonly.The village chief scolded: "Don't talk about serious things, just talk about dirty things—what did he do with those hawthorn trees in his house? Who wants it?"

"In these days, who still grows hawthorns? Don't worry about being tired, and you can't sell them for a lot of money." Someone said disgustedly. "Frankly, just treat it as a good deed, and leave those trees to this little girl. Doesn't he just love to have sex with that little boss under those trees?" The man wretchedly pushed his hips , with a malicious smile on his face, "Let's give him the hawthorn tree and see if he can use the tree to give birth to the little boss."

"Is it still a human? It's a hawthorn!"

"Then he is Shanzha's mother, haha, Shanzha has to call him mother!"

Shi Xiaozhao didn't hear a single word of these words, in fact he couldn't hear anything, all kinds of messy things kept running wildly in his mind, but there was only one voice that was so clear that it was terrifying.

Sui Tan couldn't pick him up, it must be because he wasn't a woman.

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It took a long time to shoot Shi Xiaozha’s adult scene, and it took nearly a week longer than expected to finish the filming. The main reason is that Rong Yi, as the director, is difficult to complete the director and performance together in many scenes, so one must shoot first. , Discuss the details with the photography team by watching the shooting effect, and then the shooting can be officially started.

The scene where Master Jiao was caught raped in the bed was shot by Rong Yi with a whole long shot, which was extremely difficult to shoot. It took nearly a hundred times for just such a long shot before Rong Yi was satisfied, and he still used a handheld shooting method.When the work was over, the photographer lost half of his body, and Rong Yi was beaten so badly that his whole body hurt. Even though the wrists were bound for protection, when they were untied, they were still bleeding.

Qu Haiyao's heart ached terribly.In fact, the drama during this period has nothing to do with him, what Rongyi means is to let him go out for a few days off, whether it's going to work or play, it's up to him, anyway, don't stay in the crew.Rong Yi's thoughts are actually quite right. Rong Yi still has lingering fears about Qu Haiyao's involvement in the drama a while ago. He worries that if Qu Haiyao watched the drama during this period, he would feel even more uncomfortable and unable to recover. .

In fact, Qu Haiyao was really uncomfortable.It's not the first time he watched Rong Yi's passionate scene, but there are not many scenes where this kind of man is raped. Now Rong Yi is participating in the performance. Qu Haiyao feels that this is a huge blow to his body and mind. .

Now Rong Yi no longer needs to wear a motion capture device. He uses makeup to make his image closer to Shi Xiaozha when he was 20 years old.During this period of time, the two jobs of directing and starring have indeed caused him a certain amount of torture. Rong Yi's weight has dropped by nearly [-] pounds compared to when he joined the group, and he suddenly appeared in a thin state. When the actor confronts, the feeling of being thin and trying to resist but still being suppressed is very accurately captured.

My boyfriend was pushed down on the bed by another man, stripped naked... Qu Haiyao's eyes turned red the moment Rong Yi's pale and thin body was exposed, and his face remained very pale during the whole filming process afterwards. ugly.Guan Xiaojun and Xiaonian watched tremblingly, fearing that Qu Haiyao's brain would short-circuit, so they went straight up and beat Master Jiao's actor violently.

Of course Qu Haiyao would not rush over and beat him up. In fact, he was very quiet on the set every day during this period, and he didn't bother too much after work was over.But even so, after the filming of this scene, Qu Haiyao still held his composure for a long time.

"I really don't want you to be an actor..." Qu Haiyao complained as he buried his face in his warm belly.In fact, he regretted it as soon as he said it. He is the one who knows how much Rong Yi is used to him. If Rong Yi really gave up acting because of his careless and quick words, then he would be a sinner forever. ?

Qu Haiyao suddenly raised his head and looked at Rong Yi, but Rong Yi's expression was very playful, at least he couldn't see any intention of taking Qu Haiyao's words seriously.

"You're also jealous?" Rong Yi patted Qu Haiyao's face and said in disbelief, "It looks like we're about to shoot our scenes. Compared with our scenes, these are just drizzle, and you're not unreasonable." Know."

"I know, I know, but..." Qu Haiyao puffed up his face, and he knew that he was a bit childish.But he has been holding back for several days because of this scene, and if he doesn't take the opportunity to flirt with Rong Yi, he feels that the eyes he looks at Master Jiao are going to fly out of knives.

Needless to say, Rong Yi also understood what he was thinking.It's really strange to say some things, Rong Yi obviously doesn't like childish people, but Qu Haiyao plays tricks in front of him, he just thinks it's cute.With a smile, Rong Yi held Qu Haiyao's face and kissed him: "You are so reluctant, then...we will shoot our scene like a thunderbolt, and anyone who sees it will be furious, OK?"

Qu Haiyao raised his head to look at him, and nodded after a long while: "Okay... But I want you to only make me angry, and only make me angry... Oh, don't worry about me! It’s just that I’m not feeling well, I’m missing your comfort! I’m missing your love! You have to love me, an empty nester!”

Rong Yi almost collapsed on the bed laughing.He propped himself up on his knees, then threw Qu Haiyao onto the bed at once, and rolled with him in his arms.

"There will be such a day, don't worry!"

Half of Qu Haiyao's head was covered under the quilt, and he asked vaguely, "What?"

"It's nothing! I'm here to care for you and comfort you now! Empty nester!"