I really want to be a good person!

Qi Yaohui let out an uncontrollable roar from his chest, like a tiger whose territory had been violated, rushed forward and threw Nian Zhifei down on the beach.

——Is it Qu Jiang?

However, Qi Yaohui instinctively swallowed the words that were on his lips when he faced the eyes that were as quiet as the deep sea in the previous year.

"Nian Zhifei, I knew you were waiting for me here!" He said while holding Nian Zhifei's shoulder, gnashing his teeth.

Along with Qi Yaohui's anger, his Alpha pheromone exploded, which was rich and bitter.It's like a crazy glass of espresso, it's hard for ordinary people to drink it, but those who are addicted to it can't refuse it at all.

Nian Zhifei closed his eyes tremblingly, feeling his body temperature rising steadily, but he didn't want to struggle, he just said softly: "You shouldn't be here, you should be in a closed room..."

Qi Yaohui was suffocated for a moment, and after a while, he let go of Nian Zhifei and turned his back.Until his breathing became stable and the out-of-control pheromones were completely restrained, he finally complained in a low voice full of resentment: "Nian Zhifei, you really know how to poke my sore spot."

To mark and possess, these are the bestial instincts that every Alpha will have.Qi Yaohui couldn't deny at all that he had thought about marking and possessing Nian Zhifei countless times, especially when Nian Zhifei was arguing with him.However, apart from animal nature, Qi Yaohui also has human nature.Qi Yaohui's humanity tells him that if he really loves Nian Zhifei deeply, then he should respect Nian Zhifei, protect Nian Zhifei, and never force Nian Zhifei.

Nian Zhifei also sat up and looked at Qi Yaohui's back with nostalgia. "Because I know you...just like you know me."

Qi Yaohui was suffocated again, and after a moment of silence, he turned his head and said, "You're just angry with me, aren't you?"

"You know my temper. I will never break up with you easily because of anger, because of an old man's kneeling begging, or because of a third party's death threat."

Nian Zhifei has never been a person who can be threatened by emotions, Yun Xiangguang's hypocritical friendship has never shaken him, and Aunt Yun's wronged mother's love is even less likely to move him.When he said the word "breakup" to his colleagues in the team, Nian Zhifei admitted that he was indeed angry and deliberately caused trouble for Qi Yaohui.However, breaking up was indeed a decision he made after careful consideration.Even though, he will suffer and regret his whole life because of this decision.

"...Yaohui, I love you very much, I never thought of giving up on you..." Nian Zhifei tried his best to keep calm, but when he said this, he still couldn't help crying . "I just, can't hold on anymore..."

Qi Yaohui really couldn't see Nian Zhifei crying, and instantly threw all principles, doubts, and anger out of the blue, and just hugged Nian Zhifei tightly and said: "I was wrong! It's all my fault, Is it okay? I shouldn't check you, I shouldn't ask you, I shouldn't suspect you, I shouldn't agree to your transfer. It's all my fault, isn't it okay?"

Nian Zhifei also put his arms around Qi Yaohui's neck, buried his head into Qi Yaohui's neck, suppressed the cry with all his strength, and said word by word: "You love me, I know. But you will never be the same as before. Believe me, I know it too."

Qi Yaohui was shocked all over, he opened his mouth forcefully to deny it, but he couldn't say a word no matter what.

Nian Zhifei didn't want to listen to Qi Yaohui's words against his will, so he covered Qi Yaohui's mouth with his hand.

"No matter how I deny it, there are some doubts that I really can't explain. Even if the result of handwriting identification proves that I am indeed Nian Zhifei, you can't stop doubting me. Even if you tell me now that you are willing to believe me, even if you tell me We have written off everything before, so what? Qi Yaohui, I can't be Nian Zhifei and the Nian Zhifei in your mind at the same time, do you understand?"

Before the age of 17, the biggest problem Nian Zhifei encountered was survival; after the age of 17, his biggest problem was fear.First of all, he was afraid that someone would recognize him as not being Long Xinghe, and he was afraid that he was not like Long Xinghe enough; then he was afraid that someone would recognize him as not being Nian Zhifei, and he was afraid that he was not like Nian Zhifei enough.If it is added in the future, Qi Yaohui is afraid that he does not look like Nian Zhifei, and Qi Yaohui thinks that he is more like Long Xinghe than Nian Zhifei...

Nian Zhifei couldn't imagine such a life at all, he was really too tired.He is also human, and he wants to live like himself occasionally, not just like other people forever.

"...I understand." Qi Yaohui's face sank, and he said coldly. "You would rather break up with me than be honest with me. Nian Zhifei, is my request really that much to you?"

Nian Zhifei sneered, and asked back: "How do you want me to be honest? Let me tell you, I am not Long Xinghe, I have nothing to do with Long Xinghe, you don't believe me. Well, I tell you, I am Long Xinghe, do you believe it?" ? Will you still be with me? Will you still be with Long Xinghe?"

Qi Yaohui would not.

Qi Yaohui also knew, Nian Zhifei knew he couldn't.

On the day when Nian Zhifei was asked to check his handwriting, Nian Zhifei asked him, "If you were wrong, would you still apologize to me?" At that time, Qi Yaohui did not answer.Later, he also repeatedly asked himself:

If I'm not wrong, if the result of the handwriting identification is that Nian Zhifei's handwriting is different from his handwriting in college, but matches Long Xinghe's handwriting.If I prove that Nian Zhifei is Long Xinghe, can I still accept this person?

Qi Yaohui knew he couldn't.He doesn't have such a broad mind to accept Long Xinghe's shameless private life, accept Long Xinghe's disgusting and depraved hobbies, accept Long Xinghe, the leader of a society organization, a master of money laundering, and a true murderer!

Even, if Nian Zhifei is Long Xinghe, then Qi Yaohui is not even sure whether his feelings for him are sincere or just a playful gimmick.After all, Long Xinghe had such a wonderful love story and so many guests, while Qi Yaohui was just his first love, still a baby.

"So, since you have to break up no matter what, then tell me the truth!" Qi Yaohui suddenly clasped Nian Zhifei's shoulders, and said hoarsely. "Even if you want to divide it, you must divide it clearly!"

He clasped the ground so tightly and so hard that he almost crushed Nian Zhifei's shoulder blades on both sides.The anger gushing out from the bottom of his eyes wanted to completely swallow Nian Zhifei, and burn them both to death.

"I'm not Long Xinghe, and I don't know Long Xinghe either." But Nian Zhifei calmly acted as if it wasn't his body at all.

Nian Zhifei was telling lies, but he was also telling the truth.He knows that he is shameless, but before being an honest person, he wants to be a person first.

He knew how much Qi Yaohui looked down on Long Xinghe, and he also knew how painful it was to not have an "identity".He lost the identity of "Victory" in order to survive, and abandoned the identity of "Long Xinghe" in order to get rid of fear. If he still wants to give up the identity of "Nian Zhifei" in order to be honest, then who is he?

"Cloud to Light"?

But hasn't the identity of "Yun Xiangguang" been replaced long ago?

As for love, people who have to do their best to live like individuals are not qualified to demand love.Just like a hungry beggar, he is not qualified to be picky about the food he begs for.After all, he was too greedy, so God decisively sent down punishment.

Qi Yaohui hugged Nian Zhifei tightly and excitedly. This kind of lost and regained happiness made him wish he could melt Nian Zhifei into his own flesh and blood.

However, Nian Zhifei remained indifferent.The pain just now couldn't touch him, and the joy now can't touch him either.He knows better than anyone else that Qi Yaohui believes in him, but he wants to believe him subconsciously, and he is not ready to lose him yet.so--

"You believe me at this moment, what about the next moment?"

"Without the next moment, I will never doubt you again!" Qi Yaohui said decisively.

"But I can't believe you." Nian Zhifei replied calmly. He was full of sorrow, but he couldn't shed a single tear.He could only keep his eyes wide open in vain, looking at the dark and undulating sea in front of him.

Qi Yaohui froze all over, as if a basin of ice water had been poured over his head. "You can never forgive me?"

"I forgive you, I even...understand you." Nian Zhifei couldn't help raising his hand to caress Qi Yaohui's brows and eyes to calm his anxiety. "Yaohui, I'm also a policeman. I'm well aware of the police's occupational diseases, and I know even more how important the 'Feiyue Group' case is to you. You can suspect me, and you can investigate me, but it's not right at this time."

"When?" Qi Yaohui asked with a trembling voice.He seems to have vaguely realized what he did wrong, but he is not sure that this mistake is really so serious and irreparable.

"We just spent Christmas together and you climbed eight flights of stairs to bring me dinner... Nobody knows me like you do. I love you so I keep you so close, so close... You say we know each other There will be no misunderstanding... All this is like a dream. Then you changed your face, produced evidence, and interrogated me like a criminal... I know, I know there is a deadline for everything, I understand. But why? Why, why is it when I feel the happiest and the happiest?...Qi Yaohui, tell me, what is real? What is fake? I think I am so stupid, I can’t tell, I really can't tell..."

Nian Zhifei never expected love, even at that time he was already tempted by Qi Yaohui.He knew that he was very remorseful, he didn't need Qi Yaohui to complain, he knew it too.Therefore, he is already satisfied with the status of "Nian Zhifei", and he only needs to live peacefully with this status.If Qi Yaohui didn't take the initiative to confess his love, he would never let Qi Yaohui know, and he would never let anyone know that he also loved Qi Yaohui.

Nian Zhifei would not trust anyone.He believed in his close companion in childhood, but his companion turned their hatred on him after being eliminated; he believed in Qu Jiang who appeared in the image of his father, but Qu Jiang ruined his whole life; he also... It cannot be said to be complete trust, but it can only be said that he revealed his true identity to Chen Hai, the most intelligent elder in Xinyi Hall, with a cooperative attitude. As a result, after Chen Hai lost to Qu Jiang, he did not hesitate to accuse him of the crime. Pushed it all over his head.

It was Qi Yaohui who taught him that when dating, you need to trust and understand each other.It was because he was Qi Yaohui that Nian Zhifei put down his guard.But in the end, what Qi Yaohui did to him was different from others?

...Maybe, there are also differences.Others have intentions, but Qi Yaohui has no intention.But so what?Just like Nian Zhifei looked at Qi Yaohui now, but what he saw in his eyes was not only Qi Yaohui, but also Qujiang floating on the dark sea.Nian Zhifei knew it was an illusion, but this illusion...was too real.

Qi Yaohui has never seen Nian Zhifei's expression like this, loss, disappointment, and finally despair.Then he got used to despair, became numb and weary, never had the slightest hope anymore.

For the first time in his life, Qi Yaohui panicked completely.This is different from when he saw Nian Zhifei cry. At that time, he was just anxious, anxious to settle the matter, anxious to tell Nian Zhifei not to cry.This is different from when he found out that the Yun Xiangguang he found was not the real Yun Xiangguang, so he was full of remorse, but he also knew that he was not entirely responsible for his brother's abduction.

But this time, Qi Yaohui clearly realized that all the responsibility lies with him, and he cannot make up for it.

"Nian Zai, can you really not forgive me?" He gently held Nian Zhifei's hand and begged in a low voice, "I love you very much, Nian Zai..."

"I've already forgiven you, and I... still love you deeply." Nian Zhifei no longer wasted energy trying to confront his illusions, he just wanted to look at Qi Yaohui, look at him, remember him, forever Don't forget him.His eyes are so affectionate, yet so sad. "In the future, I probably won't fall in love with anyone else again. But I really don't dare to expect anything from you anymore..."

Nian Zhifei originally thought that as long as he could be with Qi Yaohui, he would not be afraid of anything.He is not afraid of danger, not afraid of difficult conditions, let alone going through life and death.Even if one day Qi Yaohui finds out that he has cheated him, he will pay him his life.What is there to be ashamed of?

But he was still too naive after all.After all, he is not the real Nian Zhifei, not the kind of person Qi Yaohui would really fall in love with, full of brilliance, perfect, always on the same front with him, always equal to him.

On the contrary, he is too incomplete, too obvious and ugly, so since Qi Yaohui has already suspected his first time, there will inevitably be a second and third time... One day, Qi Yaohui will hate him, disgust him, and Can't stand him anymore, and he'll go from wary to jittery to downright crazy.He is not afraid of death, but he must be afraid that life is worse than death.

Or, be bolder and tell Qi Yaohui frankly that he is not only the Long Xinghe he knew, but also that he has been looking for his younger brother?Without evidence, would Qi Yaohui believe him?Without evidence, how dare he, as Long Xinghe, touch the perfect "Yun Xiangguang" in Qi Yaohui's heart?If he dared to do this, Qi Yaohui was afraid that Qi Yaohui didn't want to kill him, so he had to kill him in the end.

After all, there is no way out.

Qi Yaohui couldn't understand this, he only knew that Nian Zhifei who kept saying "love him very much" insisted on breaking up with him just because he made such a mistake!He let out an almost ferocious roar in an instant, pinched Nian Zhifei by the neck and knocked him down hard.

"Why are you so cruel? You won't even give me a chance?"

"...You kill me..." Nian Zhifei hugged Qi Yaohui's neck with sobs, "Why don't you just kill me..."

Qi Yaohui's heart ached like twisting, the blood in his eyes faded instantly, and his five fingers like iron hoops gradually loosened.He stretched out his hands and hugged Nian Zhifei tightly, so hard and so tight.But he also knew that they would never be so close as if they could blend into each other's flesh and blood, and they would never hug again.

Qi Yaohui tightly closed his eyes, and silently shed tears.

After an unknown period of time, a little light gradually appeared on the surface of the sea.The long night is long, but it will eventually pass.

Nian Zhifei pushed Qi Yaohui away, got up and walked back.

"Nian Zai..." Qi Yaohui also sat up on his knees, firmly grabbed Nian Zhifei's hand, and finally begged.

However, Nian Zhifei never looked back. "Happy New Year, Qi Yaohui."

He gently broke free from Qi Yaohui, held back his tears and walked forward step by step with the sun behind his back, and finally returned to the darkness.