[The Chronicles of Narnia] Sin

I never imagined that there would be a day when I would see Aslan with my own eyes.This kind and powerful lion king has always survived in the stories widely circulated in the forest; but when I really stood in front of him, I felt that everything around me was even more unreal than the rumors in the songs.He is as unpredictable as a profound prophecy, and the first sentence he said when he saw me was a simple and humble "thank you".

I was only fifteen when the Pevensies came to Narnia.The growth pattern of werewolves is far different from that of humans. At that time, I looked like an eight or nine-year-old human boy.I have been huddled in the deep forest with my own group all year round, fearing the arrival of the White Witch, fearing that if I am not careful, I will be turned into a cold and hard stone.When I knew the prophecy of the Lion King and the four humans had set foot in Narnia, a warm current surged in my heart inexplicably when I was young.I always felt that I knew them very well, and that I would meet them one day and devote my allegiance to them.

Later, I really entered the capital of Narnia and became a soldier in the army headquarters of Cair Paravel; and later, I was chosen by the king named Edmund Pevensie, and I entered Narnia in the most mysterious way , and the most outstanding organization, became the executive "Blood Moon", and also met comrades and partners such as "Compass", "Autumn Water", and "Silver Spear".

The period when I entered the intelligence agency happened to be a year full of disasters and disasters in Narnia, and many unheard-of events happened one after another. It was my first time to set foot in a foreign country to steal information, and it was also the first time I set foot on a long-distance ship.

I don't remember when I noticed Compass, a very belligerent girl who wouldn't give up.Just because I easily defeated her in the hand-to-hand wheel battle of the entrance examination, she seems to have remembered me for more than half a month after entering the Intelligence Bureau.

It’s really not that I look down on girls or anything like that. Without weapons, due to limited physical structure, no matter how skillful and experienced a woman is, it’s impossible for a woman to defeat a top male fighter.Unarmed combat would greatly magnify their disadvantages, but she has done very well in the test and has not lost to anyone except me.

She was always the one who trained the hardest, wielding dagger and sword every day by starlight.I thought I was one of the hardworking ones, but I rarely left the training ground after her.One night, she ran up to me with sweat on her head: "Would you like to compete with me again?"

I admired her, and I deliberately put water in the competition, and finally saw her smiling face with the corners of her mouth raised.

Her mind is not as sensitive and tactful as girls of the same age, her thinking is straightforward, and her speech is concise and straightforward; she will take us to play various chess and cards in her spare time, and then win us three-legged cats to jump; Show off your singing voice and be graceful.

Thinking back now, my love for her was very simple at that time, and it was only superficial.It's more like liking a friend, wanting to practice martial arts with her, to fight side by side, to watch the spring, rain, winter and snow, and to see the mountains and rivers together.

When she realized the subtleties between her and the Justice King, it was the battle to support Archenland.I didn't expect Edmund to help her himself, after all, there are so many jobs and responsibilities on the shoulders of a king.And when I returned from the front to the fishing village of Conil, the sight of the two of them talking side by side by the pier suddenly stinged.

I felt that was not the case between myself and Edith.There was less honesty and intimacy between us.

Her heart was always toward him—maybe she didn't realize it, and she didn't want to face it.

What made me decide to quit was the fact that Edmund had finalized the list for the May sailing.When I entered his office to deliver the documents, I happened to see him secretly crossing her name off the final list finalized by the Supreme King.His face was full of complex emotions, worry mixed with irritability, as if he was troubled by something; I guessed later that he was worried about Edith and was trying to avoid her.

At last she boarded the ship secretly, and from the moment she was discovered, her eyes were glued to Edmund's body.I knew this so well that I wasn't too surprised that she went into the sea alone to save the justice king.

During the days when they disappeared, I was worried and angry.I am worried that they will disappear into the sea, and I am worried that I will lose a monarch and the person I like at the same time; I am angry that I am not familiar with the ocean, and I cannot follow her footsteps and go to an unknown destiny with her.

They returned closer together, as if they had been through some propelling event.Now that I have completely lost, it is better to reveal everything and entrust her to the King of Justice.After all, he is not only a monarch and superior that I cannot overstep, but also a friend who treats me sincerely.

Judging from so many past events, no one would have expected that I would be the one who sent Edith home in the end.In the boundless snow, she asked me to dig out her eyes, her character remained strong.But I don't want to do it.It doesn’t matter if I’m selfish or I don’t know the overall situation, I just thought at the time, if everyone is destined to be turned into stone by Jandis, then let Edith always lie on my back like this, and not be snatched away by others , is also very good.

After Aslan appeared, he took over my task and ordered me to return to the main battlefield and continue to fight for Narnia.I don't know where he will take Edith, but I believe he will be able to save her.I thought that after defeating those undead forces, I would be able to see her intact again; but after the war, I waited with her friends for several months, and did not expect her return.

"She's not coming back," Edmund told me.

I wondered how he came to this conclusion. He told me that Edith was already hiding secrets before December, as if preparing for something important.

"You said you drove her all the way south, what happened after that?" He asked me about that memory of Aslan many times.I promised His Majesty the Lion King that I would keep my mouth shut, although I don't know why he asked me to do so.

"I don't remember all of it," I said.

I didn't have the heart to weave lies, and he also knew that I couldn't do anything to hurt Edith, so he didn't pursue it further.

For a long time afterwards, I didn't think about anything about the War of the Dead.I frantically taught Furuier how to practice swords, and Furuier accepted it happily.I know that she has the shadow of Edith in her body, she is also independent and smart, and even has similar sword skills.But she is too small, always looks like a younger sister to me.

In the winter of 1010 in the Narnia Era, Friel suddenly confessed to me.Unprepared for this, I stared at her in disbelief.Her big eyes are precocious and intelligent, and her appearance has also changed into a slim girl, which is completely different from Edith in this point.

"Did you teach me so hard all this time out of responsibility?" She read out my astonishment and bewilderment, her thin lips trembling slightly, arousing pity.

I don't know how to answer her.I'm partial to her, but I don't know if that's love.

"Do you still like Sister Luopan?" She was as clear as a mirror in her heart, and she was about to turn around and leave with downcast eyes.

I suddenly realized that going on like this is not the answer.If everyone is obsessed with memories, chasing after the "person I love" and ignoring "the person who loves me", how many couples are left who can finally get married?

"I gave up on her a long time ago." I held her and said to her, "When you grow up, we will be together."