[Comprehensive manga] Ruiguang

"Ah Chun, is that your boyfriend?"

Mother's expression was very serious, and she looked forward to my next answer with eyes full of eyes.I didn't look back at the boy's expression, because at this moment I suddenly wanted to give an affirmative answer very selfishly. If everything is true, my mother should be very happy.

"Well, yes." I lowered my eyes subconsciously, and finally gave an affirmative but untrue answer.

"Ah, really? That's great, I don't have to worry about Chun being alone in the future. Thank you for being able to stay with Chun."

Of course I am very happy to see my mother's smile, she is the only treasure I can protect now.No matter what I say, no matter what price I pay, as long as I can see her smile, I will be satisfied.

It's just that at this moment, my heart is beating very fast, and I'm afraid that the boy will expose my lies.I turned slightly to the side to take a sneak peek at his expression at the moment, but my peeping eyes were quickly caught by him.There was a touch of helplessness in his expression, but he didn't expose me, he still kept smiling.I hang my head guilty, because in his smile, there is already a sense of alienation from me.

After calming down, I realized that I had already told countless lies to my mother before, such as that I get along well with my friends, such as that I still work part-time in Yutian’s bookstore, and another example... I said that he is my boyfriend .The funniest thing is that now I don't even know his name.

Everyone will lie, and there are no more than three reasons for lying. One is purely for deception, and the other is to protect oneself. I probably belong to the third type. I make up layers of intertwined lies to protect others. Therefore, I Use this net to surround the mother inside.

Before my mother's curiosity broke out, I hurriedly dragged the boy out of the ward as if fleeing.I dragged him to the brightest light in the corridor, and bowed deeply to him.

"I'm so sorry! I told such a lie..."

I know how bad my behavior is, but I still pray for his forgiveness.During the few seconds of his silence, I suddenly became very scared, just like when I was afraid that I would sink into the darkness again and everyone treated me coldly.

"There is actually a reason for saying that...although I was really taken aback..."

It took him a long time to give such a reply, his tone was indifferent, not as cordial as before.

"I'm really sorry!" I bowed my body, still not daring to look up at him.

"Hey, actually, you don't want to be like this..."

He held my shoulders to signal me not to bow to him again, and I straightened up and raised my head until I met his golden brown eyes.

He raised his eyebrows slightly, and his eyes were so calm that I was a little scared, "Then, may I know the reason why you did this?"

I paused, lowered my eyes and said softly, "I just hope my mother is happy, she is not in good health."

This sentence is only half of the truth. I also concealed my selfishness. I originally hoped that I could get closer to him.Although I have been closing myself up all the time, I still yearn for sunshine.Being close to him is like being close to the sun.

It wasn't until I finished saying that affirmative sentence that I realized that I would only get further and further away from him by doing so.Now, I regret it a little bit.

"Really? If that's the case...then you are such a gentle person."

He smiled at me. I don't know if his evaluation is an understanding forgiveness or a positive irony.I could see that there seemed to be alienation and indifference in his seemingly sunny smile.

"I'm very sorry...but don't worry, I won't trouble you."

Maybe he didn't care at all, and I apologized to him again, and he told me not to take it to heart.Maybe it's because I'm too sensitive that I always care about his opinion.

At this point in my thoughts, I was slightly taken aback, why did I suddenly start caring about other people's opinions?The self who obviously wants to hide the past has already made up his mind not to have close friendships with others, so what does it matter what other people think?After all, I'm still a coward.

The blond boy didn't stay longer in the hospital, and I had no reason to keep him, so far I still haven't been able to know his name.

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After that, I didn't meet him again.Even though he is also a student of Haichang, I really don't even have the chance to see him, as if God is punishing me for lying about involving people who have nothing to do with me.

The sky has been gloomy since the afternoon, and I kept flipping through the part-time job briefings during class. Eriko, who was diagonally ahead, seemed to be drowsy because of the weather.I wasn't in a particularly good mood either. I didn't listen to a word of the teacher's class all afternoon.

Since the beginning of spring this year, it has been particularly rainy. Looking at the dark sky outside the window, I have a bad premonition in my heart.

After drawing the last mark on the briefing, I put away my schoolbag and rushed down the teaching building as fast as I could.And before I ran out of the school gate, the rain had already increased dramatically.This is probably why I have a bad feeling.

I hate rain, I might even say dread it.Because every time something unpleasant or painful happens, it is amidst the chaotic sound of torrential rain.Two years ago, the night of heavy rain was declared abandoned. When I saw the bodies of Aihara Masaoyuki and Mayu in the bungalow more than half a year ago, it was also raining heavily outside.

The rain came too fast, and when I hid under the nearest eaves, I still inevitably got wet.Even though it was early summer, with soaked clothes sticking to my skin, the occasional wind still made me feel chilly all over my body, and I couldn't help sneezing.

A section further ahead is the gymnasium. I thought maybe I could go indoors to avoid the rain. Is it a good decision to blow the cold wind outside.

Quietly opened the door of the gymnasium, different from the gloomy sky, a light from the crack of the door seemed to come from another world.Probably which club is using it here, I guess so.

I walked quietly into the gym and closed the door.Rubbing his arms and leaning against the door, this place is really much better than the outside.I sniffed, thinking that I would leave after the rain was a little lighter.

What replaced the sound of the rain was the friction between the shoes and the ground of the teenagers running in the gymnasium, and the continuous impact between the basketball and the ground.

Haichang's gymnasium is huge, and I stood in a far corner, quietly watching those running boys.His eyes swept over every serious face, and on their field, he saw him, a tall blond boy.

Every time I see him, I see him in a different state.The astonishment I felt when I borrowed the umbrella, the alienation and indifference when I lied, and at this moment, the seriousness in my golden brown eyes that I have never seen before.

His eyes were unconsciously locked on him, capturing his every movement.Looking at it now, I look more like an idiot, right?I laughed self-deprecatingly, but when I wanted to suppress my voice, I couldn't help but sneezed.

This was a strange existence for everyone in the gymnasium. Although the movement was not very big, everyone turned their heads to look at me in unison.

The passed basketball was not caught and fell to the ground. After bouncing several times, the ball landed on the ground and began to roll. Finally, the ball stopped at my feet.