[Comprehensive manga] Ruiguang

"Please take good care of her, as a boyfriend."

For this sentence, I really flustered for a while, my chest throbbed violently, and the roots of my ears couldn't stop burning.But soon, I calmed down again.If it had something to do with my mother, Kise did help me tell the lie.Pu Xia, he just didn't know the inside story.

Then, Kise's silence outside the door confirmed my thoughts.He didn't continue this lie, such as directly agreeing to Xia Puxia's words, he didn't do that.

I don't know what kind of expression Kise uses to face Urashita's persuasive question, is it helpless silence, or alienated speechlessness?Regardless of the reason, Kise doesn't need to pay for my lies, she needs to make an actual promise, and it's better not to accept it.After all, a boyfriend or something is simply fake.

Thinking of this, I feel a little lost in my heart. Have I really expected something like this?Obviously that is impossible to happen... I can't help but sigh, rather than looking forward to those unrealistic delusions, I still think about the present, for example, what should I do with the new job I just got and three days left of the morning paper .

The silent atmosphere outside the door didn't last long, Urashita said "I seem to control too much" and ended the conversation between him and Kise.

Hearing the two say goodbye to each other outside the door, I hurriedly turned around and walked back to the hospital bed, but the wound on my body completely restricted my mobility. When Kise opened the door, I hadn't been able to climb back to the hospital bed and pretend to be something It's like it never happened.

"Xiao Lanyuan, what's wrong with you?" Seeing that I was not on the hospital bed, Kise asked immediately.

"It's nothing." I just replied plainly, turning my back to Kise and not looking back into his eyes.In fact, I didn't dare to look at him, that kind of looking forward to and disappointed eyes would be ridiculous.Fantasy or something is too extravagant for me.

I tried to walk to the hospital bed, and even though I was moving slowly, the incision on my body was still painful, which made me look quite immobile.

Suddenly, my shoulders were embraced, and Kise's arm became my support point.I was a little dazed, not knowing how to react for a moment.

"Xiao Lanyuan actually heard the conversation between me and Police Officer Puxia."

Kise's still clear voice came from above, I raised my head to look at him slowly, his eyes didn't fall on my face, but looked at the front with some empty eyes... empty, but complicated eyes.

Kise's figure is so tall that it seems to be able to prop up a barrier in front of me, I just stick to his side, and his arm goes around my back.I knew that he wanted to help me steady when he saw how injured I was, but my body was stiff and I didn't dare to relax into his arms at all.I was overwhelmed by the proximity.

"Xiao Lanyuan, don't be nervous, I didn't mean to question you." Huang Lai took my rigidity as a matter of course because I overheard their conversation.

"……Feel sorry."

I expressed my apology, Kise paused for a few seconds, then suddenly laughed again, "Ah, Xiao Lanyuan really apologized to me besides thanking me, so I will feel that I am very unattractive!"

"Hug..." He just said the beginning, and the word "apology" choked in his throat.I immediately fell silent and looked up at Kise again.This time it happened to meet his gaze, the golden brown eyes were helpless but also soft.

"I just said it last time, and occasionally I have to learn to rely on others..." Huang Lai said this sentence very softly, with a magnetic voice with an airy tone, and the tone was more heartfelt than usual.

I didn't reply, and he was indeed right. Apart from thanking and apologizing, I really didn't know what else to say.I took a deep breath, relaxed my body, and leaned my weight into Kise's arms.

After I did that, Kise seemed to chuckle.

Are you laughing at my childishness?How did the adults say that's why you behaved like this?As if angry, he wanted to stand up again, but Kise hugged my shoulders tightly at this moment.His arms were warm, and even the cloth of his clothes couldn't block the temperature that belonged to him.I took a breath cautiously, entangled nostalgicly but timidly.

"When Xiao Lanyuan's injury is better, I will go with you to see Aunt Yuko again."

"Eh?"

"You heard it too, Police Officer Urakata's request."

"Ah?" Please... is it to promise my mother to take care of me?I should have understood correctly, right?

"Look, you definitely don't want Aunt Yuko to see you hurt, do you?"

I don't want my mother to be right, but...

"It's not necessary, Kise-kun didn't have to do that for me." It's all a lie... Besides, in front of Urakata, Kise also chose to remain silent, right?

"What if... if it's for me."

I couldn't understand what Kise said, but I felt that after he said this, his arm around me stiffened, as if he was nervous, and the palms on his shoulders were subconsciously tightening.

"Kise-kun...you're pressing on my wound..." I couldn't bear the pain and reminded me in a low voice.

"Ah, I'm sorry! I'm sorry Xiaolanyuan!" Kise let go, because he was too tall, he had to bend down to get closer to me, his eyes were full of worry, staring at the bandage on my body After a while, "I won't open your wound, will I!?"

"No...not that serious..."

Kise turned sideways to face me, his hands were on my arms, and when he turned his head to look at me, his noses almost touched each other.

The distance is so close that I can clearly feel Kise's breath spraying on his face.This too ambiguous posture made me blush, I wanted to back away a little, but Kise supported my arms so that there was no chance to back off.

"Kise-kun didn't respond to Officer Urashita's words, did he?"

Amidst the embarrassment, the topic I raised seemed a bit abrupt, and the sudden utterance in the silence also made my volume appear louder, and the sick hoarseness was also magnified several times.

Kise's eyes darkened, and his tone was low, "I didn't answer because I couldn't be sure whether you would refuse my approach like the way you rejected Police Officer Puxia... Besides, this is a promise to you, of course I have to be serious Some."

Huang SE said, he looked into my eyes, I could clearly see his golden brown eyes, and there was only my reflection in his eyes.My heart was beating faster and faster, but I couldn't avoid Kise's gaze.His face is very close to me, the corners of his beautiful eyes are turned up, and even the shadows cast by the eyelashes on the eyelids are so beautiful.

I lowered my eyes in a panic, but from the corner of my eyes, I could still catch a glimpse of the other person's delicate lips and beautiful outlines of the chin. Even this small part was enough to make me unable to calm down for a long time.

"Actually, I don't know what to say... But, I don't feel so confused until I see Xiao Lanyuan..." Huang Lai said suddenly, his clear tone was as pure as the calm air, " Only in front of Xiao Lanyuan, can I see my true self...Ah, is it strange to say that?"

I slowly raised my head, and soon I met Huang Lai's eyes, there was no hint of a joke in his eyes, and there was even a little uneasiness in his eyes.

...Why me?

"Kise-kun is good enough, you don't need to be confused." Only people like me will be confused, right?I will never know the direction I am walking, and I will never see the light... If this is the case, I can only feel the real sense of my existence when I am in front of Kise.

"No matter in what aspect, whether it is sports or anything, you just need to watch it once and you will know it. Everyone praises me in the same way. Sometimes I wonder if this kind of me is real... that is, when I meet a small When it was Lan Yuan, Xiao Lan Yuan, you didn't know me!"

"..." Was it because I, as a girl, was shocked that I didn't know him?Is this a disguised boast?

Just when I was a little speechless, what Kise said next was so touching that I listened very carefully and focused all my attention on him.

"After that day, I suddenly thought, if one day, I lose everything, no one will know me, and I will no longer be able to learn anything by watching it once... I should, there is no way to be like Xiao Lanyuan, even if only A person can also stand up without holding another person's hand."

The more beautiful and abundant the experience, the more painful it will be at the moment of loss.For me, who knows this well, I have already tasted such a miserable past.From a magnificent villa to an old house without a house number, from a top student of the Ice Emperor to a "murderer" that everyone despises...

"Everyone is lonely, because there is only one person alone, how can he not be lonely... Little Lanyuan, you have to accept new people and things occasionally..."

The words that touched the bottom of my heart repeated in my mind over and over again.I dare not accept it with an open mind. I am timid and afraid. After I moved to Kanagawa, I just thought that as long as I live a good life with my mother, no matter how plain and humble, even if my world has no color and sunshine, it doesn’t matter. .

A person's world is monotonous after all, and it will be complete only when other people enter their own world and paint a series of colors on this territory...

My world is gray, and in this world, when I'm alone, I'm really... very lonely...

When I got home and opened the door, I was greeted by the cold air with the smell of ancient buildings. After my mother was admitted to the hospital for so long, I have never felt that when I stood in the porch and took off my shoes, there would be a sound coming from inside the house. "Welcome home" words.I was alone when I was eating, I was in a daze for a while, the food was cold, and no one cared to say "take it to warm up"... I long for these little tenderness, I have always longed for it...

My eye sockets started to heat up, and my nasal cavity was also sour. I spoke as if accusing, and my voice had unknowingly tinged with tears, "Kise Kise is so cunning...you said so many strange things..."

Kise just smiled at me, his smile was warmer than anything else.

Looking at him like this, I wanted to cry so badly, my lips couldn't help trembling, and my eyes had already begun to blur, I knew that my tears were about to be lost, and I hurriedly lowered my head.But at this moment, Kise raised a hand to support the side of my face, forcing me to keep looking at him.Tears welled up from the eyes, slid down the cheeks, and then flowed into the gap between the hand and the face.

"It's good to cry..."

I was stunned.

"When you are sad, you should shed tears. This is the most original emotion. If you pretend to smile to cover up your sadness, you will collapse."

Kise's tone was extremely soft, but I cried more and more fiercely, biting my lips and choking, and trembling all over, "You're really cunning... Kise-kun is so cunning..."

"So, Xiao Lanyuan, don't forget that we are friends, and a friend is someone who will reach out to you when you are alone." Huang Seto said, standing up straight.He stretched out his hand towards me, his slender and wide palms were clearly knit, with thin calluses on the palm, "Don't be alone anymore."