I am BOSS! ～fine～[Tutor KHR]

Lost a lot of things.

Whether it is in the past that has already passed, or in the future that is about to happen.

People, as long as they live in this world, they will lose the things in their hands constantly.Precious, not precious, cherished, not sincere, beloved, not beloved.All things pass through time indiscriminately.In the end, even the people who once owned these things disappeared somewhere in this world without leaving a trace.

(I understand.)

Nothing can stay with you forever.

No one can stay by your side forever.

(I understand.)

This is the law of this world.

This is the truth of this world.

(So ​​I……)

Even if you are reluctant to let go, even if you are so sad and painful that you almost collapse, even if you don't want to let go of anything in your hands, you still watch those people who can't be kept, and those things become "the past" and pass away in front of your eyes .

(Mother.)

The memory of my mother has long been blurred.Even the pain of losing my mother in the first place has faded from memory.

(Father.)

The remorse, anger, sorrow, and indescribable self-blame of losing a father have been weathered by time.Sometimes I even fear that one day I will forget the fact that I killed my father.

(Everyone.)

With the growth of age and the growth of the family, more and more people leave themselves.And I seem to be more and more used to watching the passing of people around me.

Occasionally, Dino wondered if he had become cold-blooded and heartless.However--

It was like a scabbed wound being torn open and dug again.At this moment, the pain that he thought he had forgotten once again wandered vividly in Dino's body.

Suddenly, Dino suddenly understood: It turned out that he had never forgotten those pains all along. It was only because the pains were too intense that he hypnotized himself to say that he had forgotten those unforgettable pains, the grief and anger that melted into his bones and blood, and those deep-rooted pains. The remorse of the marrow.

(...Suzuna...)

Looking at Suzuna in front of him, Dino kept thinking: How many times do I have to lose, how many times do I have to suffer, how many times do I have to cry, how many times do I have to regret? How many times do I have to pray, how many times do I have to hypnotize myself, how many times do I have to endure this fear of losing and always tormenting myself in an uneasy mood?

After all, how many times will I be left behind by the people I value?

"I understand."

To let go of this hand means to be left behind.If what awaits you when you let go of this hand is painful pain, unwilling regret, hopeless prayer and endless self-hypnosis, then...

"Suzuna,"

Dino leaned over and hugged Suzuna who was choking silently.

Suzuna was startled, and immediately opened her green eyes.She wasn't used to being treated so intimately, but because Dino was the one who treated her so intimately, she didn't struggle or resist.Dino's gentle smile was reflected in the blue eyes that were wet with tears, and Suzuna's resistance to having skin-to-skin relationship with Dino disappeared instantly in Dino's steady and gentle smile.

"Do not worry about it."

Closing his eyes and smiling, Dino comforted Suzuna softly: "If Suzuna wants to go back, she can definitely go back."

"..."

Hearing such gentle reassurance, Suzuna, who had been very disturbed for the past half month, had a sore nose, and tears gushed out of her eyes again.

With a soft "hmm", Suzuna stretched out her arms as if grabbing a life-saving straw, and hugged Dino's arms that were already stronger than her own.

"Yes... If Suzuna wants to go back, she can definitely go back..."

Suzuna, who was hugged by Dino and hugged Dino back, didn't know that the smile on Dino's face was as stiff and indifferent as a mask, repeating soothing and gentle words in her ear.Filled with those amber pupils that were originally full of tenderness, only a piece of indifferent calm remained.

——Hojo Suzuna never woke up again.

Or should I put it this way, Hojo Suzuna no longer even knows what "being awake" is.

"Suzuna, the weather is fine today. Get up, I'll take you to bask in the sun~"

The heavy floor-to-ceiling curtains were pulled open, and the dazzling sunlight penetrated through the floor-to-ceiling windows into the bedroom deep in Gabrielone's mansion.The clear sky was as clear as blue, and in the bright light, the blond boy smiled at the girl lying on the big bed behind him.

"..."

The girl lying on the bed didn't answer, and she couldn't answer either.She couldn't understand what the boy was saying, and she didn't know who the boy was, and she didn't even understand how to show his expression.

She, Suzuna Hojo just lay quietly, watching Dino Gabrione who was supposed to be saying something to herself.

"Really~~ Are you in a daze again?"

Putting on a smiling face that Suzuna could not do anything about, Dino came to the bedside.Lifting the gorgeous curtain on the luxurious big bed, Dino helped up Suzuna who was lying on the bed expressionlessly.

That day, Dino patiently comforted Suzuna until she was tired from crying and fell asleep again.After confirming that Suzuna was asleep, Dino found the black market doctor whom he had disdained and disliked very much.When Suzuna woke up with a headache, what she saw was the picture of the black market doctor holding a syringe and pushing liquid medicine into the vein on the back of her hand.

"Dino-kun...?!"

"This is the medicine for Suzuna's headache."

Dino sat beside Suzuna's bed, hugged Suzuna to reassure her, and he said words that could calm Suzuna down in a gentle tone as always.

"do not be afraid."

"Nothing to be afraid of."

"After the headache is cured, Suzuna will be much more relaxed, right?"

Dino's body temperature made Suzuna relax, and soon Suzuna thought in a trance that what Dino said was right—she really became more relaxed.The head that ached like it was about to split wasn't so painful anymore.Drugs pushed into one's own veins are not so scary anymore.

Perhaps it was the illusion caused by the relief of the headache, Suzuna always felt that her body was light and light, as if she was lying on the clouds.Enjoying this buoyant feeling, Suzuna didn't even know when her hand was pierced into a blood vessel by the needle of the infusion set.

The drip invaded Suzuna's body along the transparent infusion tube, and the medicine was transported to the various centers of the human body along with Suzuna's blood.Suzuna really wanted to ask Dino what kind of medicine he had someone inject himself, why he could heal his pain so quickly, and why Dino didn't use such a magical medicine for himself earlier.But as soon as Suzuna moved her lips, she found that her tongue was so lazy that she couldn't even utter a single syllable.

(…?)

Suzuna was at a loss.Confused, she wanted to raise her eyes to see Dino's face, and it was at this moment that Suzuna realized that her neck was no longer in control.

"..."

The call of "Dino-kun" stuck in Suzuna's throat, and soon disappeared completely.Suzuna couldn't remember why she wanted to call out.

"Suzuna,"

The only thing Suzuna remembers is that the voice calling her is still so tender.

"Suzuna—"

And in that tender voice, Suzuna finally understood the feeling that she had never seriously discerned.

(That is……)

what is it then?

Suzuna forgot.Then, Suzuna completely forgot about the fact that she once understood a certain emotion.

"Because, if Suzuna wants to go back, she can definitely go back. Therefore,"

After changing clothes for the doll-like Suzuna, he used a wheelchair to push the costumed Suzuna into the garden, picked a blooming pink rose and inserted it into Suzuna's temple, Dino stared at Suzuna and smiled.

"Forget about 'going back', Suzuna."

"..."

Suzuna still sat quietly.Dino wasn't sure she heard his voice, either.

Although, hearing Dino's voice doesn't mean anything to Suzuna now.Even if her thinking ability was taken away by drugs and she still has intelligence, she can't understand anything.

From the conclusion, this is not the product of Dino's impulse.Naturally, Dino didn't regret turning Suzuna into this look which was not much different from a doll.

A gust of wind blows, and the dewy roses emit a more intense sweet smell.There are also a few petals blown up by the wind together with the dew on the petals.

"However, now you have even forgotten what 'going back' is, right? Suzuna."

Touching Suzuna's cheek nostalgicly, he looked at Suzuna as if he was looking for his figure in the lake-like green eyes, but Dino couldn't find the things that once made him feel in Suzuna's eyes. The light of a violently beating heart.

Dino smiled slightly.

"Yeah... I always forget."

"There is no 'Hojo Suzuna' in this world anymore."

Leaning, Dino took the hand of the girl who was once called "Hojo Suzuna".As devout as a believer kissing his own god, Dino chuckled as he kissed the girl's soft fingers.

"However, this kind of thing is not important anymore."

The pain experienced in the past, the sorrow experienced in the past.

The resentment of the past, the regret of the past.

The feelings I had in the past, the hopes I had in the past.

Everything is not important anymore.

No need to worry about losing, no need to pray for miracles.

No more restlessness, no more fear.

Don't have to be tortured anymore.

"because of U.S,"

"'Live happily ever after'."