The accident in my life is only you

Another Saturday, Yanzhi and I finished distributing leaflets in the shopping mall. As night fell, we bid farewell to the foreman and waited at the bus station for the bus to our respective schools. We waited for a long time, but no bus came.

In this world, many things always have no laws. The more you wait for it, the more late it will appear, grinding your patience.

Yan Zhi took out her phone, looked at the time on it, turned her head and said to me, "It's already 06:30, why the car hasn't arrived yet, Lin Ying, are you hungry?"

My stomach was already hungry, and I was exhausted after standing all afternoon.

"Why am I not hungry? I'm so hungry. My car didn't come. We are really brothers in need. But the food around here is not delicious, it's not as good as the cafeteria at my school."

Yan Zhi's eyes lit up, as if thinking of something, he grabbed my arm and said, "Lin Ying, why don't we have dinner together at night, I haven't had dinner alone with you yet?"

My appetite was lit up by her eyes, "Then what shall we eat?"

"Then let me take you to eat near our school. There is a new snack bar recently opened there. It's very good. Would you like to try it?"

I hesitated, "But I went to your school, and I will have to drive for another hour to go back to my school. I don't want to go?"

Yan Zhi: "Oh, then you can go to my school to sleep well at night, anyway, we will come tomorrow."

I started to waver, "It's not that good, there are other people in your dormitory."

"Aren't you really going to try it? The taste is really super good, aren't you hungry?" Yan Zhi further tempted me.

"Then... alright." I agreed involuntarily, my remaining rationality was overwhelmed by my appetite.

But in fact, maybe more is that I don't want to go to Xiaoya's place tonight. If I leave with Yan Zhi, I will have an excuse to perfuse myself. It is because I have no skills and I didn't go to Xiaoya, not because I avoided that corner. Everywhere will bring me memories.

Not long after I promised, the bus to Yanzhi School soon drove in front of us.

Yan Zhi took my reluctant arm and dragged me onto the bus.

The bus moved forward slowly, and then the driver turned off the lights in the car, and the light from the window flew in, flickering as the car moved forward, as if sitting in a movie theater watching a movie, watching other people's stories ebb and flow In the dark, my mood slowly became calm.

The street lamps on both sides of the road cast warm yellow light, illuminating the whole road, looking from a distance, it looks like a beautiful feast.

The bus soon arrived near Yanzhi School, and we got off the bus side by side, seeing a completely unfamiliar environment.

I followed Yan Zhi and walked in the direction of the bus for about 5 minutes, and there was a restaurant at the corner. Under Yan Zhi's guidance, we sat face to face in one of the snack bars.

I ordered a few signature dishes in the store, and they tasted delicious, completely different from the appearance of the store.

The dishes on the table wafted tempting smells, challenging our already defeated will little by little. We picked up the chopsticks and spoons on the table, smiled at each other, as if we were about to join a battle, and robbed all the dishes in front of us regardless of our image .

After dinner, the night was even darker. Yan Zhi took me through several alleys, climbed a large step along the foot of the mountain, and finally walked to the gate of her school.

The school is built on the mountain, like the martial arts school in ancient times. It is built on the mountainside, like an old man who has read poetry and books, and has the demeanor of a century-old school.

There was only one Mr. Security at the door, looking down at the book in his hand.

Yan Zhi hung her school badge on my chest, letting me walk in the school gate leisurely.

Then she walked past calmly and greeted Mr. Security. He didn't notice anything unusual at all, so he was no doubt there.

We walked a certain distance in a regular manner, and finally left the security room at the door far behind.

Yan Zhi turned around and looked behind him, making sure that Mr. Security was not chasing him, and then stretched out his hands, palms facing outwards, and gave me a high-five with both hands, and said YES cheerfully, like a child who just succeeded in a prank, winked at me excitedly I rolled my eyes.

After the laughter, we pretended to be calm and walked towards her dormitory, with a well-behaved appearance.

There were also eight students living in her dormitory. When we arrived, the other seven were already in the dormitory.

I greeted them, and then Yanzhi took me to wash up. After washing, it was past nine o'clock in the evening, and her roommates had already packed up and were lying on the bed doing their own things.

Compared with my roommates in the dormitory, it is very different. We usually go to sleep one after another at eleven o'clock in the evening, and the rest time is not so early.

Yan Zhi yawned, and pulled me up to her bed. She lay down along the edge of the bed, with her back to me, and I lay on the inside with her back to her. We were each covered in a blanket, and gradually fell asleep. , each licking their own memories.

I rarely sleep in the same bed with people I don't know well. Yan Zhi is the third person besides Yang Han and Liu Shu. I feel a little uncomfortable, my back is slightly tense and stiff.

Yan Zhi didn't speak or move for a long time. I thought maybe he had fallen asleep, and his nervous heart slowly relaxed.

Maybe it's because I'm not used to going to bed so early, my mind is still clear and clear, and the thoughts of memory are stirring and rolling in the past.

With my eyes closed, the image of lying with Liu Shu slowly emerged in my mind. Her expression, tone of voice, and starry eyes when she was talking to me became more and more obvious.

His fingers unconsciously grabbed the blanket on his body, getting tighter and tighter, feeling that his nails had already touched the palm of his hand, and seemed to sink into the skin just a little bit.

"Lin Ying, do you feel uncomfortable lying down?"

"Ah, that, what did you say?"

Yan Zhi's voice suddenly entered my thoughts that had drifted away, I opened my eyes suddenly, my heart skipped a beat, I almost forgot that it was Yan Zhi lying next to me.

And all the extravagant hopes in his mind just now seemed to be discovered by someone, his body froze, and he almost broke out in cold sweat.

I lay down on my back and turned to look at her, only to find that she had already turned her body and looked at my back, with doubts in her eyes.

I twitched the corners of my mouth, pretended to be nonchalant and said, "What did you just say, I was about to fall asleep, and I didn't hear it."

"You didn't fall asleep, did you? I thought you fell asleep and had nightmares. The quilt was pulled so tightly. I won't snatch yours. I also have some." Yan Zhi teased.

"No, I was thinking about something just now, and then I was interrupted by you, and I can't remember now." I continued to smile calmly.

Yan Zhi didn't say anything more, she still turned around, with her back to me.

She is always so understanding and knows just the right time to stop asking.

We turned our backs to each other, without saying anything, and each fell asleep.

In my dream, I once again dreamed of Liu Shu, she was standing in the corridor of the liberal arts class laughing with her classmates.

I walked from a distance, holding a few exercise books in my arms, and approached her step by step. She didn't look at me, and was still joking with her classmates.

I am getting closer and closer, a few steps away, I think as long as she holds me, I will stop.

Or turn around and call my name, I will not leave, waiting for the answer she has been waiting for several times.

But she didn't, didn't even look at me, I slowed down, approached little by little, and then, passing by, she didn't say a word.

A boundless sense of loss came over my face, and there was a void in my heart, as if the beating heart inside had been dug out, leaving a hole for ventilation.

This scene is so similar to the encounter at the entrance of the laboratory in the second year of high school. That time, I realized that my expectations for Liu Shu exceeded my original expectations, but I was disappointed, but I just annoyed myself. I didn't struggle and chose to forget.

But this time, I almost cried out, but in my dream, I wailed as much as I could, but still had no sound.

It was extremely uncomfortable to hold my breath in one breath, and I woke up immediately after holding it in. I opened my eyes and looked at the wall in front of me. A sense of loneliness slowly filled my heart, my eyes were dry, but no tears flowed.

It was already bright outside, and the other roommates in Yanzhi's dormitory had already gotten up and were doing their own things. The clock on the wall showed that the time was 7:[-] am.

I stiffened my back, closed my eyes, and pretended that I was still asleep, and everything in the dream was so clear just now.

I was awake and fantasizing about the nightmare just now, and with my eyes closed, I was manipulating everything in my mind to start over from scratch.

I arranged for Liu Shu to stand in that corridor again, facing my direction.

I slowly approached her from the stairs, and I knew she would stand there waiting for me, just like the old days, I turned the corner and walked out, and she showed a bright smile like every time before.

I got closer and walked to her side. My script manipulated Liu Shu to stretch out her arm, grab the corner of my clothes, and said softly, "Don't go, I have something to tell you."

I stopped as expected, followed the rehearsed plot in my mind, turned around and looked back at Liu Shu, her eyes were clear and bright, and she said softly: "Yingying, I like you."

I opened my eyes, looked at the white wall in front of me, and smiled stupidly, as if everything I imagined in my mind just now was a dream last night.

I don't know that I am deceiving myself and others, and who doesn't understand those great principles, but when I really experience it personally, it is so difficult to move forward, and it is so difficult to get out of the body.

It is better for her to love and be happy in my dream than to be tortured by each other in reality.

The author has something to say: Thank you for watching.

Note: The plot at the door of the laboratory is in chapters 17-18.