Han Yu's Zhang San

"Why do you want to change...even if it's fake...can't you just keep lying to me? Why...you want to do this..."

"Cowardly! The world is cruel, what's the use of you escaping like this?!" Zhang San immediately reprimanded Quan Zhilong when he heard Quan Zhilong's words, and couldn't see the man's gesture.

Quan Zhilong suddenly looked up at Zhang San, as if he was hit by her cowardice.Quan Zhilong has always been proud. Cowardice is a word that does not exist in his dictionary. Now that someone he loves says that, I am afraid that he will not be happy personally.Yes, love, Quan Zhilong can't lie to himself, he still loves Zhang San at this moment, he always feels sad.It's a pity that the little bastard Zhang San doesn't sympathize with him at all, and Bao Buqi even laughs at him.

Since love...why break up?Quan Zhilong asked himself, could he really not accept Zhang San like this?Obviously, he was still chasing the woman who betrayed him in the basement of his home, and wanted to kill her. Zhang San's fear of him at that time was not fake, right?

"At that time... When you first came, weren't you afraid of me? Why, why are you not afraid at all now?" Quan Zhilong still couldn't hold back, and asked what was in his heart.

"For me at that time, survival was the first priority, and in a civilized society, pretending to be a weak and inconspicuous character was the safest way to survive. And the killing intent you showed at that time was not a joke When I just arrived in a strange place, a man threatened my life with a knife, and according to my observation, the other party was not joking, you said it was you in this situation, what would you do?" Zhang □ □Ask Quan Zhilong, but Quan Zhilong is speechless and doesn't know how to answer.

Quan Zhilong himself was also thinking, why did he, who was so gloomy back then, become like this now?Shouldn't he be the same as in the past, destroy it if he can't get it?Why is he sad now, but can't think of any destruction at all?Because of Zhang San's pretended kindness and warmth?Why did he still not feel any sense of betrayal knowing her other side?Just how magical is the disguised kindness and warmth?

"Okay, let me ask you again...at that time...you...what you said after my accident...are you telling the truth! Are...serious?" Quan Zhilong summoned up his courage and asked The question that I have always wanted to ask came out.

But Zhang San didn't really want to answer. She didn't like to lie. Whether her tricks or conspiracy, they were all based on the truth.This is also the reason why she likes Yangmou. Conspiracy is to let others fall into the trap without knowing it, and Yangmou is to let him know that it is a trap and he is willing to fall into it.It's hard to say which one is more despicable, but at least the second one saves Zhang San from being a liar like her father. "...I never lie..." Zhang San told the truth, she never lied, she just chose to hide some truth occasionally.

A sentence that was not a big deal at first made Quan Zhilong feel refreshed immediately, as if he had been reborn.

"You didn't lie to me?"

"I never lie... But for you, I broke too many exceptions." Zhang San was right, but it made Quan Zhilong's heart hang up again.What Zhang San said was the truth, because Quan Zhilong told a lot of lies, such as her background, such as her life experience.Quan Zhilong was powerless to refute, he knew those lies caused by him, and she was telling the truth, but he was a little inexplicably happy in his heart, after all, he was still special to her.

"People always say that if you love someone, you must love all of him. Love is too heavy, and it is another person's life to bear. I always feel that I am a good person, let me bear the burden I always feel that I can't do it when I think about another person's life." Zhang San looked at Quan Zhilong, and finally expressed his thoughts all the time, Quan Zhilong felt that Zhang San was saying something important to him.He also knew that after hearing this, Zhang San would formally say goodbye to him, but being able to hear Zhang San's sincere words would allow him to better understand Zhang San's temptation. Let him give up nonsense.He wanted to see, to see what the real Zhang San looked like, to see how different Zhang San was from the image in his heart.

"I have always felt that neither parents, children, nor relatives and friends need to bear the burden of another person's life. Only the unique existence of a lover requires one person to bear the burden of another life. After all, children grow up It will be easier to separate from parents, relatives and friends. Only love, life and death, regardless of honor or disgrace. I think this feeling is too heavy for me. Especially after experiencing a love, I This feeling is getting stronger and stronger, so I haven’t been able to fall in love like all normal people for a long time. Living alone and living in my own world makes me feel relaxed. I have always been like this. The only person who cares is myself That's all. I always thought that the one you fell in love with might just be the 'Zhang San' in your heart."

Listening to Zhang San analyzing his mood word by word, Quan Zhilong was fascinated by it. He had never realized that people's thoughts can be so different, yet they are so the same.Quan Zhilong felt that he was hopeless, and he actually agreed with Zhang San's statement from the bottom of his heart. It is really a heavy responsibility to bear another person's life.Quan Zhilong suddenly felt that not only had he never understood Zhang San well, but he had also never understood himself.Why do you think Zhang San's words are right?Was he brainwashed by Zhang San?

"No..." The mouth is faster than the brain, and Quan Zhilong has already acted before he can figure out what he is thinking, but just as Zhang San expected, she just shook her head and signaled to Quan Zhilong Go on. "If you say that what I love is only your image of 'Zhang San' in my mind, then after your image is shattered, I should lose the feeling of loving you, but I don't. I still feel that love You, seeing you want to hug you, kiss you, want... I am very sad, very sad, but I don't think your behavior is betrayal, what I am sad is that you never believe I... didn't tell me the truth until the end. Yeah... That's right... Compared to the so-called betrayal, I'm sad that you don't trust me. You don't trust me because I have no place in your heart , that's what makes me sad the most. Yes...that's it!"

Regarding Quan Zhilong's words, Zhang San's face became more and more confused. On the contrary, Quan Zhilong became more and more determined.

"Eh...?" Zhang San didn't understand why things didn't go in the direction she expected. "No...you shouldn't..."

"There is nothing that should or shouldn't be!" Quan Zhilong interrupted Zhang San's words. "I admit that I don't know you very well, so after knowing the other side of you, I can't accept it. However, this is also very good, so that I can really know my heart. I asked myself, should I give up because of this? I love you, I was very sure at the beginning, no matter what I say, I will leave you!"

"Then leave..." Zhang San echoed in a low voice, she always felt that the next words would not be what she wanted to hear.

"Listen to me! I was very firm at the beginning, and I must separate from you. But this firmness immediately fell apart after seeing you in person. Maybe I will really forget you if I haven't seen you for ten or eight years , but as long as I see you, the memory about you in my mind will be activated immediately. It's like being engraved in my mind, and I can't delete it. I think, if I don't see you in my life It will be the same for you and me, but life may be a little more difficult. After all, people can survive no matter how seriously injured they are. But the feeling that something is missing will be with you forever. I don’t want to Let me become like that, especially after seeing you, I am even more afraid. After leaving you, I will live a life that is neither salty nor dull. Maybe you will say, I think too much, but I hold the heart that is separated from you In the past few days of thinking about living, I just feel that the world seems to be slowly fading. Should I go to the bar or go to the bar, should I go to play or go to play, but my face is smiling and making trouble, but my heart is empty and cold. You Look, I'm still able to move on without you, it's just...sad...really...sad."

"I think, I should also be honest, be honest, and tell you my true feelings. You said that the most important thing in a relationship is honesty, and I will try my best to do it. You said that you are afraid of burdening another person's life, it's okay Yes... I will also try to take care of your life, and the two of you can bear each other's burdens, and it will probably reduce a lot of weight..."

Looking at Quan Zhilong who confessed his heart to her so seriously, Zhang San was completely confused. She could play conspiracy, conspiracy and love with others.But when someone opened her heart so wide and allowed her to hurt, she was deterred instead, she knew how painful it was.

"...You're not...No...It's not right...It's not right! It shouldn't be..." Zhang San could only repeat these few words in a daze. Quan Zhilong was not in a hurry, he also It's not that he's not anxious, it's just that he opened his heart in front of Zhang San, and he has exhausted all his courage. Now he has no time to care about others, and is very nervous.

"I...would you...let me think again?"

"...Did you run away as soon as you thought about it?"

"No, how could that be! I promise you I won't run away! I have also received your heart. I need time to think... It's not that I don't believe you... I just... have a lot of concerns ...Maybe it's my nature, I can't help it...Emotional...I appreciate your affection for me, even though I don't know why you love me so much. I have always been cautious about what I don't know. I hope you can give me time, don't restrict my freedom, and allow me to think seriously in a place I am familiar with."

"A familiar place? China?"

"Yes." Zhang San nodded.

Quan Zhilong bit his lower lip, and finally agreed. Even though his heart was not comfortable being pinched by others, he still agreed to Zhang San's proposal.