silent in the black lake

my name is noel

Opening the heavy curtains, the sun immediately rushed into my eyes, which made me shed tears instantly, but I did not close my eyes because of this, but tried to open them wide

There's no particular reason, I just want to see what's out there

Wipe away the tears that blurred my vision, through the glass I saw the bright sunshine outside and a well-organized garden. There is also a sculpture pool in the garden. The sculpture is an angel with folded hands in prayer, and the sculpture is lifelike.

However, here I am at a high place, and the angel is at a low place. The angel prays in my direction, as if I am a god, which gives me a faint feeling of blasphemy, although I do not believe that there are gods in the world

In fact, this is the bad taste of the owner of this castle, or it is self-righteous arrogance, a kind of arrogant self-comparison

I laughed mockingly, a vampire actually put an angel sculpture in his yard, maybe he would think him a devout believer if he didn’t know

I stopped smiling, because I suddenly felt that this is not funny, every time I open the curtain, I can see this sculpture pool, to be precise, only this sculpture pool

Every time I laugh like this, after a long time, I will feel dull, even meaningless, and it will not really bring any substantial harm to the owner of the castle

If ridicule can cause substantial harm, let me watch this angel statue mocking me all the time

I smashed the window glass hard, and the fresh air outside came rushing towards me. I breathed greedily, but the air was fresh at that moment, and after a few seconds, the air would blend with the original air in the room. will be fresh again

I know this truth very well, but I can't help but miss this freshness, so I smashed the other glasses one by one

A well-shaped black frame is left in a good window

The material of the black frame looks like a metal, but I know it is a very hard black gemstone. The reason I know it is hard is because I smashed it with all the movable things in this room three years ago. it, scratch it, cut it

Iron, wood, copper, gold, porcelain, diamonds, I have tried all the materials in this room, and finally I have to admit that it is really indestructible

Thanks to it, I was imprisoned in this magnificent room for three years

I reached out and grabbed the cross in the center of the black frame, completely ignoring the remaining glass shards on it, I squeezed the cold and hard black frame with all my strength, for a moment I felt lucky, thinking that the next moment the black frame would be torn apart, I would You can jump out of this golden cage

But that was just a momentary thought, even though this momentary thought lasted for three years, but I still know it can last for a long time, maybe the end is death

The smell of blood rushes into my nose as always, the smell that makes me sick comes from my hands, the pain from the palms and backs of my hands, I have long been used to it

I let go of my numb hand. I don’t know if the numbness comes from my heart or the physical reaction caused by excessive pain, but the numbness feels very bad, like thousands of bugs are gnawing, and it’s just painful if I don’t move. The heart twitches, and when they move, they run back and forth, biting everywhere, and it only hurts so much that they can't breathe

Hanging your hands down is the best choice, after all, no one likes the feeling of pain, and I am no exception

"Has he eaten today?" A familiar male voice came from outside the gorgeous gate. Although it was a greeting and caring, his tone was cold and emotionless. I knew that this was the one who imprisoned me, the owner of this castle, a vampire

The man from whom my memory began three years ago

"No" replied a cold female voice, this is the maid in charge of taking care of my daily life, but I know very well that she is just a watcher

Three years ago, I broke down and gave up all my dignity and begged her, begged her to let me go, begged her to open the gorgeous door of this golden cage, but she just pushed me away expressionlessly, turned around and locked the door, and put the Reported to the vampire

The result was naturally the endless ridicule and humiliation of the vampire, as well as the second assault that broke me the most.

There was a gust of cool wind behind me, and I knew the door had opened, and I subconsciously inhaled the fresh air that came with the wind into my body, and the pain subsided a little.

I don't want to look back, I don't want to see that delicate face, and I don't want to see those breathtaking deep black eyes, but I'm also ready to face this face and those black eyes

Even though I don't want to, I know it's not up to me, I just have this self-deception and self-knowledge

"Break the window again to pretend to be pitiful?" A cold voice came from behind with a serious smile. I guess he must be mocking now, followed by the pain caused by the violent pulling of the scalp

The mocking face came into view, but it was a bit different than what I thought, because it was upside down, which made me a little bit happy

I didn't want to answer, and I didn't know what to answer. I once argued, but the result was only more humiliation. Even when I was lucky that my defense was successful, what I got was nothing more than an unacceptable violation.

Since this is the case, there is nothing to answer, so in the face of such words, I learned not to think

The time of silence made his deep black eyes gather irritability, he stared at me viciously, and whispered for a long time: "Do you want to die if you don't eat?"

When he said this, the unknown emotion that touched my heart flashed again in his eyes. In the past three years, I have seen this emotion countless times, but every time it touched my heart, and even this touch became more and more intense. don't even know why

All of a sudden, the irritability in his eyes disappeared, and although he was still staring at me, his deep eyes were extremely calm, "Die, don't even think about it," he said.

It was clearly a threat, but what he said was very calm but turned into a description. It sounded like he was trying to persuade me not to think about death. I began to appreciate my optimism, and I could imagine other meanings when I threatened.

After a long time, he smiled evilly again, with mockery on his face, stared at me and said: "If you don't want to eat, then I will inject you with a needle. It doesn't matter if you want to eat or not, but your body and blood are mine. Yes, you want to destroy it, it's impossible"

"You really want me to eat, don't you?" I looked directly at him, and hooked the corners of my mouth. I don't know if my smile is as evil as his, but I think my eyes should be full of ridicule

"Okay, but I have a request." I paused intentionally and looked at his face

He stared at me coldly for a while, raised his eyebrows, and didn't speak, as if acquiescing to me to continue talking

"I want a silver dagger" I said leisurely

He chuckled lightly, with a mocking look on his face, but the hand that was grabbing my hair suddenly pulled down hard. The unexpected move made me hear a crisp bone sound from my neck, and my body instantly It tensed up, but he grabbed my jaw with his other hand, and his five fingers kept tightening, with great force, I felt like my jaw was about to be crushed

"Why, you want to kill me?" He laughed contemptuously, "How about I separate your head and neck now?"

"Do it" I closed my eyes and relaxed my body

"Open your eyes and look at me" he ordered suddenly, but I could hear his eagerness

With a sneer in my heart, I opened my eyes and looked at him, and said with a sneer: "Threatening to kill me, but reluctant to do it at the same time, you are really useless."

The irritability in his eyes gathered into clusters again, as if bigger and bigger stones were smashed into the black lake in his eyes, the calm lake surface began to ripple, and then there were huge waves

He yanked my hair and pulled me backwards, I stumbled and tripped on the ground, he didn't stop, he still dragged me

Fortunately, a thick blanket was laid on the ground, and it didn't hurt to fall or drag. I simply collapsed on the ground and let him drag me forward.

As I expected, he dragged me to the bed and without hesitation began to violently assault

In the past three years, in the face of such violations, I have changed from the initial collapse to numbness and habit, and my attitude has also changed from unacceptable to indifferent

Once the pain in the body is too much to eliminate, more or less, in fact, it makes no difference

However, this feeling of being violated really made me feel ashamed and unforgettable, but what broke my heart even more at the beginning was the orders he kept giving me during the process

That order always makes me feel ashamed and my dignity is being trampled on, but the more this is the case, the happier he is, and the more he orders me with joy, and I always follow involuntarily

I hate myself for not being able to control myself, and I try to resist this kind of order, but in the end, all my thoughts and plans will always be swallowed up by his dark eyes that can't see the end

"Don't bite your lip, scream out" he ordered again, this order is one of the most ordered orders I have ever heard

Listening to myself making that shameful and sloppy voice, I am used to it, I still can't help stretching out my arms to cover my eyelids, I know this is an act of self-inflicted robbery, but if I don't do this, there will probably be tears in my hot eye sockets. Hot things rushed out uncontrollably

I don't want it gushing out, this is probably my last stubbornness for the sake of dignity

The wrist was caught suddenly, and the arm was pulled off inexplicably. I closed my eyes even harder, because I could guess that he must be staring at me at this moment

"Noel, look at me" he said, his tone was rare gentle, but his actions were still rough and cruel

Looking at me, this is an order, I slowly opened my eyes uncontrollably, I saw his joyful face, and the fleeting unknown emotion in his black eyes

My heart was touched again, I hated my heart that was easily moved, but I couldn't move my eyes from looking at him

He looked at me, seemed a little overjoyed, stretched out his hand to caress my face, his hand was trembling, but the movements he made were bigger, more rapid and more ruthless

The feeling his movements brought to me made me indescribably in pain, trembling physically and mentally, but the indescribable emotion that could not be hidden in his eyes always made me forget the pain and fell into the world that devoured everything. in the dark

"Noel, Noel..." He stared into my eyes and kept calling

In his deep eyes, I saw a pair of purple eyes, but I couldn't see them clearly. At one time, these purple eyes would give me a clear and peaceful feeling, and at other times, they would make me feel diffuse. I began to doubt the reality of these purple eyes sex, and began to wonder whether the pair of deep eyes in front of him could give people hallucinations besides devouring

"Noel" he was still calling, and suddenly he laughed, it was a pure and bright smile like a child, but at the end of this smile, the unknown emotion appeared in his eyes again, but this time the emotion was not Fleeting, but staying in his black eyes

He stared at me with eyes full of emotion, and I actually held my breath to look at him. There was no sound of breathing, and the sound of my heartbeat became clearly visible, echoing rapidly in my chest.

He suddenly fell to my heart, and after a long time, he quietly ordered: "Don't leave me for other people"

Although what he said was an order, it seemed to me that he was begging: don't abandon me for others

I was a little angry at my absurd thoughts. This thought seemed to excuse him. This thought made him as pitiful as an abandoned dog. This thought made me forget for a moment the shame and pain I had suffered during the three years of imprisonment.

He straightened his body and continued to stare at me, but suddenly all the emotions in his eyes disappeared, and the gentle eyes were once again filled with cold darkness. He suddenly raised the corners of his mouth, showing a wicked smile, but this smile Different from the usual evil smile, it actually has a bit of crazy taste

"You should be angry, you should hate me." He said with a smile, then reached out and stroked my heart, and said, "What does it feel like to be pierced into the heart by a silver sword?"

The tone of his words made it hard for me to tell whether he was asking me, curious, or describing

"Do you really want to pierce my heart with a silver sword?" His eyes suddenly turned dark, and the movement that stopped a little bit continued roughly again. This time he used a lot of force and a very fast speed. I tense up uncontrollably

A strange feeling rushed to the top of my head instantly, and my brain went blank at this moment, the pain disappeared suddenly, making me feel light and light

"I said, don't cry." He suddenly wiped the corners of my eyes with his fingers vigorously angrily.

"I didn't cry" I defended while breathing heavily, I really didn't cry, it was just a physiological reaction

But he slapped me hard involuntarily, which made me dizzy, and I could only hear him say coldly in my buzzing ears: "As a servant, you dare to talk back!"

I was suddenly angry, turned around and stared at him, and yelled through gritted teeth: "I said I didn't cry, crying in front of you, a vampire, is the biggest shame, understand, I won't take it on myself shame"

He squinted his eyes, his face was gloomy, but the corners of his mouth were so subtle that I couldn't tell whether he was angry or happy

I'm a little surprised that he could be happy

He suddenly laughed, and there was a familiar mockery in his smile, "It's not your greatest shame to be treated as a toy by a vampire like me. I'm really surprised. But from this point of view, I'm too gentle with you."

Without waiting for me to refute, he turned over me involuntarily.

pain strikes again

I knew he was trying to humiliate me, but I still trembled uncontrollably, whether the trembling came from the shame in my heart or the sharp pain in my body, I couldn't tell myself

"Does this make you feel better?" He suddenly leaned on my back and asked with a chuckle, as if he didn't expect me to answer, he continued on his own: "Actually, you like me treating you like this, don't you?"

"...No, ah!" I just wanted to answer no, but he seemed to have seized the opportunity, and took advantage of the moment I opened my mouth, to attack suddenly and violently, which immediately made me scream out uncontrollably

"I really should give you a mirror so that you can appreciate your own appearance." He said with a smile, "Are you qualified to say no?"

"Just do what you want, so much nonsense" I growled, under his attack, I could feel the softness and strangeness of my body, this feeling of not being able to control myself not only shamed me but also made me a little sad

He laughed ferociously, very loudly, the laughter was very harsh and sarcastic, it hit my eardrums and crashed into my mind

I was in a state of confusion, but he suddenly ordered: "Call out!"

My clenched teeth suddenly opened, and voices that I couldn't even imagine rushed out of my throat. I couldn't stop it. Under this strong humiliation, I could only tremble.

I don’t know how long it has passed, it’s been so long that I feel like 1 years have passed, I’m already exhausted, my whole body is sweaty and weak, but he is still in high spirits and aggressive, in the end I can only let him go He fiddles around, plays around

"Noel," he whispered again.

After a long time, he said coldly again: "You don't want to die, don't even try to kill me, let alone escape, it's impossible."

"It can't be up to you." I murmured this sentence with difficulty, I didn't want to see him smile smugly, and I didn't want him to think he could control everything

"Everything about you now is up to me," he said as he turned me over, pinched my jaw, and stared into my eyes again. The inexplicable emotion appeared in his black eyes again, but This time, this emotion has been mixed with new emotions. So many emotions are intertwined that I can't see clearly in his eyes.

"If you dare to leave me for someone else again, I will still pierce your heart." He suddenly bit my lips

The kiss that I have never had in three years makes me instantly sluggish, this soft and tender feeling makes me melt, I am a little unbelievable, a little confused, and a little touched

However, the next moment I felt as if I had fallen into an ice cellar, because when his lips parted, he suddenly called clearly: "Aonor"