broken sun

Qi Nian's mind was buzzing for a moment, and then he looked at the ceiling with blindfolded eyes. When Gu Saming stopped him and pushed him back to the bed again, he didn't feel anything superfluous. It was just that all his previous excitement, excitement, anxiety and some so-called yearning came together. Was pumped clean.

In fact, the bus journey of several hours during the day is not easy for Qi Nian who has never traveled far. Although he has already slept on the bus, the fatigue under the overload of the body still cannot be eliminated.

As the "spiritual opium" that kept Qi Nian awake and unable to fall asleep disappeared, he felt his eyelids getting heavier and heavier, and fell asleep in a daze, not caring that after Gu Saming got up and covered him with the quilt, Where did you move your feet?

Qi Nian is like a fish that is dehydrated after being washed ashore by the waves, and has no time to truly feel the embarrassment and sadness.

Not a bit of death throes.

Gu Saming silently sat on the desk facing the end of the bed, looking at the bulging black shadow on the bed on the right, and only slowly got up after confirming that Qi Nian was asleep.

The position of Qi Nian's head didn't change at all from just now, and the quilt just covered his mouth and nose just like that, and it rose and fell slightly with his breath and breath.

Gu Saming stretched out his hand and gently pushed down the quilt for Qi Nian, so that his face was exposed. Qi Nian closed his eyes and fell asleep undefended, covered by long and dense eyelashes, and then closed his lower lips tightly, revealing Weary and vulnerable.

Telling the story for a long time didn't make people fall asleep, just pushing people casually was effective.

I don't know what kind of Qi Nian he will face when he wakes up tomorrow.

No matter what it looks like, Gu Saming has to accept it completely.

Because of all Qi Nian's reactions to him so far, including the outrageous and ridiculous behavior just now, Gu Saming can't blame him, and he doesn't even have the right to be angry.

His younger brother is too simple, because of lack of love, he preconceivedly regards his elder brother as the most special one, but in fact he doesn't even know what he likes, and he may not even know what it is to like his own elder brother at all.

But Gu Saming had to know.

Gu Saming's liking for Qi Nian began with family affection, but it has nothing to do with Qi Nian being his younger brother, otherwise Gu Saming wouldn't need to self-criticize for his cold treatment at the beginning.He doesn't have to, should be nice to his "brother".

In the end, it was still his soft heart towards his younger brother, allowing people to approach him. It was the crux of his anxiety. He couldn't bear to see Qi Nian hurt and sad, and it was also because he couldn't accept Qi Nian's defensiveness and alienation from him.

It doesn't matter that Qi Nian is his own younger brother and the blood relationship between them.

From Gu Saming's return to Qi's house until now, what Gu Saming hated the most was the so-called blood relationship that everyone must submit to.

——Its existence not only has the most warm and great side, but also the most brutal and violent side.

Even Gu Saming couldn't escape, he was emphatically emphasizing this with himself and Qi Nian.

He couldn't pass his own test, nor could he watch Qi Nian go on a path that he would regret and complain one day.

The weather forecast in Linshi shows that the recent days will be sunny and sunny. If you look out of the window at this time, you will definitely see the bright stars in the sky.

But all kinds of monotonous and quiet shadows can be seen in the room.

Time passed silently, and Qi Nian only started to move a little when he entered the deep sleep stage, tilted his head, and then frowned his eyebrows.

It's sad to fall asleep, Gu Saming raised his hand to touch Qi Nian's brow bone.

His younger brother is so stupid and naive, he doesn't realize what kind of person his favorite brother is.

His brother is actually cold-blooded and ruthless, not only selfish but also arbitrary, the best at ignoring and rejecting, always doing things that hurt others in a high-sounding manner, difficult to empathize with others, and rarely repents.

"Don't like my brother anymore," Gu Saming's tone was the same as when he told the story before, but his voice was lower, as if he dared not disturb the night and sleepy people, "Brother will like you too."

He slowly looked at the turned up sleeve of Qi Nian's hand, and said, "This is a secret, don't tell Qi Nian."

Tang Xi stood at the door of the hotel in the morning counting the number of people, and counted them one by one. After counting the expressionless Qi Nian, when it was Gu Saming's last turn, the teacher watching from the side joked to Gu Saming, "Why didn't you sleep well? "

Tang Xi paid attention twice when she heard it. She definitely wouldn't believe that Gu Saming was in a bad state of mind because of nervousness or studying all night. What's more, no matter how bad Gu Saming was in a bad state of mind, he still looked calm, without any feeling of influence at all.

"But sleeping in a hotel is really better than staying at home. I'm so used to it. I want to go home as soon as possible after the exam today." After Tang Xi finished speaking, the students in twos and threes joined in the discussion.

Hearing this, Qi Nian turned to look at Gu Saming, but was speechless for a while, the words he wanted to ask were still stuck in his throat, so Gu Saming pushed his shoulders and walked forward.

"Get in the car."

Dazed, Qi Nian followed into the car, still sitting by the window, and Gu Saming sat next to him.

After everyone was seated, Zhu Changlin stood in front and began to emphasize the precautions for the last time, including safety issues and discipline in the examination room, and the need to take good documents and stationery, etc.

Because the same words have been repeated so many times that everyone's ears are numb, and they don't even care about wasting time on it.

Qi Nian was also not listening, nor was he discussing or thinking about math problems like other people, only the scenes from last night were played back in front of his eyes over and over again like a cassette.

After waking up, the unspeakable dull pain in the heart wrapped in the chest cavity slowly hits, and it becomes a gradually clear and clear experience.

It was because he was too dull, and he couldn't understand some simple things no matter how he thought about them.

Why was Gu Saming not so willing to hold him when he was going to the station, why did he ask him to call his brother over and over again, why did he tell him not to trust him so much, Qi Nian was so clumsy that he was pushed away and refused, and after waking up, Suddenly understand.

—— Gu Saming knows everything, but Qi Nian thinks that no one knows, it's just deception.

Gu Saming was really kind to him, and it was because he was his younger brother that he never exposed him.

It's all Qi Nian's own fault for falling into this more embarrassing situation.

It wasn't enough for him to be jealous of Gu Saming, he almost blocked the love letter sent to Gu Saming by others, he clearly knew that Gu Saming had no other intentions, so it shouldn't be like that, so he shamelessly joined in at the last moment.

If Qi Nian wanted to take revenge on his brother, he would take revenge. If he wanted his brother to value him and like him, he wanted it. He was always the one making demands with Gu Saming, never caring whether Gu Saming was willing or not.

He remembered yesterday that Gu Saming asked him if he liked to pretend to be pitiful, how could he have the face to deny it?

Gu Saming leaned on the soft back of the seat and squinted his eyes for a while, then turned his head to look at Qi Nian, he was taken aback for a moment, and hurriedly lowered/// asked: "What's wrong?"

Qi Nian leaned against the car window, propped his elbows on it, his shoulders trembled slightly, and covered his small face tightly with his hands, covering his cheeks from the side.

Seeing that Qi Nian refused to talk to him, Gu Saming thought about it for a long time, put his hands on his back, and said: "I'm going to take the exam later, I didn't sleep well last night to tell you a story, I'll sleep for a while, wait Will you call me when you arrive?"

Qi Nian paused, and then he reacted, slowly let go of his hand and turned around.

Qi Nian's face was covered with thin sweat, the corners of his eyes were slightly red, he didn't cry, he looked sad but not sad, but in the end he just looked at Gu Saming with a puzzled expression.

——This is not better than what Gu Saming expected.

Qi Nian blinked his eyes, and the last trace of sadness was no longer visible, and he quietly squeezed it into his heart to hide it.

He knew that Gu Saming's failure to sleep had nothing to do with telling him stories, but in the end it had something to do with him, and he was the culprit.

Qi Nian lowered his eyes and said yes.

The two days and one night in Linshi passed quickly. On the afternoon of the day after the exam, the group returned to Yuncheng by the same route.

In any case, these two days and one night are rare for Qi Nian, and the feeling is not much different from what he expected at the beginning.

Compared to the other students in the car who were tired but looked relaxed and satisfied, and couldn't wait to go home, Qi Nian thought, if possible, it would be better not to go back.

Qi Nian couldn't open the busted window, so he had no choice but to look at the scenery along the way through the gray glass in a daze.

Suddenly someone leaned over from behind and stretched out a hand to open the car window for him.

Gu Saming's voice also sounded from behind: "Don't poke your head and body out, look inside."

Qi Nian pursed his lips and didn't move. He still didn't know how to face his brother.

Before he was dazed last night, if Qi Nian was ignorant and wanted to recreate the dream into reality, then after realizing today that he is greedy for Gu Saming, every part of his body is screaming, He just likes Gu Saming.

But he still accepts the reality-keeping a distance from his brother who is always good to him.

So can you stop being so nice to him?

Qi Nian changed his mind and mocked himself again—there are so many demands.

The wind made his eyes a little dry, and he wanted to secrete tears to resist.

Qi Nian turned to look at Gu Saming, the few streaks of blood in Gu Saming's long and narrow eyes hadn't disappeared, but it still didn't affect that handsome face, which was completely calm.

Qi Nian shrank his shoulders, Gu Saming's hand was only a second slower, and moved away according to his intention.

"Brother," Qi Nian called him, paused and swallowed, and spoke very softly and slowly, "I see."

I will not do it again.

Stop pushing me away.

From now on, I have to be the younger brother that you don't have to push away.

In the past 16 years, Qi Nian, who has never, never admitted that he has done anything wrong, feels that this time it is his fault.